om sia ram
this is an experience of a sai devotee from hydrabad....
it took place in feb 1999
My ordeal started four years after marriage when I realized that I was not conceiving. Until then, I thought "I" could have children whenever "I" want. I waited eagerly for it but felt awfully depressed every month. I was so depressed and vulnerable that I started consulting astrologers. Each had his own predictions to such an extent that one even told my mother that the marriage itself was not rightly performed as the horoscopes did not match. This was very shocking to my parents who have done everything to everyone’s satisfaction. Then started my trauma with doctors, appointments, tests, endless hours of waiting, and the insensitive people around. It was then that my sister from Australia had told me about Baba for the first time. I started reading Satcharita - at first, I read it as a storybook. I went to Shirdi too with the hope of a miracle. Every time I read the book, I thought it will do some "magic". Then as I kept reading I realized that the book could not change anything but, I have to change myself , my way of thinking.
This was when I told Baba " You are my mother, you know what is best for me, if you think that me, your child, should have no child , then its okay with me. But Baba, please let me also feel the joy of having a child". I cried to Baba every night but slowly I even stopped that and left it to Him. Then it happened when I least expected it to. Chanting His name, I went to the Doctor and my pregnancy was confirmed. I was blessed with a healthy baby boy whom I have named Sai Sanket, which means a sign or a communication from SAI. Today when I see any childless couple, I tell Baba "if you have plans of giving me another child, then give it to those childless couples so that they too can have the joy of a child in their homes". Going to astrologers is not wrong, we are all humans but one must have faith in Baba and most of all have patience. Let us all want only what OUR MOTHER wants us to have, as MOTHER knows the best.
OM SAI RAM
Topic: for our sisters prayin for motherhood (Read 1375 times)