Om Sai Ram,
To all bhakts, i have one question which is disturbing me a lot now a dayz. I had been victim of liars and cheaters in my office and had to leave me job 4 months back. During this entire 4 months-"
1) I trusted and still trust baba
2) Read Sai Satcharitra and yes with devotion
3) Tried to correct my all bad karmas and got involved into what baba inspired bhakts to do.
4) My wige got laid down from his employee seven months back and recently had to join a company with alomst 30% reduced salary
4)We Sold gold to keep my home finances going on
5) For a parent a child is really important but its quite sad for me that financially we were not able to celebrate her second birthday and giver her happiness
6)Every day i get up with a hope that i would get the job
7)Recently in couple of interviews i was embarrassed and insulted by the interviewee(s), which left my heart broken.
I am person with 9+ yrs experience in IT industry but today i feel as if i am a fresher the way people behave with me while taking any interview.
9)My wife struggles a lot in harsh cold commuting to office and is supporting house, while here salary can only take the care of EMI of car.
Yes of course Baba has taught me to spend money wisely because 7 months back me and my wife used to get more than 1 lacs per month but i have got learning of saving and spending wisely as today even Rs.100/- feels important to me.Curtailment on everything is already there. I have run into so many debits on my credit card and i remember that since the start of my career till 4 months back, i have always paid single penny on my credit cards and never carried any balance but today i am fighting for paying even minimum amount due.
Now my mind questions me now how much of Shraddha and Saburi. Will it end at me selling my house or bringing me on road?
I am directionless, Satcharitra says and answers a lot but its not coming into effect any how. Every ring on my cell phone seems that this may be the call i am waiting for but turns something else.
I have never trusted any god other than Sai from last 20 years but today i feel direction less.
Baba Abh to Reham Nazar Karo