OM SAI RAM
Dear Shiveshvar
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and it looks more like devdaas n less like jab we met..had it been few dayz bak..i wud hav wished it to be love aaj kal..but being realistic as of today, its going to be a cast away and tom hanks sort f life..
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I like this attitude of yours. See you still have your sense of humour intact, this is really nice.Use it more and more. The more you laugh on this phase and yourself more easier it will be for you to accept it. Of course it cannot ever eliminate the love you have for her. First Love is always forever, no matter how many beautiful people we meet afterwards.
Hats off to you.
But always keep thanking Baba for what he has given you. Good or Bad. The fact is, things could have been worse, but for him.So thank him that he stopped it at where it is.
He stood true to his words, ever since you have come from Shirdi, you are a changed person. And the more you pray all the more he will lead you in the correct direction.
We are humans, with extremely limited knowledge about anything at all. But if you retrospect your life from childhood till now, and analyze then you will see that things have fallen in place to complete the puzzle of your life. And the same will keep happening in future.It's ok if you are numb but keep praying to Baba. Never leave him.
Even negative attitude towards God is most humbly accepted by Him.
Look at Ravan, there was no comparison for his devotion to Shankar. But look at the way his mind worked on Him and he became a demon.
Look at Kans, Duryodhana, etc.
There are 2 beautiful things which unites all these Demons, 1st is they all were in search of God. For killer intentions of course. But that was also respected by God. 2nd is that God himself had to come down to eliminate them
The point I want to make here is always look at as many positives of any problem or such situation. It will greatly help you in solving and overcoming hurdles.
good luck my friend.....and keep up your sense of humour.
Till then...Keep Praying!!!