Conversation with Baba....my true friend

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There is no such thing as fate. Our karma decides our fate. Isnt that it? But then why do people with good karma suffer so much? Why do we get tested beyond our capacity? Is there no place for goodness, love and kindness?

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Yesterday was a black day. 12 years and again 12th Jan was a black day. Baba i have given up. I can't fight this. Nothing is going right. Its as if the universe waits for me to decide something and gives me the exact opposite. 19+ years of dealing with nonsense person. Then the steady decline in my son's performance. Blow hot blow cold relationship. Can't be with my father who I adore. Work life is draining. Is this life??? How can i expect to live through this? When would i have a better life?

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Given up on all my desires baba. I know i am powerless. I have no hope. I can only wait and pray for a miracle. Other than that - nothing - absolutely nothing is in my favour. Its sad to see good people suffer. Why??? Its as if u have decided that whatever i ask for - will not be granted. No hope for a happy family life - constant tension and unhappiness. No hope to see my son excel - its like whatever effort he puts, he will not get the results. No hope for a good professional life - stagnant and no scope. On top of it - i cant even be with my father. I hate this life baba!!! Actually hate is a strong word. I have resigned to this life. I can ask for anything but u will never give me. I have to beg and plead and grovel at your feet and even then i may never get it. Why?? I have not harmed anyone. Despite all her evil intent, i have not retaliated. For the first time in my life, i stood up for myself and this happens!!!! I give up. I quit baba!! If its about past life karmas - i dont believe in it. Its not fair
u were my only hope and u have also given up. 20 years of suffering...how much more?

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baba...i go from day to day hoping for a change. I know nothing will come easily to me...especially to me. But i live in hope. I dont know what else i can do. I worked hard, i was sincere and yet the promotion never came to me. It went to the most undeserving person. And thats upsetting. But u have plans for me i guess. Then my son worked soooo hard and yet - he scored badly. Its as if u want to prove to me that i am powerless to do anything and i dont deserve it. Why?? whats wrong with us baba? What have we done to get this kind of punishment?
i hope to move out of here...i know there will be lots of drama...and i will feel the heat. But if only u could help baba!!
Make it easier for us please

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From zero to 100 in one year...thats been my journey baba!! Thank you
My dream of 20 years...my sadness, anger, frusrtration of 20 years...is now finally over. Thank you baba....it could not have been done without u. u are almighty. we are just mere pawns in this game. miracles happen and they happen to real people. I had never in my wildest dreams thought that this would happen. The past few years are a blur now. I look forward to my new destination and i know i will be happy there....because thats the place you have chosen for me
just help my son as well baba....he is a good child. and help me in all other areas dear god!

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Om sai sharanam baba!! I am grateful to you for everything. Today, i sit free in my own house - no one to judge me or ridicule me or lie about me. I can eat what i want, do what i want, sit and relax when i want. Freedom is precious baba. I will not trade this for anything in the world. Koti koti pranam baba
Please bless my son baba. he is a good child. has a heart of gold and a strong sense of right and wrong. Help him to do well in life. Please help him academically my lord!

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Ok so baba...when i woke up this morning, i promised myself - i will be the best in what i do and i will not be afraid of anything/anyone.

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Baba...my son is a pure hearted, brave and fearless child. He loves me and has a strong sense of right and wrong. Why is he suffering academically? You know he is brilliant. You know he is sharp. Yet..he does not score well. Every time i see him slip further and further....i am so worried for his future. Please dear lord...shower some mercy on him

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maalik hamare tum baba sai..please work along side my son. He is a good child. Baba...make him mentally tough and strong...he should not doubt himself....

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Om namo bhagwate vasudevaya
Om sai sharanam
Om namah shivay
Gajananam bhootaganadhi sevitham, kappitha jambu palasaara pakshitam, uma sutam soka vinasha kaaranam, namami vighneshwara paada pankajam
sri rama rama raameti rame raame manorame, sahasra naama tattulyam, sri raama naama varaanane

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baba...mind is anxious...heart is fearful....eyes are full of tears....yet i know this too shall pass. Om sai sharanam

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baba...when the mind is full of anxiety and heart is in panic...you shower us with your mercies and blessings. I am positive that things will turn out fine. My son will do very well. He will excel and outshine i know. You are setting him up for success. Om sai sharanam

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om sai sharanam...mann mei hai vishwaas...pura hai vishwaas....aap hain mere saath...and hum honge kaamyaab

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om sai sharanam
Its like i have lost the will to do anything. I am dragging myself down each day
Lethargy and anxiety stalls any progress i want to make. Save me baba.