Hi Dear sister ,
I read all your posts and i just want to make you understand one thing. Life given to us by Lord is such a wonderful thing and when we talk about dieng , its an insult of god because you dont want this wonderful gift called life and want to end it ? I have also been in love with a girl for just 1 month and 10 days. I also was so close to this girl and wanted to spend my life with her , but things went fizzy and we crossed path.
but the best thing i did was to confess to that gurl that i love her.. You also need to do the same. Instead of asking baba every now and then , why dont you do your part first. Until and unless that sweet person whom you have from your heart considered to be your life partner does not come to know what you feel about him , Baba also cannot help you right dear.
So , Sai is ready with his lovely hands to bless you , he just wants you to do your part. Just confess your love to your friend and then ask baba for his help.
Have a nice day ahead
Yogendra.