Om Sai Baba.
Why Baba does what He does---only He knows. Frankly speaking, I do not pray or read Sai Satcharitra these days. I remember Baba mentally whenever I get inspired to do so. A difficult phase could be just a stage in the spiritual growth. Let Him decide what He wants to do in His time. Till then, do not struggle to pray or read Shri Sai Satcharitra. Just wait patiently, and with hope that things will get better soon. Remember, this phase too shall pass....
Love and Peace.
Jai Sai Ram.