Baba I keep my feelings on your foot

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om sai ram

Thank you baba, for giving me everything.
You gave me such a loving parents, sister, husband and In-laws
You have blessed me with a good education, good job and good friends
But Iam a human being, I feel bad some times and some times feel very happy.
I feel that I dont have anyone who can share my feelings, so I have started this post to express my feelings to you and to get me the suggestions if Iam wrong any where.

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Dear Baba

As you know Iam doing 9 Guruvar Vrath, which will be completed for tomorrow. Iam so happy for that, thank you baba for being with me for these 9 thursdays.
I want to celebrate this pooja very happily, I want do decorate you the way I want, I want to call everyone for this pooja and do many things but why baba A dont like these all, she wants to control me in this also, she wants me to do as she want, But I have many ideas about this pooja. Sterday I felt very bad -- I was planning to go for shopping with S to purchase books and she dont want us to go out, but too I told her that we want those books, you too know na baba, that how important these books are.
After that I told S to come early home so that we can go to purchase books, when I told him he said ok for everything but u know baba when he came home its was night 8, and no shop will be open at that time, and when I asked him "Cant u come early, I need those books very urgently", he is telling me some lie and asking me in return why I want books, Baba I tell him everything but he never remembers anything about me, he never thinks anything about me. So I could not purchase those books.

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Dear Baba

Why this happens to me always?? Am I so bad. L and children has come home, and I know we will b very buzy at home, but what to do baba, sterday as I was upset, I culd not sleep well, so I got up late today, I did not do this wantedly, it was 7.30 when I came out of room, Have I done any mistake baba? so it was getting late for preparing breakfast and lunch. M was taking care of children and L was preparing for lunch box, I agree that I suld not have wokeup so late, but what to do baba...... When I smiled seeing M, she saw me as if I have done some unforgivable mistake and she did not talk to me baba. This surprises me very much. She stated behaving as if Iam her enemy..... I really dont understand how to behave with her. Yes she have to be angry on me if I do this daily, but I dont do this daily na baba?? She stopped talking to me.........
If this situation continues, how can I do your pooja tomorrow, I feel really very upset. Why Baba, I cannot do anything happily??

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Dear Baba

Me and Madam have been roaming like a mad all over shops in the city for books, but we could not get them. I heard that we may get the books in only one books stall, Please bless me baba, so that we get the books. Nothing happens to me happily, I have to work hard for everything. But you are there with me baba. Thanks for that

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Good Morning Baba

Iam so happy today.   I have completed my 9 guru varth. Thank you baba.

Today I woke up at 3.00, cleaned the house, did pooja, prepared some food. I gave food to poor people. Iam so happy baba. Evening we will be inviting all our neighbors, frnds for pooja. This is all because of you. Thanks a lot baba

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Hi Baba

Thank you so much for everything. I got the books very easily. And M's mood is also good, she helped me a lot for pooja and cooking food, she has given me many suggestions about whom to call and how to do the pooja. L is so helpful to me, she too have many ideas for doing pooja, L and children may be going to there place today, I feel very bored without them at home, I really miss them a lot. And even S also helped me in packing and distributing food to poor. Thank you so much baba for giving me such a beautiful family. And bless us that todays pooja should go very happily.

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Hi Baba

Thank u sooooooooo much
Iam very very happy.
I hav completed pooja very happily. M and L were so helpful to me, all were happy to attend pooja. Thank you baba for giving me such a beautiful family to support me in all means. Bless us always baba.

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Gud Mrng Baba

Thank You so much for everything.
Todays is Megha's marraige, Iam feeling very sad that I culd not go to her marriage.
Bless them both for a happy life forever. Bless them that they should have good understanding between both of them.

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Baba

Why does he not understand that he is everything to me? Why does he not think that I too have some feeling which I like to express with him?
He dosent like me talking to others closely, I think him as my best friend and like to share everything with him. You know na baba how I will be waiting for him to come home. I understand he will be buzy at office, but....... he should think of me too na baba?
Morning I will be buzy with work at home, cant talk to him and even if I start talking to him, he says "Ok ok its getting late, have your breakfast, we have to go", once entered office he will completely forget me, he will not even talk to me for atleast 2mins even if I call, and some how he will never call me, I have adjusted for that. And anytime surprisingly if I receive a call from him, there will be some work from me and thats all. Atleast after dinner I want to talk to him, but his intentions are different.
Why this is happening Baba, I really feel very lonely. I want him to be with me.. but he never understands me. Please let him know that a relationship of a husband and wife is not just what he is thinking, we can also be good friends, we can share our feelings with each other and many more. I know he loves me very much and cares me very much, but he really dont understand what I want. Baba be with us, please help me to overcome this depression.

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hi baba

Thank you so much for everything. Yesterday I was telling u about S, and you listened to me................. thank you baba for loving us so much. Yesterday he took me to a movie that too my favorite night show!!!!!!!!!!! Hurry I was so happy baba, I had a great time with him. Thank U thank u thank u