Conversation with Baba....my true friend

[vidyarp]

Good morning baba...things are the same as they were yesterday. R seems worried. And m is as usual. I dont know if this is what life is meant to be. I am suffering from the arthritis pain baba.This is my karma and i'll go through it. but baba...kuchh bhi karo...mujhe dependent mat bana dena kabhi bhi. I want to be self sufficient till the very last breath i take.
Baaki to aapko pata hi hai...so no need to elaborate and daily same baat kya boloo?? So lets leave it at that. Bas baba...show me the way...

[pradeepp]

baba grateful for blessings protection and forgiveness.
baba beg you to continue your grace and blessings to my family  and  me
baba Pl solve all my problems and bring back peace and happiness in my life and continue to protect me from kamal
rajesh and henchmen and also reddy brothers and DRT  case with Kotak  bank
omsai

[vidyarp]

Om sai sharanam sri sai sharanam.....
baba the weekend was good. I was with my father and that is always very good. I want to be with him as much as possible and save him from loneliness. He is a wonderful man and he deserves a lot more happiness. If only i could do something for him...
Apart from that i was suffering from pain baba. Made me realize how i should never take anything for granted and always be thankful for the simple things that i have in life today.
baba - i may not earn million bucks...i may not be the best in my profession..and i may not be the best dil and mother...but i am doing my best. i am trying to balance a lot of things and given these constraints - i think i am fairly well placed. Only thing is that i should not feel sad about all the lost opportunities. Becoz that will not help. And baba...i really want to start a home business or work from home / appas home actually (which will become my office) how do i do it?? I am at a loss here. So help me to find a way baba...please.

[vidyarp]

Baba...ab aur kitna sehna padega? I am sooo frustrated and angry. I dont know if i need to feel so bad right now. Maybe i am over reacting. But i am so upset with what is being given to me. And they dont know but they are ruining themselves with the way they work. So god help them. But baba - please help me to get a job before that.

[vidyarp]

Dear baba - are you simply testing me?? Looks like it is:) So fine - test me all that u can...i may get upset i may falter...but i will never ever give up on you. I believe in you and i believe in myself. Koi bhi problem itni badi nahi hoti agar hum apni poori mehnat aur dimaag lagayein...and of course aap par poora bharosa rakhein....

So here i am baba...i will enjoy all the challenges u heap on me....so bring it on ...with you by my side...nothing can go wrong...everything will be alright

[pradeepp]

baba  I surrender at your  holy feet  and seek  your blessings in
protecting me and family .  baba Pl help in keeping my faith and trust at your  holy feet in face
of all difficulties and tribulations.
omsai

[vidyarp]

baba...umr beet jaati hai intezaar mein. we wait for better times and always hope that good things are round the corner. we dont enjoy what we have today. Its the tomorrow that worries us and keeps us from enjoying our today. So its an illusion. And that tomorrow never comes. like i said earlier -  i thought a good job will make me feel happy. That didnt happen. i wanted to get a higher paying salary and i got it. but did i feel happy? No - now i want more. so basically i am not going to be happy ever if i keep looking for the perfect life - high paying high profile job but with all the flexibility and lack of stress (Imagine!!!). So what do i really want?? I want a balanced life where i am financially independent, where i can take care of my needs and that of my family. where i have the time to spend with my son and enjoy his childhood and see him grow. i know i am killing my ambitions (which are now secondary - my child and father take highest priority) and letting go of things which my parents have worked hard to give me. They have toiled hard and long to make me what i am. And i cannot just giveit all up or walk away from it. But can i sustain the balance?? I dont knw...am i rambling here??? anyway - baba...u know how it is...so i'll stop it here. good night

[pradeepp]

baba ever  grateful for all your blessings and miracles in my  life. koti  koti  pranams for your guidance and protection . baba I continue to pestering you everyday. baba  beg you to continue to bless and protect my family  and me. baba  Pl arrange  funds today morning to enable  neha  meet  commitment of cheques issued for  kondapur rent and security deposit .
satisfy should not  deposit cheques today  nor phone  neha .
baba  scb should  return  my pune property papers  today and despatch from Mumbai.
baba  no phone calls  or house visit by Sbi  and andhra bank .
omsai

[vidyarp]

baba...i am feeling restless. So that's nothing new. I've been doing the rounds for the past 4 years. Its the feeling of sheer depression and helplessness and unworthiness, then i crib and complain; i try to motivate myself and if luck is onmy side, i do manage to do very well for few days. I feel good about my work, about my life and about my situation in life. And the euphoria lasts till the next round of depression hits me. And then it starts all over. So basically i m not doing anything worthlwhile. I am still at the same spot where i was 4 -5 years ago. That makes me mad!! I mean how can i do this to myself?? Sir was right - we all keep praying god do this help us with that and save me from this and that. we never pray to god to say please give me the strength to bear this situation and the wisdom and courage to move to a better direction. So baba...its ok for me to be restless because i should feel th pain of my current situation. Only then will i try to overcome it.

[vidyarp]

Baba...really i think i am the pits!!Imagine - i keep jeopardizing myself again and again. I set myself up for failure and then crib and complain. God - is there no end to it?? enough vidya- stop fooling yourself! U know u have to focus on 4 items - one is BAU (that has to happen, no way out), then u have a short term objective (which in my opinion - u should do first along with managing BAU. It will help in upcoming talks and boost ur confidence and knowledge), then u have a medium term objective (which should be done after doing th short term one because this is an add on to your current skills. So u need to be pakka in ur current skills and then look at adding over and above), and finally is the long term goal which requires some serious investments in terms of learning a totally new area and making time for practising it. So no confusion only concentration on the objectives in order of priority.

[vidyarp]

baba...thank you for your grace. Otherwise i would have had a tough time yesterday. So thank you for saving me from the accident. I bow to you.
U know it all...so am not going to say it again. I just wish to make more time to be around my son and help him with his studies, play with him rather than attend to stupid conference calls. But then where do i get the money to have that luxury??? such a catch 22 situation na?
Baba...pleasebe with me in this journey.

[vidyarp]

dear baba....please give me the strength wisdom and courage to go through the grind...and baba please help with the niggling issues.

[vidyarp]

baba..long time...busy week. U know what happened on 1st sept!! Its ridiculous...and i am so sad for my father. why do good people always hav to suffer?why dont ppl like my mil who is really the greatest gossip monger on earth suffer? why does she get away with all the wrong doings and nothing happens to her!! This beats me..

[vidyarp]

Baba..you are the best judge of what we all deserve...But i do agree that not everyone has the life he/she wants. There will be a black spot in every one's lives. I guess my black spot is m. Cant let her go and cant be with her. I feel sad that we dont get along. And u knw what happned the other day...i got sooo upset....And r got so angry....and truth prevailed (i would like to believe that...kyunki baba aapke saamne i will never lie) and u know the outcome. Somehow i am glad that r knows and i am also sad that it had to happen this way. I hate it when r loses his head and talks like that abt a. Please baba...let everything be alright.
I know very soon the time will come for me to choose a tough option...and i hope to god and you that whatever may be the decision...a should always be with us and k should always be with a. I hate it when m tries to poison k's mind...so wicked and evil i say. but baba...theek hai...u knw what's best...
take care of all baba...and hope i reach home safe and sound.

[vidyarp]

Dear baba...am back. U know how things are at home and at work. My mind is split..i seem to be in a trance like state where nothing seems real. And i dont feel like doing anything because of this. Maybe is an excuse for me to slack (wicked girl) but thats how i feel at the moment. I want some  stability and peace in my life...and i am lacking both of them at work and at home. So i am feeling so strang right now. Can things improve? I am hoping they would. and also - i cannot let this feeling take a strong grip on me, it will cost me a lot of effort to overcome it. as it is, i can see the damage i am doing to myself by going back to the poor eating habits. Its not good for me at all. And i am just letting the beast get hold of me and control me. Rubbish i say!! I know i can make a dash for the finish line and i know i can win...but i am lacking something - the will to win. Its almost as if i want to give up and do nothing. Its as if glory means nothing to me. cmon v...u can do better than this. dont let go just when things are looking up for u...
i am convinced that trust is something that i should not break - ever. And i need to be true to myself....and to you. Rest everything will be fine.