Dear Sai,
I have realized finally that however big a sinner i am and how much ever i go away from your path, you are always there taking care of me.
I fail to Thank You for this always Baba.
And I cannot even Thank You enough.
All i request is that you stay with me this way every instant of my life.
I know that going ahead i cannot devote as much time to you as i have over the past few months. But even if it seems like i have forgotten you, my only request is that you please do not forget me, never. And I know you will not.
I will take whatever comes my way Baba. You know my penchant for taking extremely rash career decisions. I just cannot help it.
Thats the way i am. So far they have worked out allright. I am sensing that there is going to be a moment soon when i shall take another one of those decisions. I am not sure what will happen in the future Baba, but i will take what ever comes my way.
I only have my trust and faith in you going for me, Baba. Please stay with me.
I have promised you enough that i will remain calm and composed when it comes to taking these decisions. But i know how dissatisfied and discontented i feel. I just have to break free and strike out on my own. And you know how i feel about all this, much better than me. And hence the time may come when i shall have to break my promise. Please forgive me Baba. Please forgive me for all the pain and disappointment i am going to cause to a lot of ppl.
I am only banking that this will turn out right soon. And i am only banking on your blessings deva.
Be my mirror, my sword and shield, deva ... always.
Om Sai Ram ...
Om Shri Sai Samarth