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Prayers Section => Sai Baba Prayers and Naam Jaap => Topic started by: vidyarp on December 16, 2009, 09:29:11 PM

Title: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 16, 2009, 09:29:11 PM
Dear Baba,
This year has been an year of profound loss and grief and terrible upheavels. When i look back on my mental and spiritual levels on 1st Jan 2009, i see myself as another normal human being - god fearing but not deeply involved in spiritual matters. I was just another normal human being - worried about my career, my family, about my tiffs and quarrels with my mother in law :) But never did i attach importance to god's mysterious ways of working. Untill tragedy struck my family. My mother was diagnosed with advanced stage of cancer in Jan 2009 and she passed away in May 2009. I was shattered. Post that, i lost my aunt and my grandmother in a span of 3 months. All in all, i was broken and my father was devastated. he lost his wife, mother and sister within 3 months. How much can a man take?? But through out this journey of tragedy, i turned towards God. I prayed and prayed and prayed. But we cant control destiny. But the strange part is - the more i believed in God, the calmer i became and in fact was more adaptable and accepting the situation. It took me a while to figure out what true faith and devotion is all about. For months, i remained confused on whether i should be reading holy scriptures and following rigid fasting and poojas, and then which God to pray. Whenever i was confused, i saw you and you gave me darshan in my dreams. Ever since, i am firmly attached to you. Even now, my faith is ever growing and each day i love you more dear baba. I am trying to get rid of all the negativities in my mind and want to come closer to you. You have taught me the true meaning of "shraddha" and "saburi". Both of which i was lacking. But now i am improving. I do not say i am perfect. In fact i am far from being perfect. But i am trying baba. And in the process, if i make mistakes, please accept my humble apologies.My biggest challenge is gettign rid of negative thoughts and focusing on positives plus putting my plans into action. Today is my father's birthday and he is a lonely man. I want to be with him and take care of him always. Baba...i believe in you. I will not pray and ask u to do this and do that. because u know what is best. All i ask u is to bless me and let me be your child always. On my part, i promise to overcome 2 of my biggest challenges as a tribute to my father and mother:
1. Overcoming the negatives and focus on positives
2. Executing my plans

Bless me baba....i am your sharanagathi..
Title: Re: My journey from a simple devotee to sampoorna sharanagathi
Post by: Leenaverma on December 16, 2009, 10:27:55 PM
Dear Vidyarp

Om Sai Ram

You have gone through a very difficult time and it is very good that you still belive Sai Baba. If someone other has gone through that he might have left everything life puja, bhakti. Sai Baba loves a lot that why He has lit a diya of Shraddha and Saburi in you. I am also going through a bad time and praying Sai Baba, through you Sai Baba has shown me a way and jaise bhi ho pariksha to hoti hai par sach vishwas aur bhakti ant mai saflata deti hai. Today I completed my Sai Satcharitra parayana.

I pray to Sai k vo aapko aashirwad de aur hamesh aapke upar apni krupa banaye rakhe.

Om Sai Ram

Leena
Title: Re: My journey from a simple devotee to sampoorna sharanagathi
Post by: saib on December 16, 2009, 11:16:38 PM
It is all Leela of Baba, Dear!

Overcoming the negatives and focus on positives.
To get rid of Negative is not an easy task. Keep replacing negative thoughts with positives and divine thoughts. Just see good in all. Don’t bother about shortcomings of others.

Executing my plans
If you are aware of CPM and Pert techniques used in Projects (Specially Giant projects), Used the same. Sub divide your plans into small sections. (Plan for execution of plans). Use Time very wisely. Keep on reviewing your progress on weekly basis. Have Faith and move ahead with confidence. Baba’s blessings are with you!

om sri sai ram
om sri sai ram
om sri sai ram!
Title: Re: My journey from a simple devotee to sampoorna sharanagathi
Post by: Pearl India on December 17, 2009, 06:18:57 AM
om sai ram

may baba bless you and be with you always.

om sai ma
Title: Re: My journey from a simple devotee to sampoorna sharanagathi
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 17, 2009, 09:04:39 PM
Om Sai Ram

There is always light after dark. When u have gone through such a difficult time you will definitely have good time. When we feel the bad time in life we enjoy more when good time comes in life. because we can differentiate between bad and the good.

May Sai bless u with all the best in life.

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Title: Re: My journey from a simple devotee to sampoorna sharanagathi
Post by: vidyarp on December 20, 2009, 09:14:32 PM
Dear all....baba is just testing us. he is giving us his special attention to understand whether we are ready for the next level or not. I must not fail him. I have tried to focus on both my challenges....its been 2-3 days, but i can definitely feel the difference. I am more relaxed and calm.
baba...with your blessings, i can do everything. Please be with me always baba and keep guiding....I am your child.
Title: Re: My journey from a simple devotee to sampoorna sharanagathi
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 21, 2009, 09:09:25 PM
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Title: Re: My journey from a simple devotee to sampoorna sharanagathi
Post by: vidyarp on December 22, 2009, 05:14:30 AM
Dear baba...today has been very eventful.
First, my son did well in the sports meet. Thanks for helping him win a prize. It means a lot to him.

Second, when i heard that my boss has been fired, i did not know how to react. Mainly because He has been instrumental in not letting me grow in this organization and there were times when he back stabbed me. Ideally i should have rejoiced. But i didnt. I kind of felt bad. Because i know what it means to lose your livelihood. The family depends on it, your loans and EMIs are based on this, and your identity and integrity is based on this. To be fired is akin to losing your face in the world. I feel bad. I know that everyone has to pay for his/her sins and maybe this was required. Still, why should the family suffer?

Third, I have been asked to move to my boss's seat. People tell me that this seat is unlucky. But to me it doesnt matter. When i have your blessings and my hard work and sincerity, i think i will get the luck as well :) So i am not worried.

baba...please bless us all and shower your mercy on all esp. my father....

Jai baba
Title: Re: My journey from a simple devotee to sampoorna sharanagathi
Post by: vidyarp on December 23, 2009, 05:18:51 AM
Baba...today i got a call from a consultant for my dream company. I dont know why but it makes me feel good to be considered for that. I know it is very very very difficult to crack their technical round and i also know that i am not hands-on at the moment. That amounts to a major disadvantage. but u know what baba - i am going to give it my best shot. I am going to prepare for this and crack it. With your blessings, everything is possible...so baba, give me the strength, wisdom and courage.
I dont know what will be the outcome. In all probabilities, i will not make it. But at least i should not regret about not putting in the efforts. And in any case, i stand to gain only by preparing hard.
I know that this may be an anti-thesis of what i am apparently looking for - but baba....for once in my life, let me be associated with this organization and let me enjoy the glory and pride of being a part of it. I may quit later on...but for once dear lord...help me to make it....
Jai sai baba
Title: Re: My journey from a simple devotee to sampoorna sharanagathi
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 23, 2009, 10:00:52 PM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namaha
Om Shri Sainathaya Namaha
Om Shri Sainathaya Namaha
Om Shri Sainathaya Namaha
Om Shri Sainathaya Namaha
Om Shri Sainathaya Namaha
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Title: Re: My journey from a simple devotee to sampoorna sharanagathi
Post by: vidyarp on December 27, 2009, 08:49:48 PM
Om sai ram

Dear baba...today i have an interview with my dream company. I seek your blessings baba. I dont know what will be the outcome. But i know whatever will happen, it will be for my own good. and baba...i have tried to do my part. I am not going without preparation. you know the efforts i have put. Now its upto you dear lord. Whatever will be your decision, i am ok with it.

Jai baba
Title: Conversations with Baba...my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 27, 2009, 11:25:51 PM
Baba...i have let myself down. I am upset. I had prepared but it was so apparent that my fundamentals are not strong. I have ruined my chances baba. I did not know many of the questions and was just trying to play around. It wouldn't have been that bad...but for the last statement by the interviewer - "we are not looking for latest features and techniques, we look for fundamentals. There are certain things that u never forget. Like in maths - u never forget your basics. So we always look for fundamentals. " And baba...that was like a slap on my face. I realized that all this while i have been trying to be something that i am not. My fundamentals are weak and it came out in the open. Baba...i am upset - not because of losing this opportunity of getting into my dream job - but because i feel its too late to rectify my past mistakes. I have taken things lightly and it is sheer luck that has kept me alive in this industry. I am unfit to move up the value chain, simply because my basics are not in place.
Oh why did i do this to myself baba??? I could have done so many things in life...i am regretting not doing anything at all. I am doomed to lead a life of mediocrity and pretence. All these years, i have never admitted but the fact is that i am not going to make it big. You know how important it is for me to do something in life. Its about proving it to myself and not to anyone else. How can i redeem myself. I have fallen from grace in my own eyes......
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 31, 2009, 09:19:03 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 04, 2010, 09:25:37 PM
Happy New Year baba....
Hope i never get to see a terrible year like 2009 again in my lifetime.

Baba - my trip to jaipur was wonderful. The family had a great time and we all felt very much refreshed after this trip. We missed ma a lot. Appa kept talking about her all the time. I felt sad for him. But on the whole - a good trip. Now for the other things dear lord - i saw 3 idiots on sunday ;) and believe me baba - it was an eye opener for me. I realized that the reason for my unhappiness is within me!!! Imagine...i have tried to seek answers to my problems everywhere...just that i didnt look within myself for the answers. I have been upset with my career....dont like the place where i am working, dont see any growth, but unable to switch because every other company demands a lot more than what i can do. I have my own set of constraints and as a result have to be very choosy about the offers i can consider. Overall - the dissatisdfaction level is at an all time high. Then i saw that movie and realized that i am unhappy because i dont love what i do. I am doing it simply because i got into it and am making money. now the money factor is getting to be important and am at such a position that quitting everything is not an option at all. Jobs at my profile require lot of onsite travel and 24*7 availability (for which i am not ready) and i dont get a job at a lower profile since i am not qualified for them or not suitable for them. So its a catch 22 situation. I need to keep running in the rat race just to stay where i am. God!!!I cant imagine doing this work for the next 10-15 years!!! So did a lot of thinking on what my passion is or what is it that i am good at. I figured out these things - reading books, writing and anything to do with english language. So first i thought becoming a school teacher would help. But i am not qualified for this since i dont have a B.Ed and am not likely to get a degree due to age factor and lack of experience. Took Nitin's help to understand that technical writing is more likely to meet my needs. I love reading and writing and i am a technical project manager in IT. So it all fits in together. Baba...now i want your opinion on this. Hope u think i am doing the right thing.
Another thing baba - the second thing i learnt from that movie is that making deals with God doesnt help unless and until u r confident of your efforts and contribution. God also helps those who help themselves. I have been praying to u for so long to help me get a work from home option. But it was only when i tried hard to seek a solution, did i come across this. Thanks baba.
Finally - even if i dont love what i am doing right now, give me the strength, wisdom and courage to handle things to the best of my abilities.

Baba - i understand that there are no shortcuts to success. I promise i will work hard and make things right. I will not let u down dear lord. I will not let down my parents...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 05, 2010, 09:33:48 PM
Bless your Devotees Sai


Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 06, 2010, 11:17:36 PM
Dear Baba...good morning.
Sorry didnt write to u yesterday. I was kind of lost in my own thoughts :) Wasted a lot of time worrying about my future. Then went to the market from office and purchased 2 books for stepping into my new passion - writing. So i got a grammar book and a book on tech writing. Lets see....at least i should make a start. there i saw books on UGC NET also. For a moment - i felt that i could take that up as well....dont know. I am so confused. And u know what baba - i cannot discuss this with anyone since no one will understand. Only ma would've understood. Now that she is not there, i dont want to stress out my father.

Baba...i know that i am not liking it here in this organization simply because of the dirty politics and total lack of policies and processes. And the top mgmt is blind and refuses to see reason. They are treating people like cattle. And expect me to treat my people also like cattle. Make them slog and create pressure. Why?? I tried to reason, but am unable to do so. Maybe its a problem with me. I should have been able to convince. But cannot. My boss refuses to see any reason. So fine...either i change myself or change the organization. I plan to do the latter. But getting a job is also not that easy you know. Especially with all the constraints i have. Thats the reason why i had to think of alternatives. Today is thursday - your day baba....on this day, i start my journey in to the new domain. Bless me dear lord. And help me find options. I am going to plan the milestones and share them with you tomorrow. Let me know what you think.

Secondly baba - today my mil started taking pot shots at me and i also retorted in the same way. Theek kiya na :) And the best part - i did not feel bad or get angry. I would have if i had let her continue saying nonsense about me to M. She got the message loud and clear. But i didnt get angry baba....now thats a positive thing :) I didnt start it but i didnt accept wrong things and i didnt lose my cool...wow!!

Bas baba....give me the strength wisdom and courage to do the right things.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 07, 2010, 09:57:40 PM
May Shri Sai Bless u

Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 10, 2010, 09:22:49 PM
Dear baba....i miss my mother. More than me, my father misses her. He loves her so much and now he is all alone. Baba....my life is chaotic at the moment. Nothing is working out. I am trying so many things but nothing is of use. I am not getting success anywhere - personal or professional. Baba...it is very discouraging. Dont know how long i can pull on. Its just my faith that soon everything will be alright. This alone is keeping me going.

baba - u know the targets and goals i have set. Please bless me and help me reach the goals. Till then - i promise not to waste a single minute and not to consume anything sweet and junk.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 10, 2010, 09:23:34 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 11, 2010, 12:52:58 AM
baba...ab aur nahi saha jaa raha hai mujhse!!!! How long will this uncertainity remain?? I cannot take this anymore....i am getting desparate. Baba................please come to my rescue.......rehem karo baba...help karo baba.....

kaise chalta rahega aise baba....i dont see any future...

i am sad...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 11, 2010, 08:05:41 PM
Have mercy Sai
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah

Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 17, 2010, 08:52:10 PM
Thank u baba...for not getting totally lost in my depression. At least u have given me the strength to face any adversity that comes my way. I know today i will have some harsh words to hear from my boss and i also am sad for my father who has gone to his hometown. I am sad because of the lack of opportunities to swtich my job and am sad for not being able to take care of my son when he needs me the most.
But baba...u have given me the strength to face any situation. So long as i keep doing my work sincerely, nothing will affect me. I must be confident about myself and my efforts. And i must not waste any time.

baba...please see me through the day...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 17, 2010, 09:14:23 PM
May Shri Sai bless u

Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 18, 2010, 09:23:42 PM
Good morning baba...what a good feeling i get by getting your darshan everyday !! Its lucky that i doscovered your temple right next to my son's school. So everyday after dropping him off, i can come to see you and then leave for work. Thank you :)

Baba...u know what transpired between me and my boss yesterday. He is a hard task master. Although i agree with many things that he says, but my problem is i cannot do all those things. See - if i had to focus on career (which i would have loved to), then i can do all those things he said. But i have to look after my family. the travails of being a working woman :) No body understands baba. Nobody!! Its as if i am trying to walk on a thin cane stick and have to balance very well. If not, i fall into a pit. U know i cannot afford to fall. I have to earn enough to take care of my father's needs. I have to buy a house for him near my house. And for this i need money. This and this alone is driving me to take up the challenges at work without cribbing. And whom to crib?? No one seems to understand. The one person who understood me is no more - my mother....
So baba...i have made up my mind, never to discuss any problem with anyone - be it my father (who will always support me but i dont want to burden him with my problems) or my husband (who will not understand my point of view and will think that i should give up). Baba...i can only talk to u. Please baba...u dont refuse me....i have no one else to turn to.
Why is money so important baba?? If only i could do something about my father. Baba...is it wrong to be ambitious?? As a child i was always told to stand on my own feet, be financially independent, become successful....i achieved that and now everyone tells me slow down or stop since u have to look after family. Change your priority. Why?? Its always work vs home on my mind. and i have no peace i tell you.....
I feel trapped since i am not doing justice to either - neither work nor home. and i cant leave either. I am condemned to lead a life of misery is it???And my mil is not making it any easier for me at home. SO am stuck in a job that pays well but expects me to work with a bull headed idiot. And at home i have no comfort or peace because of my mil's constant cribbing ....i have to be a pillar of strength for my father after my mother's death - emotionally and financially. And my son needs me now as he is growing up. There - u have the entire picture....now u tell me what to do!!!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 19, 2010, 09:14:25 PM
Good morning baba. Today is basant panchami. Technically speaking its my birthday as well as my son's birthday. Both of us were born on basant panchami day :)
Baba...please bless us all....It is so cold and foggy today. i wonder how would the children on the streets survive this cold. They too are like Kittu (my son). I cover my son in layers of clothes...wonder what those kids do...
Baba...please help me through the day. Its a long day and i need your help...

Jai sai baba...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 20, 2010, 08:29:14 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 20, 2010, 09:06:13 PM
O Sainath...i have an interview today. I hope i do well...But u know what - today i am not feeling any tension or apprehension. Its as if all is well. basically, what i have started feeling is that u know better than me about what i need. So if you think it is good for me, you will help me clear. And if u think its not, then u will not. Simple na?? But that does not mean i sit idle and keep praying that u help me out. No. I am putting efforts at my end. Rest i leave it to you :) Thats the best i can do.
I m keeping my fingers crossed....baba..please show me the way...

Jai sai..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 21, 2010, 09:05:20 PM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 22, 2010, 05:37:02 AM
Its not fair baba....Why is it that i never get what i want and even if i get, it is after so much of begging and pleading that by the time i get it, it has lost its importance. And baba...this is true for every single event in my life. How can that be baba?? Am i not a good human being? Have i done something wrong? To my knowledge, i have never hurt anyone intentionally or thought ill of anyone. But i have never got what i wanted on time. Every time its the same story...I mean why?? And am i asking for things that are out of place?? Am i asking for things that destroy others?? NO - I am talking about things that can bring comfort and ease to all. But baba...u dont want to listen.
How can sinners and wrong doers get everything and be happy where as people like me keep suffering?? No baba...this is not correct. I hate everything that is going on currently...nothing is going right and i have no one to talk to!!! How bad can it be??
I know i deserve something and at some level. But i have so many restrictions that nothing is working out for me.

I AM UPSET AND DEPRESSED.......................................
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 22, 2010, 10:23:50 AM
Baba...i tried explaining my feelings to my husband. Instead of consoling me, he accused me of maintaining double standards....It appeared as if he is feeling guilty but cannot admit it. So he tries to cover it with anger. But that anger is wrongly directed na baba!! Why blame me?? I am so hurt and upset. I cried and my 3 year old son came to cosnsole me...And when my father called, he told him that mummy is crying because daddy yelled at her. Imagine!! I just cant disturb m y father. he has enough problems already...
I felt like dying baba....honestly. I shut the door and took out my chunni. But then my son started calling for me and i thought about my father.....
I cant do this to them...but the stress is killing me.....

Please do something baba..............
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 22, 2010, 09:21:45 PM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 24, 2010, 09:15:52 PM
Dear baba....just when i needed the most, i read the thread on Affirmations - Sankalp. And i realized that i was surrounding myself with negativity. In my heart i have strongly entrenched the belief that my current situation is hopeless and i dont like it. I prayed to you to remove my miseries, but i didnt reinforce the same in my mind. I convinced my sub conscious mind that i am miserable and i hate my life. But i was so wrong baba. If i dont believe in being positive, how can i expect positive things to happen to me?? I did not practice "Shraddha" and "Saburi".
Now what is sankalp - is it something like, i will not eat sweets till i reach this goal or i will not do this till i get that. No!! In my opinion - sankalp is something that you keep reinforcing throughout your life. Something that can go on for ever. It should not be time bound.
So baba - my sankalp:
I choose to make my life happy with all the things you have given me. I believe in myself and will do my part sincerely and know that you will help me out with the rest.

Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 26, 2010, 12:25:18 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 27, 2010, 04:38:45 AM
Baba..today i spoke to my boss and told him my problems. I got a very positive feedback from him and i think i should really try to make things work here rather than focusing my energies in looking for another job. The profile is good, the money is decent and best part is the flexibility to work from home at times and the lack of US calls. In IT field u know how it is impossible to escape the US timezone. All those things are taken care of here. So even though the work may suck and the infrastructure maybe lousy, but i can live with that. Basically what i am saying is that the grass is always greener on the other side. What we dont see are the pitfalls on the other side. As of now, baba, i am going to focus on making this work for me. I need to live upto A's expectations and for that it will require some hard work. But at least my direction is clear. At least i know where to focus my energies. I am not going to waste any more time in job hunting. I am going to focus on my job and completing my certification. The rest will follow. I need to set my own standards. people should know me as something. Not just an also-ran.
So thank you dear lord. Please keep showering your blessings on me. And take care of my father baba. Please bring him to me na...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 27, 2010, 08:53:52 PM
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Baba....i am filled with positive energy. I know i will make it. I know if i work hard and put my best efforts, i will get success.....because u r always with me.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 28, 2010, 08:52:47 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 28, 2010, 09:11:01 PM
Baba...so many threads are running in parallel. And none of them have finished or arrived at a conclusion. So my mind is restless :) Please help me. Please show me the right way....help me to make the right decisions...

Jai Sai baba
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 29, 2010, 09:07:52 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 02, 2010, 09:27:22 PM
Baba good morning. Sorry didnt write to u in a while....
I attended the M interview. Waise to baba, i thought it will be smooth. But i realized that the person on the other side of the table was the most rigid and non cooperative person i have ever met. The very thought of working with him or under him makes me shudder :) He jus did not want me to speak. So anyways baba -  i dont think i will make it to M. And even if i do, i dont think i can work with that man!! So its back to square one. I did a retrospection and found that in my current situation - the infra sucks, the work sucks and the boss is a bull head. But what is the guarantee that the boss will be nice in any other org. By the looks of the person who interviewed me in M, i think i would rate my current boss as 100% better and nicer. And as for work....its a question of enjoying what i do. I need to learn that.
Plus, here i come and go as i please. No tensions of US calls etc. so all in all...u made me see that the grass is always greener on the other side :) and one must be content with what one has....Thanks baba. U are a gud friend...
Chalo...bye for now...i have a lot of work today.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on February 03, 2010, 08:43:06 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 03, 2010, 09:52:29 PM
Dear Baba...gud morning. U know what - i like to visit your temple everyday. Fortunately, u have been kind to me and given me the opportunity to visit u everyday before going to office. I like your benevolent smile...at times i feel u are talking to me. I see that half smile and i know u r looking at me :) And i know i will be fine and all things related to me will be fine.
Baba...life is full of ups and downs. Yesterday my son fell ill. Cold and viral. Conveniently, it was blamed on my father that he did not take enough care of my son. Ab batao baba...these ppl are over protective and not letting my son grow freely...itna over protect karte hain....i get very irritated. but cannot say much bcause they are looking after him. So baba, finally i thought ki koi baat nahi...jisse jo bolna hai bole....i cant stop ppl from talking. whatever i may do or my dad may do, is not enough....so why bother. So long as we know what we are doing and u know...we are ok with it. Tension nahi lena hai.
baba...another thing - today i got this feeling that i should start reading the satcharita. And the day i complete it, i should feed the poor. And then start the cycle once again. I saw these ppl outside the temple waiting for food and this thought occured to me. Waise baba...i know u have no reasons to believe me. I have NEVER kept my word. I have failed u time and again. I sometimes feel i am so used to breaking my commitments that they have no importance to me. But baba...if i am able to do this, i will like it. All other commitments i made keeping mysself and my happiness and benefits in mind. But this time its different.....
Bless me baba...show me the way...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: sagarika on February 04, 2010, 04:12:05 AM
omsairam..

Dear Vidyarp ji,

you have choosen babas way..hence no worries... at times we get confused becoz of the situation..but our baba is always there to take care of us..

baba will fulfill all your wishes dear :) ur on the right track... do ur best and leave the rest to him..

Baba, thank you so much for showering ur blessings on ur children.. plz take care of Vidyarp's family

omsairam
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on February 04, 2010, 08:17:12 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 05, 2010, 12:03:41 AM
Dear baba...Today was a good day to begin with. Firstly, i took my son to school for rehearsals and then got him back. On the way back, we visited your temple. Now that is something i really like to do and today my son also had your darshan.
Life is going on...like you said - pain is inevitable but suffering is optional. So, i think overall nothing has changed in my life. Just that i have chosen not to suffer. I am doing my part and i m not going to think about what u would give me. I leave that to you. I have poured my heart out to u...u r aware of my situation. Do what u think is best for me baba....

I pray to you and surrender to you dear lord..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 07, 2010, 08:31:34 PM
Dear baba....my son is not well. He has lost so much weight and looks so tiny....please take care of him. And baba...as usual, i pray to u to take care of my dad.

Baba...please ...let today be a good day..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: kanika dang on February 08, 2010, 12:31:20 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 09, 2010, 08:26:26 PM
Dear baba...sorry couldnt write to you in the last 2 days. U know how hectic it was at work and i had such tight deadlines to meet. I had to focus totally and finish my work. U know what baba -  i felt good when i achieved my targets :) I think it helps to work hard and meet the deadlines. there is this sense of satisfaction...

Another point - baba i dont understand why my mil cant be more loving towards me? She cribs and cribs and cribs the whole day....oh boy...can she complain!!! She can find faults with anyone and everyone. To her there is only 1 perfect person on this earth - herself!!! Rest all are insects!!! Baba - u have not given her any sweetness - neither in her thoughts nor in her speech. She can annoy one and all. As a result she has no friends. And she complains all the time about me....i am her pet grouse  :P Every time she tells me something, it upsets me. Its been 8 years now. I should be getting used to this...but maybe i am not learning. It hurts when u hear wrong things about u and when u are blamed for something u have never said or done. But i guess thats life. Maybe i have hurt her in my previous birth and am repaying the debt. Chalo theek hai. Jaane do. If i keep worrying about these things, i will have no time for the bigger things in life. I know my priority:
I need to get my father here with me. And for this i need to buy a house close to my place. And for this i need money. To earn enough money, i need to maintain my current job or get new one. Till i get new job, i have to work hard here. And the work here is very exhaustive since i manage teams in diverse countries. This means i need full concentration at work. Which means i cannot afford to get upset or let my mind be taken over by negative thoughts.

So fine...ignore. Every time she yells at me, i will call your name and complain to you and tell u to take care of her. Ok?

Thanks baba...u r a great help..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on February 09, 2010, 09:13:49 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 23, 2010, 01:13:50 AM
My dear baba....i am back from my onsite trip. You know how it went off - very well :) Thanks to you. My journey, stay and official work - everything went off well. You were there at each step to help me out....i kept chanting your name baba. It was a new place and it was important for me to establish my presence. Thanks to you - everything went off well.
Now that i am back -  i need to keep track of the things here as well as in the other countries. I need to be proactive and think like a manager. Right now, i feel like a doer rather than manager. So today i delegated the task that has been pending since long. hopefully i have done the right thing. Another thing baba - i got a call from M today for an interview. Dont know what will be the outcome. But at least baba - i have no regrets. I will give it my best.

jai baba ...thanks for opening so many opportunities when i had thought all doors had closed....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on February 23, 2010, 08:45:25 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on February 25, 2010, 09:27:44 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 25, 2010, 10:35:44 PM
Dear baba...i am worried about my son. PLease take care of him. More than him, its my mil who needs to be taken care of....u know what i mean. Please help ....

i want to thank you for today....take care of everything baba....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 01, 2010, 07:59:58 PM
Dear Baba...
Good morning. My son is still not well baba. We ahve tried all the tests and even consulted different doctors. Nothing has come out of it. The tests are all negative still he has fever and no appetite. What to do? We are worried...

Another major worry -  i feel my father is not able to manage on his own. I can see that he has started becoming hard of hearing. I am going to take him to the doctor this weekend. But even otherwise - i feel he has lost the control over life. I see him talk to himself and imagining my mother to be around. He has still not come to terms with her death. In such a situation, i am desparate to get him to come and stay with me. But for that baba - i need a house close enough to my house so that he can be independent but close enough. But can he be with K for all day and take care? Maybe i am over reacting....after all, he has brought me up...so i m sure he can take care of my son as well...but i have started feeling that he needs attention and care.

Third problem - dont know if something will come out of the M interview....i leave that decision onto you. Whatever u decide for me - i accept it. Thats because u know what is best for me. But baba -  eventually i need something that will help me make money as well as take care of home.....can i get this??? I dont know.....u are the only one who knows :)


My worries are never ending ...but baba...thank you...for being there for me at each step of life...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: gomisuchi on March 01, 2010, 09:07:12 PM
vidya,

i cannot help but admire ur strength. baba is with u for sure. where else would this strength come from?? i do have a suggestion for u though. it might help with one of ur many problems. is it not possible to get a small rented house for ur dad near by? if not an apartment.. a small one bedroom studio house? there are plenty of such options in most cities.. and if u are open to this option .. and can tell me the name of ur city and location, ill try helping u out in finding a good place for ur dad which is pocket friendly too. baba bless u.

sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 01, 2010, 10:31:23 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 02, 2010, 09:18:49 PM
Thank you so much gomisuchi...for your moral support. It means a lot to me. I am looking for buying a house close to my house because the rents are so high here. It does not make sense for me to take a house on rent when i can spend the same amount on EMI...So as of now thats the plan.

Dear baba...i am thankful to you for the M interview. I got a call yesterday saying that i was through...they will make an offer today. But u know what baba - i am happy that i got thru, but not sure if i will join. 2 reasons - (a) the timings are going to be an issue (b) Dont think i can work with N. He is a big politician and hates me because i could not flatter him during the interview and yet i was recommended. And he is the India BU head for M. So makes no sense. I may not report to him functionally but since he is going to be at a higher position and is definitely more powerful, chances are that we may cross each others path and he will make my life miserable. Anyways...let them make an offer first. Then we will see. Baba - show me the way and help me take the right decisions.....I dont want to go wrong here...

Baba..another thing - got the x ray reports for my son. Looks like he has some adenoids and sinus related issue. I'll get him started on homeopathy. I hope he recovers soon. He has become so weak and cranky.....


Let today be a good day baba.....i owe it to you...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 04, 2010, 08:24:56 AM
Dear baba...today was a strange day. It began on a bad note. Actually, last night S had come over for dinner. And u know how ill my son is. So i told my mil not to cook anything and we will order from outside. But it so happened that it hurt S so much that he left without having dinner. I didnt know about it. All this while i was thinking that he really didnt want to eat and thats why he left. Until i recd my father's call today morning saying that P (S's dad and my uncle) is very upset due to the bad treatment S recd at my home. No dinner was prepared. And the worst part is that my father was totally convinced that i was at fault. Actually not me, but my mil. Now this really ticked me...i know i dont have any great relation with my mil. But i dont want her to be accused wrongly. It was my suggestion to get food from outside. And when my dad started saying things, i really lost my cool. I shouted at him and cried. I felt bad that all this while, i didnt see the mask that S was wearing. I realized my mother was correct. Its important to keep the distance. Otherwise S and co think that they own u and u will do as they please. Then my father got upset and i cried even more. Finally i realized that after all i am a manager - why cant i handle these people. So i tactfully called and spoke to them and defused the situation. Next problem - my mil was in her "moods" today morning. I got so upset because just 5 mins before i was defending her in front of my father and S and now she was spewing venom against me....But again, i handled the situation tactfully and i can say "All is well" :) So that ways -  i want to pat my back and thank u for giving me the good sense to handle these poeple...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 05, 2010, 09:04:32 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 06, 2010, 11:00:19 AM
Dear baba...I am going to begin the search for a house close to my house for my father. Please bless me and be with me. I am begining this task with your name on my lips and ur picture on my mind.

Baba...please let everything be alright
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 08, 2010, 09:01:19 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 10, 2010, 02:37:28 AM
Dear baba...Gud morning.
Things are fine as of now. But i want it to continue like this....i mean...i want my father to stay with me and my family and my mil to stay in usa with her daughter. That ways all is taken care of. But baba...is it likely to happen?? I dont know.....please give me a sign.....

Also baba - i got an offer from M today. Dont know if i should join there or not.......can u please advice??
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: marioban29 on March 11, 2010, 09:26:36 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 11, 2010, 09:43:43 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 14, 2010, 11:04:08 PM
Dear Baba....Firstly, I want to thank you for my son's result. he has done very well in school and i am so happy with the progress he has made. All thanks to you :)
Secondly, baba - my offer in M does not seem to be that rosy. I can see there are issues right from the word go. N hates me and is the head there. my position and designation is not clear. Looks like they have offered me on a lower scale than my current status. As it is the work i will do there is an individual contributor role rather than the manager's role i have currently. the lady i am supposed to report to is N's friend and quite political. The timings may not be that flexible and the moeny isn't that great. So do u think i should consider it? Please help.
Finally - my father left today morning to his home. I am sad. The last one week was so good. I had lots of work...but i did it my way and my dad really helped me and the best part is that my son and my dad had each others company. Baba....why cant this be the situation through out? My mil can stay with her daughter and my dad can stay with me.....please  baba....make this happen....
Help me sainath to take the right decisions and to work towards my goal.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: marioban29 on March 15, 2010, 03:27:35 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 16, 2010, 09:22:37 PM
Dear Baba...gud morning. U know how things are going on in my life...so nothing much to update. But baba...i think the M people are really unprofessional. They offer me a position that is much below my current profile and designation. N has really got a problem with me. I think this is the first time someone has so much of a problem with me professionally. And to think we have not worked together ever. I dont want to be a pawn in anyone's hands (except yours). I dont want anyone to misuse me. And i will not take any nonsense from others. But baba...i have a problem - i am a little too soft. I need to learn to play hard and negotiate hard. Pata nahi kab seekhoongi. Baba...i have now put all my problems onto your feet. Ab aap jo decide karte hain, wohi hoga...Bas baba....just ensure that i am able to take care of my father. I want him to be with me.....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 16, 2010, 10:21:23 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: marioban29 on March 17, 2010, 07:34:42 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 17, 2010, 09:10:46 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 17, 2010, 09:18:42 PM
Good  morning baba. Dont know when i will do something....i keep complaining and hoping for a better life but am not doing anything about it. Every day i promise that it will be a different day today where i will stick to my goals and not break my promise. But by the end of the day, i have broken all the promises i made. And this is happeninf for years now!! I am so unhappy baba. I could not control this even when my mother was almost gone....pata nahi kya hoga baba!! :(
I know my capabilities and i know what i can really do. I am wasting my life and one day i will be gone. I will regret not taking action sooner....Please help me sainath....please do something....

I dont know if i should be promising something..because i am not sure if i can keep them.....baba please guide me. All i can say is that i will try not to let you and my parents down......
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: nitin_super on March 17, 2010, 09:44:11 PM
Om Sai Ram
Jai Sai Ram
 
May Baba give you strength to fight with negativity..

Jai Sai Naath
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 19, 2010, 09:23:50 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 21, 2010, 08:54:16 PM
Dear baba...i am in a very strange situation. To begin with - my personal life is disturbed...since i am worried about my father. I am trying all i can to get him closer to me. But u know what, nothing is working out. Its as if the universe is conspiring against me. I am in such a state that whatever i do, doesnt work out. Professionally - evern worse - i got 2 offers - good money everything was fine except that i had to break the self imposed constraints and hence could not take them up. So i refused or turned down the offer. baba...what is this!!!At work - u know the unstable situation and deep unrest within the team. U also know that nothing can be done to improve the situation.....
Where do i go baba....i am so upset and let down....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 22, 2010, 09:03:24 PM
Gud morning baba....
I know for sure that the day i get up early and do all the things i promised to do, things are going to be fine. But dont know when that day will come!! Baba....please please please....do something baba.
Another thing - i want to say sorry baba..for visiting an astrology site and posting my queries there. I know how u feel about astrologers and all. After all, u r the greatest astrologer. U only decide what has to happen, then why did i go there yesterday? I broke my own rule baba. Sorry for that. I dont know why i did it. I am very anxious for my father dear lord. and its for him that i need to do all this. Please excuse me.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 23, 2010, 05:48:52 AM
Baba...i got a reply from the astrologer...things are not very favourable as per him. But he was nice. anyways..i am closing that chapter for ever. It has made my resolve even more stronger. I am going to pray to you to help me out. I have nowhere else to go. U and u alone can sort out my problems.....Favourable or unfavourable - everything is in your hands. I just have to work accordingly. The astrologer said that it was all due to my past karmas. Maybe thats true - but i would like to ennsure that my father does not suffer due to my wrong deeds or my karmas. He certainly deserves a much better life. Please baba - do something. Waise - i know i am the one to take action. i need to comply with all that i promised...i know - the day i do this, everything will fall in place for me....
I live on hope baba.........
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 23, 2010, 09:02:50 PM
Dear Baba...Today is such an auspicious day - its ramnavmi and i started the day on the right note. I woke up at 4AM. It was a long tussle between exercising and sleeping and finally, i chose the right option :) I exercised from 4 to 5. Then started studying...but could not keep my eyes open :( so slept off. In any case, i did get started and i am happy about it. I hope to continue this....please be with me...always
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 25, 2010, 12:15:07 AM
Dear Baba...as usual...i couldnt get up in the morning and could not do half the things i had wanted to do. So bad on my part!!! I dont know when i will improve....
Ok...i am going to clear all pending work today. Hopefully i will feel better by the end of the day. How was ramnavmi yesterday for you baba?
One more thing - today i felt like offering you sugar candy. I bought 100gms on my way to work. Then when i reached office, i prayed to you and placed some candies in a container and have kept the container next to your photo. I hope u eat some candy or at least accept something....

Take care
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: marioban29 on March 25, 2010, 08:37:28 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 25, 2010, 08:55:03 PM
Baba...last night i dreamt of my mother....she died last May but still i felt her with me last night. Its not that i was dreaming...i felt her for real. Both of us were in a conversation and we both knew that she was not alive...still we spoke and i kissed her hand and said - "Ma...stay back...stay with me...dont go back". For this - she said - "I cannot stay with u permanently...i have to go back...but u can always feel me....and i touched her hand..." Baba...i was in tears and i saw that it was 4:30 in the morning. I should have woken up and exercised and studied. But i didnt. I just wanted to continue feeling her presence....baba...i miss her so much. My father misses her so much.....Our happy family is ruined...destroyed....Today it is 10 months since she left us. I still cry everyday for her. Though i myself am 35 years of age...still i continue crying for her....why did u do this baba??
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: marioban29 on March 26, 2010, 07:14:36 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: HARSHAYU G DESAI on March 26, 2010, 07:36:08 AM
sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai  sai
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sai.
baba pls...bless vidyarapji and you beome his mother and take care of him make him happy and fulfill his all wish sooooooon take care of his father also om sai ram.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 27, 2010, 03:06:03 AM
Dear Baba....i am starting to look for a house near my place. Bless me baba and i hope i dont face any stumbling blocks in this quest. Everything that i do, doesnt work baba....dont know why??  I got my appraisal yesterday. 7.5%....not bad..not gud...still...i have no regrets....
Take care of all baba....i am worried..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 28, 2010, 09:26:31 PM
Gud morning baba. Yet another day...but my problem still persists. Baba...what do i do?? I need to bring my father here...but baba...where do i get all the money from? Even if i take huge loan...i still wont be able to make things work out baba....i am worried.....
As for work...i have stopped looking for options. Since nothing seems to work out for me. Everything i touch, becomes dust...so am scared to try. Its always been like this baba....when i was in school (class X)...then Class XII...graduation...post grad...the only time i think i have had luck on my side was when i was in school (i was a topper...but i would attribute that to my hard work and ur grace)...and secondly when i did my post grad ( i was lucky to crack the entrance exam and lucky to get a decent job through campus)...beyond this, i've always found myself craving for things that came easily to others...onsite trips...smooth marriage...child...i've struggled for everything..i have had to beg and plead at each stage....Why?? As far as i know, i am not the kind to harm others and gain something out of it. I've always been or lets say tried to be a good human being..i've always done my duties...still i am here...begging and pleading.....I find it unfair!!
And now this time, things have prolonged quite a bit...there seems to be no respite. Ok baba...i know u r trying to test me...but i am not going to fail!!! I will not fail!!! I want my father's happiness...and i am going to do all that it takes to get him to be with me......And i know u will support me through this and give me the strength to see things through......
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: sainidhi on March 29, 2010, 01:56:36 AM
Dear Vidyarp...
How ru now...i logged in to this site after a long time and certainly saw ur posts,I read all ur posts today ///while rushing from this corner to that (bussy wid daily office routine)
Dear u have immense power...power to bear, to handle ,to cope ,to move, to work hard , to break all hurdles and to make others happy....
Never b troubled becoz of others there r ppl who r nt gud as u thus they try to trouble u and sperad negativity around .
Not to b pareshan....Chill aur i do understand when u miss ur mother dear,,,,,,,,,,but do keep in mind she is always on this planet in form of u ,ur views ur wiseness the wisdom  that u hold she  has brought u up the behaviour in u ur thinking pattern all is her blessing............and she is there with u ever though u may not c her .................

Keep faith

Sai is really dayalu

JAI SAI NATH
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 29, 2010, 08:46:57 PM
Dear Sainidhi...How can i thank you....i am speechless....U know why?? Because i had once dreamt of baba in green colored clothes and had seen him like that in some picture. I searched a lot for his photo in this very green shade. I searched for months but couldnt get it. Today when i saw your post, i saw the same picture in your profile. I am so thankful to you. I feel as if baba himself has come and given me darshan....
Jai sai nath.....

Now i know today will be a good day.... :)
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 30, 2010, 10:31:08 PM
Good morning baba....yesterday and day before were a revelation to me in terms of how i work. My boss has been asking for some data that i have been unable to provide him for some time now. I have been avoiding it for long but finally realized that if i dont give him what he wants, i am in a deep mess. As such, i found myself lacking time to do all the things. Then i went to him and shared my problems with him. And he gave me a nice wallloping!! I think i deserved it...i have been turning a blind eye to many things...i need to tighten the screws. I have let my people have a very easy time while i slogged it out. What he told me made perfect sense. So lots of learning happening....

Thanks a lot baba....hopefully things should look better at work front....and i am hoping for a miracle at the home front...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 31, 2010, 11:11:24 PM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 01, 2010, 01:03:04 AM
Dear baba....i believe in you.....

Jaakho raakhe saiyaa, maar sake na koye...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 05, 2010, 12:54:25 AM
Good morning dear baba....Today my son has gone to his new class. I feel good for him. Also, i spent 3 wonderful days with my father in my hometown. I am happy. But i am sad at the same time because i see my father brooding for my mother....how can i help him to overcome that grief? I am worried because i need to bring him closer to me. But will he be able to adjust to the lifestyle in a new city, leaving behind the place where he stayed for 36 years, leaving behind all the friends, all the memories...only to adjust to a new place just because i want him closer to me!! I dont know...what do i do??
Show me the right path baba...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 05, 2010, 01:21:05 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 05, 2010, 11:02:22 PM
Dear Baba....i am restless today. I dont know why? I want my father to be happy...how do i do it? I dont know....if only i found i way to achieve all that i want to achieve.....

Om sai ram....please bring some peace in my life..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 05, 2010, 11:28:06 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: nitin_super on April 05, 2010, 11:51:48 PM
OM SAI RAM
Vidyarp,

 Restless is the human nature. We all face this situations but if we remember Baba in this situations then Sai Nath will surely give us peace. Restless may be because of our past bad karma. If we keep faith in Sai Ram, he will pull out us from the tough situation.

 We should think like this, this problem can be so huge to handle but with the Baba's grace it became only mental restlessness. Remember Sai Baba when ever you feel upset. Sai Nath help us for sure. And I have no doubt on this. I am saying this with my experience. I am sure you might be aware with the Baba's miracles. He can't see his devotees in pain.

Baba told us,"Shradhaa and Saburi" which means, "Faith and Patience".
So leave everything on Baba and pray him to remove effects of our sins.
If we are in Sai Shelter, then
If something good is happening just because of Baba's sake
And if something bad is happening just because of our Bad Karmas.
So we should ask Sai Nath to forgive us for our sins.

Sai Nath you know everything. I know you always come to save your children from sorrow.

Please listen our prayer Sai Baba and bless us with your kindness..
You are our only hope in life. Without you our life is nothing...

Jai Sai Nath
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 06, 2010, 11:06:55 PM
Baba...what a fool i am!! I kept searching for some miracle prayer that would solve all my problems. I thought if i could read or chant that mantra, everything will be alright. I kept telling you my problems but i also kept telling you the solution that i wanted. I am an idiot!! I forgot that i should be leaving everything in your hands. I should just tell u my problems and stop at that. How u solve it, when u solve it....all is decided by u. Also, u know best about the situation. U have opened my eyes. I should not look outside for solace. Rather i should look inside, into my consciousness, into my spirit, for strength, love and faith. There can be no mantra or japa beyond true devotion. If i truly love you and believe you, i just need to connect with you directly...maybe through naam jaap or any other mode....what is the use of reading holy scriptures and chanting prayers when i am more concerned about chanting for a fixed count or i have a timeline set that i need to finish within a day / week / month. I feel its meaningless. Love and devotion cannot be time bound. Does a mother say that i need to spend 10 minutes with my child positively? She spends as much time as she wants to spend and can spend. And that time is truly blissful since its filled with pure love. Similarly, I am not going to time box my love for you baba. And i am not going to look here and there for the magic mantra. I am not going to do something that i dont understand. All i know is that if i am honest in my intentions, i have faith in my heart and courage in my spirit, i will reach you...my thoughts will reach you and everything will be alright............
Oh baba...i am so thankful to you......I just request one more thing - please help me stay focussed and let my thoughts never stray from you...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: nitin_super on April 06, 2010, 11:19:22 PM
Jai Sai Ram
Om Sai Ram

Bless all of us Sai Nath.

Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 07, 2010, 02:10:32 AM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 07, 2010, 11:09:21 PM
Gud morning baba.....i just want to say that i dedicate this day to you and hope that u will see me through this successfully..........
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: nitin_super on April 07, 2010, 11:26:49 PM
Jai Sai Ram

Aameen...

May Baba bless all of us...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 07, 2010, 11:37:05 PM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: sainidhi on April 08, 2010, 12:53:49 AM
Hi Vidyarp
om jai sai ram ...........U wote very clearly that how can a mother say that,I m going to spend 10 minutes daily with the child..........she always wants to spend as much as possible time with the child!!!!
But madam, when it comes to reading holy book else some kind of prayer...in the initial phase when someone switch to these kinds of practices its not very easy to adopt them fully as there is lot of distraction,which often results in repulsion from these daily practices ........wheras according to the psychology any thing that we do daily gives impact on the mind that we have to do it.......and thus at one point of time mind starts accepting its importance and thus it comes to us like blood in the body .......

......apart from this how is ur father ,son and hubby i hope they guys are doing good !!!!

Don't worry for anything life will be good soon and he will take careof u in his own manner which is unique and unknown to us

Jai sai ram
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 08, 2010, 10:33:55 PM
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Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: nitin_super on April 08, 2010, 10:36:13 PM
Om Shri Sai Naathay Namha..
May Baba bless all of us..

Baba keep ur kindness on us...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 08, 2010, 10:40:14 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 11, 2010, 11:43:41 PM
Dear baba...i have so many things to tell u....this weekend i went to see couple of houses for my father. Didnt like any. The ones i like are out of budget...still i am pursuing this project with full energy. I dont know if i shared this with u earlier....but about 5 days back i saw a dreamm where i am house hunting for my father along with my husband. I go to a particular house and there i see that on the show case, there is a black ganesh idol. I am overwhelmed because its the same idol i have in my parents place. I start crying and tell my husband that this idol is the same as my home and i am lucky to have seen this here in this house. AT this point i woke up from my dream. Now, yesterday evening, we went to see a particular house, which belongs to my husband's friend. As soon as i stepped into the drawing room, i saw a black ganesha..i was speechless....I liked the house and so did my father and husband. The house is within budget...a little out of way..but not very far from my house. What do u suggest baba? Is this the one??
Baba...so many things happening...just help me stay on the right track dear lord.....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 12, 2010, 06:21:15 AM
Dear baba...i have got my answer :) Thank you. U really do work in mysterious ways. I was zapped to read the answer that u gave me in the sai baba question and answer site!! U knew about the dream ;D So baba...its final i will look at buying the house i saw yesterday. Thanks a lot my dear friend...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: nitin_super on April 12, 2010, 10:19:55 PM
Bless me Baba with your kindness.
Rahen nazar karo ab more Sai
Tum bin nahi mujhe Maa Baap Bhai...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 12, 2010, 11:14:42 PM
Gud morning baba....kaise thank karoo !!! I got the device i lost yesterday. I was upset because it was my mother's gift to my father. I cannot lose it. I am thankful to u for helping me to get it back.

Baba....u r great....and u really listen to sincere prayers...Please let this day be a great day...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 12, 2010, 11:52:51 PM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 13, 2010, 10:31:09 PM
Gud morning baba...i could not go to the temple today..but please baba...make this day a success by blessing me....i will do all my work on time and will not leave anything pending...

Om shirdi vasaye vidmahe satchitanandaye dhimahi tanno sai prachodayath
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: nitin_super on April 13, 2010, 11:46:50 PM
Om Sai Ram
Jai Sai Ram

Om Shri Sai Nathay Namha
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 14, 2010, 11:34:33 PM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 14, 2010, 11:40:00 PM
Om shirdi vasayhe vidmahe satchitanandaye dhimahi tanno sai prachodayath
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: nitin_super on April 15, 2010, 12:00:33 AM
Baba,

Mere kashto ka ab ant kar do. Sai Nath ab man ko shanti do. Baba tum to sab jaanate ho, mujhe tum pe kitana bharosa hai. Hamesha tumare paas douda aata hu, jaise ek nadaan bachha pareshani me maa maa chillata hua douda aata hai. Apane is bachhe ki taraf thodi daya karo Sai Maa.
Mai tumse kab alag hu.
Tumhi ho maata
Pita tumhi ho
Tumhi ho bandhu
Sakha tumhi ho

Mere maalik rahem karo.
Deva mere jivan me khusiyan la do. Mere paapo ke liye ab chhama kar do deva.. Apani dayalu drishti rakho baba..

Jai Sai Nath.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 15, 2010, 03:42:53 AM
Dear Baba...please listen to Nitin's problems and help him to overcome them.....

Nitin - have faith. God's delays are not God's denials. If u want to, u can share ur problems with me.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: nitin_super on April 15, 2010, 05:28:01 AM
Thanks dear,
 sister Vidyarp praying for me. Didi I also have a lot of faith on Baba. I cant imagine my life without Sai Nath. He is my only hope. Thats why I use to weep in front of him for my problems. I know Baba will do everything fine one day. I know may be just because of my past bad karmas as i read in Sai Saicharit. I am asking Baba please now forgive me for my sins if i did in past. And bless me with his mercy.

 I would like to share my problem with you dear sister, may be some other time will surely explain u. I am bit hesitate to tell in open forum. Only can say these situation killing me like hell. Sometime I think to end up my life...

But I know Baba will do fine one day. I am just seeking mercy of Baba. So that I can overcome from this situation.

Jai Sai Ram
Om Sai Ram
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: nitin_super on April 15, 2010, 06:21:00 AM
साईं रहम नज़र करना, बच्चो का पालन करना
जाना तुमने जगत ही सारा, सबही झूठ ज़माना
साईं रहम नज़र करना बच्चो का पालन करना
मै अँधा हूँ बंदा आपका, मुझसे प्रभु दिखलाना
साईं रहम नज़र करना बच्चो का पालन करना
दास तेरा कहे अब क्या बोलू थक गयी मेरी रसना
साईं रहम नज़र करना बच्चो का पालन करना
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 15, 2010, 10:11:20 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: nitin_super on April 15, 2010, 10:22:26 PM
Jai Sai Ram

Om Sai Ram

Baba daya karana...

Please remove the effects of my bad karmas..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 15, 2010, 11:23:00 PM
Gud morning dear baba....today my mil has gone out of station so i am working from home. It does feel good to be at home sometimes :) but baba...i am not complaining. U have given me a job that ensures i can take care of my needs and my family's needs. U have ensured that i do full justice to the education i have received and the sweat and blood that my parents have put in on me. So thanks baba for all that u have given me.

Baba - please take care of nitin's problems. Bless him baba.

And Nitin - never ever think of giving up your life. Jeevan dena aur lena...sirf bhagwan ke haath mein hai.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: nitin_super on April 15, 2010, 11:54:49 PM
Jai Sai Ram, Vidyarp Ji,

Thanks for your support. May Baba give u all the pleasure in life. Yes I know only Baba is having right for Life and Death of all human beings on earth. He is master of all.

 Sai Nath give me peace of mind. I know if didn't get some thing then it means you have something better for me. I have full trust u Baba. So please give me strength to be calm in this situation and change my mind according to your wish.
Baba thak gaya hu ab bahut.. Bass ab daya drishti kar dijiye. Mere bad deeds k liye mujhe maaf kar dijiye aur apni kripa kariye.

Sai Nath ek tera hi sahaara.

 
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 16, 2010, 11:12:46 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 19, 2010, 01:16:08 AM
Dear lord...i had a hectic weekend. I was working from home on friday. But baba...i am so tired..and exhausted. I know i promised u that i will not wallow in self pity, still, i feel so burdened and so much under pressure. I dont know where i will end up. I am not sure that i like the work and the office and my boss...and i cant stay at home...but i need the money to take care of my father and family. Plus if i buy a house for my father, i will have to take a loan. In order to repay that, i'll need to continue working at this pace....so back to square one...
I know ...i keep repeating my problems...kya karoo....resolve nahi ho raha hai na....
Today morning, while driving to work, i was almost crying...what's wrong with me baba? Why am i going to pieces? Is it mid life crisis? I have so many things to do...then why dont i just do it? Why is it such a big pain? Its not that i have some serious problems in life. Apart from my mother's death, i think u have been very kind to me. U have given me good parents, good education, a job that pays fairly well, a decent career, a wonderful husband, a not-so-bad mother in law and an absolutely adorable son. Then why am i so upset?? Why do i feel the burden? Basically i think i dont have an objective in life. I am just doing things that come my way and dont have a long term goal or vision. I just want to sit back and relax. I must not allow myself to get rusted. I have the calibre and the capability. Just that i dont want to use it. Sad!! And then i let that bother me so much. Why am i so afraid of hard work? I have always been such a good student and all due to the hard work i have put in. Then what went wrong?? Maybe i need a kick on my back and a tight slap to help me get back to the real world. Nothing comes for free. U need to earn it or work for it.... And nothing tastes sweeter than success.
Oh baba....please shower ur mercy on me and help me find myself back...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 20, 2010, 05:27:23 AM
Dear lord...i saw another house yesterday evening near my house. Its small but nice. The best part is that it is 5 mins by walk from my house. Ideal for my father. But baba, i kept looking for the signs - like ganesha's statute ...like the one i saw in my dream. I didnt see any :( Dont know baba, when will we buy a house for my father :( :( I am kind of getting upset because i seem to be so concerned and my husband thinks i am over reacting. What do i do baba? Should i go ahead with this house or should i wait for S's house? S's house is nice but at a distance and out of the way. Plus parking menace is heavy there. Oh god...if only i can get a house in my colony....

Please please please..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 20, 2010, 11:56:09 PM
Gud morning baba...today i spent some time talking to u in the temple. This is just a follow up message...i hope u bear with me and help me overcome my problems. baba...all i want is to be able to keep my father happy and close to me and my son, husband. How u do it...i leave it to u....no point in proposing diff solutions. Although at my end, i have started the house humting project.
At work - things are hectic and i am learning...so no complaints....But at times, my boss can be a pain...
I know i get lower than the market standards and i can get more if i try outside. Just that i dont want to earn more money at the cost of my time spent with family...i guess these are dependent on priorities in life. I chose not to go abroad and i chose a job with lower pay but very flexible...all for a reason...so i cannot complain.
But baba...please keep my problem in mind and please please provide a solution to it soon....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 21, 2010, 11:09:49 PM
Dear baba....gud morning. I saw a dream early today morning, where i was going on a holiday or something with my family. I clearly saw that i got down and offered bread to lord hanuman and i saw the words "Sundarakand" clearly written in a sign board. What do i make of this baba? Is this a sign?? 2 weeks ago i saw lord ganesha in my dreams when i was going house hunting. I saw that the ganesha at my parents place was sitting on the show case of a house that we had gone prospecting.....baba...are these signs for something?? Should i be doing something about it??
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 23, 2010, 12:58:59 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 23, 2010, 05:06:31 AM
Bahut problem hai baba....ghar mein bhi and office mein bhi. Nobody seems to understand. Dont know how i will cope with this. At times, i feel like giving it up...and then i think of my father and my son....

How will i carry on baba?? And what about the house?? Oh dear lord...why are there so many uncertainities in life?
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: saib on April 23, 2010, 07:49:11 AM
Life is a challenge at every step! Cannot be ignored! Matter is how We face all that!
Trust Sai! He won’t let his devotee fall down due to burden on his shoulders for his karmas!
He shows the right way at most appropriate time!

om sri sai ram!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 25, 2010, 10:28:21 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 25, 2010, 11:22:30 PM
Om shirdi vasaye vidmahe satchitanandaye dhimahi tanno sai prachodayath

Baba...i liked the house and think that the price is manageable. Please let me know if this decision is correct or not. I took your name and started the venture. Now baba, its upto u to carry it on to success. Also, dear lord, i got up early today morning and did what i promised to do.

Please baba...help me and be with me...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 26, 2010, 10:46:05 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 26, 2010, 11:31:06 PM
Dear baba...too many things happening together...we may get the car by this weekend. So most likely i will have to do some running around to dispose the older one. When do i do...is another question all together. Another thing - s called and said that his house is almost sold off to someone else. Fine! But i would've appreciated if he had at least intimated....chalo theek hai....jaane do....
Now baba..we need to move fast in closing the deal for other house. Today i'll have to check with the loan etc.....

Lots of work....but i am not complaining....thank you baba...for helping me out and being with me every step and every day....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 27, 2010, 10:30:02 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 27, 2010, 11:02:00 PM
Gud morning dear baba...i am very thankful to you baba - u know why? Today i came to office in my own car :) I had always dreamt of driving my own car to work and today that happened. Ok, so the car is not new since my husband was driving it. But still....today "I" drove it and i feel gud :)

Ok now baba - u've got to help me to finalize the house deal. And also u need to help with the loan processing etc. Lots to do baba....please show me the way. Dont let me fall down....lots of money is at stake...and this is my father's and my hard earned money. I dont want to let it go waste. Please!!!

On my part - i am reading the sundara kand everyday...no fixed pages or chapters...just whatever i can do...i do it with full sincerity and purity. Also, i am no longer worried about what others say or do. I know that people will never portray their true intentions...so i need not attach value to what they say. So i am not carrying any tension. But yes...theres a lot of work to do - both at work and at home. So i need to get out of my laid-back mode and go full throttle. I need to plan my day. Help me
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 28, 2010, 10:07:58 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 28, 2010, 11:11:21 PM
Daya karo ab more sai, tum bin nahi mujhe ma baap bhai....

Baba...gud morning. Sorry..got up late today and couldnt read SK. I am really sorry for that. I will put double efforts on the same tomorrow.
U know what happened yesterday with my mil. And u know what she has been doing all these years. For every tear i shed and for every painful words i hear, i think of you. Maybe i am repaying the debts of my previous birth...but koi nahi...somthing gud will come out of it. the trick is to ignore all such things that are not relevant and absorb only those things that matter. So i will keep going strong. No time for self pity and no time for anger/frustrations and cribbing....

Thank u baba...

Baba...please please help us to get the house i saw in my colony baba........
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 29, 2010, 11:29:18 PM
Gud morning dear lord.....dont know how things will proceed. Baba...please help us to get that house...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 30, 2010, 10:52:59 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 02, 2010, 10:54:27 PM
Gud morning dear lord....my father is here with me. yesterday we went to meet the prospective seller of the house. He will respond on wednesday. I am crossing my fingers. Hope this comes through baba......

Om shirdi vasaye vidmahe satchitanandaye dhimahi tanno sai prachodayath.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 03, 2010, 11:30:21 PM
Baba...gud morning.
I am troubled....i dont know what i am doing in life. I am happy some days and sad the other days. If my boss praises me, i feel like doing better. The day he yells, i want to quit....how can things be like this? I have been promising so many things...setup deadlines and milestones for myself and have achieved NOTHING. I am doing NOTHING. I cant see to get outof the rut!!! Small thing - i planned to lose weight and work out for the past one year..but haven;t done anything. That means i am ok with my current state. If i had a problem, i wouldnt have stopped. Same goes for my certification course...same goes for the countless promises i made to you on what i will be doing!!

I am fed up!! How can i not want to do anything i plan??? Am i lazy? I dont think so. Am i just whiling away my time?? I dont think so again. What is stopping me? Its not that i dont know the problem and i dont know the solution. I know...but inaction is what i excel in. This is ridiculous. someday when i die, i will look back at all these times and cry that i had the time, had the means...but i didnt do it. Help me baba.

Maybe i need to relook at the priorities in life and see where i should invest more. How do i do it?
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: adwaita on May 03, 2010, 11:40:55 PM
Vidya ji, this is nice way of being close to our lord. Be positive always. Don't say you did nothing and please do not complain anytime. When we see from god's point of view our problems are nothing in front of others'. Please start your day with a smile. Smile everyday when you get up, your whole day goes well. Baba be with you always.

om sai ram.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 04, 2010, 01:41:47 AM
Thank you so much adwaita. It makes me feel better. Maybe too much of thinking and planning is the problem. The key is to get started.

Today i made a list of all things i need to do in office. That kept me busy for sometime. Once i had the list ready, i assigned the people who should do it and the timelines. After that, i handed out the work others needed to do and have now started working on the tasks that i have to do. You know what - this made me happy. This made me feel that all is not lost. All it requires is channelizign the energies correctly. What i was doing earlier was i tried to do too many things at the same time and was buring my energy in all directions. The end result was zero. but today i picked up only those things that i needed to do. i feel the difference already.....

One step at a time...baba is always with me..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: adwaita on May 04, 2010, 02:55:02 AM
That's very nice vidya ji. Just take baba's name and start it, everything will go fine.

om sai ram.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on May 04, 2010, 10:29:18 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 04, 2010, 11:41:09 PM
Dear lord..yesterday my boss gave me sound advice on time mgmt and self mgmt. This was good and i know i will benefit if i practice it. Dont know when i can learn and improve.....

Baba.....today is an important day - ghar and gaadi - both are scheduled for today.....please baba....take care of everything.....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on May 05, 2010, 11:42:43 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 06, 2010, 03:07:50 AM
Dear baba...sorry for not writing to u in the morning. I got caught with lot of work. Dont know what to do about the unprofessionalism and politics here. I cant play these games and am always at the receiving end. How can we survive baba? And u know my position right now....cant quit because of the loan. How will i manage baba??

As for the house...please please please baba....let things turn out fine. I want my father's happiness and for that i can put up with anything.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 07, 2010, 03:50:10 AM
Baba...we got our car yesterday. R is so happy...The gud part is that we could get the puja done at ur temple. I am satisfied....But baba...on the house related issue...things are not moving at the desired pace. I am yet to receive confirmation on whther W wants to sell or not. daddy has already disposed his house....dont know what will happen......please please please baba....let things happen in the right direction. I am not going to pray for this and that. All i say is that i want my father to be with me..close to me and i want his happiness. How u do it, i dont know. I have surrendered my problems to u...
Also baba...got to know of yet another restructuring in the organization. dont know the impact...but it keeps me jittery...dont know how i will fare..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on May 07, 2010, 11:50:41 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 10, 2010, 12:18:27 AM
Gud morning dear lord. THANK YOU......i have no words to say....for all that u have done for me. I am so happy i cannot tell u.....thanks a million for getting us the house baba. But for you, things wouldnt have moved and i would have been miserable.

Baba...please bless us all. And i want to thank you specially for helping me see that i am fortunate to have all the things i have. There are so many people who have much lesser than what i have. So baba...i should not crib and i definitely should learn to love my job and my life....

thank u for opening my eyes..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on May 11, 2010, 01:03:21 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on May 14, 2010, 11:06:22 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 16, 2010, 10:48:23 PM
Gud morning dear lord....i am back from my trip. It was a fun filled 5 days with family and i really thank you for everything. I missed my mother a lot. But i know she is with u and u will keep her happy.

God...please let everything be alright. I am trying to change the way i think and perform...help me please...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 18, 2010, 10:31:34 PM
Om shirdi vasaye vidmahe satchitanandaya dhimahi tanno sai prachodayath.

Baba....its getting really expensive (the house proposition). I hope i keep getting a steady flow of money to match up with it. I cant take any more from my father...since he will need it himself. Baba...please .....take care of this issue.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: sainidhi on May 19, 2010, 03:39:50 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 19, 2010, 10:33:26 PM
Gud morning baba.....please make this day a happy one...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on May 19, 2010, 10:56:56 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 21, 2010, 02:43:39 AM
Baba...sorry..i couldnt write to u in the morning. yesterday, i realized that it is so important to earn and be independent. Otherwise people dont respect u. It was sad. But chalo...jaane do...

Bhagwan - please ensure that i can take care of all my needs and that of my father and son. I dont want to take anyone else's help. I know R is a gud person and very concerned. But the way he reacted yesterday...it made me realize that apart from parents, no one else is truly feeling for me. They and they alone can understand me the most.

Baba....please take care of all.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on May 22, 2010, 12:45:18 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 23, 2010, 11:25:10 PM
Gud morning dear lord....
I am sorry for wasting my time and energy in things that are meaningless. I will not do this again. Yesterday, we made another set of payment to the seller. Baba...i am happy that my father will finally be close to me. I am sad when i think about last year when my mother was on her death bed. Last 24th, we stopped her platellete compensation and let her pass out in the ICU. There was nothing else we could do. I still remember the discussion we had with the doctor. We were keeping her alive and on ventilator and were pumping in things fully knowing she would never come back. That day - 24th May 2009, we decided to put an end to her agony. We wanted her to go in peace. And i think 24th was the day when she received the vibhuti from shirdi. today - one year later - i am reliving the terrible days. I am sad about what has happened. But yes...i am also thankful to u baba - for opening avenues for me to be closer to my father. Its been a long and tough year for all of us....
I meandered and blundered through the emotional and spiritual turmoil. I seeked help where ever i could...tried to take refuge in different elements. Finally i reached u.....more than me reaching u...it was u who reached out to me....
I still remember vividly the dream where u appeared. So baba....that was clear indication that u are going to be taking care of things for me provided i listen to u...
Baba..through these years and times, i promised to do so many things...and always managed to break them. In fact, it doesnt bother me now. Thats the sad state of affairs.
The only promise i seem to be keeping is the one i made when my mother died - that i will take care of my father. I am still working on it.
i am rambling....but baba....all i can say is u have made me a stronger human being.....

Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 24, 2010, 10:51:35 PM
Gud morning baba...
As u know, went for the interview today. But in the first 10 mins it was clear that this will not work out for me. The travel and long hours will not go down well with my family. So, i dropped it. Baba...i think i am fine where i am. So i shouldn't be worrying...but yes, i must keep trying and also keep updating my skills, lest i become redundant. So SSBB is a must do for me. Baba...today my father will go alone for checkup. I feel sad that i couldnt be with him. And more than that, i will not be going tomorrow as well. But thats a decision i took.
Baba...take care of everything.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 25, 2010, 10:17:54 PM
Good morning baba....today is 26th May 2010. Its exactly one year since my mother passed away. I am sad.....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on May 25, 2010, 10:26:16 PM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: jayaprada on May 27, 2010, 01:01:35 AM
Respected Baba, Iam having lot of problems in my marriage life from the day of my marriage. My husband is very angry man. For every small things he used to get irrated and he will be waiting to punish me. For past 4 years iam living with my parents. He is in Dubai Once in year he makes visit. Even then he used to fight with me. Iam blessed with a daughter of 5years old. Iam an employee. Iam doing my job and iam taking care of my child for past 2years he didn't come to see us also. for past 5 month he is not talking with me. He will talk with child over phone once in a while.what is wrong with him i doesn't know? When my marriage life will be happy? he is going to come and join us? My daughter will be blessed with a father love? Iam trying my johb in Banaglore. Will it be successful. Iwant to move to that city with my daughter alone. Is it a correct decision? please answer to my problems? Jai sai Ram
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 27, 2010, 10:38:56 PM
Dear Jayaprada.....i understand your problem. It is tough when you dont get support from your loved ones. Please have faith in Baba....he is just testing you. Its a question of time. Have firm faith and patience. Things will turn out fine. Just keep chanting Sai Sai...and leave the rest to him.

Baba - i pray for Jayaprada.....Om shirdi vasaye vidmahe satchitanandaya dhimahi tanno sai prachodayath.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on May 27, 2010, 11:34:37 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 30, 2010, 10:18:56 AM
Dear baba...just got my test results. I have a high level of TSH i.e. i have a thyroid problem !!! Can things get any worse?? But chalo...now that i know that i have a problem, i can find ways to sort it out as well. I cant afford to be ill. Not till i have ensured my dad's comfort.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 30, 2010, 10:28:27 PM
Dear baba...gud morning. I am stuck!! In a rut!! and things are only getting worse.....how am i ever going to live through this baba!! but i have to live - for my father and son. I cant go...not right now. Why cant things be fine...why do i have to go thru so much of turmoil??
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on May 30, 2010, 10:58:07 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 31, 2010, 10:50:56 PM
Om sai ma...

Tvameva mata cha pita tvameva
Tvameva bandhu cha sakha tvameva
Tvameva vidya cha dravinam tvameva
Tvameva sarvam mam deva deva
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on May 31, 2010, 11:23:03 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 01, 2010, 10:23:15 PM
Dear baba...gud morning. I was reading about the POlish president's air crash. It seems the pilot was forced to land in bad weather conditions. And the decision came from people who do not understand the issue. See what it resulted in. The same with mangalore air crash...the co pilot warned about potential problem...but was not taken seriously. Why do people risk everything for momentary ego issue. So many people died and so many families destroyed. All for nothing. Sad...
Ok...as for me...i am sorry...for what i did today...I know that pretention is not a good thing and if it does not come from the heart, its meaningless. So want to apologize.
Finally - baba...when will i ever wake up early and do the things i plan to do!!! Looks like i can never achieve it...:(
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on June 01, 2010, 10:50:39 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 02, 2010, 11:15:08 PM
Dear baba...gud morning. I spent the whole day yesterday learning the pranayams and asanas of baba ramdev. I need to practice it to control my thyroid condition. I think that it is worth the effort. Only thing is when will i make the effort ???
Today i plan to use my time wisely. Will update u in the evening on how it went....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on June 02, 2010, 11:28:30 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 03, 2010, 10:23:43 PM
Baba - today i have a song for myself. Its Bon Jovi's - "Its my life and its now or never. I aint gonna live forever. I just want to live while i'm alive"
So profound - why die everyday while still alive!! I mean why die a million deaths due to fear of failure, stress, pressure to perform etc. Why die everyday by consuming 1000 pills when simple exercise and meditation would solve the problem.....

Just a thought....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on June 03, 2010, 11:15:30 PM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 06, 2010, 10:53:24 PM
Dear Baba...gud morning. I have tried to be careful in my diet this weekend. I avoided samosa, jalebi and all the goodies that i would have loved to have when the entire family was enjoying them. But i refrained. I have started telling myself that i know how samosa tastes like, i dont need to eat it again to check the taste. lets see how long this will last  ;)
I have been doing yoga also this weekend. Not much, but enough to get my body warm. Hope to make it a habit. And i have promised myself that i would have a fit / toned body for my birthday next Feb. That will be my gift to myself. Good health!! Another thing  - i feel better and more positive when i do yoga. Maybe its a state of mind, but yes - i sure do feel nice.
So baba - here are my plans - i havent deliberated too much on this - but yes - i feel this is what i need to do unless u have other plans for me....

By Aug 2010 - move my dad to a house closer to me

June - Sep 2010 - complete BB program

Sep - Dec 2010 - evaluate job change

June - Dec 10 -  study the market and learn

Jan 11 - May 11 - evaluate and experiment

Jan 11 - Jun 11 -  build a portfolio of TW

By Dec 11 - should be able to WFH full time

Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 07, 2010, 10:17:21 PM
Dear Lord...gud morning. I woke up at 5 today and did 1 hr of exercise. Hope i am consistent with this!! Baba...yesterday i saw a movie - "PS I love you". It moved me to tears and i kept thinking as to why my mom had to go and how my dad is still so much in love with her. I was wrong to assume that i and dad are soul mates. No. Dad and mom are truly made for each other and they are soul mates. I am always going to be their baby. Hope ma is doing fine baba. Take care of her. And tell her that we really love her and miss her...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 08, 2010, 11:11:33 PM
Dear baba..gud morning. I have been deliberating on the pujas and prayers that are most appropriate. I wanted to see which sloka gave most results. And then the big question - whom to pray. After all this, i realized that when i was a child, i used to recite simple prayers daily before going to sleep. Through these prayers, i thanked you for the day. And i was never in trouble...then what makes me look for that magic mantra now?? the same prayers, with same simplicity and devotion is the key to everthing.....

Thank u lord...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 13, 2010, 10:26:04 PM
Dear Baba...gud morning. I think i have figured out the problem that is plaguing me. Its called the time-assassin a.k.a procrastination. I dont know how i developed it or why. Maybe it started during my early years at work. I was involved in high stress projects where i worked 24*7  for nearly 9 months. When that got over, i just wanted to do nothing. And once i got the taste of doing nothing - it just kept building up on me and here i am. I am currently unable to function properly at work due to my approach. I have 100 things pending on me. And i cant seem to get started. I think the stress at work combined with stress at home makes me want to seek solace in these small pleasures. To my mind, the effort of doing things is far greater than the outcome of these efforts and hence i keep putting it off. I need to retrain my mind baba.  I need to go back to the days when i first finished all pending tasks before anything else.

Help me baba. I am alone in this jouney. I cant even tell anyone about it. I need to be friends with myself once again. Please baba...be with me. I have no one else.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 15, 2010, 10:50:29 PM
Gud morning baba....i have a song for myself...

Honge kamyab...hum honge kamyab...hum honge kamyab...aaj ke din...

mann mein hai vishwas..poora hai vishwas...hum honge kamyab aaj ke din....

Nahi darr kisi ka aaj nahi darr kisi ka aaj ke din.....

mann mein hai vishwas...poora hai vishwas...nahi darr kisi ka aaj ke din....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 20, 2010, 10:33:01 PM
Dear Baba...gud morning. Sabse pehle....i pray for I uncle....i got to know that he has suffered a cerebral attack and is paralyzed. Please take care of him.

Baba....so many things to say and so much to do.....i am scared....but if u r with me...nothing will go wrong.....so dear lord...please stay with me....and be with me...............
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 21, 2010, 10:12:01 PM
Dear lord....mera kuchh nahi ho sakta....i can never learn.....baba....humko mann ki shakti dena...mann vijay kare...doosro ki jay se pehle...khud ko jay kare.....

baba...i promise to be strong today
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on June 22, 2010, 05:46:53 AM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 22, 2010, 10:31:10 PM
Gud morning baba....at least yesterday i was able to meet my targets. Thanks....hope the streak continues...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on June 24, 2010, 11:16:06 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 27, 2010, 11:08:14 PM
Om sai sharanam....

baba ..i am back after a trip to my home. It was great to be with my father. he is such a loving and kind man. Baba...please take care of him. I am rejuvinated and will put my 100% to all that i do. I read the book (partly) but i quite liked the approach. I'll try and do it today.....

Baba...take care of all....be with me...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on June 28, 2010, 12:26:25 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 28, 2010, 11:50:39 PM
Baba...why am i so upset......why cant i do what i want to do?? And why am i stuck in a rut??? How can i change things?? The work place is just not happening....my skill sets are not getting enhanced...i dont enjoy what i do...my team is unhappy with the work culture (or the lack of it)...my boss is bull headed abd doesnt understand this business....the expectations are unrealistic....there is no professionalism....people are not treated well...the pay is low...and there is no vision!!! WHEW...long list of rants and raves :) I feel better....:D

But honestly baba....i need to change...but what i keep thinking of is how can i manage to work from home....

Baba...show me the way and give me patience...PLEASE...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 29, 2010, 01:56:36 AM
God...i realize that all my problems are self created and is a product of my mind. And no one can help me but myself....after all God also helps those who help themselves :)

I cant keep cribbing and do nothing about changing my situation.....So here i go, into my self help mode:

Top 10 reasons why i shouldn't change my job just now:

1. From my previous org to the current org, there is no significant change in my skill set...so no value add. As a result, the jump will not be significant and profile would be same. And as per my plan, I should be aquiring BB by Sep 30. So Oct onwards, i can search

2. If i go to the same profile, i will not be able to study for BB in a new job. And that will get further delayed.

3. Since my job profile is a middle manager in IT, where ever i go, the expectations are high and demands on effort and time are significant. So i need to be very careful and selective in the options i get. I need to think of my family.

4. My father is relocating to my city in the next 1-1.5 months. He will need a lot of support and help. And i will need to take some time off. Wont be possible with a new job

5. Getting a new job is not cakewalk and takes a long time to materialize. Till then, if i sit and brood and not do anything, i am the loser. At least work sincerely till the time i am here. Ensure that i am adding some value - both to the org as well as to my self.

6. My current focus should be BB and BB alone!! I need to invest 3.5 hours for myself everyday. Out of which 2.5 hours must happen at work. Cant do this in new setup

7. My eventual plan is to wfh. And i have already chalked out a plan for that. That requires a lot of learning and patience. Where do i get that if i am in a challenging job?? At least, here i am able to do things at my pace. And 1.5 years is the time frame i have in mind....surely i can put up with it!! Look at the big picture.

8. Cant think of quitting and sitting at home w/o a job. The thought sends shivers down my spine :o

9.  Whats the assurance that i will get a better work environment else where? U know i got through M...but didnt join becoz of that stupid NS...who would've been my boss. So if i have to work for an idiotic boss, better work for one whom u know and can handle...

10. And the big one - why should i worry or fear if i am sincere and believe in you..after all...if i go to astrologers, chant big big mantras...that may be ok...but nothing compares to a sincere heart and clear mind and an honest talk with you...u are my everything ...(and i say that to my father as well) Give us peace and a clear mind that knows good from bad and makes the right decisions (like the one right now - writing to you :D)

Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Renuka on June 30, 2010, 09:27:53 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on July 01, 2010, 01:00:34 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 01, 2010, 01:36:41 AM
baba...this doesnt seem to be working out....i am still not doing anything to elevate myself from the depths of despair. I dont know what to do...so much of uncertainity....and so much of unhappiness.....

Its all in my mind ::)
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 01, 2010, 10:37:40 PM
Baba...yesterday evening my dad lost his house keys and was very upset. as it is he has become quite sensitive after my mother's death...now even the smallest of things affect him. And i get upset when he is upset. PLease help him dear lord and be with him. I prayed and prayed to you to get the keys back....we didnt get it. But yes, we got a work around and got someone to come and replace the locks. Added expenditure hua na!!U know he has no income. Then why do u make him spend?? I want him to live happily and comfortably....not counting every single rupee....
My current unhappiness is due to the job i am in....and i am going in cycles with the same issues. Everytime i crib and complain...then get into a self help mode...recover...bring in enthusiasm...and then one bad incident at work...and i am back to square one. This is so stupid and such a waste....I mean i spend all my energy in a problem that i have already analyzed and evaluated....still the same thing on and on.....How crazy!!! :o

Chalo...no point in discussing it. I can never mend my ways....kutte ki poochh u see....

also, dont think i can ever make it big...because i set myself up for failure...

God....please ..... I AM NOT GOING TO TOLERATE THIS NONSENSE FROM MYSELF ANYMORE..............EITHER I WORK TO OVERCOME MY PROBLEMS OR I STOP COMPLAINING....BABA..STOP LISTENING TO ME IF I DONT IMPROVE MYSELF.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 04, 2010, 11:55:48 PM
What works for me???

baba..i am trying to decode my mind. I know there are some many areas in my life that desparately need an over haul at the moment. But ....me being me....am not doing a thing about it. I have made countless resolutions, promised myself, promised you...and did nothing. Ok...to get to the point - i havent begun and i am still where i was 2 years ago.

Maybe i should ask the question differently - what doesnt work for me???

1. Pressure / threat - no ways. I only get even more stressed and cry my heart out. But dont do anything
2. Jolt to ego - doesnt work either (surprisingly). I feel i am just trying to outdo others. Not enjoying what i do.
3. Promises and resolutions - i am an expert at dishonouring my commitments. My boss can vouch for it :(

So what works - let me remember....the last time when i was successful and felt good about myself - when i cleared pmp...when my husband commented that i had lost weight...when i was able to switch jobs...

I am lazy and thats the crux of the matter. So what would work for me - a vision of how i would be after achieving a goal.

Yes ...i think thats it. That is the answer. Prayers, promises, threats etc will not help unless and until i am at peace with myself and talk my brain into moving towards a better life. Vision baby...vision....thats what i need.

Ok baba....now that i know what i need to do...i need to define it for myself....very clearly......

Thats my next step...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 05, 2010, 11:56:02 PM
Gud morning baba....i finally figured out - I am not what i am or rather what i can be. I am stuck in a rut because i have chosen lower my standards and settle for something that i disdain. When i know i am capable and can do much better than what i am doing right now - I can surely pick myself up back and get on the road to a new me!! Why new- i should say i want to be my old self....winner, topper and unbeatable!!! Remember school Vidya - u were a topper throughout...u were the best...and u worked hard for it. Dont give it all up ...and for what?? Dont settle for this!! So get up and get going....

Remember ur favourite quotes -

"Whatever u do, give it your best shot. Anything less is a waste of effort"

"I can i can i can...."
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: SaisaSaisa on July 06, 2010, 02:00:37 AM
Baba i m confuesd , lead me ......
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 06, 2010, 10:52:11 PM
Dear SaisaSaisa....what r u confused about my friend??


Dear Baba - i feel that in this world there are hardly 1 or 2 people who would be genuinely happy for me and would like me to succeed. Most people are just waiting for me to fall down...or trying to pull me down.....they are waiting for me to fail.....................AND I WILL DENY THEM THIS PLEASURE.............

So help me dear lord....and be with me...so that i can help myself become a better and stronger person...

Today morning - didnt go to ur temple...but baba...i sincerely pray to you......
I'm going to change my tactics a little and see if it helps.............so be with me ...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on July 09, 2010, 12:07:26 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 11, 2010, 11:10:39 PM
gud morning my dear baba....u know how i felt during the weekend. I was mad at myself for being such a dork!! I dot want to lose my control ever again....felt bad :(
another thing - can u pls ask my mil to behave properly when my dad is around. she makes it a point to make things unpleasant...not done baba!!
Finally - work wise - please make things a little easier and be with me while i try to help myself....

Waise baba - what do u think of my goals for Durga Puja?? Plan to theek hai...question is execute hoga kya???

Ok -i am going to write down my goals somewhere i can read every day....

Bye for now my friend...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on July 13, 2010, 12:52:38 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 14, 2010, 12:39:59 AM
Dear baba...last night i dreamt of my mother...we were going to my birthplace and she was introducing me to people. I saw a village like area and a lot of idols of various gods. I was bowing and praying to all gods.....

i was feeling so good......

Baba...last night i was crying for my father and his sufferings. It makes me want to tell u that baba - please dont do anything for me. I will not ask u to help me out in places where i can and should help myself. But as far as my father is concerned, i need you to help him and keep him happy. Thats it!! Nothing more and nothing less. For my part, i will manage and take care....u please take care of my daddy.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on July 14, 2010, 10:21:30 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 19, 2010, 11:37:34 PM
Baba gud morning. Its raining today and as usual, the roads were clogged and there was a huge traffic jam all over the city. needless to say, i am late to office today.

Ok - retrospection done: I first need to be honest and sincere to myself. I am not able to keep any commitments even with myself. Forget about interacting with others...i first need to be sure of myself. I realize that i am not interested in what i do and thats the reason for my procrastination. That makes me dis organized and lethargic. what interests me - reading and learning new things. I was bored even in H. So what to talk of I. I dont take pride in what i do and i dont feel compelled to excel since i dont see a reward or positive outcome. But come on - losing weight will surely have an outcome that is so desirable. Then what's stopping me???
I feel i make too big a plan and i collapse under the weight of expectations. Maybe i should try setting simple targets on a day to day basis and see if i can meet them. Then once this is settled, i could go in for a streak kind of thing to bring in consistency.

what say dear friend??
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 20, 2010, 11:18:30 PM
Gud  morning dear lord....i did one gud thing today morning and a bad one. The bad thing - u know i plan to donate some food item everyday to a needy person. Now when i park in front of your temple, there is this old lady who appears to have little comfort in life. I generally give her my breakfast or fruit. But baba - u know - she never begs. Sometimes it makes me wonder if she is actually in need. And thats my mistake. Who am i to judge whether she needs it or not. She never asks me for food, but when i give her, she willingly takes it. I am sorry for assuming that she may not be needy just because she doesnt ask for it. I apologize.

Ok the gud thing - although i couldn't get up early to exercise, i did make use of the time and ensured i at least did 10 mins of exercise. I know its not much, but at least the attitude to make a difference has come in.

Thats all for now...will talk to u again...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on July 20, 2010, 11:24:19 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 26, 2010, 07:35:44 AM
Dear baba...gud evening. Sorry didnt talk to u in the morning. Lots of things happened (gud ones). The first thing was that i got up at 5 and exercised!! Now thats something. Dont know if i'll do it tomorrow as well (keeping my fingers crossed)
Second - saw u dressed in green for the first time today. In exactly the same shade as i had seen u in my dreams....i presume good times are here  ;) somehow i always wanted to see u in green (dont know why...green is not my favorite color...still...i always wanted to see u in green)
Third - today my mother's house has been sold finally :( My father was upset...they had bought the house so lovingly and with so much of effort. She didnt live long enough to enjoy that house. Now i have to bring my father closer to me....I hope i am doing the right thing baba. I want my father to be happy. Nothing else matters.
Fourth - i have been good as far as staying within my calorie range is concerned...So far so good....dont know how long it'll last. I had the option of ordering for maggi or bread omlette, but i didnt. I had a cucumber sandwich instead....

Baba...humko mann ki shakti dena. Mann vijay kare. Doosro ki jay se pehle, khud ko jay kare...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on July 26, 2010, 11:25:37 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 02, 2010, 06:13:19 AM
My dear baba....finally...my father has moved into my city. He no longer has a house to call his own. We are still in transit. Baba - at times i feel very scared and think about how things will turn out to be. but then it also occurs to me that i had wanted this all along. I wanted him close to me. Once we get the house here and he moves in, things will be fine. Its only till then that he will feel jittery....
Another thing baba - read the horoscope (was more like horrorscope). It says that i'll have a real tough time and things will be delayed and there will be lots of issues. Scary na? And then i went back to your question and answer book. It said - "have faith in the perceptor. Things will happen as per your wish". So i have put all my faith in you and leave it to u. baba - my father is a nice man. Please...not for me....but for him....please help. I promise i'll not go through the horoscope section again. U know what baba - i agree there are some things that defy logic and what they said about my father's home in C maybe true. There could be negative energies but nothing is more powerful than love and devotion. So its love and devotion towards my father and you...that should be strong enough to repel any negative force....at least thats what i believe. And i think the mantras and japas done for specific causes do the same thing - create a force stronger than evil forces. Thats the only explanation i have. But baba - i know only u and u alone. I am not going to do any mantras/ japas etc. I trust u and i know u will take care of everything..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 02, 2010, 10:51:29 PM
Dear Lord....i believe in you. Please make this day a happy one...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on August 02, 2010, 11:47:39 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 03, 2010, 11:16:28 PM
Gud morning dear lord.....today i saw u dressed in blue for the first time :) Nice...
Ok - baba...all the docs etc are in order....just need to register the house. Please please please..let everything be alright...and let this happen tomorrow. I really want to see things done on time. And please - let my father get the possession by Aug end. Let there be no delays please. Baba...i want him to be happy. Nothing else matters.....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on August 04, 2010, 01:54:56 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 04, 2010, 10:33:49 PM
Gud morning baba....today i could not visit you. My father droppped my son to school and i just followed as an after thought. But he would've felt very bad had he known i was following. Anyone would. So i quickly took your darshan from outside and left. Hope u dont mind.
Baba...please let everything be alright. I love my father, husband and son. No one else matters. Take care of their needs please....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on August 05, 2010, 12:12:42 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 08, 2010, 11:16:51 PM
Baba...thank you. I really mean it from the bottom of my heart. Thank you. For giving me the house on time and when i needed it the most. Thank you for the wonderful people in my life. And thank you even for all those not-so-wonderful people in my life. I guess they are there so that i am constantly reminded of how not to behave and what not to do :) They teach me patience (though often i am left gritting  my teeth!!) and tolerance. They teach me self improvement and elevate me to a different level. So thank you even for that.
Now all that remains is the challenge of actually shifting the residence of my father and settling him down.

baba...be with me and make this day a happy one. I believe in you and you alone...
Om sai sharanam
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 10, 2010, 01:20:23 AM
Dear baba...gud morning. Today my father is a little unwell. I took him to the doctor and then came to work. He was worried for me and i was worried for him. And then my mil was also taking good care. All in all...baba...its easy to find faults and complain...its difficult to see good in others and accept them the way they are. God...i hope i get to be lucky enough to be a good person to see good in others. Give me the strength to accept things that cannot be chanegd and change things that i can change. Grant me peace and happiness dear lord and take care of my family.

Om sai ram...Om sai sharanam
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on August 10, 2010, 01:23:47 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 10, 2010, 11:06:13 PM
Om sai sharanam...
baba...my father left for C yesterday. l felt a little sad :( but i know he is fine and will have a good time with all relatives. what would he do here with my mil? Till the time he doesnt shift to the new house, he needs to be in C. Baba...grant him happiness and peace in life. He has seen some real tough times. And u know he is a good man. Then please let him be happy. And baba....where is my mother now? I hope her soul is fully recovered from the trials and travails of her preious birth as my mother....Take care of her.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on August 11, 2010, 01:25:04 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 12, 2010, 12:04:02 AM
Gud morning baba....today my father reached C comforatbly. Thank u. I know he will be fine and people will take care of him. I dont know what to say - but is there away by which i could speak to my mother once? I would like to know where she is and how she is doing? And i want her to have a good life. I want to tell her that daddy is fine and i am taking care of him and will do everything to keep him happy....

Please baba....just for once...i need to speak to her.....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on August 12, 2010, 11:21:17 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 12, 2010, 11:42:19 PM
Om sai sharanam....

Baba...i prayed to you asking for your forgiveness. I am sorry for all the wrong thoughts i entertained. I have been such a dork!!!

Please forgive me and make this day a happy one.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 16, 2010, 03:14:01 AM
Dear baba...today i took a pledge that i will complete all the tasks in my to-do list. I have also pledged about the lunch part...dont know how far i will succeed baba. I keep thinking about it u know. I need to stop and buy things...but u know what....when i do all that, i over eat :( The idea is to eat moderately. I pledge to do the following baba :-

- Have a clear heart and mind. Pray to you sincerely and try to do good.
- Workout regularly
- Invest my time gainfully by upgrading my skill set and completing all pending activities
- Eat moderately

Baba - come what may, if i have a clear mind and determination, i will be able to overcome all difficulties. Bless my family dear lord.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on August 16, 2010, 11:30:28 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 17, 2010, 01:07:42 AM
Good morning baba....today i feel like the pits again!! :(
I feel i m stuck in a rut and cannot do anything. My work life sucks big time. I hate the politics, dont like the work env, dont like what i m doing, dont like my boss and my team doesnt like me!! So we all are unhappy. On top of it, if i were to work out of home or work in a place that offers flexibility, i can at least get some peace of mind. Maybe there will be a different set of challenges, but at least better than this. And i can devote time to my son. He needs me. Oh but baba....what do i do now? opportunities are not explored...i havent worked on myself in a while. Dont know when i can be ready for this. Till then i should not give up or give in.....

U have a plan my dear and u need to think about it and work towards it. U cant let the oeprational issues bog u down.

Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on August 17, 2010, 11:41:53 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 18, 2010, 04:51:29 AM
Baba...firstly, i am very happy for my friend S. She has amazing tenacity and determination. With so many things not working in her favour, she has still managed to do so well. I am indeed very happy and proud for her. Bless her with happiness and success.
She inspires me to do something positive with my life. I am simply whiling away my time. If i want, i can be anything i want to be. The only thing holding me back is me myself!!! I am scared to make plans and evaluate my shortcomings. But how much can i ignore or how long can i ignore?? Sooner or later, i have to take stock of the situation and amend my ways.
Baba...please let that day be close enough. I dont want to suffer this life of mediocrity. I know, u are there watching over me and my mother is there keeping an eye on me. I want to make you people proud. I want my dad to feel proud. I want my husband and son to feel proud of me.

So help me dear lord...help me to help myself!!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on August 18, 2010, 10:28:20 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 18, 2010, 11:12:13 PM
Dear baba...gud morning. Today its raining heavily here. Didnt feel like coming to work...but that's not an option at all for me.
Today i plan to do just one thing - evaluate my shortcomings and make a plan for overcoming them.

bless me dear lord..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 19, 2010, 11:07:17 PM
Baba..gud morning. hope things will turn out fine.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on August 19, 2010, 11:17:51 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 22, 2010, 11:40:27 PM
Dear baba...first of all...i pray to u to help R's mom. She is in a critical state and has a newborn baby as well. Baba...please ...no child should feel the absence of mother. Please please please.....help her...help that family.

As for me...baba...how can i ever learn?? Till when will i run away from my responsibilities?? When will i learn to love what i do??
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 24, 2010, 10:26:00 PM
Gud morning baba....i hope R's mom is better. Please help her and be with her baba. Also, i feel positive today. I feel that i can do something in life and i am willing to work for it. So help me dear lord...and be with me. I want to go to my dream company.....please and without any hassles.....

Thank u baba..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on August 24, 2010, 10:51:06 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 25, 2010, 10:10:58 PM
Om sai sharanam...
I feel for V. Poor girl. And more so the family. They are nice people, devoted to u, kind...yet they suffer.And i see such cruel people leading a happy life. sometimes i wonder why?? where is the justice??
Ok...thats not for me to judge. each of us have a defined responsibility. U do your part and i do mine :)
Still...baba...please help V and her family. They deserve a better life.
Also...baba i pray for R's mom. please help her to get well soon.

Take care of my father dear lord and mu husband and son.......
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on August 26, 2010, 12:58:23 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 26, 2010, 11:55:31 PM
Om sai sharanam...
baba....please please please.....take care of things that are beyond my control. For things within my control, please help me to achieve the targets.

I want the house shifting to go smoothly...and the bigger question remains - how to keep my father gainfully engaged?? Please baba....with your blessings...everything is possible...

I pray to u to give me a clear heart and mind and strength and wisdom..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 29, 2010, 10:09:58 PM
Gud morning baba...u know what - the affirmations really work. I realized that i was less stressed out this weekend even though the environment was ripe for fireworks...
Dad arrived safely...now the question is when does he shift to our new house?? Baba....please let things happen on time...and let this be a good decision....please...

And baba....please let my mother know (she is with u i know) that i am taking care of my father as i promised...

Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Rashi on August 29, 2010, 10:29:39 PM
dear vidyaji
i just wanted to say that i liked what you are doing..you have been talking to baba everyday..and i really liked it
may baba bless you and always be with you and your family..
om shri sainathaya namah
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on August 29, 2010, 11:30:36 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 30, 2010, 10:54:02 PM
Gud morning dear lord.....today i have come up with a plan of sorts.....

early morning 45 mins - "Me" time dedicated to health
office: morning first 1 hrs - browse mails, spend time for spiritual upliftment
office: next 3 hrs - important and urgent official work (even if i loathe it). This should include responding to mails, allocating tasks, discussing issues, administrative activities etc.
office: 2 hrs post lunch - "Me" time for self study / improvement for professional development
office: 1 hrs anytime - meeting time / preparing reports
office: 1 hrs post lunch - analyze the data recd after discussion with team...plans for improvement...ideas to solve problem areas.
office: 1 hrs evening - followup

basically - 8 - 9 and 1 - 3: Time for myself and extra
first half - all discussions/allocations/data gathering
second half - analysis, meetings and evaluation

What do u say baba??

Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 31, 2010, 10:27:52 PM
Thank you Rashi....
I figured that i could talk to him as i would talk to a friend...so i started this thread. I feel good about by it.

Gud morning baba....today my father will go and meet W uncle. Hope he agrees to move out by tomorrow. I really want the house shifting to be done this weekend. Otherwise what will my dad do??
Another thing - i feel good today, energized and positive...though i havent done what i should have done in the morning - workout as planned. I heard the alarm, i got up, my mind kept telling me to exercise, but i snuggled deeplyin the bed and went back to sleep. Bad!! I wonder why i do this to myself?? I mean, i am not doing this for anyone else, i have to do this for myself....and then i keep cribbing about not having enough time for myself... :P
Anyways...today is a new day...i am not going to keep tab on failures...rather i will focus on success....I am a winner and i have go to win this....

Good day dear lord..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: bharti123 on September 02, 2010, 10:11:42 PM
baba please bless vidhyarp
Om shri sai nathaya namah
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 02, 2010, 10:31:05 PM
Gud morning dear lord....first of all....please help my father to get well soon as quickly as possible. We have a lot of work to do. I hope we shift on sunday completely and i want to set the house by monday completely. Please baba...let everything be done with your grace and on time. I want my son, husband and myself to be fine as well. Why dont i pray for mil?? Because she doesnt pray for me or event think gud about me. So baba...i will not any harm but will not do anything out of my way for her. Hope u understand....
I want things to be streamlined a bit at home ...please baba....

Take care of all...and urself...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 12, 2010, 11:05:22 PM
Gud morning dear lord....sorry havent spoken to u in a week!! U know how it was - first i fell ill and then the shifting. Thank you baba for helping us setup appa's house. I hope he is happy and likes the place. I know we need to spruce it up a lot...but at least i see him everyday and he sees K everyday. That means a lot to me and him. Thank you baba....
Now my focus is purely on my professional front. Now that i've completed the major project of relocating my father, i think its time for me to explore other areas. Please bless all dear lord...

And i realized - waqt se pehle annd kismat se zyada kisi ko nahi milta....

Om sai sharanam..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 13, 2010, 10:35:38 PM
Dear baba...gud morning. Now i need to get a grip on things at work and life in general. Appa has finally shifted and thats a huge relief. He gets to play with my son everyday and i get to see him everyday. Life is better than before. Now its time to move on to other aspects i guess.
Baba...last night i dreamt of my mother's death. Rather i knew she was dying and i saw a weird dream. But then i saw her preparing to take birth again!! i was stumped!!! Is she going to take birth again baba?? If yes, where?? Oh please....can i see her once?? I want to talk to her....just once!!!!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 15, 2010, 04:51:42 AM
Baba...i had the most amazing experience last night  or rather today morning at 4:00 AM. I was dreaming about my mother and i dont know what happened, but i actually felt her presence and she touched me on my knees !! My whole body was tingling as if electricity was coursing through it. I distinctly felt the touch and it was definitely my mother's touch....oh baba....what a divine moment it was!!! And i was awake after that.
Then i saw another strange dream....i was upset about something and generally low...my mil was standing next to me. Suddenly, she hugs me and gives me a kiss on my cheek. I am shocked and i break down completely...Imagine my mil hugging me and kissing!!!  :o
Nevertheless...i had the good fortune of visiting u todaywhen i went to drop k to school. I find peace there....

Bless us all dear lord and take care of things beyond our control...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: rajashreea on September 15, 2010, 05:44:34 AM
Namasthe Dear Lord ..... I was expecting a great change in working place since the new boss has come. But I am not getting enough support and guidance and will my department will get enough staff .... I am feeling low .
Help me Baba ,,,,,,...OM SAI RAM
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 15, 2010, 10:33:01 PM
Dear lord....first of all...rajashreea has an issue at workplace. Please resolve that. I request you humbly.

Ok baba - i want to know why i cant have more control over myself?? Its so easy for me to lose my grip and go down the negative path. Ek to my mil can never change and i know that. Then why am i expecting gud behavior from her?? Thats my mistake. So yesterday when she said those words, i should have ignored and not broken my head over it. But i did!! Why do i fret and fume over petty things?? I need to learn to let go and be cool...

Other than that - baba...yesterday S asked me if we could go to Vaishno devi. I am really keen. Dont know if you are going to grant permission. I request u that if possible, please let us go there....i want to. Take care of my father dear lord. He is good man. And my husband and son. They are my strength.

Please be with me dear lord and help me through the day..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on September 15, 2010, 11:09:14 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 16, 2010, 10:41:56 PM
dear lord...gud morning...please take care of the issues at home baba. u know what my mil did yesterday...so petty...but all i say is "this too shall pass" i'll need to work out some strategy to overcome this. I think fighting with her or R will be of no use. Thats not going to solve the issue, infact it will lead to bigger issues. I am not going to get into another messy fight. So let me think it over.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 17, 2010, 01:58:23 AM
I have thought over the issue and come to the conclusion. Thanks for giving me "Sadbuddhi" :)

Baba...what do i do at work front?? Should i look for a job change?? I am just not satisfied here...too much of attrition and no empowerment.

Please guide me..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 19, 2010, 11:33:41 PM
Dear baba...you have already told me what to do....please give me the will to do it.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on September 20, 2010, 12:01:17 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 20, 2010, 10:46:31 PM
Om sai ram...gud morning baba.
Please let everything be alright. I am slowly starting to work towards my goal. The pace is dead slow...but even if i have to crawl, i will do it. I cannot stop it now. I have to fight to the finish.

Take care of all sairam
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on September 21, 2010, 02:47:27 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 21, 2010, 10:29:05 PM
baba..gud morning. please help us and bless all....i believe in you and know that u r with me always.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on September 22, 2010, 02:13:19 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 22, 2010, 11:20:18 PM
Om sai sharanam...

Bless us all dear lord..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 24, 2010, 04:02:23 AM
Dear baba....please let everything be alright my lord. Let my dad be happy always..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 27, 2010, 10:15:55 PM
Om sai sharanam....
Baba...please help...i know i shouldnt be just asking u to help all the time...but what do i do baba?? Things dont seem very good at work....my boss has some sinister designs and i dont want to fall prey to his tricks. Please please please...help me to get a decent break baba...i want to go to A. but u know what is best for me. Please make way for that accordingly. also baba...i dont want to lose money and peace of mind. let me get relieved easily....i m asking too many things i know....sorry for that dear lord....

Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on September 27, 2010, 11:01:40 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 28, 2010, 10:28:32 PM
Dear baba...what do i say?? yesterday i was very tired and stressed out. my mil was playing her usual tricks and my dad was the affected party. I was driving and was in the middle of a long traffic jam. The phone wouldnt connect and i was going nuts!! Baba...then i felt like a mild black out. I dont know why it happened. But it has scared me. I think i am taking too much stress. Not good for me. What will happen if i dont get that job...what will happen if i continue earning what i am earning right now...what will happen if my dad spends half an hour less with my son...will the sky fall down?? will the earth stop rotating on its axis?? will i die??? NO.
But i'll surely die if i stress myself out like this....i dont exercise and have no concept of balanced diet. I eat junk and lead a very sedentry life. I am actually killing myself....

Theek hai baba - no tension today onwards. That does not mean i dont have a goal or dont want to work hard...it just implies that i am going to be more responsible for myself and my actions. Always try to improve your current state. There is so much to learn and do....tension will not help ever. I'm going to work hard and give it my best shot...rest is your responsibility :)
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 29, 2010, 10:28:56 PM
Dear baba ...gud morning...firstly i want to pray to you for V. Please help that girl...she has gone through a big trauma and needs your healing touch. That family is very nice, pious and devoted...maybe its the karmas of previous birth that they are suffering now. But please be good to them.
As for me - i feel good :) positive and motivated. Yesterday night i applied to my fav company. Something tells me that i'll make it to that company and all will be fine. And then i managed to complete module 1 of my course...felt gud...
baba...bas issi tarah ek ek step lekar apni manzil tak jaane ki himmat dena...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 03, 2010, 10:56:11 PM
Dear lord...gud morning. It felt gud to spend some time with my father. He had made so many things for me and my son. Thank u baba for giving me such a nice father. Baba...now just one thing remains - and u know that.
The thing is i want to sacrifice something for getting my objective. But i am unable to do it. Does that mean that i am not actually serious about the issue or maybe too lazy for sacrifices....
Hope i take care of this issue soon...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 04, 2010, 10:32:17 PM
Gud morning dear lord....
Yesterday i was so stressed out....after all the hassles at work, when i reached home R screamed at me for something that was not my fault. And i was so hurt. Baba...u know the situation. Please do justice. Why are u punishing people who are sincere and true to you and why do u let the crooks go scot free?? I know u may have your own reasons...but i would like to know. Justice karo baba...please. Thats all i ask of you.

I am so lost....i am yet to get the answer to my problem..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 05, 2010, 11:27:42 PM
Baba...my father is not well since yesterday. Nothing major...just fever and body pain. But i felt awful that i could nt be with him. And u know how the situation is at home...very precarious...and at work...well the less said the better...

All in all....golmaal hai bhai sab golmaal hai... :)

kuchh karo baba...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 09, 2010, 05:54:33 AM
Dear baba....daddy was really unwell day begore yesterday. And i think he was brooding over my mother's death. It is so difficult for me to see him like this. I feel sad. I am trying to do all that i can to keep him happy. Please baba...keep him happy. he has gone through a great trauma. No more tensions please.
If that means i have to give up something and work for it, i am ready to do it. I can give up my very life for him.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 10, 2010, 10:47:46 PM
Om sai ram baba...
To say that i am confused is to say the least. I am frustrated and upset!! I am running around in circles and i am analyzing the same issue a million times and still dont find a satisfactory solution. How can that be baba??

Ok...u think writing down the issue would help?? I'll try it today.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on October 10, 2010, 11:37:07 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 12, 2010, 12:45:58 AM
Dear baba...please bless us all to take care of all the issues in life...give us strength, wisdom and courage...willpower, determination and faith.....

Peace to all
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 13, 2010, 11:41:32 PM
Baba...gud morning...
I have nothing to feel good about except that my father is now close by. I know that i dont appreciate the things i have and am looking at things that i want to have to make me feel happy. But baba...i am trying my best to put everything in place. Like my father - i want him to be happy and am doing all that i can to ensure he is comfortable. But he just cant stop brooding over my mother;s loss!! What do i do?? I am doing my best...but that is not helping. Then i am trying for a job change...and here again i am so upset that i have no words. Maybe i am oevr reacting. But as of now thats the situation. can we do something about it??
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 24, 2010, 11:42:25 PM
gud morning lord....donno what to do....:( :( :(

i've spent an entire year brooding over a single issue. Ok...so i got my father settled...but that 2 months ago. I am still not working on my second issue. oh god...what do i do?? i am so frustrated..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 25, 2010, 10:27:10 PM
Om sai sharanam....
Baba...this is absolutely not going anywhere. I've analysed a million times and i am trying to seek an answer to my problems...but i am not getting any. Ok...i am frustrated. But now i am not going to worry. I'm going to let things be. After all, you have actually taken care of the bigger things in life. The small ones can be handled or accomodated. You have given us the things we required and when we required. then what makes me think i'll not get what i want now. it has always been a trend with me that i dont get anything easily. except perhaps my first job....i cant remember any other instance where i would have got something easily. i never get anything that i really want without getting upset and frustrated.maybe that was a fluke moment or maybe i got very lucky with my first job. otherwise, i've always had to work hard and pray hard. ok...going forward, i'm going to keep trying for a job change, but am not desparate. I need to control my frustrations at work since it's not going to help. remember - its just a job u r doing and getting paid for it. there is nothing personal here. i need the money now. and let me earn while i can still earn. 2 years down the line, i need to change tracks and see for a freelance option. so i need the 2 years here to plan for that. the first year was spent in coping with my mother's death. the second year is consumed with my father's relocation. So the next 2 years are mine for investing in me for learning new things and setting up a new profile.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on October 25, 2010, 11:37:19 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 26, 2010, 02:55:49 AM
Somehow talking to you in the morning helped me a lot. At least i was able to focus on the task at hand and do some justice to my work. So thank u baba. I know this is not what i wanted but maybe this is the first step in the right direction. After all, i have you to guide me...then i have no worries....

Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 26, 2010, 10:19:51 PM
Baba...gud morning. Today i was awake and my mind kept telling me to get up and do what i promised to do. But i couldnt take any steps. I kept thinking about it and kept lying down. Bad!!!
Bas baba...i have to get started and then do it consistently.....

Help me dear lord
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on October 26, 2010, 10:46:57 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 27, 2010, 10:20:13 PM
Dear baba...gud morning. Yesterday was fun at the party...u know what happened :)
Ok...i know i have to get my act together and really work hard...other than that, i dont think i have any choice. I dont seem to be getting any lucky with the job change...so looks like i'm going to be around here for sometime at least...please make this an enriching period where i learn and grow.

Om sai sharanam
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on October 28, 2010, 12:36:41 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 28, 2010, 10:30:23 PM
om sai sharanam...
baba...today is my 9th wedding anniv. It feels like ages already. Baba...i still get worked up and still get upset. When will i stop it?? Life mein chilled rehne ka hai....aur apna plan set rakhne ka hai...
poori duniya yehi kehti hai ki tum kuchh nahi kar sakte ho....tum karne layak nahi ho...yeh to bahut mushkil hai...they'll have a million reasons to prove why you cant do a thing. and u need just determination to prove them wrong....
U prove them wrong and u yourself would feel gud about you.
A few posts ago, i was asking myself what motivates me. i kept looking for answers outside. but now i know...my competition is with myself. when i outdo myself, i am obviously breaking some misconceptions of other people.....and thats how i want to be.....
please be with me in this journey.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on October 30, 2010, 12:01:37 AM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 31, 2010, 10:35:19 PM
dear baba...gud morning. Life mein vision and mission dono hona chahiye i think. What do u say?

Instead of wasting too much time, i'll get to the point:-

Background:
Always a topper. Masters degree in IT from reputed college.PMP certified. Career has been reasonably good. Although havent made lot of money, but still good enough to live the way i want. Parents always encouraged focus on career and toiled hard to make me what i am today. I am forever indebted to them.

Where i am currently:
Global head S/w development in an IT firm. Pursuing SSBB certification (which has been lingering on). Stuck in a 12 hour job routine with little time to spend for my family esp my 4 year old son. I feel guilty about that. Any switch to a similar profile would entail same work related issues. Switching to a diff profile not very easy. Quitting not an option since i need the money to support my father and my family. Plus i do not want to depend on anyone for my financial needs. Also, my parents have spent their sweat and blood for my education. I cant just throw it all away.

What do i want:
Enough flexibility in my life to work out the time and money for myself. I need to get enough money while spending quality time with my family.  ;D I need to feel good about what i am doing. I want to enjoy and do my own thing.

How do i get what i want:
The regular management hierarchy will not help me. I need to look outside the familiar path and do my own thing. even if i change jobs that offer me some more flexibility, it'll not be any different. There would be other kinds of issues. So that's not going to help. I feel its time for retraining myself and aquiring new skills and learn new trade. I should be investing in myself - physically and mentally.

Vision:
I should be able to be on my own by 2012 begining and latest by 2012 end. I have to be physically and mentally fit and strong to ensure all needs are taken care of. I should have enough finances and means to generate money further without trudging up the 9 to 5 work path.

Mission:
To achieve my target, i have to do the following:
1. Complete my SSBB by dec 2010. NO CARRY FORWARD TO 2011.
2. Achieve general fitness level by 31 Dec 2010.
3. Start reading up of Finances by 1 Jan 2011 and complete training by Dec 2011.
4. Parallely start something for writing proficiency. Evaluate the courses in Jan 2011.
5. Build decent portfolio by Dec 2011.
6. Focus on day to day office activities and dont worry too much about work situation or aquiring skills in this field. You are not going to pursue it anyways.

So as of now - I need to just focus on day to day office work and completing SSBB by dec 2010. And focus on my health. Thats the bottom line.

Baba - if at all i ever get confused, direct me to this page.



Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: saib on November 01, 2010, 12:18:54 AM
Dear Vidyarp,

Your Vision and Mission statement is really inspiring. People who know what they want from life, it’s hard for them to fail. After a stage even destiny surrenders before such souls. But only one thing to say, “Don’t do any thing to show or prove to world, How capable you are.” World won’t be interested. Do for yourself, to live using all skills you possess being on the path of advancement. Know and use all potential. God really pleased when He observes the one whom He sent in the world with one or two skills have learnt two or four more skills at his own.

and when you start doing to please you as well God, world will too attracted for your achievements. Then you too will be having eternal peace and everlasting happiness!

With all great wishes………Life is not a computer program. All areas of life demand attention and time. Only a happy mind can achieve anything in life.

If you have an interest of reading, there is a beautiful book “How to simplify your life” by Tiki Kustenmacher. I have read hundreds of books on Life and Time management by many great Management Gurus. This book I can say summary of all great lessons.

May Sai Bless You and all of Us!

om sri sai ram!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 01, 2010, 05:21:18 AM
dear saib...thank you so much. I really appreciate your thoughts and yes..i am doing all this for my inner self. I am tired of running in the rat race and am not enjoying what i do. Money is not everything in life; but it is important. So i have been doing this introspection and wanted to see what i really want in life and what will make me happy. the above post is a result of that. And it has taken me a year to decide on my course of action. During this time, i faced lot many challenges and attractions from other quarters. I was offered top positions and lots of money...but i knew i couldnt take it without hampering my family life. I want peace and happiness in life. what will i do with all the money if i dont have the time to spend it on my family or dont have the health to savour the money?? And what will i do with all the time with family but no money to tide over daily living. So balance is utmost important for me. I have tried to come up with this solution. I can only say that baba has directed my thoughts to be channelized in this direction. Maybe there is something good here. I may not be a millionaire but i will lead a happy life.

Thanks once again saib...I really value your comments
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 02, 2010, 10:00:20 PM
gud morning baba....today when i got up in the morning, i didnt feel well. My head was spinning and i felt like sleeping. Still..i carried on with work and here i am in office. But still feeling a little low... :-\
Yesterday i spent the whole day at work dedicatedly...and i felt good. hope the streak continues....

take care of all...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on November 02, 2010, 10:28:56 PM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 03, 2010, 09:36:52 PM
Dear baba...gud morning. Yesterday i started reading "the monk who sold his ferrari". It talks about the importance of rituals and how it brings about discipline and consistency. Now, this is in opposition to what i always believed. To me, the intentions were always important. i never liked anything forced on me. And if i had to follow a custom or ritual which made no sense to me, i wouldn't do it. But yes - i do agree that if i follow a regular pattern of doing something new consistently, it will become second nature to me. It will get ingrained into me. A new line of thought........

More - after i complete reading that book. At times i feel why i didnt get all that i wanted? then i feel - i got all the things that i really wanted and needed. So why carry any tension??
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 07, 2010, 09:31:49 PM
Dear baba...happy monday morning. The weekend was hectic. Thursday we went for the party and returned quite late. Thereafter we went to appa's house and celebrated diwali on friday morning. I quite liked r's gesture on this. We had so many things to do on friday evening and saturday....then we had the wedding to attend on sunday morning. All in all...tiring :)
Baba....when will i....????
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 08, 2010, 09:43:19 PM
om shirdi vasaye vidhmahe satchitanandaya dhimahi tanno sai prachodayath.

om sai sharanam
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on November 08, 2010, 10:03:00 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 09, 2010, 10:23:12 PM
Baba...gud morning. I wont quit and i am not a loser. I am not going to run away from the problems....i m going to look at them sqaurely in the eye and say "try me!!"
I know i have to run my own race and meet my own goals. I will be proactive and will meet the commitments i make to myself.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 10, 2010, 05:43:28 AM
dont know how to react....
RK got sacked and i was the decision maker (well...not really) But u know how he was at work....i feel professionally it has been a gud thing to have happened. Its called culling the dead horses. This has set an example in my team that non performers are not tolerated plus people with the wrong attitude are not going to last. at a personal level...i feel bad because of the pain one goes thru on losing his job. Its like losing ur identity.
I hope he gets a decent break and hope he has learnt the lesson.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on November 10, 2010, 10:42:28 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 11, 2010, 09:11:06 PM
Om sai namo namaha...om sai sharanam....
baba...i just want to be your sharanagathi....i want to be with you....i am your child ...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: pranks1978 on November 12, 2010, 12:49:07 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on November 12, 2010, 02:12:46 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on November 15, 2010, 09:32:17 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 15, 2010, 10:14:45 PM
Dear lord...gud morning.
There is this thread in this section where a girl is praying for her mother. Her mother has cancer and advanced stage. Takes me back to 2009....i feel for the girl and the family. baba...please help them. I can only request.

Baba...last evening after the meeting with my boss...i left for home elated. I was happy ...in fact i was of the opinion that there is nothing that i cannot achieve :) All i need to do is work diligently and be consistent.

Hoping for the best today...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on November 16, 2010, 09:23:29 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 17, 2010, 10:38:36 PM
Om sai sharanam...sri sai sharanam....

u know what baba - today morning when i woke up and when i went out...the first thought that came to my mind was - what a beautiful day...!! I have not felt like this in ages dear lord...for the past 2 years, i have been dragging myself out of bed and pushing myself to do the daily chores. Off late i am feeling more positive and in control...is it that i am recovering from the depths of depression?? whatever it is, i am liking it. The other day, i kept my commitment and delivered something that has always been delayed. My boss praised me and i felt good. Thank you baba. throughtout my journey...u've been with me, never leaving me in the lurch. I know i have just taken the first step to regain the control over my life...but i know this time its for real and there is no turning back. I have started my journey and i am going to enjoy this journey for the rest of my life hopefully.

Thank you...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: pranks1978 on November 18, 2010, 12:19:34 AM
Dear Vidyarp

Sairam

It is really nice to know that baba has changed your mind.... Its become so positive. Once your mind is positive it tries to reach the higher dimension where you can establish connection with divine being. With this attitude the whole world looks different... rather beautiful..
Your really boost my confidence.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 18, 2010, 09:53:23 PM
thank you pranks....
Its not been easy and the progress is quite slow....but so long as i am progressing...even one step a day...i m happy. I have always had to work hard to get anything. Throughout my life, i have never got anything easily and readily. But at least i have the satisfaction that i have earned it with my own efforts and god's blessings...

Baba...u r great.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: swatisai87 on November 18, 2010, 10:06:42 PM
Dear Sai

Plz help me..u knw iam in a tension..mujhe bahut dar lag raha hai kya hoga main dept ka..mujhe pata hai ap jo bhi karoge mere achhe ke liye hoga par mera mann kyun itna baichain hai..plz meri..madad karo..:(
om sri sai ram...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: swatisai87 on November 18, 2010, 10:08:51 PM
gud mrng all...

have a nice day...

om sri sai ram...

swati...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on November 18, 2010, 10:20:07 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: shekarvani on November 19, 2010, 02:25:12 AM
Sai Ram Vidya

How R U? I have been reading your conversation with Baba and its really good. I understand your situation and the problems what you are facing and at the same time its good that Baba has given you that courage to face all these.
I want to tell you one thing, that is regarding -- Baba does not like astrology, yes you are true Baba does not like that his children should believe in astrology, but you know some times baba will show us the right path through astrology, regarding if any precautions should be taken to our problems. So sometimes its good to listen to astrologers who suggests us to pray some mathras or do some pooja's, in which we just pray to our baba because All are one.
When I read all of your posts I feel that you are facing Sade Sati Shani, I feel you may be knowing about this. You believe it or not when this sade sati shani enters in our Rashi, we will suffer a lot for first two and a half years, and the other two and a half years will be quite good, and at last the two and half years we will be benefited with everything in our life. It happens like this that when sade sati shani is going on we feel very depressed in everything, we cannot do anything what we think to do, we feel very dis satisfied ourselfs, sometimes we cannot see the good things going on around us. The effects will be depended on which house shani is there in our rashi. If it is really very bad we will lose our loved ones, especially mother.
There are many remedies for this (should be found out with a astrologer), one important thing is when a person has sade sati shani, he has to pray lord Hanuman, mostly all read Hanuman Chalisa, thats why baba has given you a vision intimating to read Hanuman Chalisa!!!!!!!!, thats really great of Baba, He was and He is with you always, He is guiding you in all the situations. We should have faith on Baba.
I feel that Iam also in the same situations, but one good thing is that I have not losed any of my beloved, Iam greatful to Baba for this. But I am always facing one or the other problem in my professional life and personal life (some times), but I have complete faith on Baba, He is everything, and can do anything.
Be Happy

From: Sreevani
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on November 19, 2010, 10:12:23 PM
Om Sai Ram
Om Sai Ram
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Om Sai Ram
Om Sai Ram
Om Sai Ram
Om Sai Ram
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 21, 2010, 09:41:37 PM
Dear friend sreevani...I dont know much about astrology. I have never really gone to astrologers and so dont know about the shani sade sati thing. Maybe its true. I know for sure that my father is going thru this period.
I would say God is great - he is making us go through all this and we are getting rid of our karmic debt. at least we have lesser burden to carry with us in the next life.....
I completed reading the sundarakandam and recite the hanuman chalisa everyday. Hope this helps.
still...i am human...and i feel so restless and upset...even though i know things will not happen overnight...God give me patience...

Shraddha and Saburi......thats what i need.

Om sai sharanam...sri sai sharanam...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: shekarvani on November 21, 2010, 10:01:19 PM
om sai ram vidya

Baba is always with you, dont worry, just transfer your burden to Baba, He will be very happy to bear your burden, but do it with feel. You observe when we live everything on Baba and have a strong intention in our minds that "Baba is there, He will take care of everything", you feel so lite, you feel that you have everything in your life and nothing to worry about. Try once

sreevani
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on November 22, 2010, 09:55:25 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 23, 2010, 10:17:58 PM
Gud morning baba....i have got my father also introduced to this forum. Now he too will post and enjoy the benefits of being a part of this wonderful community :)

Yesterday, i was at home because of my son. he wasnt well. I was busy working from home...still i was around. I am not sure whether i would love a 100% work from home....still it doesnt hurt to plan for that. eventually i would love to put my feet up and relax while sipping a cup of hot tea and flipping through a novel... :D (my dream!!!)
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on November 24, 2010, 12:18:49 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 24, 2010, 09:28:48 PM
Gud morning dear lord....Please bless all and take care of everything
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on November 24, 2010, 09:39:50 PM
Bless Sai. Have Mercy

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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 25, 2010, 09:35:37 PM
Gud morning baba...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on November 25, 2010, 10:15:43 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 26, 2010, 04:52:55 AM
Dear baba...have built my new list of activities. This time around, i plan to stick to it and its a commitment i have made to myself. I am not going to break it.

Thank you for being there and the strength you have given me. I can endure it and i am going to beat it!!! I am going to win this war....and nobody can bring me down..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on November 26, 2010, 10:18:34 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 28, 2010, 09:21:31 PM
Baba...everything is fine. I mean, i have job that pays decent, a certain position of power, a decent rapport with boss and subordinates, a loving husband and son, a mil better than most mils, and my dearest father close to me.....then why am i still so uneasy or unhappy?? What is irritating me? Why am i looking for something else? Shouldnt i be happy with my lot? And try and advance in this area?? Why do i feel like throwing it all away and do something new and meaningful? And do i have the backup?? Why dont i realize that i cant just throw it all and walk away...i have others depending on me. Please give me a paeaceful mind...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on November 28, 2010, 10:01:32 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 29, 2010, 09:58:35 PM
Baba...u know everything....please help me
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on November 30, 2010, 09:54:45 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 01, 2010, 09:31:33 PM
Gud morning baba...yesterday i got the opportunity to visit the great temple with my father. I had wanted to go there for a long long time...somehow did not materialize. But yesterday, we went and i felt good. Baba...u know all. I dont have to ask u or tell u....All i can say is - please show me the right way.

Thank u..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 01, 2010, 09:39:47 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on December 02, 2010, 03:48:56 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 02, 2010, 09:30:13 PM
Om sai sharanam...sri sai sharanam....

Baba...as per the movie 3 idiots - " Pursue excellence and not success. If you excel in your area, success is sure to come"..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 02, 2010, 09:42:54 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: sai samyuktha on December 04, 2010, 03:42:12 AM
om sai ram
 sear sister when i rread ur post really i felt like crying sister pls dont worry we are all here to suuport u and more tha that sai ma is always with u , sai baba is also our mother sister he will take take position of ur mother place ad will guide u in each and every way sister its true sister daily i used to speak with sai ma he is guiding me whereever i go i think sai as my fatehr mother frnd and all relationships sister pray to sai ma he will show u the way we all pray for u sister and ur father
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: anshul mishra on December 04, 2010, 05:19:35 AM
U are absolutely right dear and your words are heart touching. Baba ke charnon men mera sheesh.
Om SAi ram Sai ram Sai ram
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 04, 2010, 10:53:43 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 05, 2010, 09:54:33 PM
Dear baba....success / happiness is a state of mind. And if my mind is positive, nothing can affect me. I have no time to wallow in self pity. No time to sit and brood...no time to yearn for the things on the other side of the fence...because now i know i have to learn the art of gratitude. I dont value the things i have and keep yearning for what i dont have. I am better off than most people in all respects of life...still if i continue to torture my mind by thinking unpleasant things and wishful thoughts, then you cant do much to help me. Instead of being thankful for what u have given me, i keep asking for more and better. I need to stop and learn to enjoy what i have right now. Many people would give their right arm to be in my position....then what is stopping me from enjoying what i do. So baba...its my plede - i'm going to be thankful for all that u give me.and will pray to you to help me where things are beyond my control and to give me the strength, wisdom and courage to handle the things that i can handle.

Thank you for this day baba
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 05, 2010, 10:50:00 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: anshul mishra on December 05, 2010, 11:22:55 PM
Wow! very good thoughts. Aisa laga jaise mere vicharon ko aapane shabdon men dhal diya. Om Sai Ram Sai ram. Sab par aapakee krapa banee rahe.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on December 06, 2010, 03:45:02 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 06, 2010, 11:02:32 PM
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Om Sai Ram
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 07, 2010, 09:58:18 PM
Baba...itni shakti hame dena daataa, mann ka vishwas kamzor ho na, hum chale nek raste pe humse bhool kar bhi koi bhool ho na....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 07, 2010, 10:22:53 PM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 08, 2010, 09:50:07 PM
Dear baba...i am quite amazed at the way wikileaks has progressed. julian assange has been fearless in speaking out the truth and thereby incurring the wrath of mighty us govt. Still he is willing to stake everything for it. Thats what passion does to people. You are willing to give up everything for your passion....

whats my passion??
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 09, 2010, 04:04:48 AM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 09, 2010, 09:43:41 PM
Honge kaamyaab, hum honge kaamyaab, hum honge kaamyaab ek din....
mann mein hai vishwas, poora hai vishwas...
hum honge kaamyaab ek din
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 09, 2010, 10:26:30 PM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: anshul mishra on December 10, 2010, 12:24:02 AM
Sai baba hamare saath hain, jaroor aisa hee hoga. Hum honge kamyab.. Om sai ram Sai ram Sai ram
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on December 10, 2010, 12:31:56 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 10, 2010, 10:04:25 PM
Om Sai Ram
Om Sai Ram
Om Sai Ram
Om Sai Ram
Om Sai Ram
Om Sai Ram
Om Sai Ram
Om Sai Ram
Om Sai Ram
Om Sai Ram
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 12, 2010, 10:22:45 PM
baba...gud morning....
Didnt have a great start to the day today....u know how r screamed at me and for no fault of mine. Plus my son is not well.....again because of J. Why cant she just let him be??? But baba....aaj ek baat samajh aayi. there will always be people who will say that u r useless...u cant do anything or achieve anything....but agar himmat aur mehnat kar sakte ho to nothing is impossible. to hell with the naysayers.....another thing....my prayers have to be specific and precise. If i wrap it in layers which can have a 1000 diff meanings, it makes no sense...since even god would get confused. So better not to leave anything open to interpretation....be specific.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on December 13, 2010, 12:38:27 AM
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om sai namo namah
om sai namo namah
om sai namo namah'
om sai namo namah
om sai namo namah

sai samarth.....om shree sai nathaya namah
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 13, 2010, 09:43:36 PM
Om Shri Sai Nathaya Namah
Om Shri Sai Nathaya Namah
Om Shri Sai Nathaya Namah
Om Shri Sai Nathaya Namah
Om Shri Sai Nathaya Namah
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: anshul mishra on December 14, 2010, 01:03:23 AM
Ye mera hai ye tera hai, which caused great sorrow. all this surrender to god with yourself. than there is no question of this sorrow. Baba ke charnon men mera sheesh, Om sai ram om sai ram Sai ram
Kal baba ki murthy ki aur dekha mandir men par jane kyon shraddha naa jag sakee pata naheen man kahan laga huva tha. Aisa kyon huva koi Sai bhakt help kare pls..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on December 14, 2010, 01:24:36 AM
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om sai namo namah
om sai namo namah
om sai namo namah
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sai samarth.....om shree sai nathaya namah
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 14, 2010, 06:40:27 AM
Dear anshul....aisa kabhi kabhi ho jata hai...zaroori nahi ki har time aap puri shraddha se hi eeshwar ka naam lein. But dont worry....eeshwar sab jaante hain....he knows that u didnt mean anything wrong...he knows the problems u r facing...and since u have apologized to baba...everything is fine. Just try to concentrate more tomorrow....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: anshul mishra on December 14, 2010, 07:10:54 AM
Thnx  a Lot dear :)) Baba ke charnon men mera sheesh .. Om sai ram Sai ram Sai ram
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 14, 2010, 09:32:48 PM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on December 14, 2010, 10:50:01 PM
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om sai namo namah
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sai samarth....om shree sai nathaya namah
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 15, 2010, 03:13:58 AM
dear baba....its afternoon and i reached office late today. My son did well in the sports day though i would've liked him to win. Despite his cold and cough, he came 4th. And surprise surprise...we cam third in the relay race for parents :D imagine - me running a race and winning!!!! Never happened in my life....but i liked it. Thanks. And when r said that i ran well - i felt great :)
Ok...as for office...there's a new manager hired in my dept. Dont know what we will do with so many managers...they are ensuring that we become top heavy and topple down. We need more hands-on people....and not the managers (though i myself am one). Ok...so do i feel threatened?? Ummmm.....not sure. But yes, i have to be on my guard. Baba...this is why i prefer a tech role. Koi issue hi nahi hai and u r the boss. Nobody messes with the tech supremos....because unke bina to chalega nahi. Managers to bahut mil jayenge.....
Bas baba...SSBB karwa do.....rather i have to do it now.....'Coz the heat is on :)
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 15, 2010, 09:47:04 PM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 15, 2010, 10:34:38 PM
Gud morning baba....today i went to see you at the temple. i had a gud darshan. Baba...last night i stayed up till 1:15 to complete the report that i had to submit today. And i was thinking maybe i'll feel very tired and sleepy...but that wasn't the case. I am fine :) That means...its all a state of mind. I knew i had to do it and i also knew that i had to get up early in the morning...so my mind refused my body to feel tired. Wow...wish i could apply the same for my SSBB studies.....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on December 15, 2010, 11:05:13 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: anshul mishra on December 16, 2010, 12:19:09 AM
om sai ram Sai ram Sai ram
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 16, 2010, 09:12:56 PM
Dear baba...this thread is an year old today. And u know what i did - i read all the posts...i realize that i have come a long way in this 1 year - spiritually. Other things havent changed much :-[ but thats ok. i think i've sruggled so much that i kept fighting the emotions and feelings and have been drained out completely. Still, i think now i am on the path of recovery. Things look good...at least better than before. It was so bleak last year....was so worried for my father. At least now that he is here i am a lot more relaxed.
Today is my father's birthday baba....please bless him with a happy and long life. I want to be able to care for him always. he is a good man and deserves a much better life.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 16, 2010, 11:23:42 PM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on December 17, 2010, 01:03:05 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 17, 2010, 10:49:30 PM
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OM SAI SHRI SAI JAI JAI SAI
OM SAI SHRI SAI JAI JAI SAI
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on December 18, 2010, 12:24:27 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: anshul mishra on December 18, 2010, 02:51:16 AM
Dear vidyarp Om sai ram Sai ram Sai ram Apane father ko janmdin ki badhai. Ishwar unhen achchhe swasthya ke saath lambee umra de. baba ki krapa aapke ghar par banee rahe. Om sai ram sai ram sai ram
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: lms on December 18, 2010, 03:16:51 AM
dear anuradha...

don't worry baba is testing you....

sairam
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 19, 2010, 09:48:35 PM
Thanks anshul for your wishes. we need your wishes and prayers.

Dear baba...thank you for everything. But u know...i have to ask for something always :) baba..please...i need to do something i love and am good at.Point is - i dont know if i have a skill. as a child, i was a great student - always a topper...and was reasonably good in music. But post that - i dont think i have worked on aquiring any talent. My focus has been mostly on studies to get a good job and so on....ok..i looooovvvvvveeee reading books. But thats not a talent eh? can i use my reading skills ?? Pata nahi....i need to have a passion in life....and u need to help me to discover it.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: anshul mishra on December 20, 2010, 01:13:48 AM
Vidyarp jee meri rai men aap achchhe lekhak ban sakate hain. Likhane kee bhee aadat dalen. aur ho sake to journalism field se jud jayen. Baba ke aashirwad se Aapko uchit raah jaroor milegi. Baba ke charnon men mera sheesh. Om sai ram Sai ram Sai ram
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 20, 2010, 02:03:58 AM
Hi Anshul....pata nahi....i do love reading and maybe i can write as well. Never explored that. As of now, i am in the IT industry and have no clue about journalism. Maybe i can evaluate technical writing...but i dont know how to get into it.
Thanks for the suggestion friend :) You have shown me a glimmer of light.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 20, 2010, 09:26:07 PM
Dear baba...gud morning....please let everything be alright....
take care of my son baba...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 20, 2010, 10:15:31 PM
Om Shri Sanathaya Namah
Om Shri Sanathaya Namah
Om Shri Sanathaya Namah
Om Shri Sanathaya Namah
Om Shri Sanathaya Namah
Om Shri Sanathaya Namah
Om Shri Sanathaya Namah
Om Shri Sanathaya Namah
Om Shri Sanathaya Namah
Om Shri Sanathaya Namah
Om Shri Sanathaya Namah
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on December 21, 2010, 12:05:27 AM
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omsairam

sai samarth...om shree sai nathaya namah
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 21, 2010, 06:38:52 AM
My quote for the month - "A job half done is a job not done. And job not done is NOT ACCEPTABLE"
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on December 22, 2010, 12:04:41 AM
om shri sai nathaya namah
om shri sai nathaya namah
om shri sai nathaya namah
om shri sai nathaya namah
om shri sai nathaya namah
om shri sai nathaya namah
om shri sai nathaya namah
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sai samarth...omsairam
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: anshul mishra on December 22, 2010, 12:14:43 AM
Well quote..  Om sai ram SAi ram sai ram
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 22, 2010, 09:43:16 PM
dear baba...gud morning....
yesterday i went home in half day since i had to take my son to the doctor....and on the way i went to my father's house. I had lunch there. he felt so good and i too felt very happy. Later on, he was upset thinking about my mother. Baba...i can take anything, but not tears in my father's eyes. Bas....i have decided....i will do all that it takes to make him happy.
please take care of all baba..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 22, 2010, 10:04:16 PM
Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
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Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on December 23, 2010, 04:22:18 AM
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omsairam omsairam omsairam omsairam omsairam
omsairam

sai samarth...om shri sai nathaya namah
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 23, 2010, 04:34:34 AM
Baba...my actions and my thoughts are not in synch. I feel bad to see my father upset and i know i have to do something, but i am doing nothing. I just plan. I dont act on my plans.......:(

If i have even a small amount of love for my father, i will act on my plans.

Waise...i think baba...i am very confused. I want a lot many things, but not sure what exactly. Thats causing the trouble....(remember class XII???) I cant afford the same problem now. I've to be sure and then work for it diligently....
help me dear lord....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 23, 2010, 09:55:12 PM
Gud morning baba....today i went to the temple and had your darshan baba. Felt gud. I promised to you there that i will not beg and plead to you for the things that i want. rather i have already requested you for it and i am going to keep my part of the deal by working for it. Now onwards, i will not ask and beg...i'll just hope that u give me the strength, wisdom and courage to work on my part of the deal successfully. And i also hope u keep an eye on me and the work i do...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 24, 2010, 12:00:36 AM
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Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on December 24, 2010, 12:27:17 AM
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om sai jai jai sai
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sai samarth....om shri sai nathaya namah
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 26, 2010, 10:03:33 PM
om sai sharanam...sri sai sharanam....om sai sharanam....sri sai sharanam...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on December 27, 2010, 01:27:16 AM
OMSAIRAM
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 27, 2010, 06:28:43 AM
Dear baba...i learnt an important lesson today in office politics. Unfortunately i learnt it the hard way. Still i am thankful to you for putting me through it. I made mistakes and now i know how to handle it the next time.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 27, 2010, 09:23:04 PM
Gud morning dear lord.....last night i saw my mother in dream and she was fine and with me. I was so happy to be with her. It felt like the older days when we were together.

Baba....please take care of my mother. She is with you.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 28, 2010, 06:01:48 AM
baba..i am not going to set myself up for failure. I mean why should the first thing i do in the morning be a failure?? If i have to get up at 4...its for a reason. and everytime i hit the snooze button, i tell myself - "Vidya...u loser...u could not keep your commitments...commitments u made to urself!!" I dont say that really...but thats the message my mind gets from my actions. Why?? I am not a loser...then why do i have to sabotage my own self?? Its bad enough already with so many people gunning for me at work...i can do without ruining things for myself.

So....what am i going to do about it - i am not going to be my enemy. i am not going to be the roadblock for myself...i refuse to sabotage myself...and i definitely wont set myself up for failure!!

My favorite song goes this way - "Its my life and its now or never. I aint gonna live forever. I just wanna live while i'm alive"
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: saib on December 28, 2010, 06:55:17 AM
Dear Vidya,

Mind is so clever. You have to be ruthless while dealing with it. If You will leave any way uncovered, It won’t obey you. It demands great determination. I had to use three alarms for this problem. You too can use One Alarm Watch, Mobile and Landline or anyway you like with the difference of 5 minutes each. Also Snooze set it for 5 minutes instead of 10 or 15 minutes. Keep at some distant. Once You get out of Bed in the morning, It will be easy to get in action. It won’t be simply rising in the morning, but awakening for a purpose of life……………..

May Baba Bless You!

om sri sai ram!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 28, 2010, 10:29:40 PM
Dear Saib...I am so thankful to you for your valuable suggestions. You are indeed a very methodical person who knows the art of self discipline and time management. You inspire me.

Dear baba....thank you for today. I didnt fail today morning :) ok...honestly it was a partial failure or should i call it partial success :)
i hope to improve. And guess what...today morning when i reached work, the first thing i did was check and do all those things on which others were dependent on me. Then i started working on my own items. I worked on the worst part right at the begining...and now i am glad i am over and done with it :) Getting the yuckiest thing out of the way quickly helps!! Now its just 10 AM and i have done a lot of work. I was in office by 8. Instead of browsing the net and checking personal mails, i first did all the above tasks. My day already looks better :D
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on December 28, 2010, 11:26:35 PM
Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on December 29, 2010, 01:25:36 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 29, 2010, 10:08:10 PM
Gud morning dear lord....u know that the astrologer uncle has said that i am not going anywhere from this work place and no chances of any change in the near future. its sad :(
And i also know that if i work hard and out my complete faith in u...all is possible.

Baba....give me the strength, wisdom and courage
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 30, 2010, 04:10:44 AM
Baba...forgive me as i sin. Today i am going to be eating cheezy pizza and coke and revel in chocolate truffle....all the things i shouldn't be eating. I am sorry. This is the last day i am eating it. Next year will be different.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 30, 2010, 09:37:56 PM
baba...gud morning. I learnt my lesson last evening. Gluttony is a sin!! And i suffered so much last evening after eating all those things. I promise i'm not going to over indulge myself in these anymore.
More to be discussed....am trying to marshall my thoughts ... ::)
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on December 31, 2010, 02:16:32 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 01, 2011, 04:58:46 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 02, 2011, 09:42:24 PM
Gud morning dear lord...and wish u a very happy new year. lots of things on my mind...but first thing - thank u...for helping me take that first step today morning and do the task that i have always planned to do but never executed. It was a long battle for me and finally i won...hope the streak continues....I'm going to be doing this for this whole month and see where i go and what i can do. based on that i can plan for future.
Celebrations can be only once....trying to figure if 16th is a good day to celebrate....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 03, 2011, 12:31:24 AM
Ok baba....the mind is restless and i want to share it with you. Last year - i had aimed for moving my dad closer to me and you showed me the way and ensured that this happens. This year baba, i am hoping for the following:

- I want my dad to stay with us and M to go away permanently. (only you can do something here. I can only pray)
- I want to focus on my health and well being. (I need to work on this diligently. Give me the determination and willpower)
- I want a flexible work schedule and want to do something i enjoy. I want peace of mind and ability to work at my own pace. (No idea what i'll do. have spent a good 6 months trying to figure this one out. Am clueless still. Need divine intervention here to guide me on the way ahead). In my current state of mind, i am not able to give my 100% to my current job and i do not like it when i am not giving my best. But if my first wish is taken care of, then this wont matter. Then i can focus on my career...because appa will be there for me.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 03, 2011, 02:12:50 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 03, 2011, 09:17:22 PM
Dear baba...gud morning. Last night i was thinking about the previous response...#402. I realized that i was wanting a change in my career only because of M....and i actually dont have a problem with my current job. I get the money, i get respect and flexibility to an extent. Then why do i want to throw it all away only because M would feel better. U know that whatever i do, M will never appreciate. so what makes me think that if i quit and take up a lower profile, M is going to like it. I mean c'mon.....my life cant be driven by M's likes and dislikes....
Yes...i do want appa to stay with us and M to go away...but baba for that, i cannot do anything. U will have to take care of that for me. what i can do is focus and give my 100% to my commitments. I should focus on my job, on improving myself and investing my time on my health and family needs. these are things i can do...so let me just work on them. u take care of my first wish....please.
BTW...i did not wake up today morning as intended for exercise. It is cold and foggy outside and i just wanted to snooze....BAD  >:( Now i'll have to make up for it.....which is a pain.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 03, 2011, 11:05:07 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on January 04, 2011, 01:58:49 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 05, 2011, 12:52:47 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 05, 2011, 06:14:13 AM
I am so messed up baba!!! This is frustrating !!!!
I mean why cant i decide whether i like my job or not. Apparently i dont. If i did, this thought would never have crossed my mind. I am upset because of the office politics and the lack of any authority but oodles of responsibility. i hate the lack of skilled people and the poor management and treatment of resources.The list can go on...but what do i do?? I get the money and get the time for family. And if i compare it to staying at home with M, i think i'll prefer to be here  ;)
But seriously, i need something to look fwd to each day....and i dont have that as of now. No passion. No urge to learn and excel.
I have so many things to do -
1. Lose weight
2. Complete SSBB program
3. Gain the credits for P
4. MVP
5. At least clear the interview for MS once in my life

Then why am i not doing anything about it??? Why do i feel i'm in a rut....both personally as well as professionally.....Will this ever change????
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 05, 2011, 10:00:11 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 05, 2011, 10:10:43 PM
Baba...gud morning. I got the sugar candies today and have started the sugar candy pooja. Have also started reading the satcharita. Not in the hope for something in return...but in the hope that i am able to find myself back! Its been 20 years since i excelled in something. As a student i was known for my excellence and brains. I worked for it and enjoyed the accolades. Theereafter something switched off the drive in me and i gradually became an also-ran. I kept sliding back when all my contemporaries were moving ahead. I did reasonably well in college and showed the spark maybe a couple of times - during my post grad when i worked on consistently improving my grades and when i got my job. Beyond that, i've never really used my capabilities. And my brain has been idling all these years. I really need to oil it and put it into use. Where is the original Vidya? I want myself back dear lord.....
Ok...am trying to focus on too many things and maybe thats overwhelming me. I need a single minded focus on just 1 thing and the rest can go take a hike....
So what should that single thing be??
SSBB in my opinion should come first...since i have already dragged my feet too much over it.
Weight loss is not a goal...its an ongoing journey which lasts a lifetime. So not appropriate to be included as goal.

Ok now that i know i need to do this...plan the time for it and stick to it!!!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 06, 2011, 12:48:02 AM
baba...today i am lucky to get your prasad as well as photo from shirdi. Thanks a lot.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 06, 2011, 11:03:18 PM
baba...gud morning. Today i am happy since last night i completed what i started. Its just step 1 and thats why i am not too elated since going by past records, i have a major problem in being consistent with my efforts. I start well...but never follow it through and see it to completion. So holding my horses....
Baba...please take care of all....u know everything...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 06, 2011, 11:11:07 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 07, 2011, 03:46:27 AM
what would i call myself - loser, incompetent, wasted....call it what u want....thats what i am.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 07, 2011, 11:47:13 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 09, 2011, 10:03:51 PM
Dear baba...last evening, suddenly i felt that nothing can improve the situation. No matter what i do, i am bound to fail....this is my destiny and i have to go through it. Nothing can change and nothing will change. I will continue my life like this....i was so upset.....baba....not for myself....but for my father. I just want to see him happy. I wish i could do something for my mother as well. But thats not possible now. But i surely want a good life for my father. Give me peace of mind and happiness baba.....i am very troubled.....if it was only about me, i wouldnt have worried...but its about my father....help him baba....please..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 09, 2011, 10:16:12 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: binnu85 on January 09, 2011, 11:41:36 PM
Mistake happened by me. I have immigration process going on,I went to the baba's mandir to seek the blessing and put the final documents of the paper on his feet through panditji. After that panditji gave a flower from the baba's feet. I and my mom went outside the temple to get prasad while I was getting prasad I gave my mom to hold that flower when I came from getting the prasad I helped my mom to arrange the stuff from her hand so she can eat the prasad. But while doing that she dropped the flower and by mistake I stepped on it. I am feeling fear now is everything going to be ok.
I confess that it was my mistake but I did not do it on purpose.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on January 10, 2011, 12:31:09 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 10, 2011, 02:08:53 AM
Dear friend binnu85 - baba knows everything. He has surely seen that u did this by mistake. He is like our mother. He does not punish you without any reason. Have faith in him and go ahead with confidence.

baba....what do i do???
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 10, 2011, 06:40:31 AM
Baba...yet another day gone...yet another lost opportunity...yet another failed attempt....words fail me. Maybe it has become a way of life for me. Mediocrity!!! I dont have a single talent that i can boast of. I dont have a single thing where i can say i know the thing in and out. I am not able to excel in anything and so cant leave my mark...nobody will say that this is vidya's work.
i keep telling myself that i will eventually love the job i do...eventually lose weight...eventually look for options that i love and have a better work life balance....all in the future...never in the present. There is no NOW in my world!!! I have tried beating myself for it...i have tried to come to terms with my procrastination habits....tried reading motivational books...kept telling myself that i'll turn over a new leaf starting this date or that date.....NOTHING WORKED!!!!
Baba...i'm so torn....i feel i'm not in the right job....but dont have any other option...i need the money....but i need the time as well to be with my family....i have to upgrade my skills and actually do something good....but i keep brooding over my current situation....i am so tired and fed up of thinking the same thing over and over. Its 2 years now baba....please....i need to get out of the rut. I am at the lowest point of my life personally and professionally. I know i have it in me to make it big. I know i can work hard...just that i have no energy or enthusiasm left. I just want the following:
- want my dad to stay with us and M to go away
- want to be in a job / career where i have flexibility and money as well as professional setup. Where i have a value.

For part 1 - i cant do anything.
For part 2 - i think this stems from a feeling of unworthyness. I guess its important for myself to aquire a skill or something to start feeling better about myself. It also shows the others around me about my talents...thereby building my credibility.

What spurs me?
Need to prove a point to someone / Excellence as a trait in self.
I think it should be excellence since proving a point for others isnt a very bright thing to do.

What stops me?
Lack of consistency (i run out of steam) / am not interested in what i do and keep looking for things that i'll enjoy / Lack of determination.
I think i'm not seeing things through only because i dont enjoy what i do. If i start enjoying what i do and what i'll get out of it, i'll be more tempted to complete the activity at hand.

Baba...last night...i suddenly got my "aha" moment. I got to know that its not only me who has a feeling of unworthyness about myself....my family too thinks that i cannot do anything. Its like i've been taken for granted. As if, it doesnt matter to what i do...since i'll not pursue it anyways and i dont have the determination as well. there's a feeling of superiority in R and he thinks i am not capable of achieving anything. Even when i mentioned about my SSBB, his response was very tepid. And to think i've always supported his mba!!! Ok - i have no grouse against him. But sometimes, his words really hurt me...and i keep thinking that i need to keep this hurt alive and turn my anger into action and prove him wrong. Why him alone...even M thinks i am not going to be doing anything significant. It hurts and i know i can do it and do it  much better...

So does that spur me ?? To prove them wrong?? Maybe. In the process, i am excelling at my task and keep improving myself.
Ok - reasons defined - i need to do this for myself as well as to prove them wrong. I've been against myself all this while and its time i take back control and bring out the best in me. I want to do this first and foremost for myself. And in the process, the icing on the cake would be when i defy their logic and attain things that they never thought i could. I want to prove them wrong .
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on January 10, 2011, 11:47:37 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 11, 2011, 10:14:33 PM
Baba...gud morning....
Its 2 years today since that fateful day when my life changed. Its ma's bday today. May her soul rest in peace and may she find happiness where ever she is. All i want is for her to be happy. And i do hope someday we meet again....

Baba...take care of my father...he is a gem of a man....take care of my son and husband....and mil and sil....they are family too...why do i have to discriminate?? If someone is not being nice to me...then baba...essentially they are not being nice to you..isnt it? For you reside in all beings.

Baba...yesterday...i was so consumed with the need to do something that i finished all the pending activities at work!! And my boss appreciated it. :) It was purely because i was so fed up and consumed with the desire to prove that i was not a nobody...i too can do great things....I hope the streak continues:)
Last night i dreamt of something related to Harvard Busniess School....and i kept thinking of all the wasted opportunitis in my life....
I'll repeat myself - its a desire to excel and prove my worth at the same time its a desire to prove all my detractors wrong......
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 11, 2011, 10:48:46 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on January 12, 2011, 12:16:53 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 12, 2011, 04:08:30 AM
Baba....u r my whole and sole refuge.....without u, i am nothing
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 12, 2011, 09:59:26 PM
Om sai sharanam...baba...please make this a good day dear lord..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 12, 2011, 10:03:16 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 13, 2011, 10:12:29 PM
Baba...gud morning.
I've thought of a slogan for myself - "Enduring the pain of efforts towards a goal is better than enduring the pains of mediocrity". How's it?? I just thought about it right now. Its a choice we make at the end of the day. and why should one complain?? If its not working out for you, quit!! But dont just crib and do nothing about it. Either you do something, or dont complain!!
Here's another slogan (just thought about it)  - every moment, i choose to create my future. If i choose wisely now, i have a happier future.
Wow...i'm liking it :)
Here's a modified version of the above 2 - "I choose the pain of hard work and discipline over the pain of mediocrity and missed opportunities."
Aha...too good ;D

Slogan 3 - " Its all in my mind - if i yearn for it, i can "earn" it"
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 14, 2011, 12:18:38 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on January 14, 2011, 11:44:13 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 16, 2011, 09:54:12 PM
Why dont i get up in the morning at 4:40 AM as planned?? I mean, i cant hear the alarm or what??
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: swatisai87 on January 16, 2011, 10:10:14 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 16, 2011, 10:34:10 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 17, 2011, 09:31:26 PM
Om shakti shiva shakti sai shakti sadguru shakti.

Baba....i will mend my ways....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 17, 2011, 10:58:55 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on January 18, 2011, 12:06:05 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 18, 2011, 10:22:20 PM
baba...i have never met shalini...still i can feel her pain and grief. baba...please take care of her. she has lost her mother and there can be no greater loss than this.

Baba...as for me...i'm going to write a big post today where i evaluate all the options and let u decide on the future course of action.

Till then - please let everything be alright baba.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: saimukti on January 18, 2011, 10:45:42 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 19, 2011, 01:07:48 AM
Background:I have been a good student all my life. Studied well, always a topper in school, teachers pet! But then something happened and i snapped in class x i guess. I didnt score well. Then XI and XII were a disaster and i was not able to focus anywhere - there were so many things to do and no focus anywhere. I mean i had to deal with pressure on studies, pressure to perform well in the entrance test, pressure i felt as a teenager. I was afraid of failure, never sure of myself - having tasted failure in Class X. By failure i mean - everyone thought i would be the school topper and score 90% and above. But i got a measly 81% that was way below others in my class. I took that as a failure. I think that is the root cause of my problems - i lost confidence in myself. XI and XII were merciless - i had to prove that i was good...and at the same time my self image took a massive beating because of my physical appearance. I was fat and dark and studious. Somehow i dont know why...but it mattered at that point in life. Well....that also added to the pressure...and i think i lost all belief in self. My mind kept telling me that i was not good at anything. And i lost focus. when i failed to crack the entrance tests, that was the last straw!! I was truly a failure. I did not want to face the world. It was a blow to my self esteem and a blow to my parents, who had worked so hard to give me everything that i asked for. when all the other friends were in IIT or other premier institutes - i, the once topper - Vidya, was doing an ordinary BSc. With great difficulty, i got my focus together and attempted the MCA entrance exams and i would say, it was purely god's grace that i got through them. Although i would say that i focussed better and worked for it, still w/o god's grace i couldnt have done it.

Lesson learned - when i have 10 things on my mind and when i dont have focus on anything, i dont achieve anything. Also, this is the time when i am low in self confidence and knowledge as well. I have not pushed myself to prepare better and did not prioritize the issues assailing me. Had i done that, i would have worked towards a specific activity rather than dissipating all my energy in 10 different directions. And i was desparate to do this for my parents.

Ok, why did i need to highlight the background? Its because i see a repeat in the pattern - then and now.

A little later: I did well in MCA, met the man i would marry, got a good job and did quite well at work. I enjoyed my work, enjoyed the stress IT gave, loved the late nights and night outs, coding and everything. I loved the onsite tours and the money i got. And then i got married. I restricted the late nights and travels and adjusted fairly well. Ok so the m problem remained and in fact remains till today. But its not something that is major. I still worried about my career and promotions. Then i wanted a baby. i was desparate and finally god blessed me with a wonderful bundle of joy. to be honest - i knew that having a baby would change my life and priorities...and i wasnt sure i thought of all that before wishing for the baby. After my child was born suddenly my priorities changed. I wanted to take care of my baby and the very thought of even a 10 minutes delay in reaching home from work, was apalling. I still wanted the promotions and growth but had put so many restrictions on myself that i knew my contemporaries would soon overtake me. I was sad..but thats a choice i made for myself. Then i got into projects where i idled completely. It was the begining of the end of my stint in the organization i had served for more than 7 years. I got used to doing nothing. I spent days after days doing nothing and it kind of caught on. I had to clear a certification program and i whiled away my time for nearly 1 year!! Then when i relocated to another project, i couldnt cope with the pressure and called it quits. Then i joined another organization where the work was not an issue but the politics was!!

Lessons learned: I have to learn to enjoy my current situation instead of wishing for something to happen to seek happiness in it. Happiness lies in now - the present. Thats because what you wish for, you only see the positive side till u want it to happen. Once u get what u wanted, u realize the flip side of that. And one must be ready to accept the pros and the cons both.

Current situation: Right now, i am at a senior position in this organization. I get paid decently. After my mother's death, i am responsible for my father. he is most precious to me and i will do everything to take care of him. As of now, i have been able to purchase a house close to mine for him. the good part is that i can see him daily and he also gets to play with my son daily. Thats a big big plus. Coming to my current problem - I am not happy doign what i am doing at work. The reasons are plenty and i am basically not doing much to elevate myself from this situation. Till last year my concern was my father's relocation. Once that has been done, i now want to focus on my issues.
This can happen anywhere. U need to learn to handle it
Adapt or leave.
This is how this org is. Adapt or leave. but what is the guarantee that this will not happen elsewhere
Whose fault?? did u ever try to learn? did u ever invest time and effort?? NO!!! learn and grow or get trumped
Ok - this is an issue with most org. If u r here, u cant change it. if u go to some other org - u may / may not have this flexibility. Unless and until u specifically target orgs which allow flexi time and wfh
U really cant blame anyone here but urself!! Even if u r on the right track, u'll get trodden over if u just sit there. There's just one life. Make the most of it. Again looking at the historical data, whenever i have had multiple issues and lack of focus, i have failed. So if i know the pattern, i can resolve the issue by breaking the pattern. All i need is the desire to excel (maybe as a tribute to my mother), the focus and hard work and confidence in myself
Keep looking. But that should not be the main focus. Because - as of now ur baby has 2 people to look after him. And u are giving ur best to him. Dont feel guilty. Ur child is fine. Its the guilt of leaving your child with others thats the reason behind your problems. Its not a big deal. Dont worry.
U need to redo ur cv. Add things into it and keep trying. The basic issue is with the focus and preparation. With focus and preparation comes confidence
Teaching is not a cakewalk. The timings appear good, but the politics and other issues can persist there. Plus the money is low and the other issues i am not aware of. And i dont have the degree for it. I am not going to downgrade myself. I have worked hard to come up till here. I have done my parents proud and have to ensure that they have not suffered in vain.
getting into any new career option is a slow and time consuming process involving reskilling. I am not business minded to start a business. I have to work and ensure steady income
Again unknown area, need to reskill. Plus money may be low and would start coming in about 3-4 years after starting
High risk and lot of learning involved. cant be banked upon for steady income. however, would love to learn this and practice it as a hobby
Money is important. Baby is taken care of. But for money, u need to work it out
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So round and round i go in circles.

Ok....with each point i will list down my thoughts

Conclusion: I need to get rid of the guilt factor of not being there with my child when he needs me. he is turning 5 now. And i have been able to manage till now, then i will surely be able to continue for another 3 - 4 years at least. At least till the time my father and m are able to care for him, i should make the most of it. I need to reskill myself and buildup my confidence. I cannot afford wasting my time anymore since each day the clock is ticking. I have a limited time period to make all that money and learn new skills. I think i like what i do and its only a problem with the work env. I can either adapt or change that. And the change becomes easier with new skills. Teaching and writing can be something i can look into after retiring or quitting my job. That should not be my focus at the moment. Apart from reskilling, i should look at developing my skills in the stock market. This is where the money is and the freedom is. I am going to do full justice to the degree i have earned, to the hard work i have done all these years, to the sweat and blood my parents have put in to see me here. I have the brains, i have my baba's blessings, i have my parent's wishes and my husband's support. What else do i need?? Faith in myself and the ability to push myself towards my goal.

Long post baba....but i think it was a good effort and i needed to write this. I needed to get this out of my head and for your consent. I think u only have decided things for me. So thank you.

Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 20, 2011, 10:01:00 PM
Dear baba...i've spent 2 more days in turmoil. I try to explain it to myself and still dont feel 100% convinced. Lekin ab baba....paani sir ke upar se ja raha hai. If i dont do something, i'm going to drown...thats for sure.
Yesterday i fullfilled my dream and got the thing i've always wanted...it costed a fortune...but then baba...i realized that i should enjoy it while i can....
I also told myself that i'm going to learn to keep commitments.

Hope everything turns out fine.....i know u r watching over me.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 20, 2011, 11:05:48 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 21, 2011, 12:56:02 AM
go for it girl...go for it...u have but one life..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: saii on January 21, 2011, 02:24:50 AM
Dear Vidya,

Time is God! All people can’t do everything. We mortal people have limits. So, Focus on what is more important. You have done good SWOT analysis, It is really inspiring. This is at Macro Level. at micro level  focus on relevant tasks will add value addition to life and bring fruitful results. Eliminate activities of no or less importance. Out of total time 10% should be on planning and rest on execution. Being a project person you might be using Quadrant  for scheduling activities (Time Management Matrix), Make it complete for personal and professional life both together. Use of Time boxing (PERT/CPM way) will help to accelerate all ongoing activities.

Very True! u have but one life……. and This one life should be live as remarkable. To enjoy completely. Life or Death is not in our hands, neither to control all circumstances in life, but to respond and maintain a positive attitude is in our hands.

Thanks for elaborating your tasks to inspire others (But also same time avoid personal details). All the best!

om sai ram!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: jaya.visu on January 21, 2011, 02:57:36 AM
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daya chesi ammanu kapdu..na gundello neekunna tempe lo eppdu kattalni alochana naukokunda vachchndi..dayachesi ammanu kapadu nee tmeple katti akkada maa tha life nee nee sevake annkitham
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 21, 2011, 05:34:08 AM
Point well taken dear friend saii....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 22, 2011, 01:46:04 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 23, 2011, 09:37:20 PM
Dear baba...gud morning....
weekend was not very gud...u know what happened....I didnt like it when i was shouted at and spoken to rudely...without any fault of mine. But i guess thats how things are. I just need to move on....

with you by my side, nothing can go wrong!!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 23, 2011, 10:22:31 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on January 23, 2011, 11:37:32 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 25, 2011, 12:02:55 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 25, 2011, 03:27:36 AM
pata nahi kyu...but baba....things dont seem fair. I have to wage a war everywhere. No peace at all. Neither at home nor at work.....
shakti do baba...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 26, 2011, 10:14:40 PM
dear god...gud morning...
the day started on a bad note - kid was crying, didnt eat, didnt do the big job and went ot school upset. R yelled and screamed as usual...for no fault of mine. No point in picking up an argument with him. Then on the road, almost met with a major accident. Its only you who saved me.....whew!!!
Baba...what do i do?? People can be such pompous a$$. Dont do a thing and then complain to the whole world. Why am i putting up with this?? And i dont seem to be doing anything to redeem myself as well. What to talk of others....is it complacense?? Is it the sheer lack of will??? Is it the feeling of just let it be??? i dont know....i dont know what can motivate me???
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 27, 2011, 09:41:54 PM
Baba gud morning....
I am going to try something new today...hope it works...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 27, 2011, 11:25:25 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on January 28, 2011, 12:48:13 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on January 28, 2011, 11:53:54 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 31, 2011, 12:26:07 AM
Dear baba...gud morning. As of now, i think things are marginally better. I still have a long way to go, but thats fine. I'm loving the journey :)
good for me i guess...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 31, 2011, 10:16:30 PM
Gud morning dear lord....
Last night i made an attempt to sit and study. I couldnt get up today morning as i had desired. Bad!! Maybe today i'm going to plug in my headphones the minute alarm goes off  ;D. Maybe that'll  wake me up enough...
Other than that - i have worked out the schedule for the day. I'll get going.

Please take care of all dear baba..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on January 31, 2011, 11:46:51 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on February 01, 2011, 12:10:54 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on February 01, 2011, 11:00:31 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on February 02, 2011, 12:58:16 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 09, 2011, 09:43:17 PM
gud morning dear sai baba....
sorry havent been very regular for the past few days. Thats because i think i have just about crossed the hurdle i was facing for the past few years. I think finally i've gotten over the mental block of complacence / procrastination / lack of presevearance. Because for the past few days, i've been planning my days AND more importantly, seeing through all my planned activities to completion. I even took a certification course last week. Feels good baba :) I feel energetic and revived. I know there's a long way to go and things can get difficult on the way....but that will not stop me. Also, i know i am not doing all that i hoped i would be doing. But at least i've got started. Now its a matter of picking up the momentum. Something is better than nothing.
I dont know when i reached my "aha" moment - but it was somewhere around the time when i got to understand my core problem was persevearance and not determination or procrastination. I think finding the root cause and getting to know it has helped.
Long way to go baba...but thanks for being there for me...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on February 09, 2011, 10:45:12 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 10, 2011, 11:52:06 PM
om sai sharanam baba...
with your blessings, i was able to clear one exam yesterday. After 2 years of wallowing in self pity and desperation, yesterday for the first time in 2 years - i felt proud of myself. I thought that life is about to change again for the better. I am thru with the darkest phase of my life.....

Thank u baba...thank u so much....for constantly walking with me in my hours of despair....never leaving me ....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 16, 2011, 11:06:28 PM
Gud morning dear lord.....yesterday was my birth day and i spent the whole day doing things i love. It was a day well spent. Thank you dear lord for being my constant companion.
I have a long way ahead...but i'll make it ...i know....because i have u by my side ;)
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 17, 2011, 02:06:10 AM
baba....i feel like a school girl...in my teens :)....bcoz i got flowers at my work place from my husband...and i was blushing....:)
makes me want to go back to those days.....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on February 17, 2011, 10:16:59 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on February 18, 2011, 12:44:43 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 22, 2011, 10:15:36 PM
baba...dont know what to do and how things will be...but one thing's for sure....if i put all my faith in you, everything will be alright.
U know what i want - although its not something that i am deeply worried about. Because the reason why i was so worried earlier, u have already resolved that issue. My father is near me....and what else do i need. Bas baba ....i need to be able to earn enough and take care of my family w/o any tensions. Plus i want to be on my own. Dont know when that will be possible. but yes...thats my desire.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 23, 2011, 10:32:50 PM
sai rehem nazar karna...baccho ka palan karna....

Baba....i believe in you completely and i know u will do the best for me...

Take care of my father dear lord....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on February 24, 2011, 12:42:19 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on February 24, 2011, 01:26:58 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 24, 2011, 09:44:23 PM
baba...i am a little worried about my health. I think i m not in gud shape. I've been experiencing pain in my hands (just like what happened when i was hypothyroid) and my body has become so stiff. When i get up after sitting in one position, my knees refuse to budge and i feel the joints are groaning....and i am just 36 years old. I can atttribute it to the total disregard i have for my self. I have not taken care of myself - mentally and physically. I have not invested in myself. I have filled my body with junk food and have not bothered to exercise. I really need to do something fast before it gets too late.
Ihave to be fit and fine for my father, son and husband.......

Baba...give me the strength and the energy and the attitude to take care of myself.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on February 24, 2011, 11:10:42 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on February 25, 2011, 12:59:13 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 28, 2011, 10:20:57 PM
Gud morning dear baba....sorry for not writing frequently.....u know what happened over the weekend. M is away and dad is taking care of S. Am so happy with this arrangement....things are fine...and i am totally stress free. M adds to my stress so much. Even though she doesnt say it as much, her actions make me grit my teeth and clench my fists and this happens a lot during the day. Weekends are worse. So dear baba....why cant we have the current arrangement through out?? Please please please....dear lord!!! Anything to make this happen....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on February 28, 2011, 11:24:03 PM
Om Sai Ram
Om Sai Ram
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 01, 2011, 10:08:25 PM
dear lord...the bliss continues....dont know how many days more for this spell.....please baba...make it last a lifetime....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on March 01, 2011, 11:12:43 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 02, 2011, 10:17:18 PM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 02, 2011, 10:30:19 PM
gud morning sainath.....its rainy and windy today. Didnt feel like coming to work...but no option :) But u know...thats what i was thinking when i saw ju returning from school after dropping her daughter. She had that look on her face and i kind of thought that she might be feeling bad for not going out to work. And maybe i feel a little poud of the fact that i am working. Please baba...i am ok with anything else but ego. I am glad that i can still work, I am glad that i still work in my line and not compromised.....so i guess to win something u lose something...and if i am working, i need to give up the idea of taking a day off just becuase its rainy ....
Baba....people are never really satisfied with their lot. Always feel the grass is greener on the other side. but baba..one thing's for sure....if only u could let me continue with the current arrangement at home......my life would be bliss.....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 03, 2011, 03:16:03 AM
baba...what does it take to live the life that u want to live??i am just an average middle class girl...trying to get things working in my favour....and wen the stress level is low due to the home environment, everything seems alright. Its tru that if u have a happy home, u have everything. I just came from a happy home and married into a sad, morose family where people dont laugh. They always brood, nitpick and talk ill of everyone. tempers are high and words are cruel....i know they are nice people at heart...but just that m singles me out for all the ill treatment......i dont like it. now that m is away for few days, i am happy. she is back on saturday:( :( :(
baba...what do i do??
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 03, 2011, 10:43:15 PM
today is the last day of my freedom....it will be bak to the grind from tomorrow...if only..............
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 04, 2011, 01:29:55 AM
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Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 06, 2011, 10:12:08 PM
Gud morning baba.....like i said....its back to the grind...i guess things wont come easily to me...i need to slog it out...thats how my life is ordained by u...hai na? baba...please dont think i m complaining.....i m perfectly fine with this....at least i have the satisfaction of having earned it. But baba...please give my father a happy life and a comfortable life.....he means a lot to me.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 06, 2011, 11:15:12 PM
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Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 07, 2011, 12:11:13 AM
Its all a state of mind.....problem or opportunity.....desperation or determination.....your choice!!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 07, 2011, 10:07:39 PM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 07, 2011, 10:37:33 PM
baba...yesterday for the first time in 10 years, i had a very cleansing experience and all the hurt, grievances, negativity i had in my heart and mind, i just let them go. i wanted to apologize and say sorry to M for all the wrong things i said or did. I saw her in a new light altogether.......Baba i am stress free now. I realized that i was carrying a lot of burden within me and i myself am responsible for my situation. Hope this good sense prevails and i focus on my life now.
The fact of the matter is that i have effectively only 1-2 years or max 3 years of working this way. Beyond that, i will have to have either an alternative career or go to an org that will let me wfh. there is no third option. Cant depend on M or pa to sit with K and teach him.
Show me the way dear lord...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: saisai83 on March 08, 2011, 01:22:59 PM
Om Sri Sai Nathaaya Namaha   Om Sri Sai Nathaaya Namaha   Om Sri Sai Nathaaya Namaha
Om Sri Sai Nathaaya Namaha   Om Sri Sai Nathaaya Namaha   Om Sri Sai Nathaaya Namaha

Baba please guide and bless your children forever

Jai Sai Ram
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 08, 2011, 09:26:27 PM
Sai ma...please be my guiding light and guardian angel.....help me and lead me to the right path....
I am your child
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 09, 2011, 09:42:00 PM
baba...i reach out to you....please hold my hand and lead me through the darkness that surrounds me...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 09, 2011, 11:25:21 PM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 10, 2011, 10:01:08 PM
Om sai ma....
what happens when everyone tries to put you down and tell u that u r no good....that u cannot achieve any greatness ...in fact u r incapable of any thing.....what should one do?? I think one should prove them wrong...show them that u r made of sterner stuff and u can do it and maybe even outshine them...

baba...itni shakti hame dena data...mann ka vishwas kamzor ho na...hum chale nek raste pe humse bhool kar bhi koi bhool ho na...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 10, 2011, 10:55:32 PM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 11, 2011, 05:00:35 AM
baba...why the death and destruction of life...the tsunami and earthquake have left japan shattered. Why??
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on March 12, 2011, 01:33:43 AM
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OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM
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OMSAIRAM

SAI SAMARTH.....SHARDHA SABURI

KIRPA KARO APNE BACHO PAR SAINATH....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 13, 2011, 09:51:24 PM
Dear lord....gud morning.....i am seeking your help and blessings in completing the long pending work. Please help and guide me baba.

baba - please be with the people of japan. They really really need you. How much can a nation take? Please help them and be with them dear lord.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 13, 2011, 10:33:40 PM
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Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 14, 2011, 06:13:55 AM
baba...i have to buy furniture for my dad's house and have been trying to se what best deals can be availed. You know what baba....when i go to the malls, i see so many good things that i want to buy/own. But i stop myself. I realize the power of money. and i get the money from my work. so shouldnt i be serious towards it?? can i sustain without money?? no way!!can i take care of all my needs (including what i do for family and father)?? no!! then why cant i like what i do? i should be thankful and love my job.....and it will definitely help if i adopt this attitude since i believe one's performance is related to one's attitude....
I should love my job...but if i think writing / reading is my passion, i should build it up as a hobby and provide appropriate time to it to mature. That can be a hobby. Right now, focus on getting the dough to fund your hobby.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: ravneetsidhu on March 14, 2011, 06:27:55 AM
om sai nathaya namah
om sai nathaya namah
om sai nathaya namah
om sai nathaya namah
om sai nathaya namah
om sai nathaya namah
om sai nathaya namah
om sai nathaya namah
om sai nathaya namah
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: SaiSevak!9 on March 14, 2011, 07:50:48 AM
@vidyarp

Sairam :)

I pray to baba whole heartedly to bless you with peace n happiness :)

Even 'm going through BIG BIG problems in my life, my life has been a struggle from the very beginning but since now that Sai is with me, 'm not fearful of anything.. My faith n devotion for him has only increased with passage of time with his blessings, although my problems still aren't solved. But I know with his blessings they will be solved soon. I do not blame him. My bad karmas are being washed away.

Pray to sai that let no trial erase our shraddha n saburi.. Baba apni kripa hamesha sab par banaye rakhe.


If possible, please light lamps regularly in your house..

Jai Sai Nath!:)
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: sawan on March 14, 2011, 04:12:12 PM
om sai ram..baba ji aap ko aise he himmat aur ashirwad de...baba ji sab ke sath hain aur pass hain..woh sab jante hain.....bas hum he nahi jaan pate....woh rehem nazar rakhe hum sab par aur hamare apno par..om sai ram...mauhhh
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 14, 2011, 09:39:24 PM
Thank you sawan and saisevak......i agree...baba is with us always. and though we may not realize, it is during the tough times, that he is with us constantly.

But we are human...and cannot understand baba's leelas and so we crib and complain.

Today baba - i feel boundless and free. I feel that i can be whatever i want to be. The constraints and self limiting thoughts are my own creation. They are a result of my perception on how i can work out a harmonious solution to my family problems. Its been 10 years now. But has it helped?? No. Because - outwardly i am trying to be someone and do something which is not congruous with my inner self and my belief. I am not doing justice to myself and will always remain unhappy if i take this approach. Its important to be in harmony with self. A happy soul can take care and adjust well in any situation. So i m breaking away from the mould and will be free.....bless me baba and be with me always.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on March 15, 2011, 12:01:19 AM
OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM
OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM
OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM
OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM
OMSAIRAM

Sai samarth....Shardha Saburi

Baba ji kirpa karo....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 15, 2011, 12:24:54 AM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: SaiSevak!9 on March 15, 2011, 07:49:05 AM
@VIDYARP

SaiRam

That's the spirit!

Just surrender to baba n u will experience wonders!!

Baba bless his devotees!

Jai Sai Nath!:)
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 15, 2011, 09:50:34 PM
Thank you friend - saisevak.
he know best. Then why should i worry and break my head over it??

Baba - please help Japan. They are in for major problems....take care of them baba
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 16, 2011, 12:07:45 AM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: SaiSevak!9 on March 16, 2011, 06:37:49 AM
Thank you friend - saisevak.
he know best. Then why should i worry and break my head over it??

RIGHT!


Sai Bless All!! :)

SABKA MAALIK EK :)
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 16, 2011, 09:48:11 PM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 16, 2011, 10:18:46 PM
Today i feel a little overwhelmed. didnt sleep well last night. Dont know why. And when i see all the problems surrounding me - i feel like running away. I feel like breaking free. I want to scrap everything and make a new begining.
Do u also feel that way someday? Hope not!! What if u start feeling that creating mankind is not good. Lets scrap it and start afresh ??? That would be a disaster :o
Ok - baba, talking of disasters - what are u going to do to Japan? Baba....paapi log har desh mein baste hain and same way, acche log bhi har desh mein baste hain.....then why did u single out japan??Or is it an indication of things to come?? are u feeling like scrapping and starting afresh???
baba - life is a blessing...please let the people live and die peacefully. forgive the sins dear lord.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: SaiSevak!9 on March 16, 2011, 11:04:10 PM
Sai Bless All!!

SABKA MAALIK EK!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: mkanigir on March 16, 2011, 11:31:52 PM
om sai om sai om sai
om sai om sai om sai
om sai om sai om sai
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on March 17, 2011, 03:09:51 AM
OM SHRI SAINATHAYA NAMAH
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 17, 2011, 09:37:20 PM
Good morning dear lord.

Today with your blessings:

- I will use my time wisely
- I will give my 100% to the task at hand
- I will endure and persevear to see the task to completion
- I will love myself and take care of myself more than ever
- I will not lead a life of mediocrity


Om sai sharanam....sri sai sharanam...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on March 17, 2011, 11:27:45 PM
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OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 17, 2011, 11:51:35 PM
Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 20, 2011, 09:59:54 PM
Good morning dear lord.

Today with your blessings:

- I will use my time wisely
- I will give my 100% to the task at hand
- I will endure and persevear to see the task to completion
- I will love myself and take care of myself more than ever
- I will not lead a life of mediocrity


Om sai sharanam....sri sai sharanam...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on March 20, 2011, 11:56:23 PM
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OMSAIRAM

Sai Samarth.....Shardha Saburi
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 22, 2011, 01:04:42 AM
baba...what to say?? today is my parents anniv. It would have been a great day ad my mother been with us. Now she is with you. I know she is fine and happy. But please take care of my father. He is lonely. And my m - what to say again. Its like talking to a wall and it doesnt matter what i say or do. i am always wrong. so cant do much there. But fretting and fuming too will not help. so am not going to worry too much about that and i will not tell r also. what can he do? lets not rock the boat. but each time i am treated bad, i'm going to say - baba, hope u r watching and hope my debts are being paid off.
as for work - hmmmmmm....trying to make things better.and looking for a better life.

Om sai sharanam....sri sai sharanam..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on March 22, 2011, 03:41:25 AM
OMSAIRAM
OMSAIRAM
OMSAIRAM
OMSAIRAM
OMSAIRAM
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 23, 2011, 10:18:35 PM
Dear god....today is the day india clashes with australia for the WC quarter finals. Hope things turn in india's favour. Also, today is MIS result. Dunno what will happen. keeping my fingers crossed.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on March 24, 2011, 01:30:38 AM
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OMSAIRAM

Sai Samarth....Shardha Saburi

kirpa karo sainath....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 24, 2011, 01:49:10 AM
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Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 27, 2011, 10:14:44 PM
Dear lord..gud morning. The weekend was hectic as u know. But baba....finally got the furniture for dad. What a relief i say!! Finlly all the loose ends are getting closed. It means a lot to me to see my father happy and settled. Today i got his tickets for the trip as well. Baba - i realize the power of money. Its so important to be able to afford all of this. what would i do if you did not help me in earning!!Baba - please bless me and show me the way to help my father and family in all respects. Thank you so muchdear lord.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: SaiSevak!9 on March 28, 2011, 03:20:41 AM
Baba bless all!! :)

Om shree Sai Jai Jai Sai

Sukhkaari Teri Mahima Sai 8)

SABKA MAALIK EK! ;D
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 28, 2011, 09:48:46 PM
Baba gud morning.
Last evening i managed to diffuse the tension at home easily. Although i wanted to scream and shout, i believe my tactic was perfect and things improved dramatically. All thanks to you baba - for giving me sadbuddhi at the right time. It just goes to prove that we choose how to react to a situation. Feeling good or bad - is a choice we make.
Thank you dear lord.
Today at work baba - i plan to learn this new thing since it interests me. I hope i am able to do justice to it. Bless me dear lord.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 28, 2011, 10:02:45 PM
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Om Sai Shri Sai Jai Jai Sai
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on March 28, 2011, 11:25:09 PM
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OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM
OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM OMSAIRAM
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OMSAIRAM

OM SAI NAMO NAMAH
SHREE SAI NAMO NAMAH
JAI JAI SAI NAMO NAMAH
SADGURU SAI NAMO NAMAH

Sai Samarth.....Shardha Saburi
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 29, 2011, 10:40:02 PM
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
Om Shri Sainathaya Namah
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on March 29, 2011, 11:26:36 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 30, 2011, 12:11:43 AM
Om sai sharanam....

Baba...india clashes with pakistan today. hope we win :) please bless the team and the country
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 30, 2011, 11:47:53 PM
Baba....yippeee...:D we won!!
What does it tell -  fortune favours those who work hard and stay calm. Presssure will always be a part of life. The trick is to take in whatever helps and discard all that doesnt help.

God bless my country and my fellow country men.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 31, 2011, 01:05:59 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on March 31, 2011, 03:40:16 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on March 31, 2011, 10:24:31 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 01, 2011, 01:05:11 AM
Om....
Jaakho raakhe saiyan...maar sake na koye....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 01, 2011, 10:27:20 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 03, 2011, 11:13:30 PM
Gud morning dear baba....
Thank you sooooo much...for helping india win!!! They played well baba and SL was a worthy opponent. And all the time, i felt their self belief and their confidence on themselves and their game. Baba...this is it. This is what is required.
It just proves that hard work for preparation, determination, self confidence and honesty will take you places.

Today baba K has gone to school...new class :) Feels so good. Bless us all dear lord...may we always be worhty devotees to you.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 03, 2011, 11:55:45 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 04, 2011, 01:38:22 AM
Baba...whatever i have right now, is a consequence of the choices i made and my karma. I am not going to pray for the desires to be fullfilled. Rather i will pray to you to give me strength, wisdom and courage to be able to be able to support my family and my individual needs. I want to be at peace with myself.

And i should let my actions speak. Its a battle that i have chosen to fight and i am determined to win. Now i have to direct all my energies towards winning it. Nothing matters more than this. After all, winning is the best way of responding to my critics. Losers are left to justify their decisions. No one questions the winner. Its about proving a point to myself - "If i can think about it, i can do it.. Its all up here in my mind." And in the process, i can prove my detractors wrong as well.... ;) Thats what is called killing 2 birds with one stone!!

My battle against - my physical image / my mental conditioning / my ability to learn and grow.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 04, 2011, 10:32:28 PM
Gud morning dear lord.....today morning tried to make a positive begining. Although i could have done better, i think at least i got started. I'll have to improve for sure.....please help me by blessing me with strength wisdom and courage to handle my issues and make a better life for myself and my family.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 04, 2011, 11:23:38 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on April 05, 2011, 12:27:56 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 05, 2011, 10:42:44 PM
dear lord...gud morning. i m trying to bring in some consistency in my life....hope i continue in the right path..
Bless us all baba....
please help me to find out what i really want to do in life and what i should be doing....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 05, 2011, 10:44:26 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 06, 2011, 10:24:03 PM
Dear baba...gud morning. I am building up the consistency....i hope to do well. Today i will focus on the task in hand baba.....bahut ho gaya hai...ab no more time waste.....
Please bless me with strength, wisdom and courage to handle everything. Please baba - let me never be dependent on anyone.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 06, 2011, 10:48:53 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 07, 2011, 03:05:12 AM
Baba...no willpower or should i say mo determination......
What do i do about this mindless thing that i am doing to myself? WHy am i undoing all the little good that i am trying to achieve.......................
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on April 07, 2011, 06:28:23 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 07, 2011, 10:46:25 PM
Dear baba...gud morning. I did not do as planned. But that doesnt mean i will not do as planned. I know that whatever i do, i have to give my best shot to it. And i will not quit just because someone else wants me to. I will do it in my own terms.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 07, 2011, 10:53:56 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 10, 2011, 10:49:02 PM
Dear baba....gud morning.
The weekend was very hectic and tiring. And i did that funny thing...i dont know why i did that and what made me do that.....still...i have no regrets. Just that i know that nothing will ever improve the situation.
baba...tmrw is ram navmi.....u had promised me that my sufferings would end on ram navmi....am waiting and am hopeful dear lord......
Please take care of all...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on April 11, 2011, 03:16:28 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 11, 2011, 10:23:42 PM
Om sai sharanam ....sri sai sharanam.....

baba...please take care of all. I pray to you for everyone. You know everything....please give us the strength, wisdom and courage to face any situation baba.....

And let me be your child forever...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 12, 2011, 12:25:21 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 12, 2011, 03:20:54 AM
baba...please take care of my father and my son and my husband. If they are fine, i am fine. I want us to be together....i want to be there for their needs. I want them to be happy. Everything else is secondary.

but till that time - baba take care of the other issues...u know them na :)
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 12, 2011, 10:21:23 PM
Om namah shivaya....om sai sharanam....om sai narasimha....

Baba - i didnt do any thing as planned today. But i do believe - "My will to succeed is stronger than my fear of failure" (I am quoting Mike Horn) and i know so many people would give their right arm to see me fail. So i am going to deny them that pleasure. I am going to succeed no matter what!!!

Please bless us with strength, wisdom and courage dear lord....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 12, 2011, 11:26:47 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 13, 2011, 10:54:43 PM
ma...i miss you.....i know u r fine...u r with baba....but i still miss u.....and i wish i could have done something for u.....i want u to feel proud of me....i want appa to feel proud of me....i wish i could do something for you and him.....because i dont think i love anyone more than u two......and now that u r gone....i miss u.......
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on April 14, 2011, 04:15:51 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 14, 2011, 10:21:59 PM
baba...tumhi ho mata pita tumhi ho....tumhi ho bandhu sakha tumhi ho....
tumhi ho saathi...tumhi sahare...koi na apna siwa tumhare....daya ki drishti sada hi rakhna...tumhi ho bandhu...pita tumhi ho...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on April 15, 2011, 12:23:45 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 15, 2011, 01:07:31 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: SaiSevak!9 on April 17, 2011, 01:34:00 AM
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May Baba Bless All His Devotees And Non-Devotees So That They All Become His Ardent Devotees!

Bolo Shree Sai Nath Maharaj Ki Jai \:D/
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 17, 2011, 10:32:53 PM
Gud morning dear baba....how to we become what we wish to become?? How do we achieve what we desire to achieve - hard work, persevearance and a never-give-up attitude.

All the 3 things i lack!!!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on April 18, 2011, 01:39:30 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 18, 2011, 11:58:05 PM
maula maula maula mere maula....
daraare daraare hain maathe pe maula....
marrammat mukkadar ki kardo maula mere maula.....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on April 19, 2011, 03:13:30 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 19, 2011, 11:53:45 PM
God...today i see things very clearly here in this org. And i dont like what i see. I was right. My intuition was right. There is a basic flaw in the DNA and that is not changeable. So better to quit while things are still looking good. Dont know how long this will last. I dont want to end up in the wrong end of the stick.
So baba...that should be motivation enough to get things moving at my end.

Bless us all dear lord and show us the way....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on April 20, 2011, 12:13:22 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 20, 2011, 11:41:15 PM
Gud morning dear lord......please please please....help us out ....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on April 20, 2011, 11:46:52 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 24, 2011, 11:08:20 PM
Gud morning dear lord......please take care of all....and baba....please eradicate cancer from this world. Bahut dukhi kiya hai iss malady ne. I hate to think about it. Baba...one thing's for sure.....i will have to invest on my health and well being.....because i dont think i can manage if something goes wrong with me. And what about all the money that will be spent on cure.....i would rather invest in good health than pay the doctors....

Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 25, 2011, 03:26:12 AM
baba...how long can one put up with this constant irritation?? Why am i accused each and every time something goes wrong?? why cant i have more love and respect from her?? I hate this ...hate it hate it hate it!!!
i am fed up of having to justify ...fed up of retaliating..u know even keeping quiet has not helped....bending backwards will certainly not help..........
what do i do?? how long baba....how long can i put up with this???its been 10 years now....still the same situation..........
no respite baba.....allah maalik hai baba.....shraddha and saburi.....bas yehi dono hone chahiye...baaki sab bekaar hain....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on April 25, 2011, 03:50:22 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 25, 2011, 10:38:32 PM
Om sai nath.....
baba...please help us and be with us...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 26, 2011, 10:55:30 PM
Gud morning dear lord......just remove cancer from this world baba.....remove the plague from this world......please be with us baba...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on April 27, 2011, 02:23:49 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 27, 2011, 10:28:11 PM
Baba...i am going to prepare a chart and plan out my activities as per the timeline. And i promise to you that i will follow it strictly. In case i flunk or flounder somewhere, please give me the strength and the courage to come back on track.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on April 28, 2011, 02:22:54 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 28, 2011, 11:21:59 PM
Om sai sharanam....sri sai sharanam...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 01, 2011, 11:21:44 PM
Oh baba....what a let down!!! I was shocked to see the letter. I mean, i should have seen this coming and i did to a large extent.....but didnt know that these people will stoop so low....
Anyways....it has helped me to decide my next course of action. I need to move on. This is no place for me.

So help me dear lord...as i begin my quest yet again...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on May 02, 2011, 04:59:17 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 02, 2011, 07:26:20 AM
Shraddhha and Saburi.....i need these 2 things....i cannot get overnight success...i need to work hard for it and i need to be consistent.....
I will i will i will....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on May 03, 2011, 01:53:44 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 03, 2011, 10:30:49 PM
Baba...gud morning...my mind is wavering...please help me dear lord.....
help me to give my best....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 03, 2011, 11:06:28 PM
Baba...please forgive me....i am a fool....i am looking for a magical solution that would make my problems go away in a jiffy. I do not understand that there is never an instant solution to all problems. Solutions yes...but one needs to work for it and also have faith. I have neither. I am so stupid!!!! U have taken care of me all these years and now i was questioning you!!! I was wondering whether u knew what u were doing!!! How absurd of me!!!
I was thinking of looking for predictions and not wanting to work for it......oh god...i dont want to be like this. U know what - i think my M is even better off ...she may be mean and rude and sly...but her devotion to u is strong and unwavering.....
baba....please forgive me....i am sorry.......
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 05, 2011, 01:17:03 AM
Baba...i just dont have any motivation to do anything. Is it some form of mental issue?? I mean - i just dont want to get started. I am so much dreading even the routine mundane tasks. I understand that i am not enjoying it at all and also do not forsee any future and credit here. But at least till the point i go somewhere else, i need to work here. I have to see the money part. I have to earn for A. And i loathe myself right now for being this shapeless lump of flesh....what have i done to myself?? I have just let myself rot and vegetate!!! I really really need a makeover....both physically as well as mentally.....

help me ....i am crying out in despair..........
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on May 05, 2011, 01:18:41 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 05, 2011, 10:25:32 PM
Hari narayana dhuritha nivarana paramananda sadasiva sankara....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on May 06, 2011, 11:26:52 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on May 07, 2011, 02:48:05 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 09, 2011, 03:12:56 AM
Frustration and the feeling of incapability to achieve anything - is predominant today. I know that there are things within my control and i need to work on them. And i know that there are things beyond my control and i need to leave them to you. But baba...human nature - i get very agitated. Why do i have to justify everytime with m?? Why cant my father be happy with my son?? why does m have to b a wet blanket everytime. She treats my father very badly....baba...appa does not deserve this. he needs to be happy.....Please baba...agar mujhe sirf ek wish mile...to i will ask u to send m away permanently and let appa take care of my son and the 4 of us can be happy.......bus baba....thats my only prayer. For others, i know i have to work hard.....nothing comes for free...
Just that what have i done to myself baba....these 10 years.....i have never been so low....

Ok...now things can only get better...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 10, 2011, 03:26:18 AM
hari narayana dhuritha nivarana paramanandana sadasiva sankara...

baba...not everything can be P1. So i need to see which is really P1 for me and what can be put as P2 and P3.....I think SSBB is P1 and so is health. Both should be P1. All things other than this, are not P1. I should not worry about job change etc.....because that would be a consequence of SSBB and other activities. I can focus on it afterwards....its not that i am dying for it. Waise bhi baba....i still have some 3 months to go....before i look for change.
And once the priority is decided, i should not carry unnecessary burden. What is the use of worrying about something that is not P1. And the only thing i will pray for is that please bless me to achieve what i have planned and please fullfill my dream of appa staying with us and M going away......Thats it!!!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on May 10, 2011, 04:16:11 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 11, 2011, 12:04:03 AM
Baba...gud morning. Should one compare his life with others? Maybe no....because u dont know what their journey has been....and what they lost / gained on that journey.....but still....insaani fitrat u see....comparison is inevitable. i see so many of my peers in a better position...leading a dream life.....(at least it appears that they are happy about it)...and then i also see many peers not achieving what i have achieved....so i think over all...i havent done too badly for myself...
Pata nahi baba.....i m trying to work till 12 and get up at 4:45....hopefully i should be able to do it. I know whats P1 for me.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on May 11, 2011, 12:46:12 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on May 12, 2011, 02:20:47 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 12, 2011, 11:07:44 PM
baba...gud morning.....please tell me ....duniya mein anyaaye kyu hota hai?? why do people lie/hurt others/tell wrong things...and still manage to live happily?? And why do the good people suffer?? Why is the karmic debt postponed to the next birth??crime and punishment should be done in that very janmam baba....nobody remembers the past life...then what good will it do? All i ask for is justice...and peace of mind....and happy family.....almost ten years of marriage baba...there is no happiness...life has become a routine....this is not how i want to live for the next 30 years...
Baba...in my life...i have done one bad thing baba...and u have punished me most severely for it. I know that and u know that....then why this issue now?? I have paid the price for bringing in wrong thoughts in my mind...but now what am i paying for???
Take care of us all baba....without u we are nothing
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 15, 2011, 02:24:42 AM
baba...every time i come to my father's house i thank u from the core of my heart. Thanks for bringing him close to me. It would not have been possible without ur grace. Baba..for the love of my parents....please remove the unhappiness in my family. I want her to go away.....i hope i have repaid my debts ....please baba...grant us peace....
what do i need to do for this?? please give me direction baba...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on May 15, 2011, 11:13:48 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on May 16, 2011, 04:53:45 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 17, 2011, 12:17:56 AM
Baba...what life i am leading.....i have everything yet i have nothing....ghar hai...ghar ka sukh nahi hai...jo mujhe pyaare hai....wohi dukh paate hain...and i cannot see them in pain.....
please do something about it...and i too should be doing something about it i guess....
Baba...u know the confusion in my mind....so many options....what shou,d i do?
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on May 17, 2011, 02:20:21 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 18, 2011, 02:22:19 AM
Baba...let us evaluate where i am in life. I am 36 years old(young??) and i am currently in a big void...i am confused and restless...dont knowwhat to do....

Personal life - want dad, son and DH to be happy. Want to reclaim my life and make positive changes. I have had enough of being the also-ran. My attitude needs a makeover. When some one commented on how i make 25year plans and not 5 year ones....it should have hit me. It should have been like a slap on my face. There are things in my control like my physical apprearance and mental attitude...and then there are things beyond my control...for those u are there.

Work life - pathetic job and i dont feel motivated one bit. But do i have a choice right now?? No - i am on the lookout and i need to work hard at removing all the dust and rust ....no overnight miracles happening. I need to work for this. But i cannot let this affect my day to day operations. That will land me in a big soup. So .... i need to muster all the strength that i have and work on this.

basically - its the attitude...my mental makeup.....i should feel hurt enough and frustrated enough to not allow myself to wallow in this muck any further....I have to prove a point to others as much to myself.....I have done it before and i can do it again....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on May 18, 2011, 03:10:34 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 19, 2011, 02:22:43 AM
baba....its a case of so near yet so far............ :(
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 22, 2011, 11:34:55 PM
Dear baba...gud morning. U know all that has happened. Its a small world for sure....i mean meeting VG in such circumstances :) but u know wat baba - the more i think about it, the more i feel i have wasted my life...wasted my potential andi am sad....sad for what i didnt do and sad for what i have become....when i compare it with others (i know one should not compare life because u never know what their journey has been) i feel so worthless...its as if i have not really achieved anything in life..what was the point of topping in school and college baba...its so meangingless...
and now i think it cant go worse any further....so hopefully it should be the upward swing now.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on May 23, 2011, 12:12:51 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on May 23, 2011, 04:26:30 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 23, 2011, 06:31:08 AM
stop comparing your life with others. Then things will be ok.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on May 23, 2011, 11:07:41 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 24, 2011, 01:08:29 AM
baba..it just occured to me that i have been learning lessons all this while.

1. Never think ill of others. The moment u do it, ur own fate is sealed and u are at the receiving end.

2. Never compare ur life with that of others. U dont know their journey and struggles.

3. I am still in the process of learning this - Nothing comes for free. Work hard and be sincere to ur task...results will follow
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on May 24, 2011, 04:07:28 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 24, 2011, 11:03:31 PM
Baba...gud morning.
Please take care of all dear lord..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 25, 2011, 11:38:38 PM
today is my mother's 2nd death anniv. I keep thinking about that fateful day....and i wish things would be different. But i know nothing can be undone. Its a loss that i have to live with for the rest of my life. My only desire is to see that my father is happy. He deserves it baba..such a nice man. PLease be kind to him baba
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on May 27, 2011, 07:06:42 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 27, 2011, 07:27:27 AM
baba...if i cant do it for my parents then i can never do it...thats for sure....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 29, 2011, 10:32:53 PM
Om namo narayana....
Dear baba...gud morning. U know all. Why cant i have a steady mind baba?? Its so full of confusion and different thoughts. I am kind of upset now. Its been 2 years now and i need to move on and get a life. I have many many things to do and i just sit pretty doing nothing. So how can i ever get anything by not working for it?? U really need to pull me out of this rut baba.
Please bless us all and make this a good day for all of us.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 30, 2011, 04:23:59 AM
Baba...as usual i have spent all my time reasearching for options. But as i always knew...nothing comes for free...i am quite determined to do things properly....

30th June 2011 - i need to complete my SSBB. Please help me to that end.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on May 30, 2011, 07:35:26 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 31, 2011, 12:24:39 AM
Good morning dear lord...i know i have a long way to go....i need to find and make my own way...once i am clear that i need to move on, i am going to spare no efforts to see that i work towards that end. Baba....please be with me on this journey. i know sincere effort always pays.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on May 31, 2011, 10:36:54 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 01, 2011, 01:47:24 AM
Dear baba....gud morning...rather gud afternoon... yesterday i got a call from D. They might make an offer. Dont know baba....i was very very frustrated...but somehow, u always manage to bring me back from the edge of despair :) Yesterday after that call i wanted to kiss your feet baba!! I know that D is just an option that may materialize. And again it may not, like M. But still, the fact that something is happening is heartening to know.
Hope things work out fine baba....Please let me come to Shirdi and kiss your feet dear lord..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on June 01, 2011, 04:37:52 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 01, 2011, 07:01:15 AM
baba...how to make my mind steady? what is surrender? how to practice shraddha and saburi?
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on June 02, 2011, 12:23:06 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 02, 2011, 12:40:11 AM
Baba....what can i say.....it s a miracle...i dont know what to say baba....whatever u do...u know what is best for me...and even though i get frustrated...u take me to the very edge and then bring me back....baba....u r simply great!!!u test me to the very limit and when i am just about to give up...u give me a rope to hold on...u open a door for me....

Baba i promise that when u give me this new opportunity, i will redeem myself....i willl never ever let u down..
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Post by: vidyarp on June 02, 2011, 07:09:24 AM
dear baba...i am torn between the options. i dont know what to do....how will i manage dear lord?? baba what do u think should be done?? please guide me.
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Post by: dayalvasnani on June 02, 2011, 11:18:34 PM
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Post by: vidyarp on June 02, 2011, 11:34:06 PM
baba...gud morning. Last night r and i reviewed all the points mentioned in the offer and i think its a good deal. Have certin queries which i have mailed for clarification. Baba....thank u for the offer....its a miracle...baba u know how and when to give ur children the things they need. please baba...let the change be smooth....and please take care of my father....
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Post by: saisai83 on June 05, 2011, 06:15:53 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 05, 2011, 11:49:04 PM
Gud morning dear lord.....u are simply great u know that! Last evening onwards, i was so tensed and upset about not finding what i wanted.....i cried and screamed at my father...my husband yelled and screamed at me and my dad got really upset....but today morning, i found it!! And how!! its a miracle dear lord.....
Thank u and thank u soooo much.....
I do not know how things will pan out for me in the new offer....but i know for sure...when u r there with me, everything will be just fine. I know that i never get anything easy. I always have to work for it and baba...honestly...i have no regrets. At times i feel bad, but then, u always test  me for everything :) U push me to the brink and when i am about to break down completely, u bring me back.
Thank u dear baba....thank u so much....i am sorry for all the hurt i caused to my father....baba...please take care of him..
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Post by: PiyaSoni on June 06, 2011, 04:19:59 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 06, 2011, 06:44:41 AM
Dear baba...today i accepted the offer from d. Thank u so much baba for being so kind to me.....please bless us all and take care of us always....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on June 06, 2011, 08:13:54 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 06, 2011, 10:39:21 PM
Dear lord.....today i will put down my papers here at I. I have accepted the offer at D yesterday. Baba...please guide me.....without ur support none of this would have been possible. And this D thing is purely by chance and ur grace...i had applied to a million companies....but d happned out of the blue.....all ur leela baba.....u know when to give what....and i should always trust u.
baba...jaya's mother is really suffering. please help that family. also i am so sorry for the loss at A's family......take care of them baba....and take care of my father baba.....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 07, 2011, 11:24:36 PM
Dear baba...gud morning. Today i'll be sending all the docs to D. Hopefully everything will be alright...Please be with me baba on this....waise i dont need to tell u....u are already with me on this :) otherwise how would this have clicked?? I mean i applied to a million companies in the past 2 years....every day getting frustrated...and then suddenly one evening i go to appa's place and apply to D...and i get a call...and then everything sort of works out by itself....isnt this magic?? isnt this ur leela?? u wanted me to be here for 2 years and now u want me to go there....baba its ur leela and ur blessings...nothing else.
take care of all baba and u take care of urself also baba.....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 08, 2011, 10:55:00 PM
baba...please take care of jaya's mother.....i know the pain they are going through...please bless them and be with them dear lord.
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Post by: dayalvasnani on June 10, 2011, 10:52:35 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 12, 2011, 10:49:03 PM
Om sai sharanam dear baba....
I am so sad to hear about jaya's mother. This cancer is such a dangerous disease....it just doesnot spare anyone....and it kills u completly...
baba....please help all those people afflicted with disease....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on June 13, 2011, 11:01:26 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 14, 2011, 10:02:01 PM
baba....whatever i plan...uska reverse hi ho raha hai....i mean i wanted to complet ssbb and then look at p abd then find job...lekin sab ulta hua...i m not complaining though :) i know u have ur plans for me and whatever it is...its for the good only.
i agree ki time se pehle and kismat se zyada kuchh nahi milta.....and baba....faith and hope and prayers will only work...and of course hard work plus sincerity....
Help me dear lord....and be with me always...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on June 16, 2011, 03:03:03 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vishwanath69 on June 16, 2011, 09:55:44 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 16, 2011, 10:29:01 PM
Gud morning dear lord....yesterday went to D. Turned out fine. Baba...all ur blessings...
please be with me and help me....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on June 16, 2011, 10:46:08 PM
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Post by: dayalvasnani on June 18, 2011, 09:56:52 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 19, 2011, 10:37:07 PM
Gud morning dear lord.....
the weekend was ok. Yesterday we went shopping...and after a long time i bought clothes for myself....i had lost all interest in buying anything for myself...and have been living like a bhoot for the last 2 years....but now things will change...slowly...u r showing me the way.....and i will do my best....also...i owe it to r.....he has been very nice to me....
but baba, waking up in the morning is such a pain....how do i do it??
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on June 21, 2011, 04:00:57 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 22, 2011, 11:13:00 PM
baba...its a small world....today i got the resume of one of this forum members....i remember that this person had posted a thread last year asking for ur help in getting a job. I had then asked him to send his cv to me so that i could help him out. At that point he did send but had secured a job. Today i received his CV again and as soon as i saw the name, i realized that he was the same person.
the interview procedure will be fair and square and hopefully things will turn out fine..
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 23, 2011, 10:52:40 PM
Baba...please take care of us....and what i do is simply because i am doing my job....please save me from ill feelings.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on June 24, 2011, 05:12:10 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vishwanath69 on June 26, 2011, 06:31:35 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 26, 2011, 11:35:09 PM
sai rehem nazar karna.....baccho ka paalan karna....

Please baba....let everything be alright.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on June 27, 2011, 01:17:20 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 28, 2011, 10:47:02 PM
Om sai ram baba...it was a pleasant surprise to see that my thread came active after2 years....it brought tears in my eyes....so much has happened over these 2 years.....its as if i've lived a lifetime in these years.......

Baba - u know what- i feel very good after reciting the runovimochananarasimhastotram.....its as if i should be saying that everyday.....

please be with my mother baba...dunno where she is....and take care of my father as well dear lord...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Sairamsai on June 29, 2011, 07:05:10 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 30, 2011, 10:57:21 PM
dear baba...yesterday we finalized the person for taking over from me. And ur leela is great...the person finalized is a sai bhakt and a member of this forum. I know it and i feel so happy that i can be of some help to others.....Its a miracle baba.....

Please shower ur blessings on us all....and show me the right way dear lord...
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Post by: dayalvasnani on June 30, 2011, 11:50:49 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Sairamsai on July 02, 2011, 01:39:25 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 03, 2011, 11:08:15 PM
om sai sharanam sri sai sharanam.....

baba...the weekend was ok. nothing special. but i can feel that r is changing for the better with each day......i am glad and thankful to you for this. please keep helping me and supporting me dear lord....

Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: PiyaSoni on July 05, 2011, 01:07:40 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 05, 2011, 06:50:07 AM
baba...i am going to step into a new job soon...then why am i not as happy as i ought to be?? why the restlessness? why do i feel more stressed....even though i know the pay is good and the env is good...and it will help me tide over my emis. maybe i dont have a long term plan on what i want to do.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: saib on July 05, 2011, 07:54:10 AM
Dear Vidya,

Anxiety, Fear of uncertainty in future, Expectations from new Job, Attachment with current position ………… so many factors. Nothing is unusual. If one keeps on putting conditions e.g. to get particular Job, to marry particular person, to reside at specific place, to visit any special place etc. etc. for happiness, He or she can never feel eternal peace and everlasting Joy in life. If one wish is granted, It generates another, and this cycle keeps on running until one day one realize, Real happiness is nothing to do anything with fulfillment of such desires.

If there is any Happiness, that is only now in current moment. Past or future is only an illusion. Past has passed, Future is uncertain. Focus moreover live in present moment, Sounds difficult. This is …………… Yes, This is tough, But not impossible.

Don’t worry. Face as well enjoy challenges of future with confidence. There is so much to learn.  Smart Hard work always rewards.

May Baba Sai bless You and all of Us!


om sri sai ram!

baba...i am going to step into a new job soon...then why am i not as happy as i ought to be?? why the restlessness? why do i feel more stressed....even though i know the pay is good and the env is good...and it will help me tide over my emis. maybe i dont have a long term plan on what i want to do.
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Post by: Sairamsai on July 05, 2011, 01:54:01 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 05, 2011, 10:40:01 PM
Dear saib...
I am really thankful to you for helping me out. The practical part of me kept telling that i should not worry...but the emotional part kept saying negative things and made me confused and upset. And now when i read your reply, i was so happy because i know now that i need to live in the present and work hard and smart to achieve happiness. Like u said - happiness is not a single point in time...its a continuous journey and we can be really happy if we choose to be at any point in life. as u rightly said - i kept thinking of a job change and was miserable for the last 2 years. I kept telling baba that i will be happy if only i could get a better job that pays well and gives a good environment. And baba blessed me with exactly that type of job and again this was sheer luck and baba's grace. Now that i had a job that i prayed for, i thought i would be happier...but no i wasnt. Now i realize its my mistake.
Thank you very much saib ji....for making me see the right path....

May baba bless u and be with u always..
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Post by: Sairamsai on July 06, 2011, 03:31:33 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on July 06, 2011, 10:53:35 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 07, 2011, 05:41:54 AM
baba...my restlessness stems from the fact that i suffer from the complex that afflicts most working mothers. The conflict between career and home is so strong that i feel i am not doing justice at both the places. I know i am capable and can do very well in my career...but somehow i dread taking up high profile options..anything that would expect me to give more than 100% scares me...since i feel i cannot then handle the home front, which in turn would lead to other major issues...i know my son is my priority...and i want to be with him in each step...but baba...can i quit my job?? u know the financial status...and after all the hard work and sacrifices my parents made...can i just throw it all away?? please help me find a middle path.....please grant me peace...give me clarity in my vision....i should know where i am headed to....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Sairamsai on July 08, 2011, 12:57:16 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: dayalvasnani on July 09, 2011, 12:16:24 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Sairamsai on July 10, 2011, 03:23:02 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Well-wisher on July 11, 2011, 02:41:01 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Sairamsai on July 11, 2011, 02:07:36 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Sairamsai on July 17, 2011, 06:14:16 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 19, 2011, 11:13:14 PM
Om sai sharanam baba....am back after a long break.....feels good. Baba....jo bhi hai...wo iss pal mein hai...when will i learn to enjoy my present and not brood over the past and not fret over the future...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Sairamsai on July 20, 2011, 04:10:12 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 20, 2011, 10:28:35 PM
om sai sharanam....sri sai sharanam....
tumhi ho mata pita tumhi ho tumhi ho bandhu sakha tumhi ho....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Sairamsai on July 21, 2011, 02:40:25 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 21, 2011, 10:22:52 PM
baba...good morning.
I dont know what i want in life. On one hand i feel i have to excel in my career and i know i am capable of handling it well. I have worked hard and studied hard for this. On the other hand when i look at my child i feel i am not doing justice to him. He needs me and i am away from him. I agree working parents devote quality time to their children but the fact that i have to leave my son with my mil and the fact that she always points out that she is doing me a big favor by taking care of my son, make me want to quit. But quitting is not a viable option financially and emotionally. So baba...it makes me go mad...i run around in circles trying to figure out what to do....
please baba..guide me..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Sairamsai on July 22, 2011, 04:25:49 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Sairamsai on July 31, 2011, 05:17:35 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: santosh kumar sahoo on July 31, 2011, 10:19:40 PM
Bless your Devotees Sai


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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Sairamsai on August 01, 2011, 04:56:28 PM
OM SAI RAM
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 02, 2011, 11:00:54 PM
baba...gud morning.
One week to go.....mixed feelings....i am not sad...but am anxious about the new place. But the gud part is that there will be something new in life...something to look forward to...and something to excel at.

Consistency / persevearance / discipline.....baba please help me practice this.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Sairamsai on August 03, 2011, 12:33:42 AM
this sounds so positive
baba will bless you definitely

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sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai
sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 12, 2011, 11:14:25 PM
Gud morning dear lord....
its been nearly 2 months now since i joined this new place. How do i like it?? Well...its mixed again. Culturally its ploes apart from my prev org. and work wise also i am doing diff things. But why do i always want to have the "fight or flight" syndrome?? I dont have peace...although i get my money and other things....this is not giving me happiness...i am not sure what i should do about this?
Baba...i have a family to look after and their needs to full fill...and i need to work in an org which pays well...but will i ever get happiness??
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Sairamsai on October 13, 2011, 12:44:26 PM
well well your souls is hungry for spiritual food then. try chanting his name and try to pray daily at a fixed time. try listening to Sai Satcharitra.....
sai bless you soon.....

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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 13, 2011, 11:04:10 PM
baba...gud morning...u are my whole and sole refuge...what am i without u?? Please take care of everything baba...i have only u to look upto....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Sairamsai on October 14, 2011, 01:50:24 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 19, 2011, 02:47:37 AM
baba...u know nothing has changed..i was upset with my job 1 year ago...and i am upset even now....job change has not helped...then surely i am missing something here?? If i have not enjoyed my work life for the past so many years, i think its a time to do some introspection and see what i do, where i am and where i plan to go from here. Because this surely is not working out. Its the money part thats enticing...otherwise no job satisfaction.
Help me dear lord....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 20, 2011, 10:58:42 PM
yeh jivan hai...is jivan ka ..yehi hai chhav aur dhoop. thode gham hain...thodi khushiyaan...lekin yehi hai chhav dhoop...

How true..the words of kishore kumar singing this song is ringing inmy ears...happiness is so elusive...so rather than look for happiness as a goal or end point, i think we should look at finding happiness in the journey. Because we may get temporary happiness by attaining something, but once the charm fades away or we move on to different things, happiness fades away too. That makes it very fragile and difficult to retain.

So i think rather than crib or complain about things i want and where i want to go, i should find the happiness in what i do right now. But of course, given the current situation- i need to prep myself completely for a fall back. This is not going to continue for long.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Sairamsai on October 21, 2011, 01:53:50 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 27, 2011, 11:11:19 PM
Good morning dear lord.....tomorrow is my 10th wedding anniversary. 10 years!!! sometimes i feel it has flown very fast and yet at times i feel its been ages...paradoxical!! Its been a journey where i learnt a lot...mostly the hard way :) but thats ok. So long as i continue to improve myself and become a better human being...i'm ok.
I only wish my mother was here with me....my dad means more than ever to me..but would have really wanted my mother's blessings as well. Anyway - she is with u and together both of u can wish me, R and my son.

Please take care of all baba..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 01, 2011, 09:43:24 PM
Baba - how does one attain one's dreams??? I mean we all want to live a happy and successful life, we want to do things we love and also make money doing the things we love. But passion and profession may not always concur. And when u have loans to fullfill and responsibilities to shoulder, how do u stop the feeling of dejection from taking over? How do u prevent urself from losing the interest in life? How do u bridge the gap? And most importantly, there have been people responsible to get you to the place where u r...they have dreamt big dreams for u and want u to succeed...how do u give it up and follow ur dreams instead??

I am so confused..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 02, 2011, 12:15:20 AM
Sometimes i wonder - if quitting is an option...maybe not the best way...because where ever i go, politics will be there...people who are useless would be ur boss and u urself will not have a say in the system...so maybe changing jobs is not an option...but changing ur mindset is???
Ok - thinking out loud - what if i just observed the system from an outside view and just let things go as they are, i continue doing my job but w/o ruffling feathers...that would mean i am not on top of the order...but i survive and get the paycheck...for mental satisfaction, i need perfection and control on something else...music maybe!! or my grand plans for F!!! How about that??This way, even though i am deprived of satisfaction at work...i derive that pleasure in something else....and the job also helps me to fund my passion!!!!
So i think i need to change my mindset....how long can i keep running from one job to another...only to find that the same thing happens everywhere. I thought H was bad...came to I...which was pathetic....now am at D and find this one also crappy...then there is no guarantee that i will find a politics free - great work place as  my next employer. It only means i need to work on my mindset....
My problem is right now i dont have any satisfaction or pride in anything i do. No sense of control and mastery. And thats what makes me feel so bad. And since i dont have the say at home due to M, i look for satisfaction at work...that too is missing ...and then i have no mastery over my hobby - music / reading. Now reading comes easily...but u cant really master it. So that means i need to master music....and at the same time i need to look at funding my passion....so quitting wont help. But no need to take the bull by the horns at work...let things go in their own pace....dont rock the boat...and find ways to become self sufficient....
phew...lots of gyaan :)
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 07, 2011, 09:35:02 PM
Gud morning dear lord...i am my best friend and my worst enemy. If i play against myself, nobody...not even u...can help me....so why should i set myself up for failure?? I am going to be my best friend...

God - be with me
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 10, 2011, 09:59:53 PM
wooo hooo....after i think many years...i seem to have lost some weight. I felt like jumping and skipping like a schoolgirl :) I had gone to see the doctor for my arthritis...and there i checked my weight. well...u know i've not been entirely sincere about the exercises and eating...but i was moderately careful....and if that can give such results....then what can i achieve by constant practice of exercise and portion control!!!!
Help me dear lord...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 13, 2011, 11:29:45 PM
Baba...when i look at other people, i thank you for giving me a good life and the ability to sustain. Thank you for the job i have and the ability to earn well. What would i do if i earned very little income - financial independence means the most to me. Thats what my mother always said - do whatever u want but never leave your job. Its your identity. You will never be under anyone. Oh ma - i love you.
But u know what ma -  i feel like doing something on my own. Just like what u did. I dont think i want to continue working under anyone. But, i dont have any skills of that level or a great business idea or even the money to start on my own. I need to build it up first. And so dear lord - help me with this. And i have a loan to take care off...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 20, 2011, 09:43:12 PM
Good morning dear lord...
U know happiness is not a point in time..its at the current moment...we live it every second but we choose to be happy or unhappy in that moment. Its our choice that determines whether we want to be happy on a given day or not. Now happiness can also mean different things to different people. I need to choose what i deem as a state of happiness. Happiness to me is -

1. when i overcome my eating disorder and am mentally strong to reject junk food (basically control over my mind)
2. when i wake up in the morning to work out (again a question of willpower)
3. when i finish all the pending tasks at work even though i loathe them (sense of responsibility and ownership)
4. when i seek out time to learn new things and focus on it (time management tactics)
5. when i am able to read a good book (my passion)
6. when i am able to listen to good music (my passion again)
7. when i see my father happy (i love my father a lot)
8. when i see my son do well in school and when i see him happy (he is my life)
9. when i talk to u my lord (my devotion)
10. when i think of my mother (my idol)
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 27, 2011, 11:20:14 PM
Dear baba...gud morning. U know all that has been happening. I dont have to tell u how much it hurts to hear such worng words and that too from a person who is living with you. Its not a job that i can quit and find another. I have to stay with her for the rest of our lives..but it is unfair and thats all i can say. Baba - what has she made me!! I mean i am the most soft spoken person and she has made me into this rude and disrespectful person that noone can relate to. At least people who know me will not believe that i talk to her like this. I feel bad. But she is really the limit baba. I cant take this anymore. I am at my wits end. I went to ur temple today morning baba and u guided me that i should read the satcharita in a week's time. Baba...i have full faith in u. Whatever u r doing is only testing my faith and devotion. I dont want to end up doing something foolish that i attach the bad karma to myself. Baba...please send her away for good...please!!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 01, 2012, 09:49:16 PM
Baba...happy new year. Please bless us all with good health and happiness....
May i remain your child for ever....

Baba...yesterday i spent the day with people i love and doing things i love. Please let the whole year be like this...spent with people i love and doing things i love...feeling happy and content.

Baba - i promise to be a better person this year. U held my hand yesterday when i was contemplating what to do. I want to let go of bitterness and do good...and if i cant do good, at least i dont harm others or think ill. I cant change them...but i can surely improve myself...

please bless me dear lord.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 04, 2012, 03:20:39 AM
Baba...my dear lord....i completed the satcharita yesterday. u wanted me to read it within a week and i tried to do my best...thank u for helping me to complete it on time. Wouldn't have done it w/o ur support and grace.

I feel good...i feel better....I feel so much happier and content...

baba - money will always be tight, work will always suck and people will always play politics...but here i am, will u send me an angel....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 08, 2012, 10:17:49 PM
Baba...gud morning. After quite some time, i am feeling the pain of arthritis. how come? I was fine till last night. then why did i get the pain? Is it a reminder for me to do/not to do something? maybe its ur way of reminiding me that i should look at improving myself and not talk ill of others or even think ill of others.
I need to do my duty to the best of my abilities.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 10, 2012, 09:27:46 PM
Baba...gud morning. Life mein bahut kum mauke aate hain jo aapki life badal dete hain...ek aisa time tha aaj se 3 saal pehle...i didnt know that my mother had cancer...i didnt know that i will lose her and i didnt know i will grow up overnight. And now today - 3 years later, i find myself more mature, more responsible and thoughtful of my father's needs. God - u have been kind to enable me to move him closer to me. You gave me sufficient finances to buy a house close to my house. You were kind to shower your mercy on my father to help him be with his grandson whom he loves the most. I have lost my mother - but i have also gained so many things out of this. I know what it means - every challenge throws an opportunity. Its how u make the most of it. My arthtritis is a challenge - but also an opportunity to help me attain a good fitness level. My job uncertainity is a challenge - but also an opportunity for me to learn and grow. I need to use my learnings here as a practice ground.
Baba - u are great. Please shower ur blessings on me everyday...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 11, 2012, 09:32:30 PM
Dear baba...gud morning. Today is my mother's birthday. Its been 3 years since that life changing moment. 3 years ago, this time i did not know i will lose my mother in 2 months. I did not know that she had cancer. God....if only i could do something to save her.....
Ma - each day i miss u and each day i pray to baba to keep u with him...i promise to live upto ur expectations and i will never let u down. I love u and appa more than anyone in this world...more than myself...more than my son.....
I promise to do my best...and be the best in all i do...because thats what u wanted me to be....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 18, 2012, 09:49:31 PM
woo hoo baba!!! I checked my weight again after 2 months...and i seem to have lost 2 kgs more!!! Awesome isnt it??Well...all thanks to you. Now that makes me think that with just diet control if i can drop 4.5 kgs in 2 months...what can i achieve by combining it with a proper exercise regime...hai na?
Also baba...finished the course on management...i felt quite nice and good. I think it helped me to see what are my strengths and weaknesses...it helped me to understand what stance to take in different situations....i may not be able to implement all...but if i make a conscious effort, maybe i can. And that will be really good
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 07, 2012, 11:29:22 AM
baba...its late atnight and i am writing to u...because i have been sooooo occupied at work. After many years i am feeling the rush of things at work...i am feeling like i am contributing something. I have been given this project which is in deep red...but u know what baba...i am actually loving it...i like spending my time planning and getting things done...i feel like i am adding value to myself and to the system...its no longer sitting in the comfort zone and there is a lot of speculation and people watching me closely...but i am enjoying the spotlight :) Strange na?? Its not for a promotion or a hike...its not for others...its just to prove myself that i can achieve things if i put my heart and mind to it...thats all!! Its like proving to myself that i can do it. I am no longer the person who hated work and workplace...its as if i have found an objective in life :)
Thank you baba...for putting me in this situation...I need ur blessings always
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 22, 2012, 11:19:53 PM
Thank u dear baba...I returned from my trip to UK. It was good and i feel it was a very productive visit. Hope the streak continues....I am your child baba...PLease bless us all and may we be with you forever
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: hanushasai on February 26, 2012, 12:14:41 AM
Baba Sai,

I was eagerly waiting for book fair. But when thought to visit,  took a stock of books and found so many unread books of last year. Also your own books that I bought from your temple are yet to be read. So decide to skip this year. First Finish what is in hand. I hope fast reading thing will help. Time is short and so many projects are in hands. Please Guide to maintain best balance in Work Life – Family Life – Personal Life. Need to enhance productivity at least by 100%. Knowledge in books at book-shelves or in mind are just same and of no use, if not practiced in real life. Many people also suffer on the same reason even on very small matters. Help us to adopt all that knowledge in our real life and live a blissful life under the Grace of your sweet and holy name!

Bless me and all who seek your blessings for a productive life for self and society !

With Love and Regards,

Jai Sai Ram !
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Pratap Nr.Mishra on February 26, 2012, 12:38:09 AM
ॐ श्री साईं नाथाय नमः

हनुशासाईजी जय साईं राम

ज्ञान या तो पुस्तकों के रूप में अलमारियो में रखा रहे या फिर मन में रहे, रखे -रखे उसमे धूल ही पड़ जानी है  जबतक की उसका उचित उपयोग एवंग व्यवहार जीवन में नहीं लाया जाये ।आपकी इस पंक्ति से एक नई दिशा मिली । अँधा ज्ञान भी किसी काम का नहीं होता केवल अहंकार को ही और पैदा करता है ।

आपका बहुत बहुत धन्यबाद ।

ॐ साईं राम
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 26, 2012, 09:28:26 PM
Baba...gud morning. M has gone away for a while. I feel i can breathe easily. I am so happy now with everything.But baba...i feel sad that i cannot do enough for my dad. My only wish is to take him to L. Its his life time desire. I dont want to goto P this summer ...but R has planned for it and i dont want to disappoint him. But baba...dil se i dont want to go there. PLease kuchh karo. Lekin nothing negative please.
Baba...everytime i want to give up and quit, i am reminded of the efforts my parents have put in my studies. I am reaping the benefits of their sweat and blood. I cant let it go to waste. I will quit...but only after i have fullfilled my father's wish..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 13, 2012, 05:12:06 AM
Dear Baba...
Kuchh karo please. Nothing negative..but u know how i feel. I wish i can do more than what i am able to do now. All his life, my father has slogged hard. He is an honest and sincere man. Never made a single extra money by wrong means. Always upright and honest. Always sacrificing for his family. I am because of him and my mother's hard work. How can i not do anything for him? I need to give him the best possible life. He deserves it. PLease baba - i dont want anything for myself. But please give him a wonderful life. I want to take him to see the world. R has done everything for his mother. I want my father's happiness. She will come back in some time and continue to ruin my happiness...please baba..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 14, 2012, 10:16:04 PM
ae maalik tere bande hum...aise ho hamare karam ...neki par chalein aur badi se talein...taaki haste hue nikle dum...

jab zulmo ka ho samna ...tab tu hi hame thamna...wo burai kare hum bhalai kare..nahi badle ki ho kamna...

diya tune hame jab janam...tu hi le lega hum sab ke gam....neki par chale aur badi se tale ..taki haste hue nikle dum...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 15, 2012, 02:34:40 AM
baba...bas ek hi tamanna hai...appa ko europe le jana hai...i want him to see the world....i want to fullfill this one desire...please please help me to achieve this.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 01, 2012, 10:46:59 PM
Happy bday baba...belated. I was home yesterday and could not log in. Today is my son's first day in the new class. Baba...please bless him and take care of him always.....and baba....thank you for all that u have given me.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 03, 2012, 11:52:55 PM
Dear lord....this is so irritating....work and home both!!! I dont have to elaborate....but u know it all....how can people just point fingers at the person who is working and let the guys who dont do anything live happily?? Injustice!!! Home is fine at the mo but u know what i want it to be like.....dont know when it will be like that :( at times i feel earning is very important not just for taking care of things, but also for respect. the day u lose money power, people treat u like dirt. and this also makes me want to continue working...but work place sucks!! to jaaye to jaaye kahaan??? sawal ye hai baba... ???
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 04, 2012, 11:14:30 PM
baba...i believe in you. I am your child. Please take care of all dear sainath
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 12, 2012, 12:04:23 AM
Baba...sister dog is missing. PLease please please save her and bring her back to us and her puppies. I am sad.
Also - baba, if i have ever done one good deed in my life - please listen to my concerns and bring in some relief.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Gauri21 on April 13, 2012, 01:55:11 AM
om sai ram om sai ram

om sai ram om sai ram
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 15, 2012, 11:57:00 PM
sai ram sai shyam dukh bhanjan tero naam...

Baba...please take care of all. We are your children; forgive our mistakes dear lord and lead us to the right path...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Gauri21 on April 16, 2012, 03:26:47 AM
jai sai nath
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 16, 2012, 11:53:24 PM
Om sai ram.
Dear lord...please take care of all. We are your children. Let there be no violence or suffering. Please forgive us our sins and deliver us from evil....

Thank you dear lord
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 19, 2012, 01:38:22 AM
Humko mann ki shakti dena...mann vijay kare...doosro ki jay se pehle..khud ko jay kare....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: saib on April 21, 2012, 02:26:28 AM
Baba Judging others won’t help me, But Yes Judging myself and improving so that can qualify to call myself your Sevak and Devotee ! _/\_

om sri sai ram !
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 24, 2012, 10:53:30 PM
Very rightly said. We should always strive to improve ourselves and not be judgemental about others. We do not know what their journey has all been.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 30, 2012, 10:38:12 PM
Baba...i dont have much time now. I need to get things done before it gets too late. Please help me and be with me in this journey. I hope i am able to give it my best. With you by my side, i have nothing to fear. My mother is always with me ..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 01, 2012, 04:37:37 AM
Baba...its a slap on my face. Thats what it is. And u have basically told me that in this lifetime, i will never lead the life i want to lead. I will never have peace of mind and happiness in my family, because my share of happiness was already consumed in my early years before i got married. And now that my quota of happy family is over and done with, i will continue to lead this life of frustration, dis satisfaction, degradation and pain. I dont know what i would have done in my previous life to deserve this. Surely i would have committed grave sins for which i have to pay now. Baba - dont get me wrong - i am very happy (sincerely and genuinely happy) for S. She is a nice person and deserves a lot of happiness. After all, she has spent the prime time of her life in misery. But baba - can i never be happy?? Can i never keep my father with me?? Do i have to continue to live like this with M?? I have spent 10 years leading this life. I have lost the best years of my life with her being around. And now when things were looking up, u have gone and ensured that I will have no respite. I will have to pay for my sins (although i am not aware of what sins i commited in my previous lifetime). The one sin i commited in this life time, u have payed me back swiftly and it magnifying proportions - i lost my mother. And now u will never let my dream come true...of keeping M away and my father staying with us. Never never never!!!!!! I know i will die wishing for this and this will never happen.....i am so deeply anguished :(
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 01, 2012, 04:45:05 AM
More annoying is the fact that R has kept this information hidden from me. He is not telling me. I am stumped!!! How can he do this to me? Have i ever hidden anything from him? Dont i share everything with him? Then why this attitude? I hate this. and i am upset about it...i dont feel like doing anything....i dont want to go to usa. I think the entire trip is a farce. I am a nobody in the system. I am there only for doing things, for getting the bad names, for being bitched about...and not because i am a part of the family. So thats my status in this family....10 years and this is what i get. Ridiculous!!!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 08, 2012, 10:11:54 PM
Dear baba...today its 2 years since u gave us appa's house. I cant thank you enough for this. everyday everytime i think about how kind u have been to us to get this house for us. It means everything to me dear lord. Baba...our wants and needs have no limits. We get one thing and then we go on in pursuit of the next desire. But baba...u know how things are, and i need not hide anything from u....please let me know how things would pan out for me. I am happy right now - not stressed at all...living life the way i want....cant this go on for ever?? Does she have to come back?? Have i not served her enough?? Please dear lord - i want this life to go on and i want to take my father to london...thats all.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 08, 2012, 10:39:06 PM
Forgot to mention that i saw u last night - in my dreams baba. I was in my school along with some of my class mates...my school looked so different but still had some of the old rooms. And then i saw u high up on a platform....and i had a red stone...which i gave you and asked u to keep it for me....And i seeked ur blessings...wow
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 09, 2012, 10:38:27 PM
Baba...u r my sole refuge. I feel like sitting down at your feet and crying. I dont know why?? This life is not going the way i would have liked it to be....so many unfullfilled dreams...so many wasted opportunities...so many trivial issues and so much of sadness......This is not a very happy scenario.

Anyway - last night i dreamt that i was getting married (again!!!) and i couldnt quite see to whom...and apparently my previous marriage was also to someone unknown....i didnt actually see me getting married...but i did see myself getting ready.....Strange and scary...

Baba - please let me live this life with the people i love and with people who love me...A,R,S...and thats it.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 10, 2012, 01:31:59 AM
Kind of frustrating....when u see people who are not capable rise so high in their career...and people like us are left way behind...is it because of the choices we made? Is it because i wanted a life for my family and yet have an individual identity and financial independence??What is it?? Is it because i could never bend backwards to accomodate stupid requests/orders from bosses? Is it because i stood up for what was right and what was wrong?? I'll never know...and P is right....we will continue to live this life of mediocrity....thats our destiny. Just walking the thin line at work and home both!!!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 10, 2012, 11:46:42 PM
Life is what u choose to make out of it. There is plan laid out for everyone by you...but then what happens is reality need not be in synch with the plan. Our karmas and our choices determine the path we charter for ourselves. And when we die, we actually try to map the plan against the actuals. And the deficit is what is plugged into the next lifetime's plans........wow...philosophical aint i???

Dear lord...let me not meander a lot from your guided path....show me the right way and let me be your child always...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: pradeepp on May 11, 2012, 11:22:13 AM
baba i pray to you from my heart for your miracle of arranging money for me thru mani tonight itself
to send to pune for stocks and payment to landlord.
baba i beg  to you to not allow landlord to evict us from the mall.
omsai
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 13, 2012, 11:12:11 PM
baba...please bless pradeepp. Shower your blessings on us dear lord.

Baba...i keep going back in time to look for things that bring me happiness....am i not happy now? Am i being greedy and inconsiderate?? Maybe...since i have things that many people may not have...i dont have the value for it. Forgive me my lord....and please teach me to be happy with my lot.

And u know what is best for us anyway...so i need not worry and rake my brains over it.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: pradeepp on May 14, 2012, 06:05:41 AM
Dear baba ,


I am suffering the consequences of all the sins i have committed in this birth and all
tthe breach of financial trust of family and friends.the last few years since 2006 have been very bad
and since 2010 including last 5-6months the worst in my life of 60 years. I am neck deep in debts and begging babas
forgiveness and chamatkar of ridding me of this.
Baba has been protecting my family and me but has to get me oit of this debt - financial ad moral.
I beg babas chamatkar to arrange loan tomorrow morning and save me from
immediate calamity.

DUST OF YOUR FEET

Omsai
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 15, 2012, 03:03:38 AM
Dear Pradeepp...
Just my suggestion - upto u to take it or leave it - please take baba's name and chant the Runavimochana Nrisimha Stotram. Its a prayer to Lord Narasimha to help us get rid of our debts - financial and spiritual....It will surely help u....
And do it sincerely from the your heart.

Baba will surely bless u....keep faith and hang on.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: pradeepp on May 15, 2012, 08:05:38 AM
Dear vidyarp

thanks for your support. where do i find the stotram. i do not know why baba is testing me. i am at my wits end with stress and fear.

Beg babas forgiveness and miracle of changing mind of persons whom i have approached for loan to pl give me loan

omsai
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 15, 2012, 10:42:22 PM
Its available at the DwarkaMai - Sai Baba Forum > Indian Spirituality > Mantras and Slokas.

We all are facing the consequences of our karma. Our decisions and choices have led us to where we are today. I strongly believe that if we are truly sorry for all the wrong things we have done, if we are truly repentent, then Baba will take us in his sharan. He is ever loving and forgiving...and he is just testing you at the moment to see if you are truly sorry and if u r truly his devotee.

Baba - please take care of all. For me, life goes on. I live from one day to another, nothing to look forward to. I crib at work, crib about my spouse, crib about my inlaws, crib about the state of the nation, crib about my health...but i dont DO anything!! I still continue the old ways...i havent done anything different. So how can i expect u to help me when i am not helping myself???

Today is 16th May - 3 years ago, on this date, i spoke to my mother for the last time i think. I can remember each and every minute of that day...oh how i miss her....She is with u dear lord....take care of her.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: pradeepp on May 16, 2012, 10:36:16 AM
dear vidyarp  ,

Thank you for your words of encouragement. I am sure with prayers of all forum members i will get bsbas blessings and grace. Inspite of all the problems baba has not allowed any harm to me.

You may rest assured that as long as you do no wrong or harm anyone, babas blessings will be with you.
Baba is definately looking after your dear mother.

Omsai
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 16, 2012, 10:10:19 PM
Baba...good morning.
Please let this be a good day. I seek your blessings to start the day on the right note.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: pradeepp on May 16, 2012, 11:34:05 PM
May babas blessings be with us all.
Omsai
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 17, 2012, 10:35:10 PM
Baba...good morning
I cant give up...not so soon...all my life i have wasted the opportunities that u brought my way....and now i am not going to waste it. I am not going to give up or give in...its a test of my determination and persevearance.....I WILL NOT GIVE UP...NEVER NEVER NEVER!!!
please be with me in this journey...i need you more than ever...

Bless us all dear lord and make this a good day..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 18, 2012, 12:17:52 PM
these are just words...empty words...false promises...my propensity to over commit...my lack of self will ....
call it what u want.....its the truth....and i cannot escape it.
U know what happened today. I am happy for him...he works hard and deserves to get all that and more. But baba...what about me?? Do i not deserve anything?? Baba...please enable me to help my father and family...and please take care of all my concerns and worries...after all i have no one else to turn to. I dont have my mother, i dont have any siblings, i have good friends..but not so close that i can share all these things with them...and my husband though a  nice man..i dont want to share anything like this with him....where do i go...i come to u dear lord....i feel let down and i am not helping myself at all....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: pradeepp on May 18, 2012, 09:39:20 PM
baba pl help all your bhaktas overcome their miseries in life
and forgive all their sins
omsai
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: pradeepp on May 19, 2012, 10:34:58 PM
baba i beg your chamatkar of loan
 today to save business which is my livelihood and set up with your
permission and blessings.
baba pl also protect me from troubles from all sides catching upon account
of my sins.
omsai
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 27, 2012, 10:42:22 PM
Good morning dear lord....please shower your blessings on us. Its been 3 years now since ma passed away. We hope wish and pray that she is with you always. She was a great person, a dedicated teacher, a sincere wife, a doting mother and a great friend. I want her to be happy where ever she is.

Baba...please take care of pradeepp's worries. We all are your children
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: pradeepp on May 28, 2012, 11:19:08 AM
baba  I beg  forgiveness for  my  sins and  karmas  at  your  holy feet  and
chamatkar of blessings and  protection from  srikanth  and  bank . Also  miracle  and  chamatkar of news 
of  loan  and balance 1.5L salary  from jasg .
I promise  to  repay  all  loans  by  sale  of  pune  property  by your  grace
omsai
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 29, 2012, 12:26:51 AM
Baba...one thing that i definitely dont know is how to play politics in office. I do seem to lose out on many things because of my naive nature...but i guess i cant change my nature. But sad that people reach such great heights in their corporate career by trodding on people like us. We can never make it large...we will always be an also-ran...a mediocre person who works hard and sincerely to ensure all the timelines are met, deadlines are met, people are informed etc...we dont think about hiding information and back biting people...then why do these people do this to us??
bless us all dear lord.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: pradeepp on May 29, 2012, 12:42:32 PM
baba  I am  grateful  to  you  for  your  blessings  of  darshan  last  night .
You  have  really  blessed me .
Beg  your  chamatkar  of loan tomorrow. Also  begging  your  protection  from  srikanth .
Beg  good  sale  in  L & T tomorrow and  day  after
omsai
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 30, 2012, 10:10:49 PM
Baba...the other day (on 26th) when we went to the mandir...i saw u dressed in the exact shade of green that i saw in my dream. Baba...i was speechless. You looked so divine and resplendent....I bow to you my lord....
Baba...yesterday was my checkup...u know what the doc said....now if i have to live, i need to take charge of my life and make the best out of it. Help me dear lord....i cannot give up...for the sake of my father, husband and son....they are my life....and i need to be there for them. So...that means eating right, doing exercises and remaining calm and tension free. Theek hai baba...i will go with the flow. I know whatever happens, you have planned that for me and my karmas are also reflecting in that. So i have no fear.

Take care of all dear lord...u r my sole refuge
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: pradeepp on May 31, 2012, 08:11:47 AM
baba i speak to you from my heart to forgive my sins and absolve me of the sins ad karmas today thursday. baba shower your grace and relieve me from misery and fear and protect me from all the problems and creditors and their agents threats. baba protect from bank action by kotak,sbi and also kenny. baba please beg you to arrange loan and i promise to repay by sale of pune property

omsai
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: pradeepp on June 03, 2012, 09:56:01 AM
baba i beg chamatkar of stopping our eviction by landlord narasimha reddy from his premises in lumbini mall on 4 june 2012 for default on rent

omsai
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 03, 2012, 11:07:29 PM
Good morning dear lord....please rescue pradeepp from misery. He is repenting from the bottom of his heart. Please be with him and guide him.

Baba...i will be gone for nearly a month. Dont know how it will pan out....but i am going to accept the things as they come and not worry too much. No point. We all have to pay for our sins and bad deeds. So bring it on baba. let me get rid of it once and for all. But baba...honestly...i will not carry any ill feelings...its just not worth.

Take care of all dear lord...esp my father and son.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: pradeepp on June 04, 2012, 01:00:04 PM
Thank you vidyarp for  praying to baba  on my behalf.
baba  has atlas heard mine and all sai bhaktas praying for me and
 started to guide me out of my misery and  I have  taken the first step
as per his guidance. I am sure baba  has finally forgiven my sins and is now leading me out
of misery back to happiness.
Thank you baba  for your  blessings and grace
omsai
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 04, 2012, 10:36:06 PM
Dear baba...we all are your children. Then why this partiality amongst us? Why is one treated better than the other? All children should be alike in mother's eyes....but this is not so and it hurts me. I hate the bindings that society has for women...I hate convention....and baba right now there is nothing i can do about it. Baba...please take care of my father, son and husband..they are important to me. let there be peace and harmony please....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: pradeepp on June 05, 2012, 12:46:22 PM
Baba  grateful for  your  forgiveness of my sins protection
against  total ruin  in business by guiding us out of bad location.
Beg guide and reset  at profitable site
grant l a p to repay all debts and sale  of pune property to clear l a p
Omsai
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: pradeepp on June 22, 2012, 11:35:48 PM
baba  I beg you  to come to my aid and forgive my sins.
baba I have always been fortunate to receive your  blessings and protection.
baba  I beg  for your continuous protection and grace. Pl  grant me place
at  your  holy  feet. I beg you to Pl solve my financial mess and enable me to repay all loans
debts  and people whom I have financially  cheated.baba  Pl make jasg pay my balance salary after
deducting 3 lacs. baba  jasg should pay me today.
Baba Pl keep rajesh  and his henchmen like srikanth  away  from me and protect me  from  their  actions.
Baba landlords should not call me today .
Omsai
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 05, 2012, 11:04:03 PM
Good morning dear lord....I am back from my trip. Thank you for giving me such a wonderful time in US and for showing me the true nature of mil. I realized that she finds no happiness anywhere and if she can find faults with her own daughter and grand daughter...i am a no one. She has a melancholic and myopic view of life and does not want to be happy. So thats her problem and not mine. So that makes it easier for me to handle her. I now know that whenever she is angry or rude or loud...i can understand that its got nothing to do with me. Its her attitude problem and not mine. Thank u god for showing me this aspect of hers. Otherwise i would have never known.
Other than that - things seem ok so far...but its a little unrestful right now at work. There is an under current of dis-satisfaction in the team and so much of uncertainity over the future. Now that i am back from my vacations, its time for me to pull up my socks and get cracking. Show me the way baba...lead me on please.
Take care of my father, son and husband. Take care of all dear lord. And i do not know what the future holds for us...but baba...please keep myt father close to me and my husband and son...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 09, 2012, 10:38:05 PM
Baba...human beings keep wanting more and more...there is no end to our wants...whether we actually need it or not :) i think i am also behaving like this right now. Sorry. I lost focus. I apologise. Actually...all i want is that my father should stay with us and we should all be happy. M creates so much of unhappiness and discontent...and she is going to be back soon. SO baba...not really looking forward to that. But baba...if only u could help me. I am sorry that i wanted more (like going and settling out) but thats no longer the case. Keep my father happy and i will be fine. it doesnt matter where we are.
Please take care of us all...at work and at home..in life..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 10, 2012, 10:45:57 PM
Good morning dear lord....why cant we humans be happy with our lot? I mean look at animals...they hunt or look for food when they need and only a certain quantity. they dont hoard stuff like we do...and although we have everything in life, yet we crave for something more. Its always the case...no end to our needs and wants. But i also remember the last time when i said i was content with all i have and dont want to ask for anything....u gave me such a rude jolt!!! So i made it a point to keep asking u for something. so baba...i ask u to keep my family happy. I want my father to stay with us and mil to not come back (is it even possible?? but for u baba...anything is possible) Baba...i have served her for 11 years and she has been most unkind and rude to me. She makes me sad and upset...i dont want to live with her anymore. I want my family to be together and happy. I want to take my dad to L. Please arrange for that ...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 12, 2012, 12:01:43 AM
Baba...good morning. Am back to feeling insecure and unhappy. Both at work and at home. WOrk - because of the uncertainity of job...and home because i know m will be back in a month's time. so not the best of times for me. But ok - i will not lose heart. Rather i need to focus on the positives and get into the domain knowledge. Good f/b from VG. Thank you god for good friends.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 22, 2012, 11:26:18 PM
Dear baba...good morning. Life goes on and my days of freedom will soon be over. But u know what baba...dil se i dont want anything bad to happen to her. Although i would love to keep her away from me...but still...ma to ma hai....meri na sahi r ki to hai...aaj meri ma hoti to i would have taken care of her....baba...i will have this regret all my life that i couldnt do anything for her. So baba...give me the strength, wisdom and good sense to ignore m and just focus on getting on with life. But baba...please ensure she doesnt mess with my dad. If she dare insults him or anything, i will not spare her. please take care of all dear lord...and u know how it is at work...please take care of things....i do keep getting tempted to seek help, but then something stops me. I know u dont like people going to astrologers...and so i know i will not go. U are my best guide and guardian angel...so i will not get any outside help...
Baba...take care of one and all..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 23, 2012, 10:31:17 PM
Good morning baba....I dont have much to say. Except that i need to take a step back and see what i am doing, where i am heading. It makes no sense otherwise. This kind of mindless job hopping is going to do no good. Yes...i might make money...but i need to secure my future and that of all the people who depend on me (rather i depend on)...so please show me the way dear lord.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 24, 2012, 10:24:29 PM
Baba...u know how it is. Koi chain nahi hai...kisiko. I dont want to stay here and i want to go to a better place and a better life. But i cant. With all thats happening in my life, i dont see how i can manage it. I understand that certain things are not meant to be. IS this one of them??? Baba...i'm ok to give up this thing..if only i know that m will not be with us and a will stay with us forever. I dont want a to be away from us. Baba...yesterday i was thinking about my mother. I miss her. And it seems like all this happened ages away....Ma is with u...please take care of her. I dont know where i will be...but i know for sure...u will listen to my prayers sooner or late..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 30, 2012, 12:25:51 AM
baba...i just close my eyes and take a deep breath and say - "Dear Lord, right now i am not feeling like its the best of times for me. I know you are testing me and i shall not let u down. I believe in you and i know its all part of your plan. I know you are making me a stronger and better person and also know that u haves something really good in tore for me. So i shall persevear and carry on. I shall put all my faith in you and carry on in your path. So help me dear lord and be with me as i progress towards the goal you have for me."
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 31, 2012, 02:54:42 AM
Baba...tumhi ho mata pita tumhi ho tumhi ho bandhu sakha tumhi ho...
Dont know why but i feel like things are slipping out of my hands...as if i am holding onto a fist ful of sand. It just seems to go away from the little cracks...and i have no power to stop it...I feel i am living a life of lies and sycophancy...i dont know if i have the right to make a decision or even raise my concern on something that is wrong. I cant stand for justice. and i feel bad. These gore log are so mean...hum log chahe lakh achha karein...humko koi appreciation nahi hai...only gaali. Sirf jee hazoori chalti hai baba...not fair. Dont know what the future holds for me...but i am very sceptical...
Chalo ye bhi ek test hai mera...and i will not let u down.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 01, 2012, 04:42:12 AM
Baba...u are my only hope. what will i do without you. Right now i am feeling like a wreck. I've just been ticked off by a boorish idiotic firangi. he knows nothing and he doesnt want to know. I agree there are gaps...but see where we are now from where we started. and they simply ignore all the blunders they commit..but are so keen to make mountains out of molehills when it comes to us. So irritating. And on top of it my folks at home are not being helpful. I am so upset baba.......why should all this happen to me? why cant i be happy for some time at least? is this part of your plan? Because if it is, then i dont know why? i give up baba...aaj mein bahut niraash hoo...i dont think i have ever felt so low in some time...i thought last year after changing my job, i have finally broken the shackles of sorrow that were holding me down. But looks like that is not the case.....
When will things look good for me baba? when will i have a good life? when will i be in a situation where i enjoy life?
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 03, 2012, 12:54:49 AM
Baba..please mann ko shanti dena. Aur dimaag ko thanda rakhna...wo kya hai na baba...whenever i think of sc, my blood boils. I hate the injustice he does and i hate the way these guys are just flounting all the rights and laws...they are playing with our careers and thats not good. Please take care of all dear lord..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 05, 2012, 10:39:01 PM
Baba...good morning. Gussa karne se koi fayeda nahi hai. And the only thing that can save me is focus on what i do and do it to the best of my abilities. And of course faith and persevearance and belief in you. Without this nothing can be achieved. I dont want t live my life like an also ran. I dont want to be a burdn on my family. I want to be able to earn enough to take care of all my family's needs and give my father, son and husband the very best. If only i could take my dad to London once. And if only i could earn well and from home. And with m away....My list is endless baba :)
jo bhi hai...baba..one should never stop dreaming i guess....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: pradeepp on August 06, 2012, 10:31:17 PM
baba thanks for your  blessings protection and forgiveness
baba  beg you to remove all obstacles in my life
omsai
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 08, 2012, 05:13:01 AM
Good afternoon baba..sorry couldnt write to you in the morning. You know how things are going right now. So kind of busy. But baba...nothing will be possible without your blessings. And i dont know how and why, i fee better about sd today...I guess its breaking the initial barrier...or maybe adapting to someone's style. Lets see how things go from here. But i also feel all this is illusion. This is not real....and i dont know how it will be at home. so bless me dear lord and help me to go on. Be my strength and give me the wisdom and courage that is required. I will not let you down.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 08, 2012, 10:45:59 PM
Good morning baba...things are the same as they were yesterday. R seems worried. And m is as usual. I dont know if this is what life is meant to be. I am suffering from the arthritis pain baba.This is my karma and i'll go through it. but baba...kuchh bhi karo...mujhe dependent mat bana dena kabhi bhi. I want to be self sufficient till the very last breath i take.
Baaki to aapko pata hi hai...so no need to elaborate and daily same baat kya boloo?? So lets leave it at that. Bas baba...show me the way...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: pradeepp on August 12, 2012, 09:28:11 AM
baba grateful for blessings protection and forgiveness.
baba beg you to continue your grace and blessings to my family  and  me
baba Pl solve all my problems and bring back peace and happiness in my life and continue to protect me from kamal
rajesh and henchmen and also reddy brothers and DRT  case with Kotak  bank
omsai
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 12, 2012, 10:46:07 PM
Om sai sharanam sri sai sharanam.....
baba the weekend was good. I was with my father and that is always very good. I want to be with him as much as possible and save him from loneliness. He is a wonderful man and he deserves a lot more happiness. If only i could do something for him...
Apart from that i was suffering from pain baba. Made me realize how i should never take anything for granted and always be thankful for the simple things that i have in life today.
baba - i may not earn million bucks...i may not be the best in my profession..and i may not be the best dil and mother...but i am doing my best. i am trying to balance a lot of things and given these constraints - i think i am fairly well placed. Only thing is that i should not feel sad about all the lost opportunities. Becoz that will not help. And baba...i really want to start a home business or work from home / appas home actually (which will become my office) how do i do it?? I am at a loss here. So help me to find a way baba...please.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 15, 2012, 11:43:47 PM
Baba...ab aur kitna sehna padega? I am sooo frustrated and angry. I dont know if i need to feel so bad right now. Maybe i am over reacting. But i am so upset with what is being given to me. And they dont know but they are ruining themselves with the way they work. So god help them. But baba - please help me to get a job before that.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 16, 2012, 11:07:10 PM
Dear baba - are you simply testing me?? Looks like it is:) So fine - test me all that u can...i may get upset i may falter...but i will never ever give up on you. I believe in you and i believe in myself. Koi bhi problem itni badi nahi hoti agar hum apni poori mehnat aur dimaag lagayein...and of course aap par poora bharosa rakhein....

So here i am baba...i will enjoy all the challenges u heap on me....so bring it on ...with you by my side...nothing can go wrong...everything will be alright
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: pradeepp on August 19, 2012, 04:58:01 AM
baba  I surrender at your  holy feet  and seek  your blessings in
protecting me and family .  baba Pl help in keeping my faith and trust at your  holy feet in face
of all difficulties and tribulations.
omsai
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 20, 2012, 11:23:40 AM
baba...umr beet jaati hai intezaar mein. we wait for better times and always hope that good things are round the corner. we dont enjoy what we have today. Its the tomorrow that worries us and keeps us from enjoying our today. So its an illusion. And that tomorrow never comes. like i said earlier -  i thought a good job will make me feel happy. That didnt happen. i wanted to get a higher paying salary and i got it. but did i feel happy? No - now i want more. so basically i am not going to be happy ever if i keep looking for the perfect life - high paying high profile job but with all the flexibility and lack of stress (Imagine!!!). So what do i really want?? I want a balanced life where i am financially independent, where i can take care of my needs and that of my family. where i have the time to spend with my son and enjoy his childhood and see him grow. i know i am killing my ambitions (which are now secondary - my child and father take highest priority) and letting go of things which my parents have worked hard to give me. They have toiled hard and long to make me what i am. And i cannot just giveit all up or walk away from it. But can i sustain the balance?? I dont knw...am i rambling here??? anyway - baba...u know how it is...so i'll stop it here. good night
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: pradeepp on August 21, 2012, 07:06:38 PM
baba ever  grateful for all your blessings and miracles in my  life. koti  koti  pranams for your guidance and protection . baba I continue to pestering you everyday. baba  beg you to continue to bless and protect my family  and me. baba  Pl arrange  funds today morning to enable  neha  meet  commitment of cheques issued for  kondapur rent and security deposit .
satisfy should not  deposit cheques today  nor phone  neha .
baba  scb should  return  my pune property papers  today and despatch from Mumbai.
baba  no phone calls  or house visit by Sbi  and andhra bank .
omsai
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 26, 2012, 11:00:20 PM
baba...i am feeling restless. So that's nothing new. I've been doing the rounds for the past 4 years. Its the feeling of sheer depression and helplessness and unworthiness, then i crib and complain; i try to motivate myself and if luck is onmy side, i do manage to do very well for few days. I feel good about my work, about my life and about my situation in life. And the euphoria lasts till the next round of depression hits me. And then it starts all over. So basically i m not doing anything worthlwhile. I am still at the same spot where i was 4 -5 years ago. That makes me mad!! I mean how can i do this to myself?? Sir was right - we all keep praying god do this help us with that and save me from this and that. we never pray to god to say please give me the strength to bear this situation and the wisdom and courage to move to a better direction. So baba...its ok for me to be restless because i should feel th pain of my current situation. Only then will i try to overcome it.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 27, 2012, 06:27:28 AM
Baba...really i think i am the pits!!Imagine - i keep jeopardizing myself again and again. I set myself up for failure and then crib and complain. God - is there no end to it?? enough vidya- stop fooling yourself! U know u have to focus on 4 items - one is BAU (that has to happen, no way out), then u have a short term objective (which in my opinion - u should do first along with managing BAU. It will help in upcoming talks and boost ur confidence and knowledge), then u have a medium term objective (which should be done after doing th short term one because this is an add on to your current skills. So u need to be pakka in ur current skills and then look at adding over and above), and finally is the long term goal which requires some serious investments in terms of learning a totally new area and making time for practising it. So no confusion only concentration on the objectives in order of priority.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 29, 2012, 11:52:47 AM
baba...thank you for your grace. Otherwise i would have had a tough time yesterday. So thank you for saving me from the accident. I bow to you.
U know it all...so am not going to say it again. I just wish to make more time to be around my son and help him with his studies, play with him rather than attend to stupid conference calls. But then where do i get the money to have that luxury??? such a catch 22 situation na?
Baba...pleasebe with me in this journey.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 30, 2012, 05:57:18 AM
dear baba....please give me the strength wisdom and courage to go through the grind...and baba please help with the niggling issues.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 05, 2012, 11:20:48 PM
baba..long time...busy week. U know what happened on 1st sept!! Its ridiculous...and i am so sad for my father. why do good people always hav to suffer?why dont ppl like my mil who is really the greatest gossip monger on earth suffer? why does she get away with all the wrong doings and nothing happens to her!! This beats me..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 27, 2012, 02:46:11 PM
Baba..you are the best judge of what we all deserve...But i do agree that not everyone has the life he/she wants. There will be a black spot in every one's lives. I guess my black spot is m. Cant let her go and cant be with her. I feel sad that we dont get along. And u knw what happned the other day...i got sooo upset....And r got so angry....and truth prevailed (i would like to believe that...kyunki baba aapke saamne i will never lie) and u know the outcome. Somehow i am glad that r knows and i am also sad that it had to happen this way. I hate it when r loses his head and talks like that abt a. Please baba...let everything be alright.
I know very soon the time will come for me to choose a tough option...and i hope to god and you that whatever may be the decision...a should always be with us and k should always be with a. I hate it when m tries to poison k's mind...so wicked and evil i say. but baba...theek hai...u knw what's best...
take care of all baba...and hope i reach home safe and sound.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 03, 2012, 04:59:00 AM
Dear baba...am back. U know how things are at home and at work. My mind is split..i seem to be in a trance like state where nothing seems real. And i dont feel like doing anything because of this. Maybe is an excuse for me to slack (wicked girl) but thats how i feel at the moment. I want some  stability and peace in my life...and i am lacking both of them at work and at home. So i am feeling so strang right now. Can things improve? I am hoping they would. and also - i cannot let this feeling take a strong grip on me, it will cost me a lot of effort to overcome it. as it is, i can see the damage i am doing to myself by going back to the poor eating habits. Its not good for me at all. And i am just letting the beast get hold of me and control me. Rubbish i say!! I know i can make a dash for the finish line and i know i can win...but i am lacking something - the will to win. Its almost as if i want to give up and do nothing. Its as if glory means nothing to me. cmon v...u can do better than this. dont let go just when things are looking up for u...
i am convinced that trust is something that i should not break - ever. And i need to be true to myself....and to you. Rest everything will be fine.
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Post by: vidyarp on October 10, 2012, 11:26:15 PM
It is my fate, my karma , my destiny that life should treat me like this. everything is a struggle till i achieve it. Nothing comes easy. I have to work hard to get it. and all for what dear lord?? I find the whole concept so meaningless. At times i feel i am under depression. Not a good thing baba. Like i said - i lost my mother, my anchor in life. She was the rock behind my every decision. Now I have my father only, who is the closest to me. He knows me like no oneelse. But i am now trying to protect him from the world...after losing ma i have become more protective and caring for him. But u know how it is - he cant stay with me. Then i have my m who will never ever get along with me. I really get upset when she is mean and nasty. I adore my son but i have no time for him due to work pressure and also because of m at home. Then i have a good husband but somhow we dont tune to the same frequency is what i think. he is a good man and a caring husband and father. But is he my best friend? no. i suffer from low self esteem now and esp with the instability at work. I did so well here i gave it my best....and now i am looking out for ajob yet again. what nonsense baba...and for no fault of mine. I am not happy anywhere...and i dont know what i am going to do...its so upsetting....and then u say give up quarrel...and i did....u said have faith and wait for 36 hrs....i did...I know u are working behind the scenes...but baba...i am upset...and i have no one to go to...
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Post by: vidyarp on October 11, 2012, 02:58:47 AM
waiting....faith and persevearance....shraddhha and saburi....
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Post by: vidyarp on October 11, 2012, 11:55:01 AM
baba....how can i thank you....i have no words....all i can do is bow my head and pray to you humbly. I am ashamed of myself to have doubted you. You are really divine. I got the call i was desparately waiting for. And all thanks to you dear lord. I dont know how it will be going forward...but baba...i asked for it and i signed up for it....so no regrets. For once i can be confident of myself...and all thanks to you. And baba u know what....i am going to believe in you more than ever...because u have said give up the quarrel. and so i will. No i will not pick an issue with her....everytime she does something wrong...i'll say to myself...ignore kar ignore kar....and just call out your name....
baba.....thank you from the bottom of my heart...
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Post by: vidyarp on October 11, 2012, 11:25:54 PM
Good morning dear lord..hasnt really sunk in...the feeling....i am happy..not exactly elated because i am afraid to be so happy. But baba...you ar divine and u take care of all of us.....so i am positive and i know that u will take care of everything baba....and i will work hard and be true to myself......i know petty things can bring me down..but i need to get up and dust myself and move on...to petty people i should say ignore kar ignore kar....all is well...
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Post by: vidyarp on October 15, 2012, 12:48:11 AM
Waiting yet again....its not funny baba...its definitely not funny....
I hope i get the details today and i really wish to do well. I know this is not going to solv all my problems ...its going to give rise to a new set of challenges...but i'm ok with it....so long as u r by my side and i am trying my level best to give up quarrel....its tough...but i am doing it for you...because u told me to take the bad along with the good...so here i am dear lord...
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Post by: vidyarp on October 15, 2012, 06:58:57 AM
so its more waiting and yet more waiting....and when i reach home it'll be like ignore kar ignore kar....haina baba? koi cheez asaani se nahi milti....to theek hai asaan kaam ke liye nahi bheja hai na aapne mujhe.... 8)
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Post by: vidyarp on October 15, 2012, 11:28:10 PM
Dear lord.....some people can really drive u nuts!!! they make u see red all the time....and then u say dont quarrel/give up quarrel :o
so fine...i give up quarrel...and i feel sad to see my son suffer but i cant do anythin right now. Fine..Its not a major issue and i need to focus on other things.
So waiting  :-\
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Post by: vidyarp on October 19, 2012, 01:41:14 AM
Dear baba....what am i without you. You are everything for me and i am your child. I am happy and sad, determined yet scared...u know the turmoil i am going through. After 13 years, i have got a job offer from my dream company. I should be jumping with joy. But i am not. I am just anxious. Experience has told me that nothing is permanent and this happiness will also cease to exist in some time. And as for the home front - less said the better. Its so tough to put up with her. She is bitter and angry and seems hell bent on ruining my son's life and mine in turn. I have no clue how this will resolve in the days to come. But like u said - i will not quarrel. But u should do something about it baba. I dont know how long i will last in this situation. Its frustrating. She has everything yet she has nothing. she prays hard and calls out to you, but her mind and heart are so full of hatred and anger. Baba...aise pooja ka kya fayeda? I agree i am no saint myself...but i have tried my best to mould myself to her needs...but she treats me like dirt and expects me to treat her like my mother - thats not happening!! She dislikes my parents, she hates me, she has bad mouthed her own daughter and hates her own grand daughter....what sort of a woman is she?? and yet i cannot leave her alone and go. If i cant do it to my father, i cant do it to her. Old age will happen to me as well and i dont want to do anything that i wont do to myself. But baba...this is one big mess....there is no sense of a family bonding in our house...its asif 4 people are just co existing..not living together..and my poor dad is left out as an outsider...i cant bear this. Baba u have always given me what i wanted...not necessarily when i wanted....but i am convinced that u give me what i want....baba...please give me peace and harmony at home...please let appa stay with us and let m go away...i cant stay with her any more..

Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 19, 2012, 04:11:17 AM
om sai sharanam....sri sai sharanam....

Baba...please sabka dhyaan rakhna....apni sharan mein rakhna...
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Post by: vidyarp on October 24, 2012, 10:51:49 PM
Sai reham nazar karna.....puja was good...the usual festivities and gluttony. Baba...but i really miss my mother...i  miss the times we spent in chd....and all that we shared...It pains me to see my dad all alone and sad. I want him to be happy..very happy...and for that k should stay with him and enjoy his company. without that, it will not happen and m should not be there to spoil things the way she does now. and baba...hopefully i should be able to join a with no glitches. Long list of things..but this is where i am now. I dont want to be in a situation where i am neither here nor there. Bcos u see...i need the money to take care of my father and other needs for my family. And i need the financial independence to take care of things. I cant let R take all the burden...not fair. And i also need my space and identity (though that is now lower in priority) but if m is going to be at home, there is no way i can sit at home. So all in all...i should be happy with what i got...but the timing is such that i am not exactly thrilled to bits here...but very grateful and thankful to you....for giving me an opportunity...at least for once in life i can say i was associated with a.
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Post by: vidyarp on October 24, 2012, 10:58:07 PM
Baba...its now 3 years since my mother passed away...and yet i cry. Why? Yet i feel that she should have been with me ...why do i still get upset? Kyunki i miss the genuine motherly love...I am so fed up with being treated like a second rate citizen ...like a step child...like an outsider....
I cant help feeling low....
And when i see my dad...i feel even worse.....i wish he stays happy. Please dear lord...thats the only genuine thing i want. Please take care of my father.
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Post by: vidyarp on October 25, 2012, 11:40:13 PM
Baba...last night i had a strange dream. I was in Buffalo or maybe those folks were with us..but our house looked exactly like theirs externally. And then there was this huge hall where we had a lakshmi vinayak with colourful background. But there was a dilapitated house right across the street and it was supposed to have some evil spirits etc. I take sai's name and walk into that house. I feel coldand clammy. But then my mother is with me. Thereafter the scene changes...i am sleeping in a bed and my mother is also sleeping in the same bed. There is a mild tremor and i feel that its an earthquake. So i immediately decide to catch hold of my mother's hand and rush out. I am worried that she should not be left behind. Again change in scene - my mother and i are standing in a queue somewhere in a market. She is telling me that there is a shoe shop close by and if i want i can buy new sandals..and i just smile at her and say no..i dont need it.
Ok - it sounds meaningless. But the fact remains that i saw my mother and i spoke to her and i (hopefully) held her hand. Thats what matters....
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Post by: vidyarp on October 28, 2012, 09:30:54 PM
Baba...thank you. Please bless r, a, k and me...today is my anniversary. Its been 11 years now. And m has behaved very badly today in my opinion. So i think i should just give up thinking about her. Aapne mujhe asaan kaam ke liye nahi bheja hai and if this is what it has to be then so be it. U have always told that one needs to be good and humble...and agar bhalaa na kar sako to koi baat nahi...kam se kam bura mat karo.Aur aapne ye bhi kaha ki give up quarrel...and i did. but still this nonsense is carrying on. Kab tak mein apne hi gharmein ek outsider ki tarah jeene wali hoo?? I dont think that its fair. 11 years ho gaye hain baba...lekin koi acceptance nahi hai. And for what she did to my mother...i will never forgive her. Is ki saza aap khud decide kar lena...i will not get into this. I want you to work on this please...i will not fret.
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Post by: vidyarp on October 28, 2012, 11:40:44 PM
I think it doesnt even occur to her that she is irritating me. She annoys me and creates trouble for me but she has no realization. Thats what i think. So maybe its not her fault at all. She is not doing it on purpose. So i'll just let her be. It must be painful to he her. So my sympathies....but i am not going to quarrel. Let her be. And as for a, k and r - they are my life and more than that. I'll do anything for them.
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Post by: vidyarp on October 30, 2012, 01:00:28 AM
OK so here i am baba....in the middle of nowhere. problem at work andn problem at home. It pays not to be sincere i guess. i am sincere and think about others and feel for them and they all take advantage of this situation. They dont think twice before hitting me below the belt. Then why am i good to them? Its not fair,
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Post by: vidyarp on November 01, 2012, 02:13:33 AM
Baba...all sorted for now. Thank you. everytime we feel down and out...u make us realize that life is about looking for new opportunities and counting our blessings that we get. So heartfelt thank you dear lord...for being with me all the time
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Post by: vidyarp on November 01, 2012, 11:02:14 PM
Baba..good morning. Why do i feel so bad when she talks to me like this? She is always so rude and angry and has never said one kind word ever...hates my family and yt expects that i will respect her!! What she did to my mother, i will never forget. and i will never forgive. But yet you say - give up quarrel. So fine...i am not fighting with her. but she is really testing my patience....can u please take care of this situation dear lord?? Whenwill i get relief from her...actually when will all of us get relief from her. She can go and stay with her daughter...
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Post by: vidyarp on November 04, 2012, 09:36:02 PM
Baba...goog morning. whatever may happen, it will not change the fact that u gave me the option to join my dream company. U made it happen. I have looked fwd to it for so long and now that i have it, i dont know how to react. It scares me. Its always been like this for me na baba - i got married to a man of my choice, i got into the college of my choice, i got a job and posting of my choice, and now a job in my dream comant...but everything looks so surreal...its as if it doesnt really exist and its just happening. i need to enjoy everything....
baba...i am worried i am going to fall back on my bad eating habits. I can already feel it. it is not a good thing. its going to harm me a lot...so help me to overcome it.
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Post by: vidyarp on November 05, 2012, 09:33:07 PM
I found my trigger point yesterday. I think when she is around i am so stressed and esp about the food. And as a result when ever i get a chance i just go over board. Thats my undoing. So i need to get over it. I'll have to sort this out. Give me the strength to go through all this and more baba....
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Post by: vidyarp on November 06, 2012, 09:43:38 PM
Good morning baba...hope everything goes off well. No issues as of now..but u know the bigger thing i am worried about. Well...lets not always talk abt troubles :) Take care of all baba...and i pray for D's husband...that poor child has seen a lot of hardship in life....bless them.
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Post by: vidyarp on November 08, 2012, 11:13:52 PM
I need to get a grip on my life...cant let all the efforts go to waste....not after all these years of struggle and abuse....
Should i say self-inflicted abuse??
Baba...u have alwatys been with me...and i trust you....please help us to be your child always
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Post by: vidyarp on November 12, 2012, 02:35:31 AM
Heres wishing you a very happy diwali baba.....sab ka bhala karna baba..
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Post by: vidyarp on November 16, 2012, 03:31:47 AM
Baba...please help my son to get well soon. he is a baby and i cant see him suffer.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 19, 2012, 02:40:08 AM
Baba...my son has dengue fever....i feel so sad for him...he is after all a baby....please take care of him dear lord....i need him to be absolutely fine....
And why am i not happy baba? I mean, i have everything ...yet...i feel so low...i feel as if i am cheating on my child...i want to be with him always....be when h needs me...and what am i doing...i am busy earnin money..sometimes i feel that its not worth it..
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Post by: vidyarp on November 21, 2012, 10:12:20 PM
baba...today morning while coming to work, i wa discussing with r that in the next company i join, i must serve for at least 4 years. To which he pointed out a very important fact. That it may not be possible. i may not last that long there or maybe the demands at home front will be such that i will have to quit. So i think it is only appropriate that i start looking at options right now. I need to be better prepared to stay at home...dont know when i will b required to do this...
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Post by: vidyarp on November 25, 2012, 11:28:43 PM
Thank you baba...my dear son is now better. He has gone to school today. Please take care of all baba.Next week i start my job in my dream company. I am a little scared. I need to be at my best form there. I will be competing with some of the best minds in the industry. So elp me dear lord..and be with me always.
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Post by: saib on November 26, 2012, 03:27:46 AM
Compete … This is a very dangerous word in corporate life of an Employee. Remember this reflects your EGO – a lust to prove that you are better than others ! No Sister, Just be yourself ! Do your best but without being threat to someone’s position ! Trust me, Most of the humans are cooperative by nature unless they feel offended by someone’s behavior ! Appreciate and Learn what good is in others ! But at the same time learn to be humble without appearing weak ! Share your knowledge but without making others realize that you know more than others ! You may be good be in subject but know they are also subject expert at least in that company ! Work and Live Gracefully moreover share Your Grace with them and see What Miracle Happens !

All the Best ! :)


om sri sai ram !
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Post by: vidyarp on November 27, 2012, 10:06:21 PM
Thank you my friend for the wise words. I will focus on doing my best and i will be sincere to my work. And the rest will follow. Baba is always there with me.
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Post by: vidyarp on November 28, 2012, 10:13:15 PM
Good morning dear lord...i am seeking your blessings for everything....please be with me and my family and everyone in fact.
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Post by: vidyarp on December 10, 2012, 10:08:26 PM
Good morning dear lord...i am here in my dream company in my desired role and drawing my desired salary....and all because of you....i have no words to thank you. I bow to you oh dear lord....please be my guiding light always.....
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Post by: vidyarp on December 12, 2012, 06:11:14 AM
baba...its time for me to repay my debts...to do what i promised to do...and i will no back out....please baba...please be with me...
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Post by: gkavita1978 on December 13, 2012, 10:48:45 AM
Jai Sairam,
Baba, We need your blessings to get into a job. As you know all the 3 rounds been completed and we are waiting for the final result. Pls help us baba. I have full faith on you but still want to talk to you baba to get the final confirmation. When will my husband get the offer letter from the company to join? It is been 2 years now.. it is high time to get a job for my husband... pls help us baba... we have only you....
Pls....... give us the good news asap baba....
Good night
Jai Sai Ram.
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Post by: vidyarp on December 13, 2012, 12:03:10 PM
Dear lord..its my first late night call...just the start of a long engagement in this company. I am not complaining. After all, i wanted to be here all my life.Now that i am here, i am not letting it go because of the pressures. But help me baba...to maintain the balance in my life.....
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Post by: vidyarp on December 19, 2012, 03:02:35 AM
baba...i dont know what to do...how to go about this...i am at the bottom of my class so to speak and not because i am a bad performer. Its because i am so new to this place. but the competition is tough and my peers are veterans and doing well. I like the work but the competition sort of pulls me down. I like my boss but u know hw it is. I try to build bridges...but i think here ppl are a little too snooty. They find it below themselves to respond to any email quickly. basically all that worked for me earlier is not working here. So i need to start from the scratch. Help me dear lord..i cannot fail...not after all that i have done to get here....i cant quit...not now.
Also baba...wanted to thank you for the opportunity u have brought in for a....i cant tell u how glad i am :) Its only u baba...u and u alone can do this miracle. It convinces me that u do listen to me. I have got all that  wanted and all because of you...i may not have got it when i asked for it...but i got it when i needed it most. Thank you dear lord....
And baba...let me not rest on my past laurels....let me pick the pace and give this my very best. Take care of my child baba....i love him so much..and at times i feel whether he really loves me as much or not...
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Post by: vidyarp on December 19, 2012, 09:30:31 PM
No head trips please....that has been my nemesis all the time. So please...no head trips....
And baba...i seem to have come across a few hurdles over here....please help me overcome those.
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Post by: vidyarp on January 02, 2013, 03:43:40 AM
Happy new year baba...its the begining of another year without my mother. I know she is with you and u r taking good care of her...still i miss her. And i know my father also misses her a lot. Baba...i want to start this new year with a prayer in my heart. Please grant us mental peace and good health...other things will follow. Baba..thank you for providing me an opportunity to fullfill my pledge to my mother. I wanted my father to see the world...he is a very simple man and a good human being. I am glad that u enabled me to buy a house for him close to my house and i cant thank you enough for that. and now i am thankful to you for enabling me to plan a trip for him. How could this have been possible without your will baba? U hear me and i know that u listen to me carefully. U may not give me things when i ask for it...but u certainly give me when i need it. And for this baba, i am forver indebted to you. If i am able to do this trip for him, i would have fullfilled all my wishes for him. I am sad i could not do anything for my mother. And baba i also remember her last words where she was concerned about who will look after my father after she goes. And i promised her i will take care.

Baba...i need to get into the groove and show them that i can do it. I have what it takes to compete and excel. i know the odds are stacked up against me...but thats ok. I am not worried. After all red to green is my favorite color transition :) Please help me focus on this baba. And no head trips. I promise.

My 2 resolutions for this year:
- I will wake up when the alarm rings. I will not hit snooze or doze off again.
- I will refrain from sweets unless and until its absolutely necessary to have them.
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Post by: vidyarp on January 02, 2013, 11:38:06 PM
Good morning dear lord...everday when i reach nearmy office, i thank you. Every time i go to my father'shouse i thank you....because its u who have given this opportunity to me. Thank you dear lord...
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Post by: vidyarp on January 03, 2013, 04:15:06 AM
Baba...i am going through a weak spell, where temptations beckon me. They cloud my thinking and defeat my efforts to succeed. help me ...please
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Post by: vidyarp on January 06, 2013, 11:16:11 PM
Good morning dear lord....today i read a very nice quote "Sometimes you are behind, sometimes you are ahead; the race of life is long...but in the end, its only with yourself".

This echoes with my sentiments completely. It doesnt matter where i am at a given point, in the end i am just competing with myself...
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Post by: vidyarp on January 07, 2013, 09:18:07 PM
Good morning dear lord....i thank you for today...and eeryday of my life....u have given me all that i needed and when i needed (not when i asked u for it :))
And i realize that without u nothing would have been possible. baba...please take care of all...and in my own little way i hope to contribute to the world...
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Post by: vidyarp on January 08, 2013, 03:23:39 AM
why am i such a complete idiot when it comes to certain people?? I know they hurt me and will never care two hoots for me...and yet i continue to patiently wait for them...i am willing to be a slave to them...i mean what rubbish!! Please god...make me see sense...i am just ruining my life and the opportunity given out to me..
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Post by: vidyarp on January 08, 2013, 09:52:10 PM
Good morning dear lord....Please please please let me see the way! I cant waste this opportunity...not now...not after all the efforts that were put in to get here....i dont want to be in the bottom of my class....I know i can be better and i know i can work better than them...just that i have so much of inertia. Thats my nemesis. And why am i not able to keep my resolution? I am keeping one but not the other....
Please please give me a stronger will power ...
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Post by: vidyarp on January 09, 2013, 05:59:10 AM
I am behaving like an obsessed lover ::) The pits i say!!!
Get over it before you get over completely......

Sorry baba...that was self talk. I dont know why i am reacting like this? I have everything going fine for me and i have to go and ruin it by such absurd stupid arbid behaviour...I am nuts!!!

Anyway - i need to fous on my job my life and a zillion other things...so i can do without all the sundry stuff thank you.
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Post by: vidyarp on January 09, 2013, 09:11:33 PM
Good morning dear lord....please bless us all and be with us always..
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Post by: vidyarp on January 10, 2013, 10:05:13 PM
Baba..good morning...i feel good...i feel fine...i feel like i can take on anything and get it done....thats a nice feeling to have...it reminds me of the SP days...when there was total chaos and i was able to bring it to a perfect level....
I hope to get the same results here...please. Please be with me always...
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Post by: vidyarp on January 13, 2013, 10:15:26 PM
baba..good morning. Lots of work this weekend and we were quite busy. But all fine. No complaints :) I ate a lot of junk...which is bad for me. so need to get back on track this week. work wise - please please be with me....
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Post by: vidyarp on January 14, 2013, 10:10:05 PM
Rozroz aakhon tale....ek hi sapna jale....raat bhar kaajal jale...ankhon mein jis tarah khwab ka diya jale....

Love this song baba...but it always makes me sad...i want to cry...why? I always feel like i am missing my mother...
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Post by: vidyarp on January 15, 2013, 11:43:50 PM
So true baba...we need not shout or scream...we just need to be sincere and true to ourselves when we speak to you.
baba..everyday when i drive to work, as soon as i reach the office vicinity, i thank you. I thank you for giving me my dream job in my dream company....thank you.
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Post by: vidyarp on January 16, 2013, 09:13:31 PM
Baba...good morning....please let everything be alright...take care of people...please protect the needy and punish the guilty...let there be justice baba....please
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Post by: vidyarp on January 17, 2013, 09:33:08 PM
baba..please shower your mercy on all...u know everything.
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Post by: vidyarp on January 20, 2013, 10:27:33 PM
baba...good morning. All that i have is because of you and my mother. A was right - she must have pestered you to help me :) My capabilities are of no use here...and its only your grace that has brought me here. Thank you dear lord
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Post by: vidyarp on January 21, 2013, 10:40:31 PM
Baba...can i speak to my mother please? I miss her and want to talk to her. I want to know that she is ok.
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Post by: vidyarp on January 23, 2013, 11:51:57 PM
Dear lord....I hope my mother is fine. My father is with my relatives for the past one month. And he has really enjoyed it. I am happy for him. Please keep him happy always ....he has seen so many tough days...he was unable o fullfill his dreams...baba...please let me fullfill at least some part of his dreams....and baba...i have promised to take care of him...please enable me to do so....
thank you for everything dear lord.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 25, 2013, 03:20:24 AM
baba...why am i so angry with myself? Is it because i know that i am sabotaging myself? Is it because i know what i need to do yet am nt doing it!! It is indeed frustrating. Baba...i have surveyed the landscape...and i know how things are at the mo. And i also know i can do very well if i want to. Question is  - what is stopping me?? Is it me myself?? Why am i a slave to my past? Why do want to cling onto the old rituals that are the cause of my downfall in the first place. Its not worth it baba!!! Iknow it...and thats why i am upset...a little annoyed and disappointed with myself....i am my best friend and my worst enemy. I need to stop this absurd behaviour. Whom am i trying to con?? I am the one who is losing in the end....

So baba...i need to "GET OVER IT". please please please....let me get over it.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 03, 2013, 11:51:58 PM
Baba...good morning.
U r right - in good times, people seldom remember u...and in bad times, thy only call out ur name. And i am no different baba. I too am like this only. Now i am going through a decent phase in life and all seems ok. So my interaction with u has reduced!! And then i expect you to work with me!! I must be crazy...
Baba...this is no exchange offer. I would seriously try to do something everyday that makes it worthwhile. And i will try todo it to the best of my abilities.....

Please forgive me for neglecting you and my duties.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 04, 2013, 10:48:22 AM
baba...i am going to pieces today. I think i am getting upset...but why is this happening? God alone knows..u alone know...:(
baba...please....i'll do whatever it takes....its funny...here i go again...barter system...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 10, 2013, 09:53:57 PM
Baba...good morning. A is much better now...thank you. I am so relieved. Baba...please take care of him. I really want the best for him. Please resolve all the issues for him. he is a genuinely nice man. Baba...i pray for my son and husband as well....they mean the world to me.
Baba...please ..let me be true to you and myself....always.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 11, 2013, 04:53:26 AM
Its like i am hell bent on sabotaging myself...cant seeany reason for this...but here i am ...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 11, 2013, 11:52:19 PM
baba...please see that better sense prevails on me and i dont end up doing the same set of mistakes as always.....please let me not set myself up for failure.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 13, 2013, 09:58:04 PM
Baba...i feel stupid and idiotic...and its all my own doing. I have self inflicted this and maybe i deserve to be kicked for this. so enough of this nonsense from my side dear lord. I mean i dont have to go far to see who has been successful. I myself have been so good and so successful (all thank to u) and in so many ways. Then why should i set myself up for failure now? Especially when u have handed this opportunity of a lifetime to me. i better get back in the groove. I dont like it when someone says that i am not good or not worthy. I know that with your blessings and my sincere hard work, nothing is impossible. Its foolish to sit back and wait and waste my time. I have been blinded and my udgement has been impaired off late because of a plethora of distractons. And i am fully responsible for this baba. I and i alone have brought this on myself and i and i alone will work to overcome this. There is no way in the world i will let this go. I have had enough. I draw my inspiration from R when it comes to doing what u want to do. I draw my inspiration from myself when it comes to handling a project that was deeply in red. The general perception is that i talk big and do less. Jill of all trade master of some. No way. I am going to be the master of my trade and master of myself and all the things that i love.
Keep inspiring baba...and keep me going strong.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 18, 2013, 12:48:22 AM
Baba...please continue to be my guiding light and my inspiration.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 19, 2013, 09:25:28 PM
Om sai sharanam....sri sai sharanam.....what would i do without u by my side baba?
Thank you and be with me always.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 20, 2013, 11:19:07 PM
It feels like waking up from a slumber trying to shrug off that sleepy weary feeling and trying to get into the act of doing something worthwhile...
help me dear lord...show me the way and be with me always.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 21, 2013, 11:28:26 PM
Om sai namaha...
Baba u know all...i do want things to be much simpler and comfortable. U know what i mean. Please baba..help me to help myself.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 25, 2013, 10:02:23 PM
What i feel right now is that i cannot be happy with whatever i do. I may get momentary pleasure and happiness but thats not going to last long. I need to do something that i enjoy. And what do i enjoy? And how may i start doing something that i enjoy? And what happens dduring the transition?
Baba...honestly - career wise i feel i got all that i had aspired for. And i dont dream to become the VP or MD. I just want a decet bank balance so that i can take care of my family's needs. I am at a point where the more money i'll get the less time i will have to spend it. So its at a tipping point. i want family life now. I want to be with my son when he grows up...want to be at home when he comes back from school....want to take him to his practice sessions...play with him...take care of my house and family. But how? I cant see myself quitting my job. I need the money and so i am into this vicious cycle. I want to have time to play piano and learn music...want to have time to do the garden. But how? Looks like i have imposed several conditions on myself. And all this is my self doing. I have set the limits on myself. If i want, cant i change my life? What is stopping me? Fear. fear of the unknown..fear of failure...fear f the question what if i dont succeed..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 27, 2013, 03:21:56 AM
Baba...i am not going to giuve up and give in. Not now...not now....because if you have got me here, there must be a reason for it and i dont want to quit and let u down.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 27, 2013, 09:35:10 PM
Baba...somehow today i feel positive and energetic. Even though i slipped on my schedule and plan the first thing in the morning. I did not work out as planned and actually had to hurry to get everything done this morning. But i am not berating myself. I am not making negative comments about myself. I am actually thinking how i can improve throughout the day to make it count. I am also looking for alternatives and a plan B for salvaging the situation. In my earlier avatar, i would sit and rue over all the time i lost and how i cannot do anything to make up for it. But today, i am asking myself just one question - how can i be better and could i take a better decision than this. This will keep me on track and accountable to myself. I am not doing this for the millions of people who dont believe in me or my capabilities. They will always find fault and belittle me for all their lives. I am also not doing it for the few people who believe i have it in me. Because they have put their trust in me anyway. I am doing this for myself. because before others can believe in me - i need to believe in myself. I must be able to trust myself with making the best decisions for me. I am not going to beat myself up for all the stupid things i have done. Good or bad, those deeds are done; gone; into the past. No point in dwelling in them. I can only look at how to make today count for what i want to be tomorrow. And so for everything i do - i need to just focus on whether its a good decision to make it count or can i make a better decision. I have the control. I have the power.!! Thank you dear lord. I know there will be days when i slip and go back my old ways....that temptations will always lurk close by and catch me in a moment of weakness. But when i follow my mantra of making a better decision and making today count - on an average, i will stand to gain.
So be with me baba in this journey called life.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: saib on February 27, 2013, 10:01:57 PM
Life is just not a simple journey, it is an adventure-play or sports ! Do your Best and Enjoy what so ever happens because nothing is permanent – No Sorrows No Joys ! Only Name of Baba Sai is Eternal ! :)

Jai Sai Ram !
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 01, 2013, 02:33:28 AM
very correct my friend - saib. Good to hear from you after a long time. I thought nobody reads my posts :) But i am glad u do read it.

Baba...i have come to believe that u know what is best for me and u give me everything that i need (not everything that i want) and when i need. U have given me most of what i have craved for...and i am human...so the craving and desire for more is always there....but i know...if i am sincere and true to you and to myself....u listen to me and u do make things happen for good reasons.
So baba...there are 2 things that are pending for me for a very long time....u and i both know about it. With your grace - one would come true sometime soon this year. I cant thank you enough for this.
The second thing is what i dont know when it will happen...and if it will happen at all because we all have to pay for our karma...but yes baba...i know sooner or later it will happen ...i believe in you.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: saib on March 01, 2013, 03:06:20 AM
Dear Vidyarp,

Sometimes specially when I log in and find your thread in recent post section I read it. One more reason I am also passing through same phase and what I would like to say to Baba, Find same in your thread and said to Baba, This is from me too. Strangely I observed many people here are also going through same phase in their professional world.

This is also true, what so ever happens, there is reason behind every incidence in our life. I have noticed the same many times, Once I made someone to wait in my office for long hours without paying attentions to his state as I was busy in some other project. after some time I faced same situation, I had to wait in some other office for same reason for same duration. We are accountable of every act we do and have to repay for the same.

The Account of Karmic deeds (of current as well all previous births) can be settled only by two ways either by paying against our debts (in the form of sufferings and pain) or by complete surrender to holy feet of Lord. There is no other way !

May Baba Bless You and all here with his holy name ! :)


om sri sai ram !
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 03, 2013, 10:22:19 PM
Baba...good morning
You know what happened over the weekend. It was stupid really and totally uncalled for. I can say it was a very sad affair...and thankfully i am not involved in it. But baba...will she ever see sense? And will we ever be happy? I go back to my questions again. I want A to be happy and be with us. Its been 11 long years baba...i think saib is right. There are only 2 ways to get rid of karmic debt - either i repay or i surrender. baba...i have been repaying for 11 long years baba. I guess its time i surrendered. In my heart i always thought that i had surrendered to you. But i guess i am wrong. I need to introspect and get rid of all my ego. I cant think of myself as an independent entity who is disconnected from u. what am i without u? Nothing. In fact all that i am today is only because of u. U gave me good parents, a good life and everything. Then how can i say that i did everything.
Baba...please take care of everything. i know u r working in your own way to help me...and my mother is with u to take care of things :) together the two of u can plan how things should go now on.
Another point - baba...u know the restless ness....i need to get cracking on this one i think.

Take care baba and hope u have a great day too.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 04, 2013, 02:39:24 AM
I am having conflicting thoughts. And u need to help me here:

1. I think of things that i want to do...would love to do...even though i dont have the skill for it. I have to learn and start all over again. But i am scared to start - i feel i am trapped in my own fear of the unknown..fear of failure. Had i taken some wise steps a couple of years ago, i would probably be living my dream now. No point in ruing over it now...but the fact remains, i am still not doing anything abt it. Chances are that 5 years down the line, i would still be writing the same type of messages to you and still yearn for the different life!! ::)

2. I dont seem to appreciate what u have already given me. Most people would die to get an opportunity like me. I have everything going right and i have no sense of gratitude for this. Go and check the millions who are coveting your place. And i am here because u think i should be here. And i am questioning your decisions!! Blah ::)


Ok baba...got to go...thank you for listening to me.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 04, 2013, 07:47:57 AM
baba...cant go on like this. Imagine...she has no sense to talk like a human being. What does she gain by doing this? She is reducing her own respect. Somebody please put some sense in her Or..please take her away to some place else. I cant put up with this!! Baba....nahi ho pa raha hai. Its the limit. Why cant she behave??? Stupid woman. And to think she has suffered in life ..one would expect some sense from someone who has herself been at the recieving end. but no - here we cannot talk about anything sensible. Thank god i did not ask A to come and pick K. I am angry...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 04, 2013, 09:25:21 PM
Good morning dear baba....another day...and i have lots to do at work...but somehow mind is still in conflict. yesterday when i went to pick k and be with him, i felt so good. And u know what happened last night. I felt i was on top of the world when my little son made me smile. Baba...please bless him and all...whatever i do is for him....

Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 04, 2013, 11:38:49 PM
Baba...why do we look outside for heroes to worship and emulate? Why do we get inspired by others but do not bother to look inside ourselves for the hidden hero? We all have gone through life battling many odds and coming out victorious in many cases...yet we are blind to our inner strengths and pin our hopes on external stimulations. Strange na? When u are by my side, i am already a winner...i am already victorious...then why do i have to look at others for inspiration?
Beats me.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 05, 2013, 09:37:22 PM
Baba...today i am humbled and by my own son....i am sooo happy for that. It so happened that i had to drive him to the school bus stop and was getting rude and nasty at people who were driving the wrong way and in general ranting at the traffic. My son said- "Ma why are u getting angry? There is enough space for you to go, then why u have to be angry with them in the morning?" I cant say how much it pierced my heart. He was right. Why was i fuming? I had enough space to go without any problem...then why was i abusing? Thank you my dear child....for making me see things in a clear and simple manner. Another thing he said last night was that of late i am scolding him more than i talk to him. Its as if everytim we speak, i scold him or push him to do this or that. He actually made a song of it and started singing " Ma ko hamesha gussa ata hai...wo hamesha daant ti ha...kya hua mummy ko ...kyu pyaar nahi hai..." God! I was so stumped. In my effort to do things right, i have lost focus on doing the right things. I have forgotten to keep things simple. I need not yell and scream always...i can get things done even otherwise. And now he is growing...i have to respect his judgement and independence. I need to let him be. Thank you my child for opening my eyes. God bless u.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 06, 2013, 09:50:00 PM
Baba...why is this happening? Why cant i give my father all the happiness he deserves? Why this thorn in our lives? She is making it increasingly difficult with each passing day. I hate every minute of it. Please do something baba...there is nothing to look forward to. I want tobreak free from this cycle. I know she will never chaange. And i know what u did last time when i had some bad thoughts. So all i can say is that baba please let there be justice. Past lifeand all who has seen and who remembers...what matters is this life. Our good and bad deeds need to be balanced here. Baba...ifi hve done even one good thing in my life, please give us all peace and relief from her. Thats all i ask for.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 06, 2013, 09:56:22 PM
Baba...you answered all my questions and how! I am amazed. Thank you baba...for showing me hope. I will hold on .
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 07, 2013, 09:27:22 PM
Baba...u give us hope and u teach us humility...i bow to you and offer you my everything dear lord....please grant us a happy contented life.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 10, 2013, 09:55:12 PM
Good morning dear baba...
Some people ca never stop bad mouthing. Its so sad...i feel like clenching my fist and socking her nicely...but i cannot do it...my values, my moral, my upbringing will not allow it. In fact it does not even allow me retort rudely to her. My parents have always told me to respect elders and not to be rude to people. But she has no sense baba!!! Sometimes i cant take it at all....11.5 years and counting baba.....kab tak?? And i am afraid for my father...i want him to be completely alright. Please take care of him dear lord...and let me be of use to him...i could not do anything for my mother....and i will have that regret for the rest of my life. But i dont want my father to suffer the same fate. Please baba...let his leg become alright..i want him to go see the world...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 11, 2013, 01:49:31 AM
Baba..i noticed that to some people you give everything and then you take it all away in a single shot...like lance armstrong, oscar pistorious...and then there are others like me...who keep wanting things and u give us only what we need and when we need..never before time and never more than what is reqd....U work in mysterious ways baba.

Baba...yesterday i decided and told u that whatever may happen, i wil try to be civil and clear in my heart and speech. I am not going to stoop to a low level and shout back. And i will stick to the truth as far as possible. I will refrain from maliging people and speaking ill in general....Tall order ...i know....but i think with your blessings...its doable.
After all - ek din bik jayega maati ke mol..jag mein reh jayenge pyaare tere bol....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 12, 2013, 02:23:57 AM
Baba...mein bhi bahut ajeeb hoo...i am so much tied to things....maya...and as a result, i am not happy where i am. Baba..u know the mail i wrote...i wrote and read and sent...then recalled..and today again i read...i know inmy heart that its the right thing...but i dont know what fear is holding me back....i am afraid to send it/share it. i am afraid because i have my bindings...i have my dear father.....oh baba....what do i do? Please....show me the way.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 13, 2013, 04:07:04 AM
dear baba....u know what happened today. well...whatever! I hope she realizes that i am an ally..not an enemy. Pata nahi if she will see it that way.
I on my part - need to focus on getting things done. I have LOTS on my plate right now.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 14, 2013, 02:05:13 AM
We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, therefore, is not an art, its a habit!!

What a wonderful quote. It tells me to persevear and not give up my pursuit for all the temptations that throng my way. If i repeatedly go after temptations by giving up on my dreams, then maybe thats what i am. But if i want something and i focus on it completely, without yielding to all the side tracks that come my way - i'll reach my goals.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 14, 2013, 02:09:40 AM
All your life you are told the things you cannot do. All your life they will say you're not good enough or strong enough or talented enough; they will say you're the wrong height or the wrong weight or the wrong type to play this or be this or achieve this. THEY WILL TELL YOU NO, a thousand times no, until all the no's become meaningless. All your life they will tell you no, quite firmly and very quickly.
AND YOU WILL TELL THEM YES.

Go on - JUST DO IT
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 14, 2013, 10:05:21 PM
dear baba...dont know how things will shape up...r said something totally new....u know it. i had never thought of that possibility. But my question - will that setup help? will it ensure we dont have issues? will we be able to do it? So many questions......
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 15, 2013, 12:47:57 AM
Baba...change is the only constant in life. Just when u think life is stable, we get something new to rock the boat. Fine...this time around, i think we are a tad late...ths decision should have been taken some time back...but never mind...everything is for a reason...baba..if we move out (firstly - will we move out ever??) baba...i want a house of my own...i want a place where i can do things the way i want...i want peace...why cant she just move away....and we continue to stay...or if thats incorrect (maybe it is) then we should be able to get a house for us close enough. Pata nahi...evenif we move to a diff country...it will be an issue bcause i have a to think of too....
God...what a mess!!!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 15, 2013, 03:42:41 AM
Baba...you have told me time and again over the past couple of days - to pray to lord siva. For me you are the lord..and you are lord siva. But yes, if u have asked me to do it specifically,then i cannot refuse. So i wll pray everyday to lord siva.

So baba - i pray with the sankalpa - u know what. and i pray to you o lord....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 17, 2013, 09:12:04 PM
Good morning dear lord....sorry i started without talking to you...please accept my sincere apologies.....
Baba...we had a strange but nice weekend without her. I dont know if its a good thing or a bad thing....but soon we need a way out. This will not work. U please show us the way baba....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 18, 2013, 10:53:52 PM
baba...honestly....i do not seek separation. All i want is respect and love...acceptance by her. I dont want to be treated like a beggar or a condemned piece of furniture. If she only would treat me properly. Baba...we women are our biggest enemies. She is a mother..and yet she is so cruel to me...cant she see that if she treats me properly, her son will also be happy. After all - we are family! But its 11.5 years now baba...and rather late in the day for any improvements. Please give us all sadbuddhi dear lord and make us do the right thing.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 20, 2013, 02:19:20 AM
Baba...please help me to be my best friend...i am more of an enemy to myself right now :(
Baba..please show me the way and i hope that i dont let u down....i dont want to bury my head in sand out of shame...i want to hold my head high with satisfaction and gratitude...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 21, 2013, 12:03:34 AM
Baba...sab theek rakhna please....u know that there are sooo many things happening right now...at home and at work....please baba...let everything turn out fine. I hope to do a decent job at work...i want to feel good about what i do and hold my head high with satisfaction (that comes from knowing that u have done a good job and u have what it takes to be good) And i hope at home front - things are eased out a little. Too many frictions...i want happiness and peace. I cant take this roz roz ka drama...please ...let peace prevail...let there be justice and let there be harmony. I have promised something to my mother...i hope i can keep it forever.
As of now at personal front - am doing my best to sabotage myself  >:( Why...is anyone's guess!!! Grrrrr....i hate it!! I am done with all this blah!! Its time i started doing something!!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 22, 2013, 01:29:44 AM
Baba...i am travelling tomorrow...u know it all...hope i do a good job in this trip..with your blessigs i hope to do well....
baba...please take care of all...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 25, 2013, 09:53:37 PM
Dear baba..am here in SJ...things are fine....fingers crossed..hope things go fine.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 08, 2013, 10:23:27 PM
Dear baba...am back. In my opinion the trip was good. I learnt a lot...i am a little scared because now i am on my on...please dear lord...help me do the right things.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 09, 2013, 05:10:36 AM
Baba...just to say - that i am done with being torn into multiple pieces. I am so fed up of all the sadness and anxiety that i am giving it all up for living in the present. Am i rambling?? I dont want to live any longer with this continuous struggle between career and home...family and work...i think i dont need to discuss the details here. Every career woman goes through this...every working mother goes through this....and this is a never ending tussle...i figured that i might as well enjoy the trouble while it lasts. because u never know when u have to quit and stay at home. And u are here for a given reason...and u have workd hard to come here...people would give a leg and an arm to get here....then why should u let it all go for an easier life...and for a life that u think will be easy...u dont know what it would be like....its an unknown....
So forget all about this and get on with life as it is...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 10, 2013, 12:00:29 AM
Baba...good morning....today i got everything ready for my father...i feel good when i do something for him....and each and every day i think of my mother and my promise to her. And i have this vague recollection of talking to her in my dream yesterday. Wow. Ma...i miss u.
Ok - so on the work front - CD gave me a nice feedback...so safe to say that my trip to SJ was a success of sorts. I only hope i carry fwd the momentum. And like i said yesterday - i have tried everything - fighting, resisting, pleading, begging...everything to get out of this situation that i am in right now....nothing has worked...so i might as well enjoy and give it my best while i can....
Thanks to u baba...for putting these thoughts in my mind.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 10, 2013, 11:02:13 PM
Om namah shivaye....
Baba....thank u for this day....please take care of all.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 11, 2013, 06:08:35 AM
But i still havent found what i'm looking for.....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 12, 2013, 04:06:54 AM
baba....what do u do when u feel down and out...and when u feel frustrated and bored...

u define a goal for yourself....maybe a small one or a life changing one...but something to look fwd to....
So...as i sit here ...frustrated, angry, bored and sad...i think i should set some goals that i would like to accomplish...

1. Wellness - i need to be fit in my body and mind...and that comes only with pure love and dedication towards building a healthy body. I want to become a fit person and shed all those extra baggage - physical and emotional.

2. Financial independence - I value my financial independence and would like it to be this way till the very end. But i know with the kind of work pressure and environment i am in, this is not sustainable in the long run. I have to pursue my plan B so that when the time comes, i am secure in my knowledge that i can manage without this job. But till that time, i need to do a good job of what i do right now.

3. Pursue my passion - Music is my passion ...my therapy. I must invest my time in learning this.

Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 14, 2013, 11:22:51 PM
Baba...dil kitna chanchal hai....it is not focusing on anything....and despite all my talk about not being torn in multiple pieces...i am still at the same place...nohing has changed...i have not moved ahead....baba...where is peace? where can i be happy?? This is not getting me anywhere baba. I dont want to continue living like this. So what do i do???
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 15, 2013, 04:09:24 AM
Baba...i am going round and round in circles for about 5-6 years now. I am so fed up that i cant even mention....save me baba....this is getting all out of hand
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 15, 2013, 10:11:08 PM
Jill of all trades master of some.....i'll never forget this.
Baba....i am going to be Jill of all trades and master of many. Please bless me baba....i cannot do anything without u...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 16, 2013, 12:33:15 AM
Baba...darr kyu hai mann mein? jo darr gaya wo marr gaya...yeh baat bilkul theek hai. Darrne se koi kaam nahi hone wala hai. Ab kuchh karo ya maro...yehi naubat aa gayi hai. I am fed up with my inability to take action. I read a bautiful article yesterday - on why following your passion is a stupid thing to do if u just do it blindly. It says nobody is going to pay u millions to do what u love - laze around..reading books..surrounded by beauty...rubbish! U dont even know what ur passion is. Even if u know - r u good enough to make it work for you? Most of the times, u enjoy ur passion only when u get good at it. And getting good at it needs practice...constant and demanding practice. U do not excel overnight. U attain it through hard work and dedication. So if u quit ur job today and say that u want to start earning a lakh rupees everyday by investements, u r only fooling urself...u dont know the first thing about it. U need to learn and practice. Then u say that u love music...but do u know anything to get on by?? No. So again u need to learn and practice.
Thats the tough part. But then knowing me - i surround myself with even more complexities than required.So now when i know i have multiple things to do...cannt really focus on one thing..i get confused. cant prioritize. all are important.
so that should remind me of school days and how i excelled in studies then. I worked on multiple subjects and did very well in all of them. How? Through focussed attention to all of them individually. So its the same this time around too. Nothing has changed...just the subjects...and without the pressure of exams :) So there should be no problem in handling it.

Jill of all trades...master of some!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 16, 2013, 10:19:26 PM
Om sai baba...please help all the earthquake victims baba....they die for no fault of theirs.....Please take care of them...

Baba...yesterday i actually felt very god after the 1 hr i spent learning my passion - music. I felt so good. I want the same feeling to persist. But nothing comes for free...so i have to give it my best and earn that feeling.

I will...i promise.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 17, 2013, 10:10:42 PM
Good morning baba...i feel good when SP and browny come and eat and drink water at our place. I feel very good. Please bless them baba and take care of them. And i feel bad for Snowy....may his soul rest in peace.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 18, 2013, 10:07:52 PM
Happy Birthday dear baba!! Today is Ram navmi....i wish you all the happiness :)
Baba...i realize that i am neglecting the one thing that is sustaining me. i hope to get over this feeling of frustration and focus on things at hand. baba....i am starting a streak of sorts....pleas help me sustain it.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 21, 2013, 10:38:30 PM
Baba...good morning.
I dont know what's my POA. I am not getting anywhere close to where i want to be. And the sad part is i dont even know if thats what i want. Imagine staying with M 24*7!!! I will prefer death by hanging to that. But baba..isnt it sad? I am wasting the best days of my life. But i know i need the money. For my dear father and family. I dont want to be dependent on anyone ever. But i want my life as well....i think i am not grateful for what i have. All the effort and mehnat ...all the sweat,money and hard work my parents put in...i want to give it all up ...and for what?? Sitting at home watching tv...rubbbish i say.
I want to be gainfully busy and earn a decent living...and where ever i go i need to start from scratch...so why not do it from here...when u have the comfort of earning a regular income...look at supplementing it.Pata nahi...roz naye plan banati hoo ::)
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 22, 2013, 01:04:37 AM
Baba...thank you for opening my eyes....i was wasting my time. I now know that i should feel blessed to have the life i have and work towards maximizing it...rather than focus on what i dont have. And if i dont have it...its for a reason i guess....if its something that i can do...i should do it...and if its something i cant do...then i should just let it go...i am blessed to have the job i have ..many ppl would die for it...also for all the efforts that they have put in...i cant let go now...and why should i? nobody can decide on what i should do except u. Also..being here if i dont do my best...then what am i doing? I am just an also-ran..But i am not. I am not an also-ran!! I am someone...i must achieve something in life...i want to show it to all those who put their faith in me tht their faith is not misplaced...and to all those millions who doubted me....here ...take that!
So following my passion is good for weekends and nights.While i am at work..i am at work..period! And its not about asking what my passion is and then working towards it. Its about the kind of life i want. I want the good life...enough money to take care of my father and family...enough to be financially independent for the rest of my life...enough savings for retirement....a garden, a dog and enough food in my kitchen..petrol in my car...travel plans...the list is endless...i dont want the rich life as in the money wise rich expensive life....i want the good life...i may have a small car, a small house..but i should have all of the good food and good travel...friends and family....good books.....
yes thats the life i want...so if thats the life i want...i need to earn and save enough....so get back to work!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: saib on April 22, 2013, 08:34:44 AM
following my passion is good for weekends and nights.While i am at work..i am at work..period.

Dear Vidyarp,

This is a Million Dollar Statement. Life is what We Create. This is all about Discipline. Life and Time Management is nothing - it is only about priorities and choices we make. Past and Future both are not under our control, Only Present is in our hands ... the moment Called “NOW”, We can live in whatsoever way We want. And the Way We live it decides the level of peace in our life. The Future takes care itself when We take care of Present ! 

May Baba Sai Bless You and All of Us !


om sri sai ram !
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 22, 2013, 10:28:48 PM
Dear saib...it is always a pleasure to read your response. And yes...you are right as always - we just have the present and future will take care of itself if we take care of our present.

Thank you for your wise words.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 23, 2013, 10:18:55 PM
Mere maalik...hamesha apni kripa hum par banaye rakhna...

baba...yesterday was a good day work wise...but i still need to get my act together...nahi to i will be in deep trouble. Please baba...sadbuddhi dena sabko....
And baba...hope we all have a good day :)
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 28, 2013, 10:13:45 PM
Dear baba...am back at work today. U know how ill i was for the past 4 days. I feel better today...though not completely recovered. And with all the thinking and contemplating over these few days, i still havent found the perfect solution to my problem..maybe its meant to be this way...But what irks me is when i waste my time doing this thinking...its not an investment i am doing in my life...its just an experience on what not to do in life :( And history says that when ever i have been confused over my options, i have failed miserably. And when ever i have been focused on what i do, i have excelled. So common sense says that i need to focus on what i do. Question is - is this what i want to do? Well...if not this, then what? i dont have an answer for this. I know what i dont want to do...but i dont know what i want to do. And there is no way on earth i am going to depend on anyone for money. So...i need to keep my life simple...no point in complicating it.

Help me dear lord...to deal with myself...more than anyone else...i seem to be setting up roadblocks for myself!!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 29, 2013, 10:26:28 PM
Dear Baba...good morning. U know how upset i was last evening. I do not like any form of injustice. Galat galat hota hai...choti galti ho chahe badi galti...anyaye sehna aur anyaye karna...dono hi galat hai. Lekin baba...In today's world - where is justice? Be it the mundane daily harsh words that m uses for me...the total lack of respect for me as a family member...or be it bigger issues like justice for Nirbhaya or the little girl who was savaged by those horrible men...where is justice...where is the balance? The law will take next 20 years to hand over a penalty and by then they would have lived their life anyway....I know one thing for sure baba....in my lifetime...there was only once that i wished bad for someone else...and u punished me in the most brutal fashion...and i lost my anchor in life...So i do know that u deliver justice speedily when u wish to. But why do u not use the same speed with others?? U tell me - give up quarrel...i follow ur advice...and then what happens - i am thrown into the fire by m and i dont even try to defend myself!! Unfair baba!!! i am sure u have your reasons...and u work in mysterious ways...but frankly - i dont know where it will lead. All i want is respect and justice.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 30, 2013, 12:42:38 AM
Baba...everywhere i see cut throat competition, no time for friends family..hundreds of ailments and thousands of rupees in the bank ....millions of injustice day in and day out and a handful of kind words/deeds...where are we headed dear lord? This cannot be the world u created. How can u let all this happen?
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 01, 2013, 10:15:00 PM
Good morning baba....i dont know why but every where i look, i see anger, frustration and unhappiness. I see greed, lust and ego. What kind of world are we living in? It makes me shudder to think what will happen to my child when he grows up. What sort of a world will he be living in? Is he prepared enough to take on such a world?
I motivate myself daily a million times to do the things i should do...but the fact remains that everyday i yearn for the change.
So i must do what i must do......any decision is better than no decision...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 02, 2013, 05:33:05 AM
Baba gud morning. Its raining today and as usual, the roads were clogged and there was a huge traffic jam all over the city. needless to say, i am late to office today.

Ok - retrospection done: I first need to be honest and sincere to myself. I am not able to keep any commitments even with myself. Forget about interacting with others...i first need to be sure of myself. I realize that i am not interested in what i do and thats the reason for my procrastination. That makes me dis organized and lethargic. what interests me - reading and learning new things. I was bored even in H. So what to talk of I. I dont take pride in what i do and i dont feel compelled to excel since i dont see a reward or positive outcome. But come on - losing weight will surely have an outcome that is so desirable. Then what's stopping me???
I feel i make too big a plan and i collapse under the weight of expectations. Maybe i should try setting simple targets on a day to day basis and see if i can meet them. Then once this is settled, i could go in for a streak kind of thing to bring in consistency.

what say dear friend??

This was written 3 years ago by me....HAHAHAHA...what a joke...i am STILL in the same rut...a differentjob...but same mindset!!
So baba...no one can hlp me if i have chosen to lower my standards and not have a personal branding....if i dont take pride in what i do...who is to blame for it?? Now i know- its not burn out....its LAZINESS
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 06, 2013, 01:37:41 AM
Dear baba...this weekend felt like it went on forever. Not that i am complaining. So many things happened. But baba...i am stuck with one fear - that i lack discipline and now everyone has noticed it. And they all think that i cannot achieve anything because i have no self discipline....i know its true...how do i overcome it?







Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: kamp_kamp on May 06, 2013, 02:53:47 PM
ALWAYS AT END OF THE DAY MY ALL ENTHUSIAM GOES AWAY . WILL I EVER BE ABLE TO SO SOMETHING WORTHWHILE.

AUM SHREE SAI RAMA
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 06, 2013, 10:34:38 PM
I too feel the same way...
I start my day with full energy, make good plans, then somewhere during the day, i slacken my pace...all my plans go out of the window and i dont get anything done. And by the end of the day - i feel i have done nothing and all my enthusiasm is replaced with anger and frsutration..

I have started reading "The Fakir" as suggested by saib. i got it yesterday only. Will let you know how i absorb it....but keep your faith intact and baba will help us through.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: saib on May 07, 2013, 11:56:21 AM
Dear Vidyarp/Kamp2,

The Fakir – Was on spiritual side. There comes time when all aspects of our lives personal, professional and spiritual appear one. For being enthusiastic and to enhance productivity. There are some tips, I use to practice in my professional life.

1.   Use of Time Boxing*. (Allot some time for a particular task – and try to finish it within that time span using power of concentration and focus and putting all energy in that task).
2.   Time Matrix of Stephan Covey* (Avoid Q4 and focus on Q2 i.e. finish important things before it becomes urgent - It will give comfort, As I know and observed from depositing a telephone bill to credit card bill or filling income tax return, We are last minute people, keep waiting till last minute and then rush .......).
3.   Maintain to do list – and adhere on the deadlines. Take it seriously.
4.   Avoid Time Wasters. (This is not about appearing indifferent to others, but be ruthless with own priorities and schedules)

*Can find more info on google.

Also to remain always enthusiastic, know for that you have to keep interest always alive and to love what you do. People lost enthusiasm, when could not succeed again and again or feel work is too simple.  Some people love challenges and some love to live in their small comfort zone. Enthusiasm is only a state of attitude towards life and work. Also over-work too kills enthusiasm, So, No matter how busy you are, Keep some time for your family, yourself and God. Just not live the life but enjoy the life, thank God for that He sent  you on this one of most beautiful planets of universe.

Me or anyone can only suggest, but to do – only in your hands. Remember God too love to help those who help themselves !

May Baba Sai Bless You and all of Us !


om sri sai ram !
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 07, 2013, 10:41:27 PM
Dear saib...i realy like your wise words. In fact i look forward to reading your comments and suggestions. Baba is helping me through you :)

i think discipline is the key. We all make great plans but selom do we stick to it till the very end. We give up when the going gets tough. At least thats my case. So i am really looking forward to incorporating more discipline in my life.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: saib on May 08, 2013, 10:21:09 AM
Thanks Vidyarp for your appreciation, This is all blessings of Baba only, but if you really want to read truly wise word, read old posts in the forum. I too learned lots of things in the forum from many pure and learned souls. Many of them do not post now a days, May be busy with some other things ! One thing that I realized in the forum, Knowledge is everywhere – Everyone knows truth but accepting the truth and changing self is real challenge ! That is power of Maya and our Karmic Bondage with all creatures and living and non-living world ! Only Patience and Faith with mediating on Baba’s Name can set us free from all bondage !
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 08, 2013, 10:31:05 PM
Yes you are right saib. But i some how cant let go of the sadness in my heart. I feel so low, sad and depressed at the total lack of love in this world.

Oh God! What is happening to me?WHy can i not be happy - at home and at work? Why am i going to pieces? Please guide me baba...please give me the strength, wisdom and courage to go through all of this.

Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: saib on May 09, 2013, 07:59:35 AM
Right or Wrong ..... Happiness or Sadness ! All is illusion ! One feel happy killing (hunting) birds or animals, other feel Sad seeing this cruelty. Some feel happiness in revenge – some in forgiveness ! There is no standard list of happiness, just depend on the condition and nature of your brain cells. So, Do not seek happiness ... it is all temporary, because at the end it will make more sad and depressed, instead ask God to grant you Peace, Eternal Peace ! A state where spirit will always be awaken and attached to his name – No Sorrow no Joy – Only Peace – A Supreme State of Parmananda !

Guru Nanak Dev Ji  Said:

Nanak Dukhiya Sab Sansaar

So Everyone is in pain or state of sadness, Visible or invisible ...... but why, because of our human nature, We expect ..... appreciation, love, regards, respect, loyalty from others apart from materialistic things to live a life of comfort. But at the end we get only disappointments ................. ! Still, We Expect because We find it is very hard to get detached from this materialistic world, from our desires, Our EGO stops us from doing this.

But, this was not complete sentence, Further Guru Ji said :

So Sukhiya jin naam adhara

Means who take shelter in the name of Lord live in peace, who makes a complete surrender to lord and accept thy wish without any complaint or condition. Enjoy his presence and sweetness of his holy name at every moment.

The Day you Set your mind free from all expectations and desires ...... there won’t be any sadness ..... frustration .... or depression in life. You will fly like a bird in the sky. You won’t be questioning about others behaviour and karmas, but your concern will be only your life and Goal will be only one .... How to please that one ... who is our supreme Goal .... our beloved Lord ! You will realize till now the issues you were believing great ones are just very small and minor things.  :)


om sri sai ram !
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 09, 2013, 10:05:52 PM
I guess you are right saib. I am looking for happiness where as i should look for peace...and when i am in peace with myself, everything will be fine...i will learn to accept things as they are.

Thank you and as usual, you have helped me to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Baba is great...he is giving me all these advice through you....

Om sai sharanam...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 12, 2013, 10:40:34 PM
baba...koti koti pranam....u have been so kind to me....baba...nothing matters to me more than my father's happiness...and he is happy...god..u have enabled me to realize a dream for him..and i cannot thank you enough for this....thank you so muh dear lord...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 14, 2013, 02:20:27 AM
Baba...pranam...
You know the strange thing thats happening. So m is not well and all these years i have hated her for being so mean to me. All these years i yearned to separate from her and live my own life...and all these years i have nursed a wounded and aggrieved heart fully knowing tht she will never ever think of me nicely. But guess what...when she fell ill on friday..i was there with her..i am still there with her..i want to take care of her and want to help her...i want her to get better....what is this baba? And i actually feel good about doing her seva. Imagine!! Is this karuna? Is this a way of healing the bitter wounds? whatever it is baba...i am liking it...i am in a state of trance...on one hand with your blessings and help..a has gone on that wonderful journey...i cant thank you enough for it...and on the other hand i am taking care of m....so all in all...the mind is in a state of peace....
But u know me baba - i am also trying the wh thing..but that will not happen i guess...At least not till i am here at A. And A was my dream job...my dream company...What an irony, ha! Anyway...all in good time...baba u have planned something for me and i too am chalking out my life....hope all goes well.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 15, 2013, 06:21:42 AM
Baba when ever i am stressed over home vs work, i think about a. I think about how happy he is right now and i think about how he and you together have enabled me to collaborate with you to give him this happiness. And then i know that its all worth it. The effort, the heartburns, the depression...its all worth it. So long as a is happy...nothing else matters.
Baba...please shower ur blessings on us always and help us to be your child.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 19, 2013, 10:26:18 PM
Dear baba..good morning. You know all that happened over the weekend. I did my best to help her and i think she appreciated my help and support. I am not doing it for appreciation ...though i will nto deny that i feel good when she acknowledges it...i do it for what i think is right. I have not been able to do this for my mother and that is a regret i will carry for the rest of my life.

Baba...a is happy and that means the world to me....please take care of him
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 24, 2013, 04:36:07 AM
Om sai ram dear baba....
A is happy...and so i am happy...work goes on as usual...but its not that bad ...i think its all a state of mind...since i am engrossed in my work...i do not feel low...and theek hai...i may not like the culture of this place...but i am busy..i am getting paid ...and most importantly...i can take care of my family....i think its all worth it.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 26, 2013, 10:49:35 PM
Baba...yesterday was my mother's 4th death anniversary. 4 years since she passed away!! 4 long years....we've been through so many lows and a few highs in these last 4 years....but like you said ...."this too shall pass". life will go on...nothing will stop...but baba....i feel sad.
A is happy and i am so happy for him. This is an experience of a lifetime and he will always cherish it. And baba...that was a dream that i had seen for him and you have helped me to accomplish it. Thank you a million times baba. Now i can go on to focus on myself...baba...i want to break free...and i want the freedom to choose how i run my life. Right now i am so tied down to the mundane things. And u know what i mean...baba give me some sunshine..give me some rain...give me another chance i want to grow up once again....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 27, 2013, 10:46:14 PM
A is back home baba....i am soooo thankful to you for what you have done. Thank you a million times...you have enabled me to fullfill my dream for a. Nothing else matters to me now.
baba...please shower your blessings on us....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 28, 2013, 11:05:43 PM
Om sai ram baba.....whn ever i feed the dogs - ap, sp, sd, bd - i feel soo good. I look forward to feeding them and the love i get from them. They are stray dogs baba...no permanent home - but they know me and the genuine love they have for me, makes me feel so good.
Ok now baba...what do i do? the thing is - i am not able to make up my mind and hence the confusion....it is very right that if you wish for something and wish for it really truly and deeply...the whole universe will work to get that for you....it has happned to me more than 4 times...u know all the instances....the only thing that didnt happen is with m and if it hasnt happned then u must have a reason for it. so i'll leave it at that. Baba..but for now...when i think of my next steps...what should i do? if i dont know what i want , how can i wish for it?? Any help?
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 29, 2013, 10:45:45 PM
Alas...the confusion prevails....help dear lord....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 30, 2013, 10:35:10 PM
baba...i am kind of fed up with myself...i mean...how can i tolerate myself for doing this?? I cant take a decision???I want everything to be clear and precise before i embark on the journey....ha! That will never happen...i mean i know it all...yet i want to be my biggest enemy..my biggest obstacle!!
SO i am stopping this nonsense now. I am going on a holiday for 1 week. I will decide and make up my mind on what i want to do. Any decision is better than no decision. So i am not going to go round and round in cirlces anymore. I am so done with that!!
Help me dear lord..give me the strength, wisdom and courage to move ahead.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: anshul.udapure on June 04, 2013, 06:53:02 AM
sai baba meri raksha kar.muze decision lene me madad karo sai. muze sahi rah dikhao. muze tumhari jarurat fir se pad gai he. apni astitav dikhao sai .. apna astitav dikhao..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 10, 2013, 01:16:44 AM
Dear baba....i had a good trip. The vacation was very wonderful. I enjoyed this trip very much. I am happy for us. baba....as for my decisions are concerned...i know i am still to decide on what i need to be in life.....but one thing is for sure....u help those who help themselves....so...i am going to be my best friend....i will not be a roadblock for myself...

for now...i am thinking i should invest my time in SSBB....at least thats a start...what do u say baba?
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 12, 2013, 01:54:14 AM
Aage bhi....jaane na tu....peeche bhi....jaane na tu.....jo bhi hai....bas yehi ek pal hai.....

What a wonderful song baba...Its so true...the past is gone, future is yet to happen...so worrying about them is not going to help...what we have is now, the present..so we need to seize the day and make the best of it.

Good morning baba..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 12, 2013, 10:12:04 PM
Baba...i love music soooo much...it heals me...makes me feel good....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 13, 2013, 03:40:22 AM
Baba...i am starting (yet again)...and this time i want to seek your blessings before embarking on this journey....please help me and be with me baba..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 13, 2013, 11:07:47 PM
Baba...please bless us all and help us to be your child always...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 16, 2013, 10:48:22 PM
Good morning baba....my father is back from his trip. He looks happy and has enjoyed every bit of the vacation. Thank you so much baba....for fullfilling my dream. I want my father to be happy. And nothing else matters i guess. I know that i have lost some great opportunities in my life because of my own lack of belief and action. And i regret not taking them up when  could. But now i am not going to sit and brood over it. U have been so kind to me...have helped me in so many ways baba...and now its time for me to work on the path you have set for me....and if i cant do it now, i can nvere forgive myself....

So baba...give me the strength, wisdom and courage to face the world and do my thing.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 17, 2013, 11:50:47 PM
Baba...i must keep myself positive. I will not let negativity cloud my mind...i will do what ever is required to get the job done and will not let my anger, sadness or frustration prevent me from achieving what i planned. I will not be an obstacle in my own life
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: nitin_super on June 18, 2013, 10:22:23 AM
Om Sai Ram
Jab girate hue maine tera naam liya hai..
Sai ne badhkar wohi mujhe thaam liya hai...

Baba,
kio der bhai is baar, Kripa karo he dino ke Nath..
Bhar de meri jholi khali, dar pe tere khada bhikhari..
Jai Sai Ram
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 19, 2013, 05:59:19 AM
Baba...i had made a promise to my mother before she died. You know it. And i must fight to keep that alive...i must keep that promise till the very end of my life....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 19, 2013, 10:54:55 PM
Baba....its sad that so many lives are lost and so many families destroyed due to the recent floods. And its not nature's fury. No. Its our own doing. People are so callous in their attitude towards giving back to the society. They continue to cut down trees, build huge factories, kill animals, destroy the fragile eco systems....and then cry foul when floods and other things happen. This was bound to happen. What can poor mother nature do? why blame her? We ignore all signs, continue to believe we are fine so long as we are making big bucks....without caring two hoots for what happens to the world because of our actions. Is this the legacy we want to leave behind for our children? A world with no compassion, no care for the society, a heartless ruthless world where people are just concerned with making money at whatever cost. Quality is completely ignored. No one bothers about quality. And thats why life is so cheap in india. Do u think something like this could happen in US or Japan? We always compromise on quality and we will never learn from mistakes. I am so angry with all of this....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 20, 2013, 01:18:16 AM
baba...looks like its my day of ranting....i am unhappy and angry because i am fighting my value system...i am fighting the values that i grew up with...i am trying to adjust accomodate something that i dont agree to in principle. All i life, i was told to be honest, truthful, stand for what is right, give quality to whatever i do, and excel in my chosen field...and now i am told to ignore things that are wrong...because i am not directly affected...i should not try to change the system because that is treated as rocking the boat or stirring a hornet's nest. I should keep mum and look the other way around when ever i see something going wrong....because thats what pleases the folks in senior positions. And to top it all...this was my dream job...i had always wanted to be here ....what a let down baba!! I get no professional statisfaction....And u know at personal front, i am dealing with a lot of things...sometime i wondered that maybe i am being lazy and lethargic and thats why i sont put in my best at work...but now i know...i dont do it because i dont see a benefit in doing it...i have to fight the system...and since i am not inclined to pick any battles at this time, i am lying low. Oh but what a misery! I dont even want my boss's job ...which means i dont aspire for growth here. Could it get any worse?? Baba...and the worst part is that i am not yet over the guilt trip that every working mother goes through...and this happened on top of it....i feel so angry....

What is the point when u ask your child to study well...get a good education...work hard...earn a great degree....and then u find yourself in a situation like this. Most unfortunate! All that effort, sweat and tears...is all that a waste? Baba..i have slogged....u know it...my parents gave their everything and more to see me successful. And with your blessings i am successful. But is that all that matters? Am i happy? I know everything comes at a price. And we chose our destiny by the choices we make. I dont know what i want to choose next? I am scared to explore...and terribly unhappy with my current choice...I look for advice...i look for any signs...but i know...the answer lies within me....just that i havent found what i am looking for. I feel scared of the change and i dont feel like giving up all this because of the investment of effort and sweat i and my parents have put. So disappointed....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 20, 2013, 01:55:34 AM
Ok baba...i am sorry for my rants. I know that if i am in this situation, its because u have deemed it fit for me to undergo. So i should accept it as your will and then look at ways and means to turn this into an opportunity for me. Thats how i change my destiny and thats what u expect of me. I apologize for the anger i vented....if i feel so bad about being here...i should just quit. the fact that i am not doing it suggests that i dont have the fire in my belly to fight or flight. In all cases, i need to respect the system i am in at least till the time i am in. And i need to get the system to work for me. It means i need to stay within the system and ensure that i get the maximum out of it. Baba...i am not talking about personal gains or benefits here. I mean i need to work the system in such a way that it supports my value system and work ethics. I need to make it process and quality focussed and that should help not just me, but the entire org. And in the process i will also learn a lot of things. And this will keep me occupied. baba...i cannot keep changing jobs...where ever i go, i may face the same situation....i feel worse here because i came in with high expectations.....now i need to revise my expectations and treat this at a different level....

Thank you baba
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 21, 2013, 01:29:24 AM
baba...thank you for everything. Mujhe complain karne ki aadat ho gayi hai. I can find fault and crib at the best of opportunities. Stupid me!!  ::)
And god also help those who help themselves....so i am going to help myself and not be a pest..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 23, 2013, 10:11:56 PM
Om sai ram....baba....thank you for this day....please give me the strength, wisdom and courage to do the right things.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 25, 2013, 01:43:21 AM
Om sai deva....sab theek rakhna baba...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 26, 2013, 05:56:48 AM
baba...u help those who help themselves....so baba...please bless me with the strength, wisdom and courage to do what is correct.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 26, 2013, 10:55:24 PM
Om sai ram baba.....kya value hai life ki....kyu log itni planning karte hain...when they dont know what will happen the very next minute....and why is there so much of apathy, hatred, cruelty in the world baba? Is there no sense of justice at all? I feel sad...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 28, 2013, 12:05:24 AM
Baba...please help me to help myself.....i know you have given me the strength, wisdom and courage to do the right things...so help me dear lord by staying with me always...Let me always have faith on you and me.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 04, 2013, 04:05:28 AM
My dear lord....i have been keeping myself busy the past few days. Engrossed in work....and i must say it feels good when u achieve what u planned to achieve....at least it shows that all is not lost...

If only i could learn to love myself as well...right now i seem to be treating myself with total disdain.....Not good for me.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 08, 2013, 01:50:38 AM
Baba...god helps those who help themselves....please be with me in this journey baba.....without u i am nothing.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 10, 2013, 10:30:25 PM
Baba....we always remember you when we are in need....when things are fine....we dont really think of you....so selfish we are!! Its human nature i guess....but i cant blame it on that and get away with it. I am wrong and i need to own it up.
Baba...i am sorry.

I will do as u say and give it my best.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 11, 2013, 10:59:06 PM
baba...14 years since i started working. Seems like a lifetime to me....and yet feels like yesterday...
All thanks to you baba....u ensured that i didnt give up ....all your blessings dear lord....thats the reason why i am able to do things for my family.....
Love you baba.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: Rajni Sharma on July 12, 2013, 02:00:10 AM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: hari0502 on July 12, 2013, 05:04:46 AM
                                         NARAYANA NARAYANA OM SAI NARAYANA NARAYANA OM SAI
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 22, 2013, 01:55:59 AM
baba...om sai ram....
all is yours baba....all....
Just be with me .....and let everything be alright.....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 29, 2013, 02:04:25 AM
Baba...sory for being so mean and selfish...i wish i could be better...
bechara mera beta...i hope he doesnt have to pay for my sins...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 29, 2013, 10:58:25 PM
Baba...good morning. I seem to do fine as the week progresses...but its the day after weekend is over i.e. monday...i feel terrible. I feel that i need to just stop all of this and sit back...
why do i got through these motions again and again? cant i fight it once and for all?
When will i be at peace with myself?
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 31, 2013, 01:29:34 AM
Om sai deva....sab theek rakhna.....and please help me to stay positive...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 31, 2013, 10:34:33 PM
Baba...whenever i have been seriously asking for something, yearning for it deep down, it has happened to me. And all of it is your doing....For my father, i want nothing but the best...he is a good man.....baba..i know now why i am not getting what i want now. I am not yearning for it enough. I want it but i am not 100% sure that i really want it. I could get along even if i dont get it...and thats why it is not happening. I am not wanting it enough to make a difference...i need to change my mind first before i can change my fate.....
Please baba...bless me to see the right path and do the right things.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 01, 2013, 11:00:50 PM
Kisi ki muskuraahaton pe ho nisaar...
kisi ka dard mil sake to le udhaar....
Kisi ke waaste ho tere dil mein pyaar....
jeena isi ka naam hai......

What a wonderful and meaningful song baba....

Thank you fo everything. I know i get short term benefits and happiness and i abandon my attempts at doing something new.....but i must not give up...never...

Please be with me always baba..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 04, 2013, 10:49:24 PM
Baba...humko mann ki shakti dena...mann vijay kare....doosro ki jay se pehle...khud ko jay karen......

Baba....please help. Why am i always in such doldrums?? Itni tension to maine tab nahi ki jab zaroorat thi...when my son was small...but now..everyday i am waging a battle with myself...am i blind to reality or am i so jaded with reality? Whatever it may be...i am not doing myself any good this way....
so if this is not the way, then please show me the way...or if this is the way...how i do understand that i need to go through this??

help me...please
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 05, 2013, 10:51:01 PM
Baba...good morning. what does my internal compass say? I am confused...and i am my biggest enemy....i keep setting up roadblocks for myself....cant i see it??Am i blind?? do i not love myself??? why do i do it? I know whats good for me...i am thankful to be where i am...there are a million folks who would die to trade places with me...and still i continue to brood...i dont know why? i have convinced myself that i dont like what i do...i have trained my brain to be a quitter...and i want to just sit back and do nothing...as if the money will come to me automatically by some strange means...
I am being blind....and stupid....i am wasting my today thinking bout what i want to do tomorrow.....

Baba...please help me see sense...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 07, 2013, 02:49:45 AM
Baba...please take care of all...i miss my mother....i really do. Somehow today...after all these years, i cried....because i miss her......She was a very strong person...and a true leader in her own ways....i regret that i could not do anything to save her when she was down and out....i will carry that regret for the rest of my life.....
Baba...please....can i speak to her once.....i just want to know if she is doing ok......i love her and i know she loves me...but just for once.....can i talk to her....can i just touch her......feel her....please....
Take good care of her baba....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 13, 2013, 12:43:08 AM
Baba...ma se badkar koi hota hai kya iss duniya mein? Maybe i should say father and mother....at least for me...in dono se upar koi nahi...
Baba...what next should i do? please guide me.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 27, 2013, 03:51:55 AM
baba...bahut ajeeb sa ho gaya hai ghar mein....between m and a. You know it all....and baba u know that a is a gem of a person....and m has made me cry a million times....maybe its my previous birth's karma....and i am repaying it now....but baba...please...for a i want nothing but the best. he deserves it. And my dear son....please take care of him as well and R.

baba...if i keep brooding and doing nothing, its not getting me anywhere...so i will do justice to what ihave...i will do the best i can with what i have and where i am. And i'll leave the rest on you.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 28, 2013, 10:30:04 PM
Good morning baba...am not very happy with where i am...i know...i keep saying this...and i also know u have given me what i wanted...I am forever grateful to you...
But you know it all....its not just important to be good..its important how others percieve...and frankly i am tired of this. Its not a level playing field anymore. Baba...sometimes i feel i am running away from problems...and other times i feel i am not doing justice to all the effort and hard work i and my parents did to see me where i am....but the fact remains...i am stuck in something that does not give me any happiness....
I read a good quote yesterday on financial independence - it said its not about having wealth...its about having the power to generate wealth. So if i look at it the other way, all the effort and hardwork has gone to make me financially independent...but that does not mean i have only one means to be financially independent. I need to find other avenues to get the same comfort....and not worry too much about what happens in office....because in any case...i am competing with myself.
Am i rambling?
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 04, 2013, 11:50:20 PM
baba...i have just now made a promise to you and myself....please baba....help me keep them.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 22, 2013, 10:52:04 PM
Baba...thank you is the first thing i should say to you...thank you...for helpin with my blood reports. I am back to normal...though i am still on  medication..i hope to stop that and just use my will power  to keep myself at this level. I have been through pain and it does hurt now and then...but i think its all worth it at the end.
Coming to life baba...i seriously dont know what i am doing...i know i have been cribbing about this for like a million times now....i seriously dont see where i am going. I maybe making decent money ..and i do have the honour of working for a big banner....but am i happy doing what i am doing? Is this what i want to do for the rest of my life or say next 10-15 years!! No...the thought scares me.
So if i dont do this...and i dont know what i want to do...what should i do?? Please help.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: saib on September 23, 2013, 02:52:21 AM
Dear Vidya,

There is Pain of body and mind, But dangerous is the pain of soul caused by separation from the beloved God. With time and grace of Baba all pains get healed.

What is to happen, will happen, nothing gets changed, even if we keep on thinking about that. That's why said, accept your life, good or bad wholeheartedly and keep your Karmas pure and divine not only for a good and divine future but also to hold peace of mind and soul.

What I feel sometimes, whatsoever We do ~ Career, family or other activities in life are child play ~ Just come to this playground ~ Play our game and then return to our real home ~ then why we get attached to this game of life and feel pain while returning to our real home ~ and behave as a lost child in the world of Maya ! We treat ourselves as a play and forget we are player and not the play. Unknowingly We place control of our mind and life to others who occupy our mind and heart with their thoughts. For mind both are same ~ Love or Hate because in both cases it keep itself occupied. That's why detachment is important in life. (Love and meet all responsibilities but attached with none)

With best wishes for good health, career and life ! :)


om sri sai ram !
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 26, 2013, 01:09:05 AM
Wise words dear saib.
But tough to practice...at least i am still not in a state where i can achieve this. It requires a great deal of inner strength and will power....which i may not have. But yes...u r right....this is what we should aim for,

I am seriously not sure what i want to do in life...i thought i had it all mapped. I worked hard in school, college, at workplace...so that i can make good money and be happy. but now i realize,i make money but i am not happy. So if this is not making  me happy or contented, what should i do to be happy? I dont know the next step..and that scares me.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: saib on September 26, 2013, 10:53:48 AM
Dear Vidya,

Tough but not impossible !

In short - Don't do anything to prove anything or show anyone - but to enjoy your work and life !

People want someone who would love them, a good job/business, obedient kids, Reputation and Name, and all comforts of life .... every fulfilled desire creates another desire and this becomes an endless list .... !

Do not depend on external objects or circumstances for happiness and peace ! Be Happy unconditionally !

Do not seek happiness or peace ~ Simply live it ! :)

May Baba Sai Bless You and All of Us !


om sri sai ram !
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 30, 2013, 10:46:41 PM
Baba....good morning. U know it all. I am sad...and angry...mostly at myself...but on R as well. He said things that hurt me. I know he wants me to become better...i know he is concerned for me....but i wish he would let me be. But ok - i cannto control what others say. so lets leave it at that. What angers me is that i know all that he said was correct...but doesnt he understand how much of a struggle it is for me!! I dont knw baba....why i have become like this...and the worst is - even if i know it, i am not doing anything about it. I am trying...but maybe not that sincerely....but baba....i felt really bad and hurt...
so what can i do differently...i am so paralysed with inaction that i cant seem to do anything....its as if everything is slipping away from me....and i cant seem to control it
baba..my value or my worth is measured by how i look or by what job i have?? Is that it?? It doesnt matter what kind of a person i am?? It is reflecting in every sphere of life. He is a good man and i know he is more supportive than many others...but this is beyond me. I dont get it at all.
Today - i feel hurt, angry, frustrated and deeply sad....and since i continue to blame myself for this, i am losing my self confidence even more.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 02, 2013, 11:09:55 PM
Good morning baba...as i was driving today morning to work...my mind wandered to a very remote incident from some decades back. It was a tiny thing...i saw something scrawled on an auto and then it triggered a chain of thoughts. The writing was horrible and it reminded me of when i was in Class 2. I could see it clearly in my mind - i got my notebook back from the teacher and she had written - "Untidy work. Write neatly."At that time - it felt like a huge insult and i decided then and there that i would hav the best handwriting in the class. I dont know how and why - but as a 6 year old..i had made up my mind and i was determined. I dont know what exactly i did to improve myself...maybe i made a conscious effort to write neatly. But then when i was in Class 3 a few months later, i had the best handwriting in the class. How did i achieve it?? I dont remember at all.But what it tells me is that as a child, i felt that i really need to make a change and i did it. Not only that - i set my next target as securing the first position in class. Again, i dont remember how i achieved it or what extra i did. I do remember that i was sincere to my studies and did my work properly and neatly. And yes - i stood first in class 3 and ever since. Baba...if a child of 6 years can be so determined...what can be so wrong with me...why am i running away from problems? Its an opportunity to excel. I should take it up and work towards it. After all...i can pray and pray and pray....but if i am not going to do anything to help myself, how can i expect you to do everything for me? God helps those who help themselves....
If i could do it then, i can do it now.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 15, 2013, 01:22:19 AM
Baba...thank you for saving my life. And thank you for giving me such a wonderful family. I've had my moments with them....but when it mattered the most, they were with me. I am alive because of them and your grace baba. Thank you...a million times ...thank you.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 16, 2013, 11:35:15 AM
Baba...good evening....let everything be alright dear lord.....i love my family...i love my mother...i want to do justice to what she has done for me...i cannot let her sacrifice be in vain...at the same time i strive to seek balance....please help me to do the right thing..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 20, 2013, 10:40:55 PM
Baba...good morning....its so easy to complain and so difficult to do anything about it! We humans are like that. We crib and fret over things but we do not take enough concrete steps to reduce that problem. We cry out for help, we shed tears, we get frustrated...we do everything except doing the things to move out of the problem. why?
If its so bad, we should just let it go and move out. And if we are not doing that, then surely the problem is not that severe. For example - most people are unhappy with their jobs. They'll crib and complain all the while but will do nothing to change their jobs or improve the situation.
I am no different. So now i have thought over it and decided that i am not going to be like this. I'll not complain about things i am not going to do anything about. Hopefully, with your mercy, i should be ok.

Thank you baba....for this day.

Baba - you have given me everything i wished for and more. But now i do not know what i want. Help me to know this baba!! Please
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 21, 2013, 10:30:47 PM
Om sai deva...sabki raksha karna.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 23, 2013, 12:00:56 AM
Important thing is to know what you want to do, where you want to be. At times we do not know this at all (in fact most of the times, we are unaware of what we really want in life). So, thats when we look at the next step. Sometimes, its not necessary to see the whole flight of stairs. Just taking the next step is important.
We go through each day in a rush, in a hurry to get over the day. But do we do things mindfully? When we eat, we talk. When we talk, we are on the phone, our thoughts are on the project deadline, our child's homework etc. When we sit with family, we are worrying about the things to do next day....so we are not really mindful of what we do.

Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 24, 2013, 10:59:18 PM
Good morning baba....we all have the choice to do what we want with our life. We can either crib and complain or choose to do something constructive about it.

Please give me the strength, wisdom and courage to choose the right thing.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 27, 2013, 10:31:24 PM
Baba...harr baar yehi hota hai....i am trying my level best to be rational here. Still i cant help feeling restless....as if i am missing something important.
Cant i spend my life making music? Cant that bring in the money? I know its a pipe dream....: :'(
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 29, 2013, 12:11:36 AM
Din mahine saal....sab guzar gaye...leking mein wahi ki wahi hoon....kya likhoo aur kya boloo? Sab to same hai....There has to be an urge, a desire to make the effort before you see results. Mein to effort hi nahi kar rahi hoo....effort se darr lagta hai....kyunki i am rusted....mujhe jang lag gaya hai....
But there is no such thing as too late. I can start now...today is a good day....its my 12th wedding anniv. 12 long years with R....i am happy. Sab kuchh theek rakhna baba......

Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 29, 2013, 09:12:46 PM
Today is a new day baba...and with your blessings, i started the day on the right note. I did one task that i havent been doing in a long long time. I feel good. Please grace the whole day and may i be your child forever..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 11, 2013, 10:50:40 AM
Baba...thank you. I had a good trip. I think i achieved all that i had planned. And things went off well. So thank you dear lord. I need to do my best baba...give it all i got.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 12, 2013, 09:38:06 PM
Good morning Baba....i feel uppity up :) Not that there is anything great going on in life....just that i feel positive. The trip happened....it was not on the cards...yet it happened. All your doing baba....all your doing. Thanks.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 13, 2013, 11:59:55 PM
Baba...important thing in life is to know which problem to fix. Not everything needs to be fixed and not everything needs to be done now. It is identifying the thing to fix and then the way to fix it. I have been doing things that may not be something i naturally do. i have tried to do it because its part of my job requirement. But this is not what i am. Thats what i feel.
Baba...jo bhi ho....all because of you and i am forever grateful to you for this.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 17, 2013, 08:57:26 AM
Baba...today is that intense day where my heart simply wants to break down the walls and i want to run free....i want to break away all the shackles that bind me....i want tobe free...i want to step out of the cocoon i have built around myself....i want to explore the parts i have never thought of.....i dont want to be tied down to the mundane rusted life....my heart yearns for a change....and yet - i dont know what that change should be!!! I know i want to break free...but i dont know where i want to go? All i know is i want to go.
Today the world is talking about Sachin Tendulkar...he knew what he wanted and went for it heart and soul...but us lesser mortals dont even know what we want to do in life. What is it that gives us hapiness?? What is it that makes us want to sacrifice other things and do this. Am i ready to give up something in pursuit of something else??

And what is it that i am trying to fix??
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 20, 2013, 02:04:35 AM
Tum ho...saath mere....paas mere...ho tum yoon....jitna mehsoos karoo tumko...utna hi paa bhi loon.....true for you....true for my mother.....
I miss her!!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 20, 2013, 09:24:59 PM
baba...thank you for this day. Thank you for being my strength...and for holding my hand through out my confusion. I am still confused and still looking for options....but baba...till my mind is made up...i will not dilute or degrade the blessings you have showered on me....after all.. this is a life ordained by you...and there must be something in it for me to learn....thats why its happening to me.
Baba...u know it all. Please please please help....help me to be me. I dont have to fear anyone or anything...i believe in myself...i can and i will do the right thing.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 24, 2013, 09:17:22 PM
Baba....aapka naam lekar i am starting in my quest for freedom. I desire it. So please dear lord....give me the strength, wisdom and courage to deal with everything on the way.

Om sai ram.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 26, 2013, 02:11:30 AM
baba...please protect brownie...where ever she is....please bring her back here. I love her and so do my father and son...please please please...bring her back.
I hope she is fine!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 27, 2013, 02:00:39 AM
Baba....please take care of browny. My poor child...i hope she is fine
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 02, 2013, 10:41:49 PM
Baba...you know what happened with my child yesterday. I love him so much. Please take care of him always. And please take care of browny baba....i dont know where she is.
Baba...today i complete 1 year of being here at A. Its already 1 year down...but baba..how i have struggled! Its not the work. The work is easy and i can do it. Its the people and politics...i just cant get it. And baba...i feel so low and depressed when it comes to this. I want to be with my son and give him all the time. But i also want the money...Oh well...this will never end....
Every time i want to give up, i get angry...angry at others and more so with myself...i dont want to run away from the situation. I dont want any one else deciding when i should quit or continue. I will decide it for myself.

Success kya hai baba? How do we define success? Take 2 people - me and T. We both did extremely well in school, i kind of slumped in college where as T went on to graduate from the most prestigious college. Thats success i think (at that stage). i felt low and morose and begged you to give me a chance to make my parents feel proud of me. You were so kind to me....i got that chance and i think i made good use of it. Now 14 years down the line - when i compare T and myself - T is still in the same place doing the same thing...where as i moved on to bigger better things...ok so i had my lows and highs...but as of now - if professional success was what we are talking of - i may say i am successful. But baba...this is now...and that was then. Iska matlab hai....success is a factor of time. And when time changes, the success may or may not stay the same. That means - we cannot compare 2 individuals and say that he/she is more successful than i am or vice versa. Because if you say that - it means you are talking about that instant or time frame. It definitely can change over a period of time....
That means - if i want to measure my success in comparison to others - i should be comparing with different people at different points in time...OR the only constant throughout would be myself...so i can compare myself with myself over different points in time. So it basically means that at the end its all about how you precieve yourself and its about improving yourself. Everyday one must strive to be better than the previous day. Comparing with others may not have any benefits at all....it will only cause heartburns.
but again baba...even when i compare with myself...how do i define success? Because at the end of the day i want to know whether i made it after all or not. But if dont define what i want to measure myself against - i will not be doing justice to myself. So what is success - is it when others say that you are splendid in your performance and kudos to you OR it could be an internal satisfaction of doing the right things in the right time and with right quality. The problem with former approach is you are setting your happiness on responses from others. But that may not always work out for you. You cannot control people's behaviour. They may know you have done extremely well....still may not give you the right feedback for whatever reasons. Does that make you less successful? Going by approach one - it means that only. And if you pin all your hopes on this, you are surely not going to be happy.
Look internally. Look at what your mind shows you. Listen to your heart. open up to the inner voice...because that will never lie to you. It will always tell you what is right and wrong. You've worked hard all your life....you've got a good decent job...but if you are not happy...or if your inner voice cringes when you see malpractice/politics at work...then you are not going to be happy. Trust me - even when you do your very best or think that you will get the recognition you deserve, they will never acknowledge. And if you go by approach 1 - you will never be happy. So focus inwards. And if you plan to quit - you decide the timeframe, you decide the steps...you have the power to choose. Dont think that others are getting you down. They will always do that...only if you allow them to. If you give them more preference and give importance to their reactions - well...you have yourself to blame.
Again coming back to success - are you successful if you quit? Thats the question on your mind!! Going by all that we discussed above - success varies at different points in time. So it maybe that being able to quit this job itself may require tremendous amount of guts and fortitude. It is success if the inner voice feels peace and happiness. It is success if you wake up every morning and look forward to a happy day. Dont punish yourself for giving up all that you worked for. Sometimes its not worth it. See - its not just the job you do. You studied hard, worked hard to come to this position and baba has always been so gracious. But those were success at that point in time. At this point in time....having the guts to quit and yet make money while spending quality time with family is a success. Dont let others think that you will be a success only if you become a VP/CEO of a company. Dont think that you are running away from a problem...dont think you cant handle people. You are here only because of all that you did previously. Dont think that just because people are mean, you want to quit. No. its beyond that. You dont see it as being successful. Simple. So do what makes you feel successful.
I know there will be challenges and roadblocks aplenty. But baba...anything worth having, is worth fighting for. And with you by my side i know i will do well.
So help me dear lord and be with me always
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 17, 2013, 06:38:56 AM
Baba...today is my very dear father's birthday. He is the person i love the most in this world...its a close tie between my son and my father. I love both of them so much!Baba...please bless my father with a happy healthy life..full of friends and family....and no M. Please baba....i have tried my best and given up....she does something or the other to make me feel mad at her.....I dont want her in our lives....please baba...bahut kar liya hai baba....

waise u know best...i leave it to you..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 01, 2014, 11:05:05 PM
Om sai ram baba! Thank you for everything dear lord. Let this new year bring new hopes and good things our way. Please bring peace to this world and make it a better place to live in. Please bring happiness and contentment in our lives. And please give me the strength, wisdom and courage to do the right thing.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 07, 2014, 12:56:47 AM
Om sai ram baba.....My SP is also missing! Baba....how cruel and heartless are these people who take away such innocent lives....SP and browny  - both are such simple, loving and shy creatures. How will they survive in such harsh conditions (if they are alive that is). Oh baba.....please bring them back to us. They are street dogs...but to me they are the worlds most lovable dogs....they show such genuine affection....And i feel so happy to feed them and see them everyday....and now they are gone.
Baba...please help them be with them where ever they are.


Baba...as for me....please give me the strenght, wisdom and courage to do the right things.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 07, 2014, 09:55:51 PM
Thank you dear lord....for bringing my SP back to me. Thank you!  Please take care of Browny where ever she is. baba...i am in the upswing right now so things look ok/good. Please give me the strength, wisdom and courage to do the right thing.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 14, 2014, 12:23:42 AM
baba....i am sad...i feel rejected. I feel as if i dont matter....and its from people who matter the most to me. sad! I am trying to fight it, argue...but the damage is done. It is apparent that he has made up his mind...or at least felt that he was right...there was no asking me...what i thought about it....i had the right to say yes/no...but he didnt ask baba....it didnt matter....and it worked in his favour....for everything to be taken care of....he knew what my baggage is...i wont call it a baggage....but he knew exactly what buttons to press and he played it up like that. i am happy for him...its an opportunity that he wanted. And maybe he deserves it as well. But i cant help it if i am the one to pay the price for his dreams. its so ironic...that i wanted to go away and i will end up staying back. I didnt want this baba. Is this your grand plan? when did i ask you to split us? i asked you to help the 4 of us stay together....but you have chosen the wrong 4 people baba. i am upset. I know maybe i should stay back...and after all i promised my mother....but i am sad that he didnt ask me. it didnt matter to him. Aise hi hota hoga baba....i guess. There is no love any more. its convenience. baba...what about my son? i know all the arguements that look at other people who stay separately...for the sake of work. My point is i dont want that in life. I chose differently. then why should i suffer? And all when i was always after him to move out...and now he tells me to stay put while he moves out!! Not fair. it didnt seem important for him that we stay together. and thats what riles me!! That means this is something he can give up for something else. And distance brings in a lot of issues. And if your partner is not with you in your life's struggles and happiness...there is no point in staying married. you might as well find some one else or something else to interest you. pata nahi....and his lame excuses about weather and travel!! Mujhe itna idiot samjha hai kya??i hate it....
ab bas...i will not say anything. jo bolna tha...i have written to him....lets see. i dont expect it to change....
ma was always right - there is no such thing as true friends/best friends....you are your best friend. and be independent....because no one else will be for you.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 26, 2014, 10:01:47 PM
Baba...good morning.
I am back from K. One week at K with his family...i tried to do my best...i dont know how things went...to me they look fine. I hope things are fine. All this eating together, laughing etc. is a temporary thing na baba...what matters to me is yet to become a reality. And maybe it will never see the light of day. But baba...i am hopeful. I trust you and i know you will do your very best for me. I always wanted to be at A...and now i am here. But now i dont want to be here...i am sure you give me things as per what i need... and maybe this is what i need right now. So fine...i'll go along with it. But baba...i will not give up on my dreams and objective. I will work for it. I will. I will surely work for it.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 28, 2014, 01:03:24 AM
baba...i got my aip notice today. I thank you so much. I think i have got a very good aip.all your blessings baba. nahi to, what am i? I am just an average person. but you have given me so much. Thanks. Now i need to focus on my objectives even as i continue to do my best in my current setup.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 29, 2014, 10:46:44 AM
Baba...am i destined to live like this - without love? I mean i have a good family - father, husband, son, mil. And they are all nice people. I like them all. But i love my father, mother the most. And then my son. My mother is with you already. I have only my dad who genuinely loves me. It hurts me to see him alone and sad. I do my best to give him all the happiness that i can. But i cannot replace my mom. And the destiny is such that we are not together. Maybe its better this way...i dont know. But it hurts. And then my husband - a very nice man...he cares for me...but the love is gone...somehow..u know...we want different things in life...our priorities are different...and now he wants to seek opportunities to move out...and i have to pay the price for it...and to think this was the situation last year only that it was me with the opportunity....but i put us before anything else....but he chose differently. baba...i cannot bind and keep him...and i cant beg him to take me with him...its something that he should have thought..but he is fine to be away from us...its the choice he is making....and i am not the number one on his priority list. So thats that! Baba...it saddens me...but what i realize in this whole thing is that i am alone...and only you are with me. No one else. My father - i treat him with kid gloves, i cant share anything with him. I just want to keep him happy. My son is young...and he need not know all this...my mil wont care...aaahh...i am lonely. Its sad because i have everything and yet nothing.Maybe there is a lesson in this. Maybe this is what i am here to learn. Baba...waise mere jeevan ki jitni khushi thi na...wo sab aapne mujhe mere life ke begining mein de diya....ab bas khaali hai khushi ka ghara....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 29, 2014, 09:31:46 PM
Jo dekha to sab kuchh hai...jo na dekha to kuchh nahi....
baba...i have everything yet i feel low and sad...unhappy...lost....lonely....
Baba...this is my life and it is probably the lesson i am meant to learn in this lifetime....that whatever comes your way...you will have to deal with it alone.....there is no such thing as true love or soulmate...agar hai to wo mujhe aaj tak mila nahi...ya phir i havent recognized ..... my heart yearns for being loved...wanted...and somehow...i do not get it. Dont get me wrong...my father loves me really...and my son adores me...my husband cares for me....and i love all of them...yet...something is missing.....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 03, 2014, 03:18:35 AM
Om sai sharanam baba.....sab theek rakhna baba....please take care of my father, son and husband....because m ka mein kuchh nahi kar sakti...she is soooooo annoying. baba...please ab aur nahi...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 21, 2014, 04:07:08 AM
Baba...where is love baba? where is respect? i dont know how it has come to be like this? i dont have a minute's happiness...neither at home nor at work...i feel sooo depressed....i feel sad and let down...they have left me high and dry...after all that i did...
why is there no bond between me and r? strange na baba...after all we were close...yet...

i dont know what to say or do baba....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 02, 2014, 11:48:46 PM
Baba...when mind has 20 different things going on...when the mind is not steady...what to do?
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 03, 2014, 11:12:52 PM
Why do we let the people we love, hurt us? Why dont we stop them? Why do we put up with abuse and go through the pain and why do we suffer silently? Why is it that when we are actually trying to bridge the gap, they want to push us through the cracks? Why dont they understand that we cannot retort in the same manner and say and do all those hurtful things? Why is our silence mistaken for cowardice and why are we bullied and blackmailed...just because we love them? How can we put up with this arm twisting tactics baba? and how mean of him when he said all those hurtful words.....knowing fully well that it is not the truth. And he has the audacity to sleep through it as if nothing happened. My tears and my emotions mean nothing....i am just a milestone that he achieved long time back...its of no value to him now...what i feel, want are meaningless...if at all..he gets irritated by anything i say...a sign that it is breaking up....i am sad and unhappy....this was not meant to be....i dont have the love and respect that i deserve and yet i continue to stay with him....and yet i continue to stay away from my father....who is the only one who truly loves me.....
Baba....what is a life partner....they are supposed to be your anchor when you are down and out....they are supposed to hold you and pull you up when you fall down.....but here - if i fall i am yelled at and screamed at...and even if i dont fall down i am told all the time that how incapable i am and how i can fall down.....there is no comfort and no love....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 11, 2014, 10:25:43 PM
baba...please take care of the people in the missing flight. I hope they are safe. My prayers for their safety baba!

Baba...i think i need to reset my attitude and mindset. I should enjoy what i have and where i am...because i actually worked hard to get here and you have enabled me to come here. It cant be so bad. I should enjoy the present and not brood over things that are not there. And there is no guarantee that when i get those things i will be happy. I will start craving for more....so all in all baba...i am fine where i am. Thank you so very much for everything.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 27, 2014, 04:15:09 AM
Baba...why cant i make up my mind on what is it that i want to do....sometimes it is this, sometimes it is that...i sound like a 5 year old...who gets distracted with so many things. I surely need to me more mature. I just want  a steady mind and and action to pursue my mind. Without this, nothing can happen...please baba...guide me
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 07, 2014, 04:11:19 AM
Baba...it is true that we remember you only when we are in despair...At least i do that...and i am deeply sorry for it. I am sad...though i know i have a choice to make here....and i should be content to live with the outcome of that choice...still my heart yearns for help, love and support. bahut mehnat se kamaye hain baba...and now i dont know if i need to give it for this thing which may not result into what i want in life....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 10, 2014, 11:10:01 PM
Baba...after a long time, i think i know what i want in life. I did so much of thinking and evaluating...fighting and crying...only to realize that there are certain things that can be done and then there are others that cannot be done...accept this and move on....only then can i be happy..

Thank you baba...i do not regret my decision..and thanks for helping me
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 15, 2014, 12:55:04 AM
The important thing in life is to know what you want and to do things that will take you there. It is very important to bridge the gap between knowing and doing. Unfortunately, this is my problem....knowing and not doing anything about it.

Hmmm.....baba....please give me the strength, wisdom and courage to do the right thing
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 16, 2014, 12:14:39 AM
Good morning baba....thank you for helping my son with the belt test. he is so happy and proud. baba....yesterday r also mentioned the same thing as i always have been saying....there needs to be something to look forward to...something you enjoy doing....
baba....but my current focus is to complete what i started....i cannot be a deserter....I cannot give up...i have paid the money for it...and its hard earned money...my mother would like me to do this....So i will just do it...

Also i need to remember that i am not on meds right now. Which means i need to be careful in what i eat. If things dont improve i'll get back to meds which is not what i want....so i had better be serious about it.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 16, 2014, 11:30:46 PM
Baba...good morning.
Yesterday my colleague died. I dont know him personally. I have not worked with him...yet i feel bad. I feel sad...it was an accident and he passed away yesterday. How vulnerable we all are....makes me wonder why we run after all the money, fame and everything....when we should actually be living in the present and enjoying the present. We dont know what the future holds...we can strive for a good future...but we cannot guarantee it. My colleague did not plan to die....he would have made plans...he would have invested in something, hoping for a better future....and now all that is worthless. people who were on the ferry in south korea.....people who were on the flight mh 370....did they plan on the accident? NO...they did not!so when we do not know what lies ahead of us....why do we fret and fume so much? Why not live in the moment ...make the best of it and just pray and prepare for a better tomorrow.....
why do we lust after money..we work hard and get into a good company...we make decent money and then we are unhappy...because someone else has a better profile, better job description, better car, bigger house, more onsite trips, more salary, more powers....the list is endless!!!And this makes us unhappy....we want it too. we crave for it...without knowing what the journey has been for the other person...everything comes at a price. Its all about the choices we make in life.
Baba...for once it makes me want to sit back and see what i want. I have done enough analysis....but at times like this...it occurs to me that maybe what i am doing is all so futile.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 22, 2014, 01:45:27 AM
baba...good morning.
I had a busy weekend (long one at that). At times i want to stay back home and take care of home and family. But i also need my space and freedom to do what i want. i want the money and independence that comes from going out to work. But i also want to be at home to see my son through his studies, his activities and generally be around him. What a dichotomy!!
I dont feel like working in another org any more. And i dont like my current org. So i need to quickly finish my unfinished task and move onto what i have been thinking...baba...please help....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 30, 2014, 05:50:23 AM
Life will go on like this baba....and i think i should stop waiting for the perfect moment to get everything done and be happy. Because it will never happen. Happiness is now...in this moment...seize the day and get something good out of it.
I feel like i am a queen of false starts and failures....i have never been able to keep my promise to  myself...not even when....
that makes me really selfish....and i am paying for my sins.......my body has started reacting to age...and i am no longer invincible....i need to get  my life back....and only i can do it baba. You can only guide me to do the right thing...doing it is my business.
so help me dear lord....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 05, 2014, 06:01:11 AM
baba...thanks to you...i am able to walk at least. Ah...for the small mercies in life. What would i do if i had to depend on others. Imagine being unable to walk or move. It feels terrible baba. It is also a lesson to me to not take it lightly. baba...i wont forget it...also it tells me that life is precious...enjoy while you can....stress really kills you and so find joy in what you do....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 11, 2014, 10:49:21 PM
baba....i feel thank ful to you that i am able to walk at least. Please baba...i dont want to be dependent on any one for anything. Please let me live and die like this - independent and not causing any trouble to anyone. baba...at times like this, i realize how precious life is and why we shouldnt fritter away any single second...because you never know whether you will be able to enjoy the next second or not.

Please let me be humble and grounded and let me be your child forever
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 13, 2014, 01:12:13 AM
baba...we pray for a million things...we pray for something more always...we seldom say thank you for what we have....past experience has shown me that i should not say thank you and i have everything....you know what happened the last time i said that! so, i'll have to keep asking you for something!!!!
So baba...thank you for making me realize that everything is maya, an illusion...and what i really need is peace and happiness. I will be peaceful and happy on the day i die i guess. But seriously baba.....what can be more satisfying in life than being able to do your own things...without having to depend on others. I mean walking itself is a challenge (became one for me last week). Then isn't that life's most precious gift? Freedom.
Yes baba...i want to be free. I dont want to be chained to anything....i hate rules and rituals and dont want to be tied down to it.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: saib on May 13, 2014, 06:15:15 AM
Vidya,

If possible spare some time, Read "The Fakir: The Journey Continues" by Ruzbeh Bharucha. Amazing Book after The Fakir. and there is no such thing like Death except for most evil spirits. There is only beginning, journey and Nirvana. Journey of spirit from one life to another until nirvana. and freedom can be obtained while in body, after we are separated from this mortal body, it is very tough to change at that level.

May Baba Sai Bless You with Good Health and Great Life !

om sri sai ram !
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: shalabh on May 13, 2014, 09:15:54 PM
simply beliving makes total diffrence ,
please  let  me  understand  how functioning is done
and how  can i become  partyof  this beleive


-give me  that belive that strength that understanding  .
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 21, 2014, 12:59:21 AM
Dear Saib,
It is always very nice to hear from you. Your thoughts and words are so comforting. I did purchase the book "The Fakir". Am reading it. Thank you.

I was so unwell for the past few weeks and i could not walk. It made me realize that the biggest gift in life is to be able to do things on your own. To be free. What is the use of money, property, beautiful cars and clothes if you dont have good health to enjoy it. So always take care of your health and mind. The rest will follow.

Om sai sharanam
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 21, 2014, 11:37:42 PM
baba...please anything to get rid of the pain in my body. It is getting to a point where i cant take it anymore. I am willing to make any changes required for this to happen. Please baba....please give me a healthy body and peaceful mind.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: saib on May 22, 2014, 08:57:45 AM
Thanks Vidya for your kind words. for pain in body with other medicines also use sacred Udi of Baba Sai on forehead and feel the healing.

May Baba Sai Bless you with good health and a great life ahead !

om sri sai ram !
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 03, 2014, 04:21:07 AM
baba thank you for making me normal. I am so grateful to you. I am almost fine. I think without your help, i wouldnt have been able to survive that pain. Thank you. It makes me so thankful for all that i have in life. You have given us all the tools and laid out all the options...but it is for us to choose the right path. It is our karma. I hear people cribbing and complaining about all these things - like salary, work env, boss problems, peer issues, work load, family life etc....but i say...we have all the modes to deal with these situations. Its upto us. Cribbing can take you nowhere. It drains your energy and you lose focus. Rather...look at what can you do to salvage the situation.
Baba...i know for sure that in my journey, there will be a million obstacles and temptations...but i just need to have the same focus as i had as a child - i know you are just trying to test me. I will overcome it..with your blessings and i know i can do it.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 06, 2014, 03:24:11 AM
baba...please help me...i am falling into the old trap....i lack determination and willpower....please save me....if i dont overcome this now, i will never be able to do it. Please baba....even after suffering for nearly a month, i havent learnt my lesson or what? Please save me dear lord...please save me from myself...how can i set a good example for my son if i myself dont follow it!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 25, 2014, 11:55:47 AM
Baba...THANK YOU!!! I did what i have been postponing for 5 years now. finally...i put in the effort and took the plunge to complete my course. I am still not complete with it....but at least i cleared the first part. And thats a good start. Thank you baba...for helping me...for giving me the willpower to get through....i almost gave up...but baba...you have been with me all through. You made me understand the power of NOW.

Thank you baba
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 11, 2014, 04:36:14 AM
baba....it is true that we are all selfish people. We seek your help only when we are feeling low. We seldom remember you when we have a good time. But baba...thanks a lot for my father's car. Its all your blessings dear lord. Now the next big things is R's visit. But baba...you know how it is....why should i take this nonsense from her. What does she think?How can someone be so cunning? She gossips, talks ill of others, never has a good word for me or anyone in my association, tries to put barriers in my life...and yet i keep quiet. Sometimes i wonder why? I do so only because R has done so much for my mother, when she was dying. and he does even now for a. Thats the only reason....baba...its now 13 years of tolerating this nonsense. How much longer can i put up with it? Is it my karma? Why is it that you punish me the very instant when i say or do something wrong. and yet - when i am correct, for all these years, i am putting up with this hurt, anger and humiliation. Why? What can i do to change this? I want her to go away from our lives. I still dont feel like calling it my home after all these years.....baba....anything to help me with this!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: shilpa kanojiya on August 28, 2014, 11:37:52 PM
Jai Sai Ram...

Happy Ganesh Chaturthi... babaji..
Please babaji apna aashirwad or pyar hum sub ko dena...kabhi koi galat kaam na kre, kisi ka dil na dukhaye, sub se pyar se rhe jese aap chahte ho...sub ki pareshani ko dur kr dena..babaji..kisi ke ghar mai kabhi bhi koi problem na aaye..aaj ke shubh din per aap hum sub ko dhero khushiya or aashirwad dena...

Om sai ram, Om sai ram, Om sai ram...

Sachidanand satguru sainath yogiraj maharaj ki Jai....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 02, 2014, 01:51:15 AM
Om sai sharanam baba.....
I am neck deep in work. Not complaining though....there are many in this world who would give their right arm for this job. And its the job that is helping me take care of my family. So baba...jo bhi hai, sab theek hai.
Please take care of everything baba....abhi mera kaam ruka hua hai baba....please help to fix it...resolve it dear lord.....i am going to do my bit on myself....its time. please baba....sab kuchh theek ho jaye....take care of my father dear lord....he means the world to me.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: shilpa kanojiya on September 17, 2014, 12:06:27 AM
Jai Sai Ram...

Babaji aap hamare liye sub kuch ho.. aap ke siva hum apni sari baate kisi se share bhi nhi kr skte....babaji bhot problems hai life mai kb khatam hogi dekhte dekhte 1 year pura ho gaya...taklife bdti ja rhi hai..khushiya kya hoti hai wo toh mummy ko pta hi nhi hai..please babaji...meri mummy world ki sub se achi mummy hai..wo dost h, sister h sub kuch hai...mai apni mummy ke sath rehna chahti hu hmesha. babaji hamesha sath dena sub ka..mere apno ka...
babaji kya mai mere apno ko kabhi khushiya de skti hu..mai sub ko bhot pareshan krti hu...khush nhi kr pati unhe...mai unhe sub kuch dena chahti hu..please baba ji sath de dijiye mera...please...aap subh jante ho fir bhi sath nhi dete...please babaji...please...help kr dijiye...mai jitni kaushish kr skti thi maine ki pr sr. ne bhi help nhi ki...wo mera haq tha de skte the pr nhi diya unhone...wo mere problems nhi jante pr aap toh jante ho..please sath de do babaji..please

Sachidanand satguru sainath yogiraj maharaj ki Jai....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 23, 2014, 12:45:51 AM
Om Sai baba...Thank you thank you thank you.....a million times thank you. Mera ruka hua kaam ho gaya baba...aapki kripa se. We are nothing without you. You ordained it, so it happened. Thank you baba. Its not time for me to keep my word.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 30, 2014, 02:44:23 AM
Baba...thank you for everything you have given me and for what you have not given me. Everything is for a reason. You know what is best.

Thank you
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: anshul.udapure on September 30, 2014, 07:46:05 AM
sai baba mai yaha fasa hua mahsoos kar raha hu .muze please yaha se nikal de mai apno ke beech jana chahta hu.plase aiasa kuch rasta nikal ke mai yaha se nikal jau.. abhi na ghar ka hu na ghaat ka.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: jiju70 on October 01, 2014, 12:43:50 AM
sai baba please help me and guide me through this turbulent water so that I can help my family and friends. baba you are aware of all my problems which I facing from the last so many years  please baba please solve them and let me have peace of mind

jai sai ram
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 07, 2014, 01:13:10 AM
Om sai sharanam baba. Humko mann ki shakti dena....mann vijay kare....doosro ki jay se pehle...khud ko jay kare.....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 08, 2014, 01:27:00 AM
Baba....please give us peace of mind and satisfaction in life.....happiness is the most precious thing in life.....and i want my father to be happy...my family to be happy....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: VARSHA 9 on October 09, 2014, 01:27:40 PM
Sairam bless you dear Vidyarp ji,

May baba bring happiness,peace,joy and smile & laughter in your father.
Be cheerful dear
Sai bless you.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 16, 2014, 04:04:27 AM
Thank you Varsha.

I wish you happiness, health and peace of mind.

Baba...thank you for everything you have given and for the things you have not given. I am what i am because of this.
Please bless us all and take care of us...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 17, 2014, 01:54:13 AM
Baba...om sai sharanam....
Just now my father called to tell me that he visited the doctor. Apparently he has cataract in both eyes. I know its not a big deal in today's world. But it makes me upset. I have already lost my mother and my father means everything to me. I want him to be happy. And i want him to be with me always. Baba...please take care of him. I want to make the right decision for him. he is going to C to visit his relatives. I know he likes to go there and i encourage him to visit whenever possible...so that he has a change. But with cataract, should i first get the operation done and send him OR should i let him go there and get the operation done? I know that in C we have the best doctors and we have contacts with the top doctors. But point is - i cannot go. and that makes me jittery. God...please help and take care of him. He is my life.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 29, 2014, 01:31:41 AM
Dear Baba....today is my wedding anniversary. 13th anniversary. Time flies....but not too fast...seems like ages and yet seems like yesterday....i hope you understand.
Baba....thank you for everything. Thank you for the good things and the not so good things...everything is part of a plan and i will accept it. Baba....i wish my mother was here with me....i miss her and my father misses her....please take care of her ...where ever she is.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on October 29, 2014, 10:48:43 PM
Baba....please take care of my father and mother....i love them more than anything else. And the only other person i love equally (if not more) is my son. I love my husband too....take care of all baba....
let there be peace and justice baba....please ....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 03, 2014, 10:57:07 PM
Baba..its pointless to live life hating all that you do. Either you have the will to do something different and make it work OR you make peace with what you do. I cant live the rest of my life hating my job (when all i ever wanted was to get into this org) Now that i am here, i might as well make the most of it.

Please baba...i know things will be tough and painful...but please help me and be with me....i will not give up baba....never
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 05, 2014, 12:10:01 AM
Baba...please be by my side always....during good times and during times when the going gets tough....I know life is like a sine wave.....it goes up and down....but please be with me and i will overcome everything .....i believe in you and i believe in myself.

Thank you dear lord
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: VARSHA 9 on November 05, 2014, 08:38:54 AM
Sairam Vidyarp ji,

May your father be blessed with healthy eyes and may sai keep him healthy always.

May sai protect your father and take good care of him always.

Sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai sai

Omsairam
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 05, 2014, 11:16:06 PM
Thank you so much for your wishes dear Varsha ji.
May baba always be with you.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 09, 2014, 11:26:45 PM
Baba...today is my father's checkup. Please please please ...let everything be ok. I want him to be fine. He is my life and so is my son. Baba...bless us all.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 10, 2014, 04:54:47 AM
baba..operation is scheduled for tomorrow. I hope everything goes well. baba...please be with him.
baba...about my son.....i dont know...but i feel he should get the opportunity he deserves....and i also agree he needs a failure to pull him out of the complacency. Maybe today's rejection was that. I will try to deal with him. He is upset.

Thats when i think...ki being his mother...i too am like this....i too live in my head trips and yearn for something that isnt there...while ignoring what is there.....its a jolt for me too....if i am like this myself...what will i teach him? i have no right to tell him anything/
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 10, 2014, 10:51:41 PM
Baba...please be with my father....he is undergoing an operation today....Take care of him....baba....my son is upset....u know the reason why....maybe he is not at apr...but rejection is tough to handle....please help him to get over it and please help him to achieve his dreams....may he become a world class musician...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: anshul.udapure on November 11, 2014, 12:53:28 AM
saibaba man se bht kamjor hu mai .thori thori baato me pareshan ho jata hu .chechre pe pareshani zalak jati hei .mer man se dar nikal de sai baba. please mere man se dar nikal de. bht kamjor hu mai.muze apna hata badha ke chalna sikha de saibaba.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 12, 2014, 10:22:41 PM
Baba...please be with my father and son....i feel bad for my son...he is a nice boy....very loving and caring...and very emotional. He genuinely loves me. Please baba.....i want him to become something in life and i want him to be a happy person...satisfied and successful. Please baba...take care of him
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 19, 2014, 04:20:33 AM
Why does this happen with my son baba? And i am sure a lot of other parents feel that way. Despite doing their best...our children dont get the due recognition. I feel bad for him. I want him to be successful and happy. I want him to do something that is his passion. I dont want him to become a slave to money....but i want him to make money by following his passion....
Please bless him my dear lord
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 24, 2014, 10:11:46 PM
baba...please take care of my son. He is a very loving child and a very gentle human being. How do i teach him the harsh truths about life? How can i tell him that life is not fair and nto everyone plays by the rules. When he faces rejection just because the teacher is biased, how do i explain it to him that its ok...life doesnt end there. i want him to rise up every time he falls and never give up....i want him to push himself to the core and do himself proud. I want him to be happy...please baba...be with him on his journey....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 25, 2014, 09:42:24 PM
Baba...good morning. I have to be my best friend. If i dont take care of my interests, who will. But i keep sabotaging myself...i keep setting goals and keep missing them...and dont seem to care at all. I get a momentary impetus to do something. but i can seldom hold onto that feeling. I quickly give into mediocrity and then i complain...i complain about everything but myself...i look at all the reasons why i am not getting what i want...but never rake up the point that maybe i myself am responsible for not reaching my goals. I want a few things in my life and i am nowhere close to reaching them. I have been wanting this for the last 7 years...but havent done enough to make it happen. Then whose fault is it? Cant i see....am i blind?
Baba...please show me the way and give me self control and discipline.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 26, 2014, 09:24:31 PM
Om sai sharanam....
baba...please bless us all and make this a happy day.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 05, 2014, 12:58:34 AM
Baba...why is it not enough to be good at your work? Why should one be politically connected OR have a godfather in the industry? Why cant you just progress due to your work and ethics? I dont know what to do.....but i know i need to be prepared for the worst....i never will get the dues...with the kind of people i am working with....I know i am better than them...they also know i am better than them...but they are better at networking with the bosses and keeping the boss happy (in non-work related stuff) I cant do that. And so i must suffer. Sad na!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 09, 2014, 02:55:47 AM
baba...jeevan ka yehi satya hai ki kisi aur par nahi...khud par aur bhagwaan par bharosa rakhna chahiye....

Baba...please help me to believe in myself and have faith in myself....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 17, 2014, 10:07:08 PM
Baba...good morning....how can someone have so much bitterness and hatred? Is there no love and compassion? They call out your name....but in their deeds and thoughts, they do cruel things to others. Is this fair? How much longer do we have to sustain this? Baba...if i have ever done one single good deed in my life....if i have ever done one selfless act...please baba...for that...take away the misery in our life. She hurts us more than anything in the world...i have given 13 years of my life to this house....and still i am treated like this....and i can no longer take it....please baba....please for heaven's sake.....take her away from us.......she can go anywhere in the world...............
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 05, 2015, 12:49:25 AM
baba...happy new year...
baba...please for heaven's sake.....if i have done just one single good thing in my life....please remove this pain from our life....she has made my life miserable....she hates my father and spares no occassion to disrespect him...she has no basic manners....please take her away from us....please
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 08, 2015, 01:35:51 AM
Baba.....i am sad for all the mindless terror and killings that happen in our world. I hate the bigots and extremists who believe that its their way or the high way. Maybe not even the high way. Its only their way. Is this the beginning of the end? Is mankind going to kill itself and this planet?
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 09, 2015, 04:06:16 AM
Om sai sharanam baba......please stop all the mindless killing baba....what sort of a world will our children live in? What will they get - hatred, fear and pollution. Man will kill man for basic things....no baba! Please make this world a better place to live in.
My father will be back today. I want him to be happy always baba. he has seen enough hardship....unke hisse ka gham aap mujhe de do....he should be fine. And u know my eternal wish :). Please baba.....wo muraad puri kar do.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 12, 2015, 10:26:24 PM
Baba...yesterday was my mother's birthday.....12th Jan 2009...on her birthday, we got to know that she has very little time...
The years have not dulled my pain. I still grieve for her. I feel bad for my father.....he is left all alone ....
please take care of my father dear lord. He is everything to me.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 14, 2015, 01:53:22 AM
Baba..please make this world a better place to live in....please let our children see happiness and unity and fair play and togetherness....let them enjoy the resources of this beautiful planet. dont destroy it please.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 19, 2015, 03:27:22 AM
Baba...my son was unwell this weekend. Nothing major...but i felt so bad. I want my son, my father and my husband to be absolutely fine. I want them to be healthy and happy. God...how can she do this to her own sister? I mean i know my mother's reaction in a similar situation. But isnt it wrong? Lekin baba...you are not doing anything? why? Maybe u have a plan...and i dont know it yet.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 27, 2015, 02:50:06 AM
baba...i am so ambivalent right now. Its nothing new to me. But u know how it is.....strange things are happening at work...i am not affected yet...though i still trying to understand the politics...
sad world we live in i say. greed for power and money....thats the cause of all the harm i this world...

please give us all some common sense...thanks
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 29, 2015, 05:18:07 AM
Another round of appraisals....this is my second year here. Same situation....maybe a tad bit better....i got promoted...didnt get the shares....and i dont expect to get it either. I cant do all those things that are required for it and i am happy doing what i am. Am i lacking ambitions? Do i want an easy life? No...its not that. I want a balance in my life. My objective is to earn well enough to support my family....i want to take care of my father. I want to provide for my son's future and i want my husband and myself to live happily even after we stop working. Lekin...uske liye i will not give up my life right now...to earn that extra money.  I want to be home on time to take care of my son...on time for his studies..and if it means giving up on this...so be it.
I am at peace with the situation
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Post by: vidyarp on February 02, 2015, 11:12:56 PM
baba...it was my son's bday yesterday. My baby is now 9. Time really flies. I am happy for him. Its a pleasur to see him grow and blossom. Nothing can buy that happiness. I only wish he becomes a happy and successful person. More than anything else - he should be a good human being. right now i feel the challenge is - he is too soft for a 9 year old boy. he cares a lot for others and always shares everything. I hope he doesnt get bullied and can stand up for himself. I think he does manage to take care.
God...what is happening to me....i cant seem to work at all...i come in everyday and while away my time. I dont feel like doing anything. I have zero motivation. As such the appraisals were a let down. And now with the changes in org, i dont see myself going anywhere. no growth. I can continue to live here and get a monthly paycheck...but i am not happy. i dont know baba...but i feel i cant cope with the politics. I am so not cut out for this. I feel overwhelmed. i am good at my work...but i cannot shout about it. And maybe thats what is required in today's world. Dont know baba. I feel i should do something that does not involve discussing with human beings. I am fine with animals and maybe abstract things like numbers. I love maths. Please help me to do what i have to do...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 15, 2015, 10:36:00 PM
Baba..good morning. Its my birthday today. I feel blessed. Thank you. Its a milestone bday for me. last night i was going over all the milestone bdays in my life....and all the related events. Baba...i have spent the last decade in futile activities...i cant say completely futile because i did gain a lot of experience...I had my child...i switched many jobs...got to a company i aspired for...lost my mother...bought a house for my father...moved him here with me...helped him see the world....And really i am thankful for that. I have lost quite a few battles..but the war is not lost. I am not going to waste my next 5 years yearning for something and doing something else....please give me the strength wisdom and courage to do the right things
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 16, 2015, 10:02:52 PM
Baba...good morning...the day came and went...and i am still not sure of my answers...i am still not sure of what i want to do in life. I mean - if i look at it one way - i have a job at one of world's most prestigious companies, i earn decently, i can take care of my financial needs, i get time enough for my son, i have been able to take care of my dad, i have a house, i travel abroad, i get facilities at work, I have worked hard to be here, My parents have sacrificed a lot to get me here. And on the flip side - i dont like my job. When i was 30 or so, i always dreamt of being here...working here...but now that i am here...i dont like what i see. Too much of politics and little value to good work...i also feel left out and isolated because of the fact that i am a woman in a man's world...networking (though an essential skill at my role) doesnt come naturally to me. I am in constant conflict with who i am. I want to withdraw into a shell and not talk to anyone. I am not able to give my best to work and i feel mediocre. i hate mediocrity. i want to do a better job...but something ties me down...i am not able to give my best....i keep wanting to quit what i do and do something else...and i dont know what that something else should be. And all this makes me unhappy and leads me to inaction...and i feel even worse...
Why dont i know what i want to do? Why cant i accept things as is and move on? I want everything...money, good job, good brand, no pressure, little work, time for myself....well not happening i guess. We make choices in our life and we live the consequences of those choices. So i need to learn to choose what i want to do from the array of things i am doing right now. Its upto me to be happy. God please help me.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 17, 2015, 09:40:45 PM
Baba...she is sooo annoying. please please please...if you can do just one thing for me...please remove her from our lives...she is like a thorn in the flesh...i have spent 14 years baba....14 long years...ab to mukti de do baba.....itna mat tarsaao baba...ki jab phal mile to uska mazaa hi na aaye....I dont know anything....i am done with being myself...i have to become something else...please help me....ma...please help
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: ShAivI on February 19, 2015, 03:51:02 AM
OM SAI RAM Vidyarp,

well, I too feel similar at times............

would like to share what I keep understanding time and again
- or the Divine helps me to understand - though often I forget :)

The world is full of politics- yes. But if we understand that people
who are doing it, may not know a better way to be. Or if they
know - they do not trust the way of truth, peace, trust and faith.

They think that in order to survive in this world - it is important to play
politics- in whatever small or large measure.

WE - being Sai bhakta - it is our responsibility to live the Trust
and Faith that we deeply cherish in our hearts. If we - in face of
opposition, still extend smile;in face of politics still not blame others,
in face of a mishap agree to carry blame ----- if we live in trust that
whatever is happening is a drama and not real truth - real truth being
the unconditional love that God has for all of us - then we can slowly
transform into beings of faith - people who will emerge as role models.

let us try to stop judging ourselves and others- as mediocre- this
judgemental nature is ego's gift. Can we be more rooted in our soul
consciousness and just be AT CONTENT with all we have and consider
everything as a blessings :) ..and smile right from the deep level of the soul :)

OM SAI RAM, SRI SAI RAM, JAI JAI SAI RAM !!!


Baba...good morning...the day came and went...and i am still not sure of my answers...i am still not sure of what i want to do in life. I mean - if i look at it one way - i have a job at one of world's most prestigious companies, i earn decently, i can take care of my financial needs, i get time enough for my son, i have been able to take care of my dad, i have a house, i travel abroad, i get facilities at work, I have worked hard to be here, My parents have sacrificed a lot to get me here. And on the flip side - i dont like my job. When i was 30 or so, i always dreamt of being here...working here...but now that i am here...i dont like what i see. Too much of politics and little value to good work...i also feel left out and isolated because of the fact that i am a woman in a man's world...networking (though an essential skill at my role) doesnt come naturally to me. I am in constant conflict with who i am. I want to withdraw into a shell and not talk to anyone. I am not able to give my best to work and i feel mediocre. i hate mediocrity. i want to do a better job...but something ties me down...i am not able to give my best....i keep wanting to quit what i do and do something else...and i dont know what that something else should be. And all this makes me unhappy and leads me to inaction...and i feel even worse...
Why dont i know what i want to do? Why cant i accept things as is and move on? I want everything...money, good job, good brand, no pressure, little work, time for myself....well not happening i guess. We make choices in our life and we live the consequences of those choices. So i need to learn to choose what i want to do from the array of things i am doing right now. Its upto me to be happy. God please help me.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 19, 2015, 11:19:55 PM
Thank you Shaivi. Its always good to hear from others perspective. maybe i am blinded by my own thoughts.

I thank God for giving me good friends, who can pull me up when i am down. I need this kind of advice. Why do we limit ourselves, why do we create barriers for ourselves, and then keep lamenting about it? No one has told me to stop doing what i do. Then why do i feel like stopping? Its only because of my blinkered vision. I should not be a frog in the well. I need to keep doing my best and leave the rest to you. Just because a few people dont understand my contributions, does not mean i need to lower my standards. I have to give my best to feel my best. Only then will i be at peace.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 23, 2015, 03:43:34 AM
baba...please...sirf ek aakhri kehna maan lo...please......i want her to stop giving me so much of pain and misery. She is unbearable. Her nature is soooo bad. All she wants is self praise and self importance. No care for anything or anyone else. She insults my father...who means more than anything in this world to me. I hate it when she ill treats me. I hate it when she treats me like a pile of unwanted clothes. She gossips all day, passes judgement on others, proclaims that she is your greatest bhakt and yet never helps a single soul. How can i live with her? I cant take it any more baba. I am upset when my father is upset. I cant bear this anymore. She should go away. Leave us all in peace. baba...please make her go away. If there is anything i can do to make this happen...i will...please baba...14 years...no more please!!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 23, 2015, 10:27:36 PM
baba...please take care of my father and my family....my son and my husband...there is no one else....
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 27, 2015, 02:23:36 AM
Discipline is the bridge that closes the gap between goals and accomplishments. Baba...please help me to be disciplined...please let me be aware of myself and in control...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 02, 2015, 03:31:16 AM
Baba...i want to crack the SSBB exam. I cannot live in peace till i have done it. It has taken me 7 whole years baba...not good at all. Can you please help me with it? Thanks
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 08, 2015, 04:46:45 AM
i learnt an important lesson today. Lying never helps. I swear to God..i am so done with it. Thats the truth.
But what irks me is that she actually had the audacity to come and check on me. ridiculous. I mean how mean can some one be?? I cant take care of my own dad? I am so done with all these allegations and frustrations she heaps on me. I am so done with watching tv. I am so done with being on the defensive. she calls me a liar. What right does she have when she herself is such a big liar? And baba...u do nothing?? Why?? why should my father suffer?? he is a good man. u know that. And she is the biggest gossip monger and a first class irritant. But then u let her go scot free. Baba...not fair. I have spent all these years trying to get her approval. I dont want a validation from others on how much i care for my family. Why oh why are we going through this?? I am so fed up!! No happiness anywhere... work or home.  Baba...if i love my parents and if i have done justice to my family...please for heaven's sake....take her away from us...Baba...u keep asking me to not discriminate...lekin what about all that she does?? Baba...please save me.

i feel so suffocated...so unloved...always the step child...always the outsider....baba...i am 40....how long can i take this? when will and will i ever live my life free of this binding? sometimes i feel like running away or killing myself...but thats not correct. Life is a gift...and i owe it to my parents. I cant let it go waste.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 20, 2015, 10:39:30 PM
Baba...please take care of my father. he is recovering slowly...and is very weak. But i try to do all that i can for him. He is a good man and i want him to be happy forever. Please grant him peace and happiness. Baba...please...if i have done one single good deed in my life...please use it for him....he should be ok.
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Post by: shalabh on April 21, 2015, 07:56:53 PM
SAI  RAM


FATHER  WAS  ALSO  SON ONCE
AND  ALSO  GRANDSON OF  BABA


BABA  KNOWS  THINGS  AND  PLAN BETTER  SO  LET BABA  WORK FOR  HIM  AS  IT IS QUESTION OF FINISHING TASK  AND KARMA IN THIS  BIRTH  OR  TAKE  FOR NEXT BIRTH,


PLEASE  APPLY  BABA  UDI  AND DRINK IT  WITH WATER  ,
belive  me  baba  is  here  and  he  is  taking  care  of  all of  us  .

Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: bhuvana j s on April 22, 2015, 01:36:18 AM
om sai ram
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 26, 2015, 11:51:03 PM
baba..please take care of the people in Nepal...all those who are suffering due to earthquake..
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Post by: vidyarp on May 01, 2015, 03:49:31 AM
baba...thank you....i got my father's reports. he is fine...much much much better than before, The past 1 month has been very trying for him. he is still weak...but he is on the recovery path. Thanks a lot baba...be with him always..
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Post by: bhuvana j s on May 02, 2015, 02:41:00 AM
om sai ram
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Post by: vidyarp on May 04, 2015, 12:43:05 AM
baba...why are people so evil? Why do they feel happy by hurting others? how can people bad-mouth someone? And baba where is love?? In my house (its not a home) we have everything but love. She makes my life so miserable baba....ek glaas paani bhi nahi poochti hai. mere father kitne bimaar the...kabhi bhi ye nahi kaha ki go take care of him or even how is he? She is so absorbed in herself and her family....i feel so unloved and so unhappy in that house. I cant take it any longer baba....i need to be happy...i need to be with my son, husband and father...please send her away from our life baba....she has made so much trouble in my life...always rude, always cruel, always suspicious...baba...she spends hours praying to you...but what is the use? She is not pure in her thought or deeds....please baba....please....no more...please help!!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: bhuvana j s on May 04, 2015, 02:39:29 AM
om sai ram om sai ram om sai ram
help her baba plz
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 06, 2015, 05:15:45 AM
Baba...i dont know what will happen..but i surely know that you listen to me. You have heard my prayers so many times and given me the things that i required at that time. My admission, my marriage, my job, my father's house, my father's trip....all because you heard me baba. Please baba...please...hear me once more.....i dont know what you think of it baba...i know we have to go through our karmas....but baba...is there no way to reduce the bad karma?
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Post by: bhuvana j s on May 06, 2015, 06:06:23 AM
om sai ram
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 11, 2015, 05:46:52 AM
Baba...why do we limit ourselves? why do we utilize only 10% of the capabilities you have given us? and even then, mind is so confused with options. Baba...i am caught between the problems at home and the lack lustre environment at work. I thought i had it all...but looks like i was so wrong....all that glitters is not gold.
Also baba...i dont feel like going back and accepting that conversation i had a few years ago. I remember clearly - she wanted separation and i said that one should pray for harmony and not separation. And look at me now - i myself am going back on my own words. I dont like it. I dont think i made a wrong choice then. Maybe i am becoming more self centered now...maybe i want my own way now....hard to see. So baba...i am finally not going to ask you for taking her away from me...its her karma and mine. we are bound together in this lifetime and if i have to endure this pain for sometime more....what can i say...its your wish...i feel bad...terrible...unloved and uncared for....but thats fine...so long as u know that i have not done anything wrong...i am fine. This too shall pass. i surrender to you baba. My life revolves around my son, father and husband....and i want them to be happy and in peace with each other. If for that, i need to be at logger heads with her...so be it. I dont care anymore....actually thats a lie..i do care but i know that i cannot wish her away and you have some plans for me. so i wont give up hoping that you will take care of my problems...
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Post by: vidyarp on May 18, 2015, 05:58:22 AM
baba...i heard the speech of arunima sinha. what an inspiration baba.....she is so great. Baba...having heard that...i am going to make a resolution for myself.....rest everything else can follow,
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Post by: vidyarp on May 20, 2015, 11:14:31 PM
Baba...please take care of my father...for him..i'll do anything...he is my life....i promise baba....i know thinking and executing are 2 different things...but i will....for him...
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Post by: vidyarp on May 25, 2015, 11:00:14 PM
Baba...its now 6 years since my mother passed away. Please take care of her and be with her. we miss her a lot. I want you to take good care of her and keep her happy where ever she is. Please take care of my father as well baba.
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Post by: vidyarp on May 29, 2015, 12:57:14 AM
baba...i hate being pushed around and i hate when people say i cant do this or that...it makes me want to prove them wrong...is this a good attitude? Baba...am i doing it for money? I hope not. I just want to do it because i feel like i dont want to regret later. Pata nahi baba......what do you say? Baba...your word is final.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 29, 2015, 04:08:43 AM
Why am i waiting for a miracle to happen? why cant i take control of my thoughts and actions? Do i expect you to come down and hand things to me in a golden platter?? I am being so ridiculous!!
Baba....you help those who help themselves. baba...u have helped me in innumerable ways....always helped me when i needed most. so baba....how can i let you down??
I will not!
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Post by: vidyarp on June 10, 2015, 12:08:16 AM
Baba...whenever i go through the pain...i think "this too shall pass". and that keeps me going. dear lord...please be with me always...
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 17, 2015, 04:19:55 AM
Dear baba....u are my father and mother....and i love my father and mother a lot. Perhaps more than anything in this world. When my son was born, i think that he has also come into this group and now i have 3 people whom i love the most. Baba...my father's happiness is everything to me. Right now - he stays away...near yet far. you know it all. I want to take him with us to see places. I want him to be happy. I know that you are the best judge of things and you are doing what is best for me....still...if i could only take him with us to see the world...if only m will go away....she is unhappy and i am unhappy...best that she goes to a place where things will be good for her...i am not against her baba...but she has never liked me...and she makes it difficult to breath. I feel suffocated. baba...if there is any one thing i can do to achieve this, i will move heaven and earth tp do it.....please...guide me..
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: bhuvana j s on June 19, 2015, 04:58:44 AM
om sai ram om sai ram om sai ram
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 30, 2015, 05:13:49 AM
Dear baba....you know what happened last night. thankfully, she didnt go into the usual histrionics of yelling and screaming. I couldn't take it. She is so bitter towards me.....no love no respect nothing....just hatred....and all her doing...had she treated me with even 1% of love, i think the situation could have been different. But no - she chooses to discriminate, she chooses to bring me down and make me suffer....i have cried a million tears....begged and prayed countless times for the suffering to end. But baba...i dont want to wish her any ill. I dont want unhappiness and bitterness. I want her to acknowledge all the seva i have done..........but baba...i dont know...i am so numb now to anything she says....i cant go beyond this....14 years and still suffering baba....please ....both of us are in pain....and all for what....

she has no gratitude for the small things in life....and just chanting slokas and mantras but with a heavy heart as if its a burden...doesnt help. i appreciate the pain and suffering she has gone through...but is it wise to just keep invoking that all the time?
I dont know baba...i cant say anything....u are the guide..u are the master...all i can say is this too shall pass.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 01, 2015, 10:58:09 PM
Baba....thank you for this day...please give me strength, wisdom and courage to do the right things
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 15, 2015, 12:21:43 AM
Baba...the more i work sincerely, the more you bless me...i can see that. Thank you baba....please let good sense prevail. And give me the strength, wisdom and courage to do the right things
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Post by: vidyarp on July 20, 2015, 10:19:47 AM
Baba...i feel like an absolute idiot!! Am i so stupid? Am i really that dumb?? Why cant i do something that others can do so easily? Baba....its not that i am not trying...i am giving it my all....and yet i fail...day after day...i fail...i keep myself motivated by saying that i wont give up...but honestly....today...i feel like crying...i feel sooo low ....baba....please help me....why cant i do a simple task? Baba.....i am not afraid of trying again and again..i am afraid of giving up.....i am afraid of all the embarassment....and the chance i will give to certain people to laugh at me.....but most of all...i am scared of losing faith on myself and my ability to learn something new...i am scared that i will fail always and will never be able to learn anything new....i am scared.

Baba..please show me the way
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on July 29, 2015, 10:09:47 PM
Baba...please bless us all...and please make this world a better place to live in.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 02, 2015, 11:08:14 PM
Baba...why does he say all those hurtful things? where is love? I know it does not exist. And i know thats how life will be.
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Post by: vidyarp on August 06, 2015, 04:11:10 AM
Baba...thank you...for helping with my new activity. I never thought i could do it :) With your grace i am able to do it. You dont know how much it means to me.
Baba....today i feel like an idiot again...for a different reason. Why cant i stand up and be a little selfish? Why do i let things go? And why do i keep quiet even though i know i am right and the other person is accusing me? Because i hate confrontation. And baba....why cant i summarize and talk clearly? I feel my boss thinks that i mumble and flounder...even though i put in all the hard work. I cant seem to summarize and every conversation/meeting we have - i have him summarizing it for me. I cant stand it. It makes me feel that i am somehow not doing a good job of reaching out to others. baba...this was my skill. then what happened? where did i go wrong? Or is it that he is simply hijacking my conversation and riding piggyback on my workds?? I feel so low today.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 20, 2015, 05:37:52 AM
Baba...thanks to you - i have let go of my fear and did the activity i started 2 months ago. Thank you...and thank you for helping me through my son....he was with me...prompting me to do it....what a great support he is. Please bless him always and be with him...he is a sensitive child and a very compassionate one at that. Please protect him in this big world.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 20, 2015, 10:51:14 PM
Baba...i have let myself down...i could have done so much more...you have blessed me and i have the blessings of my parents....yet i chose a life of mediocrity...i was self deluded and felt that i was doing the right thing by not pushing myself...i want an easy life....watching tv, reading book, eating and sleeping...how foolish!! every phase in life is meant for a certain thing and one has to work accordingly.
Baba....please help me to shed my inhibitions...please help me to get rid of any ego...i surrender to you and baba...on my part...i will push myself hard and do what i am supposed to do...i wont let you or my parents down.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on August 24, 2015, 01:10:52 AM
Baba...we all lack gratitude....that sense of thankfulness...that feeling of giving back what we got....its so missing....we dont count our blessings and we keep cribbing about the issues we face....we dont look at the small mercies you have showered on us...we focus on the challenges you have brought our way....we look at others with a tinted glass and yet we see ourselves as right...always right! No baba...this is wrong..
Please let people feel gratitude...we need to look at ourselves and be happy from within. No money, no job, no material wealth will bring that happiness....its only for us to find it within ourselves. And it all starts by counting what we have and feeling happy about it.
I have lost my mother....and yet baba...you got my father closer to me....and i am thankful for that. Baba....you got me into my dream company...even though i dont like the politics there and the people there...yet you gave me that satisfaction of making it on my own. I thank you for that....
Thanks for everything dear lord.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 03, 2015, 01:23:29 AM
baba...that young child is gone....i feel so sad. Life is so unpredictable
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on September 10, 2015, 11:04:31 PM
Baba...i think i know why she is here in my life. To teach me to be stronger and braver. To help me become thick skinned. It would never have been possible without her. All my life i have been a good girl...obedient, teacher's pet, disciplined, studious and always putting others needs over mine. i have bent backwards to accommodate many people. I have said yes when i wanted to say no. And now...i have this strange sense of freedom. Its as if i dont care what people think of me...as if i am secretly happy that she is trying to rattle me and yet i am unfazed. I dont know what it is...but i am past the point of caring what she says and thinks about me. I still care what she says and thinks about my father....but that too shall be overcome. I cant live my life thinking and worrying about what others say about me. In fact i am glad that she is worrying about my happiness...it means she is jealous. She has the most crookedest minds in the world and absolutely the most suspicious person on earth. wont be surprised if she sets of PI on me. As if i care....i dont. And i think thats what was your objective of having me to deal with her. It makes me stronger. I have reached a dangerous level of independence where i cant seem to care what she thinks of me.
baba...and i think this is also a reminder for me to focus on my job. I always cribbed and complained about it. But no baba...no more. I am thankful to you for helping me to stay away from her for most parts of the day. I dont deal with her as much as i could be, had i stayed at home. I am financially independent. And i dont care.
Yet baba...i pray for peace and harmony. we are going to be visiting you soon...baba...please no sparks during the trip.
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Post by: vidyarp on September 29, 2015, 05:57:18 AM
My dear baba.....thank you for giving us a very good darshan at shirdi. The trip went off well and no sparks thankfully. M behaved. baba....please let life be peaceful. Let there be love and harmony. I want my son to do well in life. baba...when i visited you...i couldnt stop crying...why? And the only thing i told you was to take care of my mother...who is already with you. Baba...please bless my father and son. My husband as well. They are the only important people in my life. without them i am nothing. take care of them baba. And baba....i have made a resolution that i will take care of myself now on. enough of letting myself go waste. No more. I have but one life...and i owe it to you.
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Post by: vidyarp on November 16, 2015, 12:31:10 AM
Why this mindless killing baba? Why?? And all in the name of God??How can someone make you happy by destroying families, cities, countries, earth....where is love? Where are the feelings of compassion and devotion? Why are people so radical in their thought? Its always my way or the highway. Why?
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Post by: vidyarp on December 13, 2015, 10:32:31 PM
baba...please take care of my father...and please help my son. they both are such wonderful people...so loving and caring....not only towards me, but towards nature and everyone. Please keep them happy and safe at all times.
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Post by: vidyarp on December 18, 2015, 12:06:41 AM
Dear baba...am i not doing what i should be doing? why the search for something meaningful? Why do i have the desire to do something else? I dont know what that something else is? People say follow your dream...passion...do what you love. I dont know baba. My passion is listening to good music. I cant possibly make money by listening to music. I guess we have to do what we need to do to be able to do what we want to do.
So its ok. I am thankful to you for giving me what i have....it enables me to enjoy what i like...thank you
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Post by: vidyarp on January 04, 2016, 12:55:11 AM
happy new year baba. The holiday was good...a little sad with what happened to her. Please take care of all dear lord. I feel sad for my father as well. Please take care of him.
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Post by: vidyarp on January 12, 2016, 01:18:15 AM
Baba...today is amma's birthday. 7 years ago, this day, my world came to an end. I got to know about my mother's cancer. I can still remember each and every minute of that day. 7 years, the pain is not less. Amma i miss you. Appa misses you. We love you. Be happy where ever you are.
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Post by: vidyarp on January 19, 2016, 12:50:50 AM
Baba...i hate to get caught on the wrong foot. Especially when my m is concerned. She will now go on and on about it for the rest of the year. I cant take it baba. she flared up so unnecessarily yesterday. why shout at the child? she is crazy...and i have to put up with her. There is no bone in my body that has any love for her. she has ensured that. years of stress and sadness, pain and grief have made me this way. Is there no respite baba?? What should i do? Please take her away from us. thats the best thing that can happen to me.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 27, 2016, 04:08:03 AM
Baba..appraisals for year 3 done. I got a decent hike. Much more than what i expected. No shares. A bit of a let down...but the hike made up for it i guess. I think this was more of a course correction than anything. But theek hai. i am not worried. we all get what we deserve and what you deem is right for us + when you deem it right for us. So am not going to crib. Thank you dear lord
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Post by: vidyarp on January 28, 2016, 11:28:45 PM
Om sai sharanam baba....please take care of my family. Bless us all with health happiness harmony
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 01, 2016, 09:53:04 PM
Om sai sharanam baba....today is my baby's birthday. As he turns 10, i just want to pray for his happiness, health and success. Make him a good human being baba and help him to stay positive. Help him to become something in life. I want him to be happy and successful in whatever he wishes to do. I want him to enjoy his work and his life. I want him to have a happy family. please shower your blessings on him dear lord.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 03, 2016, 03:16:18 AM
Baba...please help me to focus...let me not be afraid of the work and effort involved....i must work hard and smart and shine....and same for my baby...he is a gem of a person...Let us not bind ourselves with the fear of unknown...please help me to start and stay focussed.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: ShAivI on February 04, 2016, 01:02:44 AM

OM SAI RAM!!!

Sharing..... beautiful n motivational article received
from one of Sai Devotee through WhatsApp ........

For all our working women....

Chetan Bhagat’ s Article in TOI this month :
Specially for Indian Women

Alright, this is not cool at all.

A recent survey by Nielsen has revealed that Indian women are
the most stressed out in the world:
87% of our women feel stressed out most of the time.
This statistic alone has caused me to stress out.
Even in workaholic America, only 53% women feel stressed.

What are we doing to our women?
I'm biased, but Indian women are the most beautiful in the world.
As mothers, sisters, daughters, colleagues, wives and
girlfriends - we love them.
Can you imagine life without the ladies?

For now, i want to give Indian women five suggestions to
reduce their stress levels.

One, don't ever think you are without power.
If your mother in law doesn't like you.
Leave her views for her.
Be who you are, not someone she wished you would be.
She doesn't like you?
That's her problem.

Two, if you are doing a good job at work
and your boss doesn't value you -tell him that, or quit.
Talented, hard-working people are much in demand.

Three, educate yourself, learn skills - figure out
ways to be economically independent.

So next time your husband tells you that you are not a
good enough wife, mother or daughter-in-law,
you can tell him to take a hike.

Four, do not ever feel stressed about having
a dual responsibility of family and work.
It is difficult, but not impossible.
The trick is not to expect an A+ in every aspect of your life.
You are not taking an exam, and you frankly
can't score cent per cent (unless you are in SRCC, of course).
It is okay if you don't  do four dishes for lunch,
one can fill their stomach with one.
It is okay if you don't work until midnight
and don't get a promotion.
Nobody remembers their job designation on their dying day.

Five, most important,
don't get competitive with other women.
Someone will make a better scrapbook for her school project than you.
Another will lose more weight with a better diet.
Your neighbor may make a six-dabba tiffin
for her husband, you don't - big deal.
Do your best, but don't keep looking out for the report card,
and definitely don't expect to top the class.
There is no ideal woman in this world,
and if you strive to become one, there will be only one thing
you will achieve for certain - STRESS.

So breathe, chill, relax.
Tell yourself you are beautiful,
do your best and deserve a peaceful life.
Anybody trying to take that away from you is
making a mistake, not you.
Your purpose of coming to this earth is not to please everyone.
Your purpose is to offer what you have to the world,
and have a good life in return.
The next time this survey comes,
i don't want to see Indian women on top of the list.
I want them to be the happiest women in the world.

Cherish Womanhood!!


Be Happy, Be positive and Be Strong!

OM SAI RAM, SRI SAI RAM, JAI JAI SAI RAM !!!
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on February 07, 2016, 09:43:24 PM
Thank you so much for this wonderful message. It is exactly what i needed to see.

Baba has blessed me with such good friends. I am eternally grateful to you.
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Post by: vidyarp on February 22, 2016, 11:36:29 AM
Om sai sharanam baba. Please take care of my son. I feel i have neglected his studies. He is a good child. Please let him not be like me...let him shine bright
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Post by: vidyarp on February 29, 2016, 10:12:15 AM
baba..please help me. I am jealous..and jealous of my own people. I cant get any worse. But baba...i cant help it. All the things i wanted, all that i worked for, all that i am capable of...is bearing fruit for someone else. I know i should be very happy...and i am..but somwhere in my heart, icant stop feeling that i could have got all this. I sacrificed so much for the sake of family....baba..its so wrong....when we were young, our parents always told us that girls are equal to boys and there is nothing that girls cant achieve. Once you get married and have a family, then the whole thing spins out of control. You are getting better and better at work but then family asks you to slow down...you are caught between family responsibilities and your basic intention to excel. You give up so many things just to walk that thin line. Why baba? Why cant families be more understanding? Or perhaps baba...i should not have been a good student and a good professional...i feel bad when i dont give my best at work...i dont want to be mediocre...and yet thats what i am doing. i hate myself for putting me in this position. Maybe i shouldnt have married..or maybe i should learn to be content with whatever is happening...after all things arent so bad...but i am not happy. I am forever in a battle with myself...unhappy and resentful. How can this be baba?if i am not at peace with myself, how can i be a good example to my son?
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: sawan on March 02, 2016, 07:05:54 AM
Sai baba waiting for your reham nazar on my daddy....kripa sai kripa..om sai nathaye namah
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 18, 2016, 11:30:34 AM
baba...thank you for my son's report. he has done well i think. Please be with him always
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 22, 2016, 04:37:45 AM
Thank you mere malik. You have given my son the desired result. I am forever indebted to you. I will be your faithful and humble servant baba...please take care of all
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 05, 2016, 12:10:56 AM
baba...it was horrible...the entire episode in C with my husband and father. Its like a very bad dream. but sadly its true. I cant get over it, Please help baba. My father is a good man. I want to see him happy. As for m, i cant do anything. its all in your hand.

why are things so complicated? My trip coincides with my sons exams. I am backing out of the trip. I dont feel ripped apart. Rather i feel good that i made a choice. its ok maybe....i know my career wont move much ahead...i still need the job for the money...and i need to keep doing what is required. But beyond that, i cant strive for things that do not line up with my son's priorities. Am i a bad professional? have i accepted that i can get passed over by others? I dont know
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 28, 2016, 10:39:32 PM
Baba...R continues to be a complete idiot. So much of ego and so much of anger....its bad karma for him. I wish things would improve. I am stressed. What to do?
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Post by: guptrajesh31 on May 25, 2016, 10:40:10 PM
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Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on June 10, 2016, 01:36:26 AM
baba...aaj bahut dino baad...i feel angry and grumpy...at everything i guess. Work life sucks...and folks at home are no better....i sometimes feel like just running away for a week...all by myself....
its not fair dear lord....what happened in C was sooo bad and stressful. And now all this nonsense at work and home. Baba...cant take this anymore'
but wait...as i write, i start thinking about how many people who would give their right arm to be in my shoes. Instead of being grateful, i am cribbing. Sorry. I wont. I accept that this is part of life...u have good days and bad days....whatever it is...it will pass
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Post by: vidyarp on June 30, 2016, 12:18:51 AM
Dear baba. I had the most wonderful vacation last week and the most memorable trips in recent times. We had so much of fun and we bonded so well. Then i fell sick on the last day and felt so miserable. And now that i am back to the routine, my pain is increasing exponentially. I am suffering so much. Is it for all the fun i had? All the food i ate? All the sites i enjoyed?
baba....please grant me one last wish on this topic. I know i have let u down and even letmyself down so many times. Its hard to trust me i guess. But baba....please if you give me one last chance at this, i will not let u down. I will do everything i have to do. Please. Please get rid of the pain.
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Post by: vidyarp on December 20, 2016, 03:56:44 AM
Baba...i have not been regular in posting. But i think of you. I have wasted so many years baba....and i am doing the same thing over and over again. And i expect different results everytime. How foolish of me baba. Please baba...i know that i am a   mediocre person, but i have done my parents proud when i was younger. Baba...please can i not get that spark back?? Please show me the way.
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Post by: vidyarp on January 09, 2017, 04:38:06 AM
Thank you baba for the wonderful time last week. I am so happy that my father enjoyed it. he is a good man dear lord. Please give him all the happiness he deserves. I know i dont feel good about m. But what can i do? She treats me very badly. i dont like it. baba...please have some mercy on me. Thanks for everything baba
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Post by: shalabh on January 22, 2017, 08:24:32 PM
Thank you baba for the wonderful time last week. I am so happy that my father enjoyed it. he is a good man dear lord. Please give him all the happiness he deserves. I know i dont feel good about m. But what can i do? She treats me very badly. i dont like it. baba...please have some mercy on me. Thanks for everything baba



Go  to Shirdi, jai shree  sai


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shalabh
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 22, 2018, 12:34:54 AM
Baba...i feel sooo angry and disappointed. Nothing is going to change and i will continue to tolerate this idiotic woman. She has no sense and is constantly complaining and telling lies. How can you allow this baba? why should i suffer? Why cant i have a good life? Is it too much to ask? I know whatever happens is because of your will. And i am sure you have your reasons. But baba...is there any end in sight? Maybe i will be the one to end and not her idiocy. Please have some mercy. I know there are people in this world with more complex issues and my issue maybe trivial. But baba....for me this is the issue. I am so fed up.

But baba...i can tell you this. I am not bowing down to pressure. I am not a doormat. I am strong because i am right and i have your support. So nothing is going to deplete me of my energy. I will do better, be better and prove her wrong this time and everytime
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Post by: vidyarp on January 31, 2018, 02:20:23 AM
Baba...yesterday was a day of contrasts. On one hand i got a wonderful news and i was so happy...then on the other hand my son let me down so badly. I was so upset. Baba...i dont know how i can get things to go my way. But i know for sure, just sitting and brooding will take me nowhere. I need to overcome this. Please baba....make my son realize that he  has to work for getting something. He takes it so lightly and easy. He is intelligent but very non serious. Please make him realise his mistakes. I want him to succeed in life.
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Post by: vidyarp on February 03, 2019, 10:50:13 PM
Dear baba. I have not been writing to you but we have spoken to each other over the last 1 year. 2019 started on a tough note. But i think this is a wakeup call. I have been in my comfort zone for too long. This is not who i am. I need to be better and work more. I was angry, hurt and upset but secretly grateful to you for creating this discomfort. It now allows me to work towards a different goal. I just hope my inherent inertia does not kill this. There are many more things i can do and so much i can achieve. Please let me be strong and have faith in myself and most importantly i turn my thoughts to actions. Just reading books and watching videos is not going to lead me to where i want to go.
Thank you baba...for making me uncomfortable in my current situation
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Post by: vidyarp on May 01, 2019, 06:14:23 AM
As my son rightly said - one year in the making!! Thats what it has taken for me to get a trip organized for my father to see the world. He is a good man baba. He deserves to be happy. I could not do anything for my mother, But i am not going to make that mistake with my father. I spoke to him just now. he is in NY. so happy. i feel good. And baba...you know what...just for this very thing, i can keep working in this useless team. At least i make the money. I also get to be with my son. So yes...even though work sucks, its ok. I will count my blessings. But baba...please do something about m. She is the bane of my life. she is soul sucking dementor.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on May 01, 2019, 10:11:29 AM
I have put my faith in you my lord. I believe in you. I know that you work in mysterious ways. So i shall continue doing my things while you do your thing
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 09, 2019, 08:58:35 AM
18 long years baba! Even lord ram didnt have to suffer so much. His vanwaas was for 14 years. I have suffered for 18 years now and still no sign of any respite. But for the first time today baba...i feel proud of myself for standing up to what i believe is correct. She is a mean, wily, scheming and vindictive person. While i know i can never think what she is going to do next, i will take care of myself and my family. I have had enough of the bullying, passive aggressive behavior. I have you and i have my mother's blessings. I can tolerate anything but not against my father and son. They are good human beings, gentle souls and if i have to rip her apart for being such a useless person, so be it. Imagine...she is talking ill about her own grandson. Shame on her! But baba...thanks for R. He stood by like a rock. I know i cant push it a lot with him. You never know when the tables will turn. But i will be careful and measured in my ways. Stay with me baba. stay with me and keep me safe
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Post by: vidyarp on November 11, 2019, 10:16:58 AM
Deh shiva var mohe ihe shubh karman te kabahoo na daro

Bas baba....thats the thing i need. Courage and ability to standup and defend myself. I am not wrong. I know it and you know it. So let petty minds do what they want. I will not sit back and take all that nonsense. Enough is enough. I am going to live my life...free. No more tears, silent grief, pain and suffering.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 13, 2019, 06:15:03 AM
Baba you are all pervasive. You know it all. So you know what the truth is. I am not going to explain to them. Petty minds can wallow in self pity and hatred for others. I am not petty. I will rise up and beyond. Thanks for the support baba
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 23, 2019, 09:04:58 AM
Baba you know the truth. How much can I take this nonsense? She is an arrogant and malicious lady. But I have nowhere to go. Only you. Please help
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 23, 2019, 10:22:46 AM
You are all I have. I am in your sharan
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 25, 2019, 02:11:10 AM
This is getting to be so frustrating. I dont know what to do. I am putting my best foot forward and marching on. I am putting up a brave face and a i-dont-care-what-she-thinks attitude. but the fact is that i care. Peace and harmony at home matter to me. They are important. So why should i bend down to a low level and accept all the nonsense rubbish she is telling. I cant stand the sight of her. She makes me sick with her evil mind and malicious tongue. PLease baba...show some mercy. Please make her go away.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 25, 2019, 10:34:54 PM
After a great deal of searching here and there, i realized yesterday that i was being foolish. How can i trust another mortal to look at ways and means to help me. When i didnt consult an astrologer when my mother was dying, then why should i consult an astrologer now? M is a thorn in my happy life. she is the irritant that i have to ensure; the chains in my free life. But its your will. You want me to learn and endure. then so be it. I will not fight it. I say bring it on. I will deal with it. you are with me baba. I have nothing to fear. She can say what she wants, do what she wants. I will suffer for some time i know that. I will suffer for nofault of mine. She is malicious and vindictive, jealous and mean. So i wont be surprised if she does things to hurt me physically and emotionally. But i am strong. I have you. I will not bend and i will not break. I will do what i think is right. I will not fight and leave my home. This is my home. My husband brought me here and i will go only when he decides that we move out. But after 2023, i will not stay here. I will move out. Nobody can stop me then. For my son, i will stay here. I am in 2 minds actually - to move now or move in 2023. I dont knw what to choose. If i move now, it will be the best. But i dont know if this will happen. I have put my faith in you. I dont want any more bad blood. I just want her to go away from our life. She has bad mouthed everyone i know. My father has borne the brunt of her ridiculus behaviour. I want him to be happy. I want to live in a happy home. I want my son to live in a happy home. Please grant me my wish baba. And soon.
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on November 27, 2019, 04:05:40 AM
Om gan ganapataye namaha
Om sai namo namaha

Please baba...nothing is more important than you. If you are there and i know that you are there - no evil can touch us
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on December 05, 2019, 02:38:14 AM
Swami daya karo
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on January 06, 2020, 01:34:37 AM
Om sainath. Happy new year
Please let this year bring good health and peace of mind to all of us. I wish that things improve at home and we move out. Living with her is impossible. Please help baba. Bless my child with good luck and success. Let there be peace and harmony in our life

thanks
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 01, 2020, 01:39:30 AM
Baba...it is getting impossible to live with her. Her cruel, cunning and under handed ways are affecting my peace and health. My son has to focus on his studies and his future. Living here is a hell and i am not able to take it anymore. Fortunately R is supportive and stands by me all the time. How can we live like this baba? PLease have mercy. I am seeking your blessings to start looking for a new house. Will it materialize soon? PLease baba...help me. We need to move out
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on March 02, 2020, 04:17:36 AM
With so much happening on personal and nothing happening on professional life - i think it is my attitude that needs fixing. I am realizing that i have become bitter and negative. I find myself overthinking and overanalyzing. I know that she is still a poisonous snake yet i am thinking about her and how to handle her. isnt she winning after all? She has managed to upset me, disrupt my peace and happiness and mental calm? Isnt that her end goal? and i am only helping her. So its me who needs fixing. I have to ignore her. And i have to think happy thoughts. i have to be positive and everything will be alright. She is not worth my attention
Title: Re: Conversation with Baba....my true friend
Post by: vidyarp on April 05, 2020, 12:59:58 PM
Baba... the world is facing a grim situation. But my life is stuck in a limbo. I am forever waiting for things to happen.. for my life to improve... finally live a life of freedom and dignity. But I continue to wait. Baba... have I not been good. Have I harmed people? Then why can't I get happiness and peace? I am tired of waiting. 20 years baba...even Lord Ram had it better. Am I to be tested so much? Will I ever live happily? I don't know...I give up
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Post by: vidyarp on April 11, 2020, 10:22:25 AM
sai reham nazar karna.

Please shower your mercy on my family. My father is a wonderful man. And my son is the most loving person. My husband is a genuine person. Please take care of them. And i am your sharanagathi. i am putting my whole self in your care baba. I dont have my mother. Things would have been so different with her around. Now i have only u. Please take care