Badly need sai Baba help

[Saibabadevotee]

Dear Sai,

U know what I and my family is going thru, why is this happening to my life..Ever since I got married, why the life has become so bad for me..If I hurt anything wrong unintentionally, please forgive me or lessen the pain. My family are already going thru the pain with one thing, this thing has become another issue again. Why did I get the person like this, who does not love and always talks of separating???, I also make some mistakes, but do I deserve this life...there is not even day I hv been living normally. Everyday I think, this is another day in life. I get everyday morning seeing your picture with a great hope that things would improve, but it just has been negavtive, negative and negative....

Trust me baba, I am not able to take this anymore.,.everyday I feel I should die...please solve the issues and make our normal baba without hurting anyone or causing any pain to anyone...

Sometimes I am not able to even concentrate on u, I just c ur photo and cry...If i have done anything seriously wrong, please excuse me and help me not to do anything like that in future...

Just need to get life back normal

[deepa]

Om sai Ram sai devotee
I just happen to see your mail.It is very sad to know that you seem to  be leading a life  with no happiness or any comfort.But since you have accepted your mistake that even u may have done  some  mistakes unintentionally  why dont you change yourself for eg just do things which your husband likes,please him with good habits which he expects from you daily,first and the most important thing make him  to have trust on  you and at the same time even  you should give that trust on him.Dont do any things which he doesnt like even if he doesnt know what you are doing.You have mentioned about seperation that he always talks?What makes him to talk like that?Any man only after so much of hurdles and irritations he can say  such a thing.So my sincere advise is that dont keep on building  and thinking that only he is wrong  just think where and what is going wrong.Anyway I will pray saibaba that you should have a good life and never ever have the feeling of commiting sucide since life is to be lived.Just thinking of saibaba is enough and keep on saying his name  to avoid any confusion  and commotion at home.You have cried to saibaba about your difficulties I am sure he will take care of you and you will have a good life  but try to have patience and perservarance  which is very very important.May the merciful baba bless you and your family with happy life.om sairam.deepa