Dear Baba,
I pray for all the blessed souls and request you to grant their wishes.
Please Baba, please talk to me. Please grant me my wish. You already shattered it. But you are the only one again, who can fulfill it. I can't live and I can't die also. You know my pain. You also promised me.
Respected Sai Bandhus,
I can't reveal my problem. Baba is my best friend right from my childhood and HE was there with me in every second of my life. He used to respond to me for every thing, big and small. I have a very ardent and strong wish. I also somehow sense something negative and bad due to my horoscope and I prayed to him all the life that not to give me one punishment, no matter what. He accepted.
In one case, He told me that my decision is not good. I just puzzled and have been questioning Him, why? But ultimately what Baba told was only happened. So I was in a literal shock. But anyway, I persisted to god that no matter what I can bear anything and I want to pursue the same path. He tried to threaten me in every way possible. But I still persisted based on His words only. (Come what may, do what you believe in, what your heart is at). I told him time and again that please consider and grant me my wish and I am ready to bear any consequence whatsoever and I do not ask for any boon in life again. He kept silent but when I was completely shattered, He assured me a lot that He would grant me my wish. When there was a crystal clear sign that it is going to be something other, I went to Chilkur, did pradakshina and asked god, that what is His message and if He is really going to wish me what I prayed for, I should get so and so page in Sai Leelamrutham. You believe it or not, I got the page as I wished. My joy knew no bounds. Even when everyone around me made fun, I believed that as god promised, it will come true. I was so happy and confident until the day baba told. But to my shock, the reality was completely opposite. But still I prayed Him because I always have great belief on Baba. After that, He began to give 50-50 kind of replies, means one time assurance, one time denial. (the emotional pressure was such that I keep on asking Him). I went to many temples, read Gurucharitra and Sai Leelamrutham, did pradakshinas, everything I did (ofcourse it is HE who let me do the things. otherwise how can I do them?). But the situation is completely reverse and my life was collapsed. Why is it so? If He had told me 'No', right from the beginning and never assured me, I would not have bothered. Why should He told me wrong in the sacred temple through His pious book famous for answering questions? Now the response is like either no reply or the worn out gramphone record sort of replies 'Karma theory, Not good for you' etc., etc., But I can't take it. It is unbearable pain. I became a mad girl now taking Baba's name and said that something will definitely happen because Baba assured me so. Whom I can believe now? to whom I can complain? I am completely shattered.
Please request Baba to come to me and keep His promise. If at all god decides to grant and help, no karma is big enough for Him. Baba, please consider and come to my rescue otherwise take this life. I am ashamed to digest that you lied me. You lied me in the great temple through your great book. Either you take my life or keep your promise. Do not give me 'Jhoota' life.
Dear Sai Bandhus, I am in great pain. Please ask Baba to come and talk to me.
Prasanthi
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