Sai Ram
dearest Ramu Annayya, your rational makes total sense to me. Total surrender does not mean to shed all responsibility and behave like a little baby. Rather is it an ongoing process of consciousness and a vow that is renewed every day, every moment. The first step is an action or an act of will and from then on it is listening.
The action or act of will is to say to SAI: BABA, all I am, body, mind, heart and soul, all I know of myself and all I don't know - it is yours, totally yours, do with it whatever you wish.
The point about is is: We have to mean it! [

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From then on it is listening. We can be fully confident that BABA will always let us know what HE wants us to do and can follow all the nudges HE gives, even against all odds if need be.
It may seem on the outer as though we were "doing" and "having" all kinds of things - yet, we are not, BABA is the Owner, the Doer, the Wirepuller, and we are only following. Allah Malik [

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And if and when we do so we will discover that total surrender is total freedom!
To give body, mind, heart and soul to BABA, does not mean that we rid ourselves of them that very moment. I didn't shed my physical body nor did I lose my mind the moment I gave everything into BABA's hands. [

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In giving what BABA gave us, back to HIM we permit HIM to use us as HIS instruments. And we will of course strive to become an ever better instrument for HIM. And this again will have an effect on our souls - it is my sincere wish, my feeling and my theory that by becoming an ever better instrument for BABA that divine spark in us may be able to touch that same divine spark in others unaware and awaken in them the desire to -- surrender.[

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Thanks for starting such a great topic!
May you always feel surrounded by the sweet sound of BABA's flute of blessings. [

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Om Sai Ram
Astrid
Restless was my heart till it found rest in THEE