My Confession

[rajesh_antil]

BABA,
ye kese ajeeb mod per la kar khada kar diya aapne.Aaj tak kitni sari ladkiyon ko propose kiya,,,,accept kiya to theek varna or kisi ko propose kar deta tha. kisi ko seriously nahi liya...kyoki us waqt mere liye pyaar ki koi kimat nahi thi.feelings kya hoti hai ,nahi janta tha mai.mast tha aapne aap mai...per aaj jab mai soch sakta hu,samajh sakta hu to baba mene paya ki I AM IN TRUE LOVE.BABA ye to aap bhi jante ho ke mere liye paise se or apne pariwar se bhad kar khuch bhi nahi tha...per BABA shayad Aapke paas koi plan tha jo aapne mere ander bhi pyaar k beej bo diya.
baba, I AM IN LOVE WITH MY DEAR MAM....
baba, mai unki bohot izat karta hu or bohot pyaar bhi.baba, maine paya ke jab bhi wo mere saath hoti hai mere ander ek ajeeb si shakti or khusi aa jata hai....maine is bare mai bohot socha, din raat,har pal, har ache or bure ke bare mai...or maine paaya ke mai unse pyaar karne laga hu....or baba zindagi mai paheli bar maine sache pyaar ko mehsoos kiya. wo bohot achi hain baba.

baba, wo mujhe bhai manti hai,per baba mere maan mai to esi koi feeling nahi hai.

Mai janta hu ke wo mujh se badi hai...mujhse jyada educated hai,mujhse jyada acchi hai, or mujhse jyada samajhdar hai.... per baba mujhe or mere pariwar ko unki zaroorat hai.zindgi mai pehli baar sacha pyaar kiya hai baba.... paheli bar kise ki khusi dil se chahi hai...mai unka dil duukhana nahi chahta isliye aaj tak unhe bataya nahi...bohot baar koshish ki ki mam ko bata do... per itni himmat nahi hui.

baba,mere pariwar ke baad wo hi mere dil ke sabse karib hai... or isliye shayad himmat nahi ho rahi ke unhe apne pyaar ke bare mai bata du.... darta hu ke kahi unhe hamesha ke liye kho na du... baba mai unke samne ro nahi sakta. wo mere shakti,mere vichar or mere zindgi hai.... I LOVE HER BABA... mujhe shakti do...

BABA PLEASE MUJHE SHAKTI DO KE MAI MAM KE SAMNE APNE DIL KI BAAT KAH SAKU
BABA MUJH PER KIRPA KARO......PLEASE BABA HELP ME ...

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