Sai Ram and Happy Thursday to brothers and sisters
I’m Revathy and I’m from Malaysia. This is a very interesting topic but I have a very long story. Baba’s way is always unique. Remember how Baba drew Lakshmichand to Him? Baba said that ‘let My devotee be at any distance, even at thousands miles away, he will be drawn to Shirdi, like a sparrow with a thread tied to his feet’. Anywhere Baba is, that is also similar to Shirdi itself as Baba confessed that seeing Him in picture is equivalent to seeing him in person.
None of my family members are devoted to Sai. Once I knew very little about Sai. It was not till my dad was terminally ill, I got to know little bit about Sai. My ex-boyfriend used to take me to Satya Sai Centre. That is where I saw Shirdi Sai for the first time. However, that centre focused more Satya Sai. I’m not a believer but I was so desparate and was trying anything possible to save my father. I prayed hard and even wrote letters asking for cure for my father. However, at the end my father died. I became so frustrated and gave up praying. Till then I was still unaware of Shirdi Sai.
After my father passed away a year ago, I faced many problems (Even now I’m having some problems). I was a good student, but my marks regressed. Our relatives neglected us. My younger sister and my mum were having arguments. My sister left home due to a misunderstanding even before my dad passed away, probably that was what made my father’s health affected. She hasn’t returned even after my father’s death. My sister is like my best friend , my father was the only one I counted so much. Losing both of them at about the same time really affected me much. Then, my ex-boyfriend also kind of neglected me despite he knew I was having many problems. I was all alone by then. Even my friends did not care much for me, they had their own issues and problems. It is true that people like to hear our happiness and not our sadness. I often cried in my room (I’m staying in college hostel, far away from home).
I cried for many days, till one day I feel something is urging me to google about Sai. That was when I get to know Shirdi Sai Baba, and there is something called Sri Sai Satcharita. I wasn’t taking anything so seriously. I kept on googling more, found some songs and I found a site
www.yoursaibaba.com. It states think of Sai, a number will come in your mind, it will answer you. Firstly, I got a statement that I will travel. Shortly after, I travelled to my hometown. Then, I went to buy new God picture for my house with my mum. I wanted to get the picture of Lord Shiva, as my father was His devotee. Anyway, my mum asked me to get Shirdi Sai Baba picture instead and the weird thing was she was not a Baba’s devotee. That’s how Sai came to my house. On the way back, something urged me to stop at Baba’s centre along the same road. I entered the centre which once I came with my father when he was ill (he wasn’t a believer either, a friend invited him to come). I saw Sai Satcharita, it costed RM40. I opened my purse, there was exactly the same amount, not more or less. It was as if telling me that the money was made for Satcharita. That’s how I got my precious Satcharita.
When I returned college, one day a friend of mine asked me to accompany her to do shopping. I was hesitating because I had nothing to do there. However, my friend got disappointed to the extent that she posted in facebook about her sadness. I felt guilty, then I drew a tick and a cross in a chit, asked Sai if I should go or not, the reply was a tick. I believed Sai though I had nothing to do there. The next day, I got my answer, why Sai wanted me to go. Firstly, there was sudden disconnection of electricity in my college , if I stayed I couldn’t even use my laptop to finish my assignment. Secondly, Sai made both of us get lost in the new place, after a long walk, guess what I found a Sai centre. I never knew there centre existed there before. That’s how Sai pulled me to His house.
This is another story that I feel I must share. I have many close Christian friends. They have been very helpful. When my father was sick and shortly after he passed away, they really tried hard to bring me to Christ. I do not know what to do. One night I had a dream, I was in the middle of offering prayer to Sai, then I saw a group of Christians whom I do not know. One elderly man questioned my prayer for Sai and acted wild by pushing the table in which I put fruits and lighted incense sticks for Sai. I felt hurt and started crying. Then, suddenly I heard a song , it was a Baba’s song being sung in a little voice. I turned and I saw a small boy. He was fair and very bright. I rushed to him and hugged him, and asked him who he is? And He replied I am Baba. I woke up shortly after that. That’s how Baba convinced me that He is already with me, what else I have to fear and worry?
Another day, when I was reading a blog, I came across how many Hindus were converted to other religions for many reasons. Anyway, the author gave an example, how Baba dislikes people who convert their religion which is like their Father. Who can change our Father? The author also gave example how he behaved when he asked to convert. He just kept quiet, letting them to talk about their religion. He could have shared about Sai’s miracle but does our Sadguru likes us to boast about Him? So he kept quiet. Not till 2 days later, I understood why I read the blog. I encountered the similar experience, when a big group of my Christian friends visited me and tried to convince me to accept Christ. I behaved exactly like the way the author behaved when he encountered such situation. I listened to them and I talked nothing great about Sai. I understood that the blog was Baba’s prophecy and his Upadesh for me. Few days later, I was crying in front of Baba, asking Him to send a friend for me share my sad feelings. Suddenly, my ex-roomate came to visit me, she is a Christian but she is very kind. I asked her how did she want to visit me, she herself was not sure. She said that she felt like Jesus asked her to visit me. I was amazed! I asked to Sadguru Sai and Jesus responded? That was how Baba confirmed me that He is one with Jesus. I even told my ex-roomate about this and she was speechless.
Now I fully believe in Baba. I feel He talks to me in silence. As we all know, Sai chooses His devotees. We all must be lucky to be under such a wonderful and merciful Sadguru. He guides us and suffers for us. There was sometimes I made mistakes, I felt Sai’s anger. The next time, when I need help the most, when others were not available, I felt Sai’s love. I am still having a lot of problems. I am short of money to pay my fees. Being the eldest, being a girl, I am struggling to complete my studies and deal my family’s financial problem. Sai is my strength and I believe Sai will provide, Sai Ram! BABA means father. Father Sai came into my life after my father passed away. My intention is to serve Him my whole life. If I’m lucky I hope Baba will choose me to bring Baba into more devotees heart.
I’m sorry if my contents hurt anybody. I have no such intention. Being Baba’s believer, I don’t look down at any religion. In a chapter, Baba allowed His devotees to serve Him in their own way and did not like other people interfering in this. Sabka Malik Ek, God is One. See Him in any form, as long as you are being truthful to Him. My Guru is my God. Jaya Sai Ram.
Namaskaram at Sai’s Holy feet.
Sincerely feeling very grateful to share this on a Thurday!
Revathy