dear abhi786,
i also passed through similar situation and when ever i was upset i would go to sai baba's temple at LODHi Road (delhi)and would sit there with questions in my mind and tears in my eyes. i have written my experience 2-3 times before on this forum and will repeat for your benefit.
1st incident: i had gone to my gynaec with my mother and was sitting in the waiting hall. There was no one else except us and one more lady and interestingly she started talking on her own and asked me..."do you pray?" adn told me that all the doctors in the city had told her that she could not have kids.....SO SHE STARTED PRAYING TO GOD' and with the blessings of GOD she had three kids......so she asked me to pray to god.. ( she did not tell me which god to pray)
earlier i did not realise the significance of this incident but now when i look back i realise she was sent by sai to urge me to prayer....because till then i just used to pray ...naturally in our Indian families it is more ritualistic to pray and we all pray..... before that time i never realised that GOD IS REALLY NEAR US AND IS LISTENING TO US ALL THE TIME......
2nd incident/ SAI's miracle Anyways, ENCOURAGED BY HER i went to sai baba's temple at LODHI ROAD... (though earlier also i uised to visit the temple but this time i was CURIOUS TO KNOW and test what i had been told that 'GOD LISTENS TO US'........................................ i was standing in a big queue (usually on thurs) and all the time i had a question in my mind.... does god really listen? looking at the huge crowd, i wondered will sai baba listen to everyone's prayers? and i thought ok i will also prayer to sai baba and see what happens... and i asked a lady standing before "what is the procedure to pray to sai?".....Strangely, She did not reply or even talk to me and just turned her face away and i was totally disappointed.... i thought 'sai i just wanted to know how to pray to you ( i mean the fasts etc ) and this lady has turned her face away then how come my bigger desires will be answered".
anyways, i kept moving in the queue and when i came near the murthi, i saw a gorup of three ladies coming from the back doors and one of them was claiming 'BABA KO KABHO BHI AAZMA LENA, BABA HAR ICCHHA POORI KARENGE" this is what i had wanted to hear.....so i came out of the queue and starting talking to this lady... i wanted to confirm that "IF I PRAY TO SAI WILL IT HELP" and told her i wanted to know more about SAI..........then suddenly from amidst the crowd (moving in a queue) and right in front of sai baba's murthi, SOMEONE EXTENDED HIS/HER HAND AND HANDED ME A BOOK and said "YEH WAHAN SE AIYEE HAI"... and my attention was diverted towards the book i was being given.... IT WAS " SAI SATCHARITRA" with an orange cover....AS I TOOK THE BOOK AND LOOKED UP ..... the person had vanished in the crowd..... strangely, even when if some strangers give us prasad they stand in front of us to give prasad..... here this person who gave me the book just showed his/ her face and gave me the book with no rhyme or reason...... HOW DID HE/ SHE KNOW MY STATE OF MIND? WHY WAS ONLY I CHOSEN FROM AMONGST THE CROWD?
the ladies whom i had hardly spoken a few sentences with..... started saying see you had prayed with sincerity and it was answered so sooon.....
anyways
all this incidents were SAI BABA"S LEELAS... the words "BABA KO KABHI BHI AAZMA LENA, BABA HAR ECCHHA POORI KARENGE" and also "yeh wahan se aiyee hai" still ring in my ears.... that day i thought "my desires will be fulfilled" and within six months i conceived... aftter the birth of my daughter. I was very happy to have my daughter and infact, extremely happy and did not even think about having another child; there was no place for any one else in my life..... but when she was just nine months old...... due to sai baba's blessings i conceived again and got a son this time...probably because in my prayers i always asked for three kids... i cannot count the blessings of SAI towards my Son also, he is still not three years old and has suffered two skull fractures....but DUE TO GRACE OF SAi, both the times it was a hairline fracture and his brain was safe.... I still pray to sai to be with my kids all the time and take care of them.....
so my advise to you is that pray..... FORM THE ONE TO ONE CONNECTION WITH SAI AND TELL HIM YOUR DESIRES AND ASK HIM TO FULFIL...... also i think sai gives us messages from time to time through someone, whenever you are talking to someone listen for some signals from GOD .... like the lady who first asked me "do you pray?"
IIndly, as i think venkatji has written on his website.... we should do daan in the area of life we are experiencing pain .... like i am trying to establish my career so i liked his suggestion to make study -related donations to school going kids..... so similarly, maybe if you start donating to kids charities or orphanages....probably sai will listen to you sooner than later.......
Finally, be happy and joyous when both of you are together....
i pray to sai that he blesses all the couples who are going through similar situation.......