Baba...what a fool i am!! I kept searching for some miracle prayer that would solve all my problems. I thought if i could read or chant that mantra, everything will be alright. I kept telling you my problems but i also kept telling you the solution that i wanted. I am an idiot!! I forgot that i should be leaving everything in your hands. I should just tell u my problems and stop at that. How u solve it, when u solve it....all is decided by u. Also, u know best about the situation. U have opened my eyes. I should not look outside for solace. Rather i should look inside, into my consciousness, into my spirit, for strength, love and faith. There can be no mantra or japa beyond true devotion. If i truly love you and believe you, i just need to connect with you directly...maybe through naam jaap or any other mode....what is the use of reading holy scriptures and chanting prayers when i am more concerned about chanting for a fixed count or i have a timeline set that i need to finish within a day / week / month. I feel its meaningless. Love and devotion cannot be time bound. Does a mother say that i need to spend 10 minutes with my child positively? She spends as much time as she wants to spend and can spend. And that time is truly blissful since its filled with pure love. Similarly, I am not going to time box my love for you baba. And i am not going to look here and there for the magic mantra. I am not going to do something that i dont understand. All i know is that if i am honest in my intentions, i have faith in my heart and courage in my spirit, i will reach you...my thoughts will reach you and everything will be alright............
Oh baba...i am so thankful to you......I just request one more thing - please help me stay focussed and let my thoughts never stray from you...
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