Baba...firstly, i am very happy for my friend S. She has amazing tenacity and determination. With so many things not working in her favour, she has still managed to do so well. I am indeed very happy and proud for her. Bless her with happiness and success.
She inspires me to do something positive with my life. I am simply whiling away my time. If i want, i can be anything i want to be. The only thing holding me back is me myself!!! I am scared to make plans and evaluate my shortcomings. But how much can i ignore or how long can i ignore?? Sooner or later, i have to take stock of the situation and amend my ways.
Baba...please let that day be close enough. I dont want to suffer this life of mediocrity. I know, u are there watching over me and my mother is there keeping an eye on me. I want to make you people proud. I want my dad to feel proud. I want my husband and son to feel proud of me.
So help me dear lord...help me to help myself!!