will babaji accept me

[shiveshwar]

baabji i really need my nisha back...jab kahun aur se umeed na ho..jab kismat ne bhi darwaza band kar diya ho to bas sirf aap hi usse khol sakte ho..babaji na jaane meinne kitne sins kiye honge knowingly unknowingly in this birth or in previous births..but aap ke siva koi aur maaf bhi to nahi kar sakta na..mujh se sab kuch le lo par bas nisha nahi...n babaji with each passing second m becoming more n more saddist..its like now not only i want her back but m angry at her as well..please babaji aap hi ho ab to bas....meri ardaas sun lo mere baba...deva dekh lo  ek nazar mujh pa bhi..chaho to aap khuda bhi de sakte ho phir insaan ki to baat hi kya h..meine to bas ek insaan maanga hai...aapki marzi ke bina to ek patta bhi nahi hilta phir insaan ki tu baat hi kya hai..ek baar sai bas ek baar rehmat ki nazar idhar bhi kar do..babaji meri nisha de do aur sab kuch le lo mujhse..ek baar bhi dubara nahi maangunga kuch bhi..chaho to u cn test me..tk all away n giv me my nisha back...please babaji..aap to jaante hain meri feelings ko..aap to jaante hain she means everything to me..dont take away my life..please...

[shiveshwar]

m sleeping wid hope dat babaji next morning i wid wake up wid her cal..sab kuch aapke haath mein hi hai....i will wait..wait til i hv strength to breathe

[Kirti1]

OM SAI RAM

Dear Shiveshvar,

Only 2 things to tell you:

1) Reflect on every single day since Nov. 10. Who's name have you taken more than her or after her?? Think of all the difficult situations that you were in, who was there with you?? When you get the answer, start repeating that name and thank them.

2) Why are you crying and running around??? Your name itself is whom you are calling. And as Baba's says, dont search me everywhere.
YOu will find me in you, cause you are one with me.
And you my friend are- SHIVESHVAR  -- Shiv and Ishwar.

Where else can you find him but in YOU. Stop running around and look within you. You will so your whole future unraveling in front of your eyes.
Go ahead and embrace it.

Shiv is patience personified. When he gives, he gives with all his heart.Millions of stories to prove that.
Then why ask something as temporary as this earth or our life? Why not ask for his love, support and companionship which will last no matter where you are, heaven, hell or earth??

I still very strongly feel that you should read:
1) The Laws of Spirit World - Khorshed Bhavnagari.
2) the Secret - Rhonda Byrne

Read them, they will open a new window in your life.

Till then...Keep Praying!!!

[shiveshwar]

hi kirti
kirti u know wen i was 8, i had read entire " Mahabharat". my childhood has surrounded around spiritual books and i hv grown up listenin about great saints their teachings.  wen i was 12 i went to 50 day trip to uttarakhand and had d good fourtune of meeting great saints. i went to badrinath kedarnath and all places and i completed the journey by foot to offer my gratitude to almighty. i hav my guru since i was 10. my guruji's name is swami chidvilasananda ( gurumayi in maharashtra thane). wen i was 14 i spent months in my guruji's ashram doing seva. to sum up i hv been brought up in a very spiritual environment. where respect devotion love and sharddha is considered as most important virtue.
my parents told me tha i was a very sensible kid. never ever asked for anything not evn for toys. i was never demanding as a kid. never cried. but u know kriti, with all spirituality around, i always wanted to pick my own life partner. i always wanted to love someone. i never ever was so adamant. i never forced god to giv me smthin. infact my mom used to take my advice ( though i was just a teenager) in crunch situations because of my rational ideas and very firm belief in god. i always used to tel her jo hota hai acche ke iye hi hota hai..i had a difficult phase during my 12th. it was horrible can evn explain u how pathetic it was. but not for a second i lost hope or faith. i had firm belief ki things wud improve and my god is wid me.
and den i met nisha. and i just surrendered my soul to her...she was more than nethin more than god to me. i had given up myself my eg my identity for her love. ..and after 5 years of happy life all came to an end. that too i cant attach this sort of attitude to my nisha. it is weird and strange. i dont know wat happened all f a sudden... n kirti i , for d first time, lost faith in god. yes i did loose...dat gal was more than god to me..! and my god left me..! my entire belif faith and upbringing came to a question.. i just cant stand this loss..i know books hv amazin power and knowledge...its just tht i know how to cure myself but i dont want to...i want my nisha back..for d first time m adamant wid god ki giv me wat i want..all my life u dictated terms.let me hv s say in this first and d final issue...and to b honest wid all f u ..nothing can heal me but nisha..i would trade my heaven for her...agar yahaan mera dil tuta to mein nahi uth paonga no matter how much i know or read...ye meri zid h aur shayad bhagwaan ko sunni hi padegi....

[shiveshwar]

i was very proud of d fact ki mein kabhi dukhi nahi hota tha..yes its true!! i never cud get upset for long t max 5 min..!! no matter wat happened there used to b a smiling heart inside me..and i used to tel this to nisha ki i never get upset.. i actually cant....but ab to wo pal nahi hota jab dil na dukhi ho.....my life has changed completely...now even d most insignificant things make me come to my knees..i hv lost love i hv lost courage and will to fight..i cant see nethin.its blurred. ..sai baba wherever u r, please come soon...dont delay it..i know u plan better than me but plz see i m tired m sick..babaji aa jao..meri mannat puri karo na deva...aap ke paas se koi khali haath nahi jaata...baba meri sapne ko hikikat mein badal do deva..mera intzaar ab khatam ho deva....mere baba i see ur refuse i beg for ur mercy...baba intervene please and bring my love to me..please babaji

[shiveshwar]

just asked babaji a question on this site dat will nisha come back to me? if yes, when? and i got this answer "
An incident will happen on Sunday afternoon.  Even if you hide anything it will be disclosed.  You will get success by remembering Shree Sai"
 can neone explain this to me? what does it mean ki even if u hide smthing it will be disclosed??? i dont see nethin which i m hiding
Om sai ram
Om sai ram
Om sai ram

[Kirti1]

OM SAI RAM

Dear Shiveshvar,

Life is an ever learning process. We can never say we have achieved all knowledge. Any thing and everything adds value to our existence.
Lord Dattatreya, himself said that Dogs are also my teachers.
We should always keep our minds open to new ideas, never know what can help us at what time.

And I am really surprised to know that despite all that you have read you are stuck in this phase.

I presume you have read "The Bhagwat" which describes the biography of Krishna. there is one whole chapter on Love which is so beautifully written. How is it that you are not able to understand the meaning of Love???

Have you tried calling her or met her and spoken extensively on this topic?? Try doing it yourself first. If you truly love her then meet her and talk to her. Get to know what she wants. If you feel you can give her that, then convince her.
If she does come back, understand, that you would not have won her back. You would have merely forced against her will.
One cannot force anyone to fall in love. It just happens.
As for Baba's answer wait n watch till Sunday. Meanwhile make sure you have nothing to hide at all.


May Baba bless you.

Till then...Keep Praying!!!

[shiveshwar]

hi kirti yeah u r right no one can be foeced to love.n i truely n firmly believe in dat..but look we fell in love and we were together for five lovely years...now dat was love..and not forced..but all f a sudeen one day she tell me ki she feels a void dat she is leavin me..not dats botherin me..wat iad i know for sure, was true love..but wat went wrong..her behaviour is uvery strange and weird and i cant attch this attitude to her..so dats bothering me..obvioulsy m not askin for a gal for whom i hv one sided love and she doesnt want me..i m talkin abt gettin smone back who was wid me but widout ne reason all f a sudden changed..

[shiveshwar]

n kirti i did try to contact her i called her mailed her 1000 times ..cried begged tried every way possible but she went completely indifferent..u know d day she broke up with me on dat very morning she sent me a very loving and very cute msg..but all f a sudden we had a fight n afternoon and she left me til date..i m just clueless as to wat happened..she cud not hv seen me crying evn for a sec but al lf a sudeent she went indiffernet to my sobbing..and i guess it has smthin to do wid sm ocuult science..coz m sure my nisha was not like dis..but i suspect sm occult work done on her is makin her go away..m just askin babaji to help me n giv me my old nisha back..kirti mine n her parents knew abt us..we were to get married next apri 2012..everything was in place..it was more than nething for both f us..i had stayed wid her for two months in australia 3 mothns before she left me..but i hv babaji's reguge to seek...only he can change d events..he made us come together only he can bring her back...i lit deepak before baabji wid her for those two months i had accpeted her as my wife..n now i cant take it back..she is my wife and i pray to babaji to giv my wife back..she was only love f my life and now only babaji can turn my luck my way..he is omnipotent ..its not a world of free will and babaji guide us and only he can change her heart...mujhe sirf babji ks hi aasra hai..mere deva meri sunege..there wud cm a day wen he wud bring me back wid my nisha..til then or till d time i breathe i wud keep prayin to babaji....i know i may sound bit romeo but then she was my radha and only babaji knows how much i loved her..i wud hav traded her hell wid my heaven and still ready to do dat ..i just want her back

[shiveshwar]

radhe krishna radhe krishna ..krishna krishnaa radhe radhe....

om sai ram om sai ram om sai ram om sai ram

[shiveshwar]

om sai ram
o my dear lord.! babaji come soon..! u r my only hope..u hav always helped me..u hav alwaz been there wid me..u guided me on every step..babaji guide me here as well..come to my rescue again..please..u know everything..u know wat i want..m waiting for sunday....i m hopeful tht u wud bestow ur blessings on me..please sai..u hav seen me in last 5 months..u hv seen my condition..please ab to aa jao...

[shanu jain]

om sai ram
o my dear lord.! babaji come soon..! u r my only hope..u hav always helped me..u hav alwaz been there wid me..u guided me on every step..babaji guide me here as well..come to my rescue again..please..u know everything..u know wat i want..m waiting for sunday....i m hopeful tht u wud bestow ur blessings on me..please sai..u hav seen me in last 5 months..u hv seen my condition..please ab to aa jao...

om sai ram shiveshwar ji..

dont have words to say. not geting how to say. par think of one thing agar aake wo kahe main tumse pyar nahin karti. fir? wat u wil b doin den?
sai bles u..

om sai ram..

[Kirti1]

OM SAI RAM

Dear All,

Below is in general and my opinion.


When in trouble, or problem you cannot solve, and have resorted to Baba's feet,

Please remember:
1) There is no easy way out to anything. No shortcuts.
2) Decide what you wanna do, give up or hold on.
3) If holding on then remember, IT IS NOT EASY. You will be tested and tried by most toughest circumstances.
Your determination will be tested to the core.You will be tested for the sacrifices you are ready to make, Family, their health, their happiness,
friends, loneliness, etc. etc.
4) Baba is the biggest healer, but even he needs time. How much do you have?
5) Before questioning Baba, Question ourselves.
6) More than faith, first have patience.....faith will follow..
7) 1st give to Baba these 2 small things, and then demand all you want. He will give.
Give to Baba and see him return ten-fold, whatever you offer, bhakti, money, love etc.....

Till then...Keep Praying!!!

[PiyaSoni]

OMSAIRAM

Vry true kirti ji

[shiveshwar]

Om Sai Ram
Yes shanu she has already said it to me dat she doesn’t love me any more ..she said dat anger overpowered her love for me..but I didn’t believe her..i didn’t see conviction in her voice..and dats y m hangin in here..m waiting…
U know kirit m walkin a dark tunnel..i don’t know whether it has an end or if at all it has end will it be nisha t d end..but m walkin ..i wil keep walkin till I hv strength to fight.i will keep chanting babaji’s name..i will bank on his words dat ask and I shall give..i don’t hav light here in tunnel its dark..i don’t hav clue dat will I get nisha in d end..but wat I hv is babaji’s name, his words…but am also very admant spoiled brat..i wont tk nethn but nisha from babaji..m just like a kid who wants a candy from his dad..now even if dad offers him a icecream along with topping he wont take it coz he is stuck at candy! i will walk till I hv strength to walk..i will cry til I can..this suffering is worth taking for her…kirti evn I don’t hv an idea how much I love hr..dts y I say babaji only u know my feelings..
But d day I stop walkin I loose this hope dat she is gonna cm bak..den I hav nothing but a sorry for everyone..coz I wont continue after dat..god has to listen to me or else I wont adhere to this life which he gave to me..i m adamant and wont agree on nethin but nisha…I know babaji  wud help me…if stone can leave its nature and start floating in sea just coz f raam naam.babaji can certainly change d wind for me and bring my love back..i m just waiting wen he does dat..om sai ram…she will come back