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Sai Literature => Sai Baba poems => Topic started by: Prasanthi on July 11, 2005, 06:13:48 AM
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Emptiness
Oh! My Lord! My Love!
Talk to me!
I need ur smile
I need ur compassion
I need to talk to u
I need to listen to u
I badly need u my father!
I badly need u.
Be my friend again, my dear lord.
I can't bear this emptiness!
Come Baba, come!
Caress me like my mother.
I want to hug u
I want to cry in ur lap
I want to prostrate before u!
I love u baba, I love u
I don't know whether I love u
than anything in this world
or I love this world more than
anything
but I feel I love u
because I feel empty without u.
Come to me my lord. Come to me.
Yes. I scolded u a lot.
I am angry on u
Deep in my heart I feel u cheated me
of my confidence
But I wonder I still believe u
Show me light
to prove there is delight in store
Baba, I can't live without u!
It is not good on ur part
to let me suffer like this.
Baba, without u, I am nothing.
Please baba, death haunts me
even when I am still alive!
Baba, Satan torches me
come to my rescue
I can't live without u and ur love
Before this satan eats me
take me into ur protection, my lord,
take me into ur protection
It seems u r not near me,
otherwise why I get fear?
It seems u r not looking at me,
otherwise why u keep silent to my pathetic state?
It seems u turned deaf ear
if not, why my woeful cries didn't get ur attention?
Come baba, come to stay with me
swear that u never leave ur child
I may be mischievous at times
I may be indifferent to u
but still don't leave me, my saviour.
Better u beat me than to show a deaf ear
Better u shout at me than to be invisible
Better u kill me than to be silent
Oh! My Lord! My Love!
Talk to me!
I need ur smile
I need ur compassion
I need to talk to u
I need to listen to u
I badly need u my father!
I badly need u.
Be my friend again, my dear lord.
I can't bear this emptiness!
Come Baba, come!
Caress me like my mother.
I want to hug u
I want to cry in ur lap
I want to prostrate before u!
Prasanthi
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Be still my child
And listen to the gentle knocking
that comes from your heart:
Here I am
Om Sai Ram
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I await for that precious moment when baba says 'here I am' from the bottom of my heart. Thank you Mr. Astrid.
Prasanthi
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Sairam,
She is our beloved Sister astrid
Sorry !!
Shammi
Bow to Sri Sai - Raksha Karo Deva !!!
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JAI SAI RAM TO ALL!!!
Prasanthiji you are still awaiting the precious moments? Don't you feel the blessing BABA always showers on this Forum? And for kind information to all on behalf of Astrid is that She is our Beloved Sister not He is.....Astridji can you remove the confusion once for all by some way please?
OM SAI RAM!!!
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Thank you Shammi Ji and Ramesh Ji, for the He-She correction. This gives me the beautiful opportunity to say that you are both dear to me in a special way. I cannot say why, I just feel sincere respect and affection for the both of you.
And never worry Prasanthi Ji, neither about BABA's presence nor about the He-She-confusion. Names are a strange thing and often misleading.
Ramesh Ji, maybe this is the right moment for me to post something about me on "Devotee's Profile" ;-) ...
Sai Ram
Astrid
Restless was my heart till it found rest in THEE
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I am sorry Astridji. Yes. Names are very confusing at times.
Restless was my heart till it found rest in THEE --- good line
Rameshji and Shammiji, thank you for correcting me.
Rameshji, indeed baba is here in this forum. The only thing I feel bad/sad about is I feel very empty without HIM. How do you feel when HE is there right before you and speaks nothing who once gave response to each and every thought of urs?
Prasanthi
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Restless was my heart till it found rest in THEE --- good line
Sai Ram Prasanthi Ji,
the quote is borrowed from St. Augustine, a 4th century Christian Mystic and one of the so called church fathers. I changed it a bit. He actually wrote "Thou hast made us for thyself and our hearts are restless until they find rest in thee". But since my heart really *was* restless and really *has* found rest in BABA, I felt free to correct the quote, so to speak.
You see, all paths lead to the same end [:)]
Om Sai Ram
Astrid
Restless was my heart till it found rest in THEE
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Prashanthi ji,
Sai never stops answering His devotees it we who do not hear Him properly b'coz of our ignorance.
Your mind was so restless that you could not hear what He was trying to say.
Read todays Sai Satcharitra column how you can surrender yourself to Him.
Be positive all the time , it is Maya that hinders our thoughts. Calm down and close your eyes and imagine that you are holding onto Sai's legs and tell Him " Sai, no matter what i will not leave Your legs, talk to me " immedialtely you will find an answer from Him.
Sai help her in hearing You .
Sushma.
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Sushmaji, thanks for ur suggestion. But I never did understand why I couldn't hear Him when I could for all these years. I do talk to HIM daily. Ofcourse the talk will have a series of all emotions. I never felt the same love from HIM. Ok. Let it be. I too will see how far HE will keep HIS words. 'I never leave those who were given to me. I see to that they will get to the destination'. Anyway after going through all the postings of my fellow sai bandhus, I feel I am not as good as a devotee as you all. But somehow my relationship with HIM has been so all through. (A jiddii bachchee sort of). So I always demand HIM. I always look at HIM as my friend rather than as a god. I feel distant if I feel HIM as god. I never felt bad also for I never aspired for salvation. Even it is funny to fight with Him. We can enjoy by the way HE participates in the fight. But when it comes to serious things somehow I couldn't digest. Why should HE shatter my confidence? Why should HE stop talking to me?
Yesterday I was browsing thru the site and asked HIM to get me a mail with some message. It has 'Still u disbelieve me?'. Who disbelieved HIM? Only because I believe HIM, I beg Him to talk to me. Only because I believe HIM my moods change. If HE says 'yes' I feel happy, If HE says 'No', I feel gloomy. If mind is the source of happiness and joy, for me the source is baba. I don't know when I work out my sins and they get washed away to get a response from HIM.
Prasanthi
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OM SAI RAM,
Waqt aur tarik to wo hi mukarar karega ,Prashanti Ji.Jab Ab tak Sath diya hai Baba ne Aapka, to yakinan aage bhi dega.
Imtihan ki ghari hai.I am sure you'll come out with flying colors.
JUST HAVE SHARDDHA AND SABURI.LOTS OF DEVOTEES ARE/HAVE PASSING/PASSED THROUGH TOUGH TIMES.BUT TALK TO A FEW WHO HAVE PASSED THROUGH TOUGH DAYS(LIKE I OFTEN DO)AND THEN WE REALIZE THAT WITHOUT HIS BLESSING IT WOULD HAVE BEEN DIFFICULT FOR US TO TAKE LIFE HEAD ON.
BABA IS GREAT.WE FIGHT WITH HIM HE DOES NOT RETALIATE,RATHER HE SMILES AND SAYS
I AM WITH YOU.
JAI SAI RAM,
SANJIV
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Thank you san2004 ji (I am sorry. I don't know ur full name).
I know baba is there. When I have so many rich experiences with HIM how can I say, HE is not there. But the fact is piercing, I couldn't feel HIS love, HE is not talking to me. Yes. I agree. I am jiddi.
I feel so bad that why baba cheated me, lied to me. After all HE shouldn't broke my confidence in HIM. I believe HIM still and forever too. But why should HE who asks us to stick to truth, rewards us with a Jhootee Zindagi. When I say 'yes' to all His conditions, when I say 'kubool' to all his questions, why HE has to cheat me? When I say I completely bear the responsibility for any eventuality, why couldn't HE given me a chance. I can never be convinced and be happy until and unless HE talks to me again. After all I am His friend and I too follow many of His suggestions or sayings (if not all). I deserve justice.
Prasanthi
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Sorry Sanjiv ji. I didn't observe your sign at the end. Yes. HE doesn't retaliate. But participate in the fight. I have many fights with HIM and all were fun except one :(. Jab hame koi pasand hai, to unse takaraanaa/jhagdaa bhee achchaa hee hotaa hai. Baba is so sweet. There is no god like Baba. I very much agree. I have no doubts or questions about that.
Prasanthi
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JAI SAI RAM!!!
May I also join in the fight please. Prashantiji Mere Sai Ko Agar Sab Samaj Jayain To Phir Sab Jagde Khatam Na Ho Jayain. So keep on fighting till.....Till you understand my BABA and with the understanding all our fight ends. Till then keep fighting.
OM SAI RAM!!!
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Ramesh Bhai :-)
Bow to Sri Sai - Raksha Karo Deva !!!
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Sairam Prashanti
You said ->> When I say I completely bear the responsibility for any eventuality, why couldn't HE given me a chance.
" We say we would bear " and when things go wrong why blame god then ..?
Eventually SAI is counted for each and every child of his
As concern all that have you said to BABA-You need to understand the much deeper truth - thats all what i can say..
Just get that off ur mind please ( cheated lied and rewards with jhooti zindagi)
-Humble comments with no heavy feeling ...
Bow to Sri Sai - Raksha Karo Deva !!!
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quote:
Originally posted by Ramesh Ramnani
JAI SAI RAM!!!
May I also join in the fight please. Prashantiji Mere Sai Ko Agar Sab Samaj Jayain To Phir Sab Jagde Khatam Na Ho Jayain. So keep on fighting till.....Till you understand my BABA and with the understanding all our fight ends. Till then keep fighting.
OM SAI RAM!!!
Ramesh Ji,
you are incredible :-) :-) :-)
lots and lots and lots of flowers of the forgot-the-name-of-the-tree-you-mentioned on you!
Om Sai Ram
Astrid
Restless was my heart till it found rest in THEE
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OMSAIRAM!
My dearest Prashanthi Garu,
I know what ur going through.
But it's all Rinanubandha.
Jis jis ke saath jitna bank balance hai woh to clear karna padega.
Debit ya credit to karna hi padega.
upar se Revenue bhi dena padega.
HR SAI KO BULAO AUR USKI MADDAT MANGO.
SaI NE HAME DEE HAI CURRENCY OF 2 PAISA SHRADDHA AUR SABURI.
So Dearest Prashanthi Reward is that Saburi ka Phaal meetha hota hai!
Sai baba let your holy lotus feet be our sole refuge.OMSAIRAM
dipika duggal
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JAI SAI RAM!!!
BABA Ke 2 Paise ki Daulat Main Toh Sare Jahan Ki Daulat Chupi Hai.
OM SAI RAM
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lagtaa hai ki mein
sabhi baba ke bachchon ko
tamg kar rahi hoon...
kyaa bhee kare
main bhee to hoon bachchi unkii
unhone mujhe laadlee saa dekhaa
achaanak paraayaa banaa diyaa
baatein nahee kartaa
isliye unpe gussaa is tarah kartee huun
jo mein keh raheen hoo vo sach hain ki
mein bhee unke bachchee hoon
mein bhee unse pyaar kartee hoon
meraa pyaar to kuch kam naheen
lekin gam hai kuch jyaadaa
dil hai na, voh kuch kuch nahee maantee
Thank you for all the blessed souls here. I am in no way against baba or blaming Him. I am just sharing my spur of emotions on him which I penned years back. Ofcourse this one is written only on yesterday.
Shammiji, I am not blaming him for the things that went wrong. He hasn't given me the opportunity despite His promise. Just imagine the plight of someone who completely believes Him and if He says something and do exactly the opposite way especially in the lifelong wish. The sorrow is not just for something that went wrong, it is for betraying the confidence of me (ofcourse when compared to all of you my devotion is nothing) and above all for not talking to me.
It is the poor who receives the beatings and becomes the object of doubt when something is lost in a rich person's house. No one ever think that the rich man's son himself would steal it instead of the poor servant or his kid.
In the similar way, what went between me and baba is only known to me. Everyone will say that 'I may not mature enough or I might misinterpret etc.,' I do not feel bad or sad about it. Because I am confident that if HE really supports the truth, HE knows it and HE knows what all HE promised me. I seek justice. HE has to be just with me. I believe HIM. Let us see. I hope one day I could happily say in this forum that 'see, you all didn't believe. but now baba responded and this is His response'.
No one would unnecessarily outburst on others without any reason that to with someone like baba who is our everything. I faced this with almost everyone who believes in god. But I do not fear for I know I abide by the truth. God is the only evidence and HE knows what HE promised to me. It is only because I believe HIM and trust Him fully I quarrel and fight as such.
After writing all these things, I am not at all sorry for the comments of you all. I am very happy to be in this forum and for the sai bandhus here who try to reach out to others and help them in every possible way.
Prasanthi
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Om Sai Ram,
Shammi Ji I am borrowing your line.
Bow to Sri Sai - Raksha Karo Deva .
Jai Sai Ram,
Sanjiv
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OMSAIRAM PRASHANTHI GARU,
KYA KARE SAI BABA WOH DIL HAI KE MANTA NAHIN!
Sai baba let your holy lotus feet be our sole refuge.OMSAIRAM
dipika duggal
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BABA is hearing us all
Deva pls bless all here
Bow to Sri Sai - Raksha Karo Deva !!!
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JAI SAI RAM!!!
Hello Sister Astridji..The name of the tree you forgot to name : Madhukamini. These flowers are really beautiful with Divine Fragrance. I can give you one thread of worshiping OUR BABA. Just shower these flowers at the lotus feet of our BABA in your meditation from Tommorow - Gurwar and feel and see what happens and then share your experiences with all of us. Just Try. For that matter everybody can try.
I presume you must be missing our Hindi topics.
OM SAI RAM!!!
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Thanks from my heart, Ramesh Ji,
for your wonderful suggestion. I will do as you said.
It is as though a breeze of cool, fresh air with some soft and sweet fragrance blew over my desk. This very moment I feel very, very tired and worn out because I'm reviewing a very, very, very difficult translation of mine. And your words just come as the best medicine imaginable - BABA working through you, blessing you and me at the same time and all of his devotees who read the postings in this forum, too.
THANK YOU BELOVED SAI
(Yes, I am missing your Hindi topics, thank you for your care, but never mind, there are so many English jewels to be found here :-)) )
Om Ssi Ram
Astrid
Restless was my heart till it found rest in THEE