Sai Devotees,
SaiRam, I am happy to share following Experiences of Sai with you all.
Experience 1:
Needless to say I am a staunch devotee of Baba. In fact though I believed in Baba, my faith grew stronger only recently. I speak my heart out only to him and I started feeling that he is with me and is listening to my prayers.
Initially I just felt that how can such thing happen to a normal person like me. But he kept proving it to me that it is only through his grace that things were accomplished. Any small desire of mine was taken care of him. Whenever I went to Baba's temple, I always had a colour in my mind and always tested him saying he should wear that colour if he is omniscient. And to my joy, always found him in what I wanted. It could be as simple as me wanting to get a particular prasad and when my turn comes they start distributing the Prasad which I wanted. I kept thinking it might be just mere co-incidence until some point. But later, I gave up and starting believing that Baba can show miracles to me too and to a common person like me. He is with me now. I talk to him, fight with him, cry and shout at him too at times. I slowly started devoting most of my time to Sai. Then, I involved myself in Satcharita. I can't explain how much peace I got reading his Leelas.
I used to feel as if I was in some other world altogether. I gave up eating non-veg and started reading. I did two saptaahs and one normal reading. At the end of one Saptaah, the last one in fact, I wished that Sai should come home. It was at the same time where I was reading the other leelas through the Saidarbar devotees page. I read couple of miracles in which Sai came home to see the devotee and accept the prasad. I also had a desire to see him. I had not planned up anything as such but my friend, who is also a Sai devotee got me pooran polis, which is Baba's one of the favorite food. She got it for my parents but my inner soul said I should keep it for Baba for his naivedya.
I did so the next morning. After I finished reading the last chapter, I kept the pooran polis in front of Baba and also lit the ghee deepa. I informed at home that if some old or disabled person comes home, he should be given this to eat. I am still new to all this and I am learning how to offer prayers too. So, I did not open the cover and kept it without opening it. Then, my mom came and told me to take it out and offer it. When she was taking it out, it seemed as if two pooran polis were attached, as if Baba wanted two instead of one. So, mom kept it in front of him. I had decided not to partake anything until I get Sai's darshan. I waited very eagerly. I live in a place where you can hardly find any one coming to your door and asking for food. My mom asked me to give up and asked me to carry it and give it near temple as we were going to one. But I was stubborn enough to agree upon that. I said he has to come home to see me and bless us; I will not go searching for him. I wanted him to come to our doorstep and bless our home too. I waited and kept waiting. I kept looking at the photo talking to him.
I went out looking for him. Then, desire arose in my mind that when I am going to temple, if I find an old person, let me give him money first and also tell him to come home and accept the naivedya. Thinking that I took out the money from my wallet and me and mom stepped out of the house. Baba knew how stubborn I was, for he made up his mind to visit me. As soon as I stepped out of the house, I saw a disabled man holding a stick with an elderly woman. I had never seen them before nor they looked to be begging for anything. They just approached 2 people on the footpath and looked at them as if to see if they could help. Felt may be they did this to show me that they were the ones I was waiting for.
The moment I saw them, I felt that Sai had come in this form. I remembered reading that Sai loves to feed the disabled people. I ran out of joy to get the naivedya and also the money in my hand. I offered both to two of them who were at my doorstep. That person kept looking at me and I could feel that glow on his face and knew for sure that it's my Sai. He smiled at me which I still can't forget. Then he lifted his left hand and bowed at me as if thanking me for the offering since his right hand was handicapped. I was filled with tears. It was all so quick. We had to go to the temple and mom was hurrying me up but I kept staring at that person thinking is this my Sai, would he come all the way to meet this simple devotee. It was unbelievable.
After this, I didn't see them going to any houses to beg but just saw them going to the next lane. I was wonderstruck. I still did not know what was happening. All I remember was as soon as I gave the food to Sai, it was as if my burden was taken away and I was relieved from all the tensions. I had headache and body pains before this but just at this moment, I felt it was all taken away by Sai. I am sorry if it is too lengthy but I can't stop writing His leelas.
We will continue with these wonderful Experiences of Sai in the Next issue. Sai Ram.
To be continued...
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