Saibadhu,
I can understand ur situation.
If u take my life, I got sacharitha book to me when I was in, the most difficult situation and stressed like u. For me also, BABA dint shower his miracles at the very moment of reading sacharitha first time.when I was reading my mind was also same like urs. I read sacharitha for two times and my mind got peace and started miracles..I even gave book to somany people,all were benifited the most
U please read one more time..u will never go in vain .u will be surely benefited
Om sairam