9 Guruvaar Vart
OOM SHRI SAI NATHAYA NAMAH…
Befor going to shiridi I had been with papa for his routine checkup and after I came back from shirdi and went to collect the reports and found that he had to be operated for prostate enlargement. For about a week I was busy with doctors and running around hospitals for getting dates and appointments … I prayed baba that I will be able to manage all this but on the day of operation he should come in any form and bless papa…. And finally after the 8th day vrat pooja … we decided to get him admitted on Sunday and the operation took place on Monday afternoon…we had a private room so I had taken a book of baba, sai path book and Aarti book along wth me … I used to read all the 4 aartis…. And on Monday aunty suddenly called up and told that she is sending a thread that she got from shirdi and that I need to tie it on his wrist befor he goes to the operation theatre and I thanked baba that he blessed papa… the operation went on successfully and he recovered very soon.. and I was praying baba that the following Thursday was my last vrat day and I had so much of work to do and arrangements for the anna danam… and baba got papa discharged on wed afternoon…. I was also benefited asour insurance was getting expired on the month end.. so I could get help from my insurance comp also and I had to speand very minimal amount from my pocket… such is baba’s love…. He is very kind…. Now in the next paragraph let me tell about the 9th Thursday.
We came back home on wed afternoon, and I made a list of things that were to be brought … went out to the market brought the flowers veg, fruits, milk.. and every thing for the pooja….. and it was late nite when we slept ……..
I got up by around 3 or so makde some basic arrangements and miked butter and sugar, also took milk and rose water for baba and went to kakad Aarti offered Prasad to baba and after the Aarti and abhishek , the poojari took out the dress from the cupboard and gave it in my hand and asked me to stand near in the side and give him the cloths one by one…. I was feeling happy ..
In short let me tell you that when I decided to do the vrat, I had in mind that I will make a dress for baba which will be in contrast of yellow and orange … and I also decided that as per the vart I need to feed some poor people so I will feed the21 old people in the vrudh aashram very close to my place…. So I had after coming form shirdi got 2.5 meters of yellow satin cloth and orange cloth for dupatta and turban….and I had bought a golden border for the dress and dupatta and got it done from a tailor near by And made an OOM and some design on the cloth in fact we are lucky this time I was able to take his pic in that dress so once the role is over I will scan those pic’s and post it here….
Then one by one I was passing the cloths to him and the poojari was smiling and asking me if it was correct and every one there including the main authority of the temple told that the dress was looking so nice on him and asked the poojari not to change the dress and keep the same one for the whole day. So after the poojari made him were the dress I prayed baba to accept me and my vrat and and bless and make sure that the pooja should go on wel and also requested him that I will wait for him and he should come to my house in any form and accept some Prasad…
Now let me tell you that the day was very longer than usual… I may sound stupid .,… but so many things took place and there was still time gap in between….
After darshan I came home and sat near the pooja room and started doing the pooja … then mom was telling that the maid amma had called last nite and she would not be coming today for work and she was little tensed as to how she would prepare the food for so many people.then I told her don’t worry baba is there… I helped her in some veg cutting.. and I started decorating the pooja room with flowers and then I wrote AAO SAI with rose and suddenly our AMMA came inside wearinga lite yellow and green saree and came directly to the pooja room and I smiled at her and mom was also happy that she cam .. and Amma told us that though she was not wel .. whoel nite she could not sleep and kept dreaming about the vrat pooja and morning she was feeling better and fresh and so she couldn’t resist coming home… I told her that it was baba’s leela ,,,, then after the vrat … before the aart … mom saw that I had not kept the vrat books…. In fact due to these tensions I had forgot to bring the books,,, I was asking baba to forgive me for my mistake ,……. Then she told that she had one book and gave it to me saying that I could keep that one book for pooja for time being and later I could buy few keep it near baba …ask for his forgiveness and then distribute it to all… and the pooja na d Aarti went on wel. I offered milk and naivedya to baba …..
Then after the pooja and Aarti I helped mom in kitchen and also amma was helping her so we were able to make things ready before 12-30 and I called the ashram authority and they told us that we could come over by 1.30 and we had one hour of time in our hand then as I had decided to offer lunch to baba … mom had made bhindi sabji, dry rosted aaloo, fried brinjal, kheer, 9 types of sweets (ready made) paan , roti , bhajji , butter milk .. so after arranging the plate I mom and amma sat near baba … I started feeding him one by one all the items and asked amma and mom to do so … our amma was little hesitant as she thought how could she/……….. as she was not our family member …
I told her that baba loves every one and why should you not and she also fed baba like her kid and after the lunch offered pan to baba and then it was exactly 1-15 … we packed the food (besibele rice, curd rice and banana) in boxes and went to the aashram,and reached there by 1.30 sharp and I individually took plates and put the food and gave it to all the old people there they were so happy to get it served and all were smiling the authority told that all had liked the food and that they had it little more that usual I felt happy to hear that when I was coming after that I fell to feet of those old people and every one put their hands on me and gave me ashirwaad I was feeling bad for then… and I was telling baba to give me more strength and … make people more humble and kind so that they can take care of their parents wel and not let then live in some ashram like this… wish baba was with us .,.. he wouldn’t have let people suffer like this…. Baba please bless all those old people.
And I had in mind also told that baba you should take dakshina from me and while leaving one lady authority told me that there were people increasing in the ashram and it was difficult for her to manage and requested us to look for some volunteers who can help them financially, unfortunately I dint have much money with me so I gave her 50 rs and amma gave 100 rs out of her salary and told that we will try to look for some volunteers and let you know …then there was some Prasad left in the boxes which could feed 2 suddenly I thought about the poojari in the temple I had his cell number so called him, then he told that the temple was closed and he was near the room I asked him to bring a vessel and come near the temple and collect some Prasad.. he came there happily and took the Prasad and before he left he told me that he was feeling very hungry but he was very tired and dint feel like cooking the food.. I was so shocked that baba ne ek teer mein do nishaan layage…. I mean mera daan bhi ho gayi aur poojari ko khana bhi mil gaya as he was very tired with the temple work… I smiled at him and we went home……after reaching home..
It was about 3.30 when we reached I again told baba that I was waiting for him to come and around 4.30 my aunts mother , her grand daughter and her two kids came home suddenly .,... normally they don’t visit us,….. and that didi and her kids had not come to our house from 2 years.. I was so very happy I took them to the pooja room and they also prayed and felt happy that they came to my house…. After feeding baba I dint allow mom to take the thali from there I told this will be here for some more time ….. and after they prayed I asked ba (grandma ) and didi to take some food from the plate in front of baba she took and even grandma took a peda… I felt happy and then lo the kids were liking the food and they started eating few things form the plate I was smiling at baba and then they ate the pan….( HOME MADE ) and the kids liked it so much that they were running around me .. for pan… aur mujhe bhi baba ko apne peeche bhagane mein maza aa raha tha……then I gave them pan and they sat for a while and left then I had decided that I will go for the sej aarti,,,,,, after some time amma also left I gave her some Prasad for the kids and she left in some time….
In the evening I did dhoop Aarti at home and just befor the Aarti aunty came home I told her also eat from the plate she had a a piece of roti and chutney I spoke to her for a whiel then she told that she would come for the sej Aarti and would meet in the temple and in the night went to temple for sej Aarti that day for the sej Aarti I had taken home made pan for baba….. offered it to him and prayed him and then the poojari told me that I could make the arrangements for the Aarti which included the pancharati and the bhog arrangements… I did that happily and then the poojari did the Aarti … baba was looking so cute in the yellow dress and orange turban……after the Aarti I met my best friend in the temple .. he dropped me home. I have taken the pic of baba in the yellow dress.. will upload the same once I get the snaps washed… till then keep waiting …..
I cant quite recollect but it was one of the vrat Thursday and after praying I asked baba please come and then as I was getting late for office I went to get ready and then whne I came to the pooja roon which is in kitchen I saw a cat there… it was staring at baba;s photo and suddenly after seeing me it went away… I was little unsure if this was a gud sign .. then on asking Kavita didi told that baba to koi bhi roop mein aa sakte hai.. and don’t worry it is baba only in the form of cat… then I felt relieved ….
And on another Thursday the pooja room was cleaned and while I was doing pooja .. suddenly mom got up and went out to threw some thing I asked her wat was it on seeing we found a dead white lizard…. I was wondering because just a while ago ther was nothing and the pooja room was also cleaned.. then from where did it come… tab mom n didi (kavita didi) told me the same thing ke baba ne tumhare kasht ya koi musibat or takleef ko khatam kar diya…. Even then I was feeling bad for the lizard … but then thought ke ismein baba ki marzi hai ……..
After reaching home I thanked baba for such a beautiful and long day.
But I could keep only one book in the vrat pooja and as per the pooja book we need to distribute 5 or 9 or 11 books… so is it ok if I can buy 5 books and keep it in front of baba ask for his forgiveness and distribute the same ? I put the same question to my sister Kavita ji and she has replied as follows
From: Kavitaparna on: Today at 12:17:18 AM
om sri sai ram
chotu, don't worry
if you are telling baba the reason, baba understands it well
he knows everything
so, leave what had happend
now, you do the udyapan whole heartedly and baba will definitely accept the pooja you do. use yellow flowers in pooja, chant the namavali, aarati, light diyas, agarbattis and then read the vrat offer naivedyam - say whatever is convenient for you. here bhakti is more imp for baba. Then, distribute this prasad with books to who ever you feel like.
If possible, on the udyapan day, in the evg., visit Baba's temple.
And I got my answer from her… so mere so ek galti ho gayi and baba helped me and showed me a way through kavitaji and made me correct the same… baba I will correct my mistake ASAP.
And let me also add papa has recovered and also going for walks and feeling much better than before … I thank baba for his blessings and ask him to keep me as his loved one…. Baba aap to sab kuch jantein ho…. Please be with me hold my hand and guide me sai , let me see you in every one, show us the real meaning of like…. In ankhon se jo aasu behtein hai wo apki amanat hai baba … let it flow only for you, and not for any pain….. baba raham kao ….. daya karo… kripa karo…. Kshama karo…
Aur baba agar mujse koi galti ho gayi ho to please maaf kar do aur apna haath mere mathe par rakh do baba, and hold my hand and show me the path.. I am tired of walking alone … please be with me guide me always and make my life fruitful and let me keep moving towards you……mein ek kadam badhunga aur aap ek kadam badhana … is tarah chal kar mein apko paunga…. Aur baba apni good mein utha lena apne bacche ko….. AAO SAI …. AAO……..
saideep