I am very very thankful to all of you and appreciate all the feedback/advise/suggestions.
I have been trying to instill the faith and positive thinking in myself fro a very very long time but have given up on everything. And the reason is Baba Himself....I have had more than enough relevant experiences.
e.g. Once I was driving a bike and I thought 'how can anything hurt me Baba is protecting me,' the moment I thought this I fell off the bike and hurt my left leg, I still have the mark on my leg. Similarly once I was walking and thought Baba is protecting me, and the next second a bicycle ran into me from out of nowhere, almost hurting me.
These are just two, but i can narrate atleast 20 such incidents directly related to Baba.
Yesterday I wanted to drink some lassi, and I went out to the usual juice shop where I always go but did not get it...then I went to another, then another, and then into a mall and finally ended up with milk-shake. Everytime I went into a shop I saw Baba's picture or name or something and couldnt find lassi, but then I decided to go to the nearby mall and was 100% confident I will get lassi. As I entered the mall and took the stairs for the second floor I thought there is no way I will see Baba in this mall and will surely get lassi, but as soon as i reached second floor and turned floor I saw Baba's and Ganeshji's idols kept in a store right infront of me. I went ahead and tried to find lassi, but had to take milk-shake.
Today, I wanted to attend Baba's aarti at a nearby temple, so, I left home just in time to reach there around the time of aarti. I walked and reached the temple just when the Aarti had started. I was happy that I will be able to attend the aarti. But, just when I was about to take my shoes off, someone from a company called me regarding some job offers, I thought maybe something good since I am standing at the doors of Babs's temple, but he told me that he had none relevant openings and would refer my resume to others. And at the same time, he talked for around 15 minutes and dropped the phone exactly when the aarti finished. I took off my shoes and went in just to see that they have turned off the lights and the temple is just about to close for the days darshan, and felt bad about it.
The only reason I am writing this here is to make a sense out of it all. If Baba had wanted me to be his bhakt, He would have given me some positive experience, rather than hurting me every time I think of Him.
The few answers that I can think of are because he wants me to give up my arrogance and surrender to Him, or because He wants me to stop thinking about future and stop daydreaming and become thoughtless, or maybe because He has nothing to help me out and is only asking me not to worship Him and expect anything from Him as this would hurt me even more, and many similar reasons, I dont know.
I will try until mid-January to get a job, and then will join my family business, and wait to see what future has in store for me.
Thanks a lot for everyone's support. I really appreciate you taking your time to post responses to so many people in need of help here.