Dear Nimmiji,
Why is your family upset due to you?You are allowing them to get upset by not taking any action that is required perhaps.Incase it is an issue of marriage,then there are matrimonial sites,where one can register and meet like minded people,if it is related to childlessness, then there are lots of tests and doctors who can help,and yes,in some situations,despite making best efforts,we fail and in that case surrendering to baba is the best solution .Even while we are making efforts,Baba comes in form of people to help us.Taking action is very important because when we break that cycle of expectation ,we attract new situation and it helps us find what we are looking for.
IN case of my marriage,I always asked Baba/God/Universe, to give happiness to everyone.and my belief is that despite whatever sufferings in have come across in my life,the day is NOT FAR when everyone who is related to me ,will find the true meaning of happiness and the reasons of probing within themselves for answers which they have not got even by working hard in their careers,earning lot of money,having lot of name and fame..I am noone..just a form of energy like everyone else,but somehow,Baba is working on all that.I also waited with patience and inactivity because that is what was expected by baba that time,but now even i have to step in this world and take correct action.
So please make some effort to remove the worry and unhappiness of your family.Baba has empowered all of us ,we are not less ordinary.You can be the source ,the reason,the SUN in your family which provides warmth,light and energy to all others.If they see you in a high life state,and if they see you doing things that you should be doing,they will feel less concerned.and Please remember,that we all are alone .That is the truth.Once you will achieve what u are craving for, a new problem will arise, Life does not become rosy or beautiful when we achieve one or two milestones.We keepthinking that i will be happy/parents wil be happy if i marry a good man,if i have good in-laws..and once marriage happens,who knows?what is in store?who knows if one can see or feel motherhood or not?whoknows the baby will be normal?who knows the baby will be safe on roads?who knows husband will always have good job and career?so,life is full of surprises.Just waiting for that ONE day,whenyou will see Shirdi/or Baba/or marriage ..and allowing time to pass by like this,is not the right way i feel.Baba loves you and he will suddenly come,in some form..and u will KNOW it!You will suddenly find yourself in Shirdi one day and wont even know how it happened.So, please do some 'karm'..take some 'action'and leave results to HIM.
Pls donot feel bad as i have writte what i felt was important .I have mentiond all ths due to personal experience in life .and believe me, Right time WILL come.You have to do your best!
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