I want to share my experience with my Sai brothers and sisters as to how Shirdi Sai and Sathya Sai Baba entered my life. I did not believe in both the Babas in my school as well as college days. I was thinking them to be ordinary men not knowing their actual value. Shirdi Sai told me that I want to enter in your life by making me to see Manoj Kumar's film ‘SHIRDI KE SAIBABA’. But then too I failed to recognize due to my ignorance.
Then 4 years passed on. In my college days I came to know a friend who was a devotee of Sathya Sai Baba. Whenever she used to say about him, I used to ask, “Why do you believe in him, he is only a human being”? But as Baba says for everything there is time. It proved right in my case. My marriage was fixed and my husband is a great devotee of Sai Baba. But when there was three weeks for my marriage by brother brought a video cassette and and he told me to put it in the night as every one of our family member could see it. I told him, ‘yes’ and I saw the name of the cassette and it was my Saibaba's cassette and there too Baba was suggesting me that he wants enter my life. This film was in Kannada language about SaiBaba by Sai Prakash and this film actually changed me. And then I started believing in Sai though not firmly.
After marriage he came to my life and he gave me blissful experience with him. On my birthday that was the previous night of my I was praying to Baba as Baba tomorrow is my birthday can you shower your blessing on me at least give me a vision in my dream by seeing I will be satisfied. On my Birthday, around 5.45a.m Baba came in my dream, he was with his devotees and he was just passing by without even looking at me. I was anxious that Baba will be looking at me and will be giving at least a smile. I was worried and was about to cry seeing that though Baba passed right in front of me he did not even look at me. But again I was watching his way. Baba again returned with his devotees and this time he looked at me and gave a beautiful smile and as he was passing again he turned back and looked at me and there I saw his godly smile. With this I got up from my dream and then I realized that Baba gave me the vision as I have asked him to bless me on my birthday. This was how Shirdi Sai Baba entered my life.
Though I believed in Shirdi Sai Baba I did not believe in Sathya Sai Baba but Baba knows when to bring his devotees to his door. This is only recently that I started believing in Sathya Sai Baba. Most of my friends in my friend's circle are devotees of Sathya Sai Baba and there too I did not believe showing my own smartness.
One day when I was just thinking a thought arose in my mind. Is Sathya Sai Baba really a God? If he is a God then I would be a real fool for not believing in him. Because he had a human form it is not correct to ignore him. So I sat in front of my shrine and prayed saying that 'If Sathya Sai Baba is really God , make me aware of this reality'. I don't want disrespect because he is in the human form and as I am your devotee, please show me the truth. I felt very strongly, if Sathya Sai Baba is really a God, tomorrow itself I will keep his photo in my shrine and worship him. Oh God, please show me today itself because I do not want to leave my god and I will be surely missing something great in my life as I am able to see the lord who is moving and talking with his devotees.
Wonder of wonders I got a dream the same night in which I saw my lord Sathya Sai Baba Blessing me and I was singing a kannada song kande hariya kande....... meaning I saw my lord Hari. In that dream my eyes were overflowing with tears and he was just blessing me with a beautiful smile on his face and disappearing in front of my eyes. I suddenly got up and there too he answered my question and showed me that he is my lord. The next day I searched for my Baba's photo I got it and I kept it in my shrine and now both my husband and I are praying to him.
After he came to our life, our life has become wonderful. I strongly believe in his words "WHY FEAR WHEN I AM HERE" and now I strongly believe in him doing my duty and leaving the result to him.
Courtesy: Sai Pranam Magazine
http://www.saisamachar.com/saipranaam/sep02/tp.htmPrasanthi
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