Sairam
Hi Everyone,
Sairam sada hamari raksha karna.
I was thinking to post my experiences from long time, but it never happened.
It is happened now.
Ten years ago I was a person with very regular feelings towards GOD. Regular feelings means if we go to temple we need to do pooja and pranam to God etc... . My family was happy family. I got married and came to USA , after 6 months I got a midnight phone calls stated My mother is severe sick. I was confused my mom was all good all of sudden what is this? I rushed to India by the time i reached India my mom was no more. Our family was in shock, my mother is 40 year old, and left her 4 children lives in troubles and shock. I am the elder one; my younger sister just finished her 10th standard. I didn't have any maturity to settle down any body not even me. I came back to USA after 2 months. My father had never taken care of anything other than his job when mother was there. He use to provide money,my mother took care of all four girls education and all other matters.
My sisters were left all alone in big huge problems hell. I didn't recover from that incident at all after that. My elder sister got married and came to USA. After I came back from India I felt like my mom will be with me soon, and I got pregnancy, and delivered a baby girl. After delivery I experienced lot of family issues, so to settle down I went to my sister's place to come out of it and to get some more energy to fight with. When I was with my sister first time we got Sai sachharitra book. We completed it in a week. We used to cry when we read sai leela's .After that I felt saibaba is someone whom I am waiting for. I got a small version of sai charitra parayanam, and started reading it frequently when i ever I have a desire. Now I think I didn't recognize my sai completely even that time . Later on we three sisters gone through big load of problems, suddenly my father got married to someone by listening to persons who never wished well for our family. My two younger sisters faced many problems in India and we two here in USA. We cried, wiped our tears, and did fight with enormous problems with no hope and real happiness around us. Other than that I also went thru troubles in my life with high risk pregnancies and surgeries with no help from elders. I never left doing parayanam's but one day in temple somebody gave me 9 Thursday vrat book and told me to do it. I started on 9 Thursdays vrat , when I was doing that everyday I used to get some new issue to worry for , my husband and children left for India due to economy fall. I was with no job started living at my sister's place, after completing 9 thrusday's vrat , after a month or so i got a job in two places, i was not sure which one to choose why becoz both are new places to me and my car was'nt with me. I asked baba to help me to choose right place and by writing on some slips and picking. I asked baba to help me and be with me. He helped me at every step after that. When I reached my accommodation where I got job, I was completely surprised, when I entered in to apartment I saw saibaba everywhere; I saw Pooja room filled with full of baba's photos. My eyes filled with water, and I was shivering. I loved that place, all my room mates are sai bhakt, and we used to start and end our day with sai, reading sai sachharitra together, praying, making prasadams and distributing, listen to sai bhajanas, felt like I lived in a mandir.
it's not like after that i never faced any problems, I am still going thru many problems, but I clearly feel like baba is with me in my problems and helping me to overcome those; and helping me to make my character better and better by giving real lessons. . From last few days my daughters were severe sick so I told baba I will write some of my experiences after they become well. I will continue doing this now on.
All of my sisters are sai devotees , fighting with life with sai's help .
Mom,
you must have sent my fairy God sai in to my life. Thanks amma. Twameva matha pitha twameva , twameva vidhya dravinam twameva twameva sarvam mama deva deva.