Conversation with Baba....my true friend

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Baba...hope you are doing well. This year is going to be so transformative. Please help us sail through it. Help my son dear lord. And bless us all.

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Baba...you are the guide...you are the light...show us the way baba. My son is tired of the pressure being put on him. He is always made to feel inferior and not good enough. Its not ok baba. some children are average...but do well in life. Why does my husband not understand this. He always compares. And the amount of stress he is putting my son through...i agree we must cover our bases and apply to colleges...but constant nit picking is not going to help. Suddenly i am reminded of my own time. My parents never said it...but the disappointment was so evident. I hate to see my son going through it now. Baba....i can do anything ...anything...for my son's success. Please help him and make him a success...make him believe that he can do it. be with him please.

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Koti koti pranam baba....this boy has finally done it with your blessings....you have helped him so much dear lord and i cant thank you enough!! For the first time in his life, he has got a rank and secured a seat for himself in his choice of line. That is a big deal for him. And without you, this could never be possible. How can i ever repay this generosity baba? he is a good child and u have helped me and him. Thank you a million times

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Happy new year baba. Your blessings are what keep us going. We would not have been able to achieve anything without you. My son is doing well on his own. Last year was very chaotic with many things happening at the same time. I hope for peace, harmony, and growth this year baba - please let my father's stay with me be peaceful and harmonious, let his place get done wonderfully, let my son succeed and progress in his line, let my husband and my health be fine.

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Baba...your blessings are what we need....you have given me a good life. Today on my birthday, i feel blessed to have my father with me after all these years. He is a good man. Let there be peace baba...I can do with less drama in my life. I am a straight shooter baba...never understood politics at work...never talked back to my elders...so it is my karma and my behaviour that i am not as ahead in my career and my life...as one could be. But no regrets baba. I cant bring anyone down. I want it to be fair. So help me dear god...give me peace of mind.

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Om namah shivay
Om sai narasimha
Om namo durge
Om sai hanuman

Baba...tum sab ki raksha karna...mann ko vichlit mat hone dena....baba...sahi rasta dikhana....please brush off the cobwebs and let there be clarity of thoughts and vision

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Why...even after all these years..i have this feeling of insecurity and lack of clarity? Why cant i shake off the cobwebs and see clearly what I want to do and where I want to go? Is this life? I mean....I have spent the last 23 years in self doubt, self pity, anger at myself for not standing up for myself and a general lack of purpose. I am not fullfilled at all. I am restless. I know I can do better...be better and have better
But something is holding me back and i am surrounded by people who pull me down. I lack the conviction and courage to break out of this miserable situation. I love my people...but I need my life. I have only served and served and served....never done anything for myself. And now I am too scared and old maybe to break away
I dont know what to do. I try to make lists of things that I want to achieve before I leave this janma. But they all seem so insurmountable and scary.
How can I ever start? How will i push through? And the situation at home is not conducive at all. i am tired of this push and pull. I am tired of this conflict of wanting to get somewhere and afraid to start.
I am tired of adjusting myself for everyone else...when others dont do the same for me. And now the expectation is that I will never do anything different. I want to do different things...be different.
Help me

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Baba heaven knows the efforts, trials and tribulations from last 20 years...its time to reap the harvest baba. please give my son a good life. please clear my mind of darkness and anxiety. My son is a good child. help him baba. And please show me a way