Sometimes i wonder - if quitting is an option...maybe not the best way...because where ever i go, politics will be there...people who are useless would be ur boss and u urself will not have a say in the system...so maybe changing jobs is not an option...but changing ur mindset is???
Ok - thinking out loud - what if i just observed the system from an outside view and just let things go as they are, i continue doing my job but w/o ruffling feathers...that would mean i am not on top of the order...but i survive and get the paycheck...for mental satisfaction, i need perfection and control on something else...music maybe!! or my grand plans for F!!! How about that??This way, even though i am deprived of satisfaction at work...i derive that pleasure in something else....and the job also helps me to fund my passion!!!!
So i think i need to change my mindset....how long can i keep running from one job to another...only to find that the same thing happens everywhere. I thought H was bad...came to I...which was pathetic....now am at D and find this one also crappy...then there is no guarantee that i will find a politics free - great work place as my next employer. It only means i need to work on my mindset....
My problem is right now i dont have any satisfaction or pride in anything i do. No sense of control and mastery. And thats what makes me feel so bad. And since i dont have the say at home due to M, i look for satisfaction at work...that too is missing ...and then i have no mastery over my hobby - music / reading. Now reading comes easily...but u cant really master it. So that means i need to master music....and at the same time i need to look at funding my passion....so quitting wont help. But no need to take the bull by the horns at work...let things go in their own pace....dont rock the boat...and find ways to become self sufficient....
phew...lots of gyaan