Sai Ram...
People often commit mistakes because we are supposed to do so that's what it is like..we try our best not to commit any small mistake but we do may be intentionally or unintentionally..even i do everytime...just not once in a while but every time..but most of the time i've done unintentionally....but now baba made me realised all these mistakes i have done intentionally or unintentionally, but still i need to face the consequences...that's what exactly happenned in my life...Right from the childhood i use to love baba alot..i really don't know exactly at that time how to feel him and how to pray him.. all i know was saying hi to baba and asking him to give me strength to achieve everything in my life that i needed...and i lead a wonderful life all the time because baba is always with me..i use to bunk school right from age 8.. and even i did when i was doing MS in usa...but that's fine everybody does..its quite common in all students life..Even baba saved me couple of times when i use to bunk in my +1 n +2 ...i think everybody must be so cuirous like how baba saved me rite?even i was amazed that baba saved me when i was doing those kinda mistakes.... my dad never use to scold me and he always use to support me even when i got 2 marks out of 40 in Hindi..i was very poor in second and third languages...i don't know why..i always use to feel hard to learn them...but my dad never scolded me right from my childhood..great thing about my dad was he din't even said anything when i passed 10th with second class..cz i never use to study..always i use to play n play...but my dad realised at that point that he needs to be little bit strict else i wouldn't pass my +1 n +2 also...so he started to be little bit strict...but i was the same... bunking college and playin with friends...i still remember one thing when i was in +1 n +2 ..my principal called up my home to complain about me that i am not coming to college for the past 1 month..you know what happenned...my dad picked the phone and said that yep i do know about that he is not going to college...and principal was shocked after hearing such kinda answer from my dad...he started thinking that what kinda dad he is...he supports his son even after knowing that he is bunking the college..but he don't want to leave this thing like that..he waited for me to attend the college and wanted to punish me....but i never turned up to college..its been 5 weeks...still i am having fun with my friends..everyday.. morning i use to get up and leave home around 8am and come back home around 7pm..pretending my parents that i am going to college..but i use to be in playground all day...finally one day my dad saw me near bus stand .me chating with my friends...and he came to know from college principal that its been 5 weeks since i attended the classes..my dad was really shocked because i use to leave home everyday around 8am for college... and then he started blaming college administration that how come you guys never informed us about this...u know what happenned..principal was shocked again...and he started thinking how come he is blaming us..when i called him up and told him that your son is not attending the college..he told me that he was well aware of that thing and now he is blaming me about this? how come...and principal told to my dad, sir i called up u twice but u said that u were aware of that thing..my dad was like what?..and he said noway i never said that and i don't even knew abt that..but its kinda strange rite?my dad came back home and started thinking about this...we are a small family mom, dad, sissie and myself..we don't have any other relatives who lives with us at our place...thn how come...and he started thinking that i might have done that...but u know what..i dint even knew that my principal called up my home to inform abt me...and in my home other than dad, mom and sissie..no third person will stay with us..thn how come..how come ? the answer is baba...i knw..everybody might think noway baba will do this..but he did..he has given me a chance that i will change and will start going to college but i wasn't. so finally he punished me that...now i can't be helped any more..cz i am wrong which is very true...and you know what happenned..my principal scolded me in front of whole college...even infront of my class girls too..i felt ashamed..but i never changed...cz i did the same thing again and again..but interestingly i passed my +1 and +2 with distinction...js cz of baba...because i always loved him so much....his blessing was with me all the time...this is one of the small leela of baba that i have experienced..i don't know whether i am putting all these things in a right way or not but i am trying to share my experiences with all of my brothers and sisters... ..i wanted to share many things that i have experienced with baba..but will do that everyday from now onwards...
But i wanted to share about one leela which i had experienced this thursday.....i went to baba's temple this thrusday for morning arathi..i got up around 3.45am and took bath..and left home around 430am ..because the place where i stay is almost 30 miles to the Baba's temple...i was on time..i reached there exactly around 520am..arathi was started before i entered into the mandir..so i joined with everybody over there who all are performing morning arathi...it was really good and i felt very happy because after a long time i got a chance to attend morning arathi..so as usual we did the arathi to baba and once after arathi...some devotees were busy cleaing all the stuff and started decorating baba...and other devotees started reading Baba charithra and even i started doing so as i was already doing that parayanam, so i also continued doing that..i read 2 chapters mean while one of the devotee came to me and told me that now we have to do archana...while doing archana i started looking baba's idol and i felt something different..i don't know what it was ...but i saw baba glowing..and i haven't stopped looking at him like that..and all of a sudden my eyes filled with tears..dont know why..because i felt tht i am feeling baba now..we always keep asking him baba please do this do that and give this n that to us..but we never think to ask him what he needs from us? what kinda pains he is going through while fulfilling our wishes...thn with whole heartedly i started asking him that i want his blessing and i wanted him to stay with me all the time...and i asked him to put his feet on my head and bless me and make me think only about him and his leela's all the time..and after that i noticed one small butterfly was wandering near Baba's feet..i kept watching that butterfly and it was still wandering around baba's feet...all of a sudden it came all the way to me and sat on my head...i dint do anything..i was simply looking at baba...and after sometime it flew away and went back to the same place where it came from(baba's feet).. and by that time we finished the archana...and eveybody did pradakshnas around baba even i did so..after that i came back and started reading baba charithra...surprisingly i started reading the chapter in which baba said like this....I can come in any form(dog, cat, flies, cow etc) ...i dont' have anything to say..my eyes filled with tears...and i started crying...see baba came as a butterfly and he blessed me with his legs on my head...I don't know what to say..other than looking at him..it's amazing feeling...i was so happy...and thn i decied to post it in the forum...baba is always with us..he will be with us forevr and ever. Baba bless all of us...please..be with us all the time..all we need from you is, make us to think only about you and your leela's..Sai ma...bless us like this everyday..every min and every second..
Jai Sai Ram
Om Namo Sai Nadhaayanamaha..
Om Sai Sri Sai Jai Jai Sai...
I bow my head to my dearest Baba...
Jai Sai Ram..Sai Ram..Jai Sai Ram..
Sadguru Sainaadh MahaRaj Ki Jai!!!!
Sai Ram...
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