Dear sis Saloni ji , SaiRam.
Hum apni kitni bhi planning kar len, yeh humay nahin bhoolna hai ki ulti mate ALLAH MALLIK hai. 12 saal yaa 12 din yaa 12 ghante, kya pata kiskey paas kitna Samay hai..Haan magar iss samay ko kaise use karna hai..her situation mein kaise kewal vohi karma karna hai jo bhagwaan key liye ho and aur needy ki madad key liye ho... aur kuch nahin..itna agar kar liya tou fir sukh dukh key liye apney aap hi balance develop hona shuru ho jayega. Apney aap hi mayadevi ki kripa ho jayegi - kyonki aap Prabhu ki taraf bad rahi hongi..
Mujhe baar baar suggestions mil chuke hain aur mujhe bhi apney aapko bahut pakka karna hai..seekhna hai ki sukh dusk sey balance rakhoon..aur mujhey bataya gaya hai ki jab tak aap sab kuch bhawaan key liye hi nahin karoge..with no results expectations and with full willingness..and meditate on HIM ( which is sureshot way)..yeh raasta/process otherwise bahut mushkil aur lamba lagega.
Lekin kyonki aap ko interest hai..aap ko direction bhi milegi. Just do not fear, absorb your heart and mind on HIM, become his devotee, HE will deliver you from ALL sinful reactions and surely you will go to HIM. This is the promise and assurance bhagwaan has given to us all because we are all HIS dear children.
May SAI bless you always.
Jai Sai Ram.