Baba...its a slap on my face. Thats what it is. And u have basically told me that in this lifetime, i will never lead the life i want to lead. I will never have peace of mind and happiness in my family, because my share of happiness was already consumed in my early years before i got married. And now that my quota of happy family is over and done with, i will continue to lead this life of frustration, dis satisfaction, degradation and pain. I dont know what i would have done in my previous life to deserve this. Surely i would have committed grave sins for which i have to pay now. Baba - dont get me wrong - i am very happy (sincerely and genuinely happy) for S. She is a nice person and deserves a lot of happiness. After all, she has spent the prime time of her life in misery. But baba - can i never be happy?? Can i never keep my father with me?? Do i have to continue to live like this with M?? I have spent 10 years leading this life. I have lost the best years of my life with her being around. And now when things were looking up, u have gone and ensured that I will have no respite. I will have to pay for my sins (although i am not aware of what sins i commited in my previous lifetime). The one sin i commited in this life time, u have payed me back swiftly and it magnifying proportions - i lost my mother. And now u will never let my dream come true...of keeping M away and my father staying with us. Never never never!!!!!! I know i will die wishing for this and this will never happen.....i am so deeply anguished
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