Jai Sai Ram ..Lara,
I would just tell you to b positive & surrender yourself completly to Baba..You have to make yr mind steady..Please do one week prayanam (i.e. read Sai Chitra for one week ) with yr whole heart & soul. Start this on friday & do udapan on Thursday. Do feed poor & hungry people anything you like with Sai Baba's name. First offer it to Baba then distribute whatever you like & MOST IMPORTANT leave your favourite thing in front of Baba & tell Him that u will have when yr work will b done...
I have tried all this & Baba has responded me back. So please don't loose hope & have firm believe on Baba,He will surly help u...
Instead of having fear of loosing him, please visualize that you both r together & everything is fine..Have firm faith & with full devotation just worship Baba..Don't get panic becoz only Baba will help you.
I am sure if you do all this with devotation, you will surly get results...control yr mind & b positive...m sure everything will b placed properly in yr life...
Stay Blessed