Dear saib...
I am really thankful to you for helping me out. The practical part of me kept telling that i should not worry...but the emotional part kept saying negative things and made me confused and upset. And now when i read your reply, i was so happy because i know now that i need to live in the present and work hard and smart to achieve happiness. Like u said - happiness is not a single point in time...its a continuous journey and we can be really happy if we choose to be at any point in life. as u rightly said - i kept thinking of a job change and was miserable for the last 2 years. I kept telling baba that i will be happy if only i could get a better job that pays well and gives a good environment. And baba blessed me with exactly that type of job and again this was sheer luck and baba's grace. Now that i had a job that i prayed for, i thought i would be happier...but no i wasnt. Now i realize its my mistake.
Thank you very much saib ji....for making me see the right path....
May baba bless u and be with u always..