POTENCY OF DIVINE PRESENCE (SEPTEMBER 1985)
As a Sai-devotee, each one of us is a perfect, immortal soul. The imperfections that we express through our habits and moods, through sickness and failure, are not a part of our real nature. We have deeply identified ourselves with mortal consciousness unthinkingly accepting its limitations.
I begin my day with a prayer, "Oh, Sainath, Help me to realise that I am not this body, not my moods and habits. Make me feel that I am ever Thy child made in Thy flawless image.'
Sai Satcharita is full of incidents describing manifestation of Lord Sainath to many of His devotees, purely out of love for them. When we leave behind all else and take the supreme plunge into infinite Sai-bliss, He will manifest Himself in our lives too. Mhalsapathy had vision of Sai when he went to Jejuri on a pilgrimage. Sai Baba appeared as Gholap Maharaj, the Guru of Mule Sastri, to overcome the tatter's prejudice against Baba. We also come across many instances of Baba appearing as or identifying Himself with other saints to B.V. Dev, Mrs. Khaparde and others.
Therefore when we turn our thoughts and love within, we shall find the eternal, loving, jovous Sainath, who is always with us. In every phase of our life — in our work, prayer, struggles with difficulties, enjoyment of simple pleasures — we must continually be anchored inwardly to the thought of "Sairam; Sairam; Sairam".
In November 1983, due to some tribulations in my professional life, Lord Sainath kindled in my heart a keen desire to realise His infinite love. He prompted me to undertake a pilgrimage to several shrines and holy rivers. Accordingly I joined a conducted trip of South India.
On the night of 16th November 1983, we reached Tirumalai Hills — the abode of Lord Balaji, The intense cold and chilly weather did not allow me a wink of sleep and in the early hours of 17th November, i.e. around 3 a.m., I left the cottage and went straight to get my beard, moustache and head shaved symbolising self-surrender. After a refreshing bath, I joined the queue for Lord Balaji's darshan with incessant recitation of Vishnu-Sahasra-Namam. As I finished the fifth recitation, I was ushered into the sanctum sanctorum — the holy presence of Lord Balaji.
As I looked at the magnificient Lord Balaji, an immense flash of light at once manifested to my gaze. Instead of Lord Balaji, I saw Lord Sainath standing in front of me and blessing me. The celestial response is difficult to describe; my heart was thrilled.
"Oh Sainath, Thou art all in all to thy slave. Thou art the sole protector in the world. Men are deluded when they declare — 'I do this, I do that, this is mine, that is mine.' All is thine Oh, Sai Ram, and all things are done by thee alone. Thy slave's one prayer to thee is to take him under thy complete guidance and remove his ‘I-ness."
Lord Sainath heard my prayer. My heart heaved a deep sigh. The vision vanished, but the silvery beams expanded in ever widening circles to infinity. With a thrill of inexpressible joy coursing through my spine, which made me quiver like a leaf in the breeze, I returned to the cottage, all the while musing over the incident recorded in the Bible :-
"The Lord appeared to Solomon in a dream by night and God said, Ask what I shall give thee. And Solomon said:- Give therefore thy servant an understanding heart — and God said unto him... Because thou hast asked this thing and hast not asked for thyself long life; neither hast asked riches for thyself, nor hast asked the life of thine enemies;..... but hast asked for thyself understanding to discern judgement;.... Behold, I have done according to thy words; so, I have given thee that which thou hast not asked, both riches and honour...." (King 3 : 5-13).
From Tirumalai hills, we left for Kalahasthi, Tiruttani, Madras and Kanchi. We reached Tiruvannamalai, the abode of Bhagawan Ramana on the 20th November 1983. We visited Sri Ramanashram, which is at the foot of Arunachala hills. All of us fell prostrate at Bhagawan Ramana's shrine. It is really a blessed place as Sri Ramana lived there. I joined a group of devotees in the meditation hall. A big photograph of Sri Ramana adorned the platform. In that lively picture, there was on his face a calmness and in his large eyes, a passionless look of tenderness, which cast a spell of peace and joy on all those who come there. I meditated on Bhagawan Ramana.
As I was thus bowing down to him, the sea of the Master's compassion transcended all bounds. Sri Ramana vanished and I had a vision of Lord Sainath there too. I went into a state of divine semi-consciousness and my joy knew no bounds. Unable to utter a single word owing to that wonderful occurrence, I was looking steadfastly at Lord Sainath. Soon the vision of the Master merged in the vision of Bhagawan Ramana who blessed me.
Oh, Sainath, that words can convey thy kindness to me! Ail glory to thee. While returning from Sri Ramanashram, all along, I was immersed in a strange ecstasy, tears flowing down profusely from my eyes. Whay joy undescribable! Oh! One moment of that existance outweighed all the pleasures of the world.
The truth of self-revelation of divine grace became clear to me when I came across the words of Sufi-Saint, Sheikh Sadi of Iran (Sufis, Mystics and Yogis of India by Bankey Behari Pp., 38-39) :-
"Very right is thy faith and pride in His grace,
And true it is that it works,
Like rain shower on a tilled field."
Further, Baba Farid has sung in the Sri Guru Granth Sahib of the Sikhs, as follows:-
"His grace may fall on us at any time. There is no definite rule regulating it. Some do not get it even after performing great austerities and night-long vigils; Whilst it is forced on those who He asleep."
What austerities have I performed to deserve Sai-vision twice? Sainath Himself in His mercy inspired me to perform this pilgrimage for realising His oneness with Lord Balaji and Bhagawan Ramana. After all, who am I — an ordinary mortal — to deserve this grace? It is Sainath's will and power. I am absolutely nothing. Now Sainath is with me evenmore. The world may forsake me but He forsakes me . never.
Dear Devotees, I am sharing this experience with you as there is nothing in this world more thrilling, more intoxicating, more blissful, more satisfying than Lord Sainath — the Beloved Mother, Father, Divine Being, Friend. He is our one and only True Love!
When Lord Sainath is once convinced that it is He alone whom we want, that it is to Him alone that we turn, then He accepts us with all our weakness and shortcomings. Then Sainath takes us by the hand and He walks with us, and He talks with us and He assures us that we are His own.
Dr. C.R. Vijayakumar,
Karnataka.
JAISAIRAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Let us pray at the feet of Sai Baba who is the incarnation of all gods and protector of all, to show mercy on us, and increase our devotion towards him.