My dear Sai Bandhus!
Sairam
I would like to share my experience with you how Baba pulled me to His path.
I am working in East Coast Railway at Puri Railway Station since 2004.
I was at Divisional Head Quarters at Khurda Road in a significant
post for twelve years till 2004 and my transfer to Puri was a result
of some vigilance allegations.
Though my name is Saibaba, I seldom visited Sai' Mandir or Shirdi
during my 50 years of life since then. My visits were very casual
even at Shirdi not with devotion.
After my transfer to Puri, I was to shuttle from Khurda Road where I
have a house and family. I was completely in depression those days,
even I suffered heart attact and Angio Plasty was done to me in
September 2005.
My financial position was also dwindling and I was contemplating to
leave this world, because of difficult conditions in job, in health
and in finance. I had a strong urge to commit suicide in the month of
May 2007.
It was 20th May 2007. Around 1 PM. After completion of first half's
work I was going to Hotel for lunch carrying Rs. 15/ in my pocket. I
did not notice a tall and old gentle man with white Kurta and pyjama,
who crossed me until he called me with my name 'Sai'. Little
surprised I turned and this gentle man aged around 70 - 75 years with
mesmerizing smile on His face was asking me in chaste Hindi 'Could you
give me Rs. 20/?'. I was sursprising that how he know my name and
more surprised when he asked Rs. 20/. Seeing his mesmerising smile I
could not say no to him and asked him I could give him Rs. 20/ if he
follows me to my office which is just a few metres away for which he
instantly agreed.
He accompanied to my office and I gave him Rs. 20/ and he kept it in
bound book. Still engulfed in surprise, I asked him how could he know
my name when he was to leave. Again same smile. 'Sai! I am from
Shirdi, for me every body is Sai', he answered. He further added 'You
are passing a difficult and hard times now. Take back this twenty
rupees and this Rudraksha'. I had become little sarcastic by then and
was thinking that some body might have told him about me and he may
demand more money for this worship or that worship. He continued,
'Sai! I will come to your house and take this Rs. 20/ from you after
you get rid of your difficulties' . I interrupted him by asking how do
you know my house. With a same smile on his face he replied' I told
you Sai, I am from Shirdi, I know every thing'. I was just watching
this gentle man with half disbelief and the other half sarcastically.
He further continued 'Buy ingredients with this Rs. 20, prepare
Payasam yourself only and feed to a black cow during the first three
Thurs Days of next month and you would be alright'. While I was still
in astonishment, he left and I could not find him again.
I had discussed this with my family members and my younger brother is
Satya Sai's devotee and he told me that was it nothing but the miracle
of Shirdi Saibaba, who only accepts Daskhina and returns the same and
you can find numerous such instances in Sai Satcharitra. He gave me
Sai Satcharitra in Telugu and asked me to read to know about the
instances. Before 5th June 2007, the first Thurs Day, I had completed
two rounds of parayana.
On the morning of 5th June 2007, I prepared Payasam with the
ingredients that I had purchased with Rs. 20 and put in a banana leaf.
I started searching for a black cow on my bike for two hours but in
vain. Cursing myself for believing some strangers, I was watching TV
at my home, when my younger daughter shouted and called me to find a
Black Cow standing in front of my house, as if was it waiting for me.
Tears rolled down from my eyes. I was blaming myself for my
ignorance. Immediately fed Payasam and the cow ate that not leaving
even the Banana leaf.
There was no looking back since then. I gained my lost self
confidence. My difficulties are receding. Its Sai, only Baba all the
way. Now He is my way, He is my Life, He is my everything.
On 1/23/09, Neeta Sharma <neethasharma@ gmail.com> wrote:
> Hi all,
>
> I am blessed to be a part of this group. I do have many miracles to share
> but I dont know why I ever shared in this group. But last wednesday I was
> writing the prayer request mail and even without any intention of sharing
> one of his miracles I had written it. And i noticed at the end that I am
> sharing it.
>
> I somehow felt that its him who made me do it and to which even my friend, a
> member of this group had felt the same. Now, I just want to share this with
> the group. May be someone who is bit worried that May be BABA is not hearing
> him will get some hope.
>
> Many of us feel that at sometimes, even me felt just once or twice like
> that, but immediately he tells me that I get what I deserve and he his
> always with me. We must only keep faith in him. None can have happiness
> always. It depends on our fate. We can only ask him to give us strength to
> accept the life as it comes and to never lose our faith in him. Watever is
> happening to us, is being watched by him.
>
> I pray all of us should always keep reciting his name.
> Om Sairam
csaibaba@gmail.comALLAH MALIK!
Sai baba let your holy lotus feet be our sole refuge.OMSAIRAM