om sai ram,
i regularly watch the sai baba serial in star plus from youtube. and i am deeply involved into it and wish to meet him as he was when he was in phisical form. yesterday nite in temple i heard a song which says that "sai baba has taken his samadhi.. and he is no more for us..... though we cry heart breaking... he is not going to come...... " i was so sad after that and already very low with personal issues....
i don't remember the complete dream except the part of sai baba..... my dream goes on like this....
i was searching for sai baba in some place... there were many idols but i didn't find baba..... after that my dream went on through office issue (i don't remember this part clearly)..... then i was travelling in a vehicle (some1 else was also with me.. don't remember).. then again i wen to the initial place where i searched baba previously... this time i found his idol and he was at the entrance itself... i was wondering how i missed before.....
there were many idols... and i guess some yogis were also there( but i don't remember who r they).... i thought of sitting at one place and do meditaion but then i thought this will make others uncomfortable.... and i went to baba's idol..... surprise... there was no baba's idol and there was some1 sittng at side... when i was wondering abt baba's idol.. suddenly the person who is sitting there called me "kya ekh rahi ho... mein toh yaha hoon..." when i turned my attention towards him....... wonder of wonders....... he is none other than our sai baba......
I fell at his feet...kissed them...... then baba said "tumne toh hamesha mujhe is tarah dekhna chaha na..... tumhe woh sparsh chahiye tha na"....... with boundless joy i took baba's hands and placed them on my cheeks and said " baba apne mere dil ki baat jaan li"....... baba was laughing.......i kissed his hands...... he asked me y r u crying..... i said baba some office issue.... then baba asked "for what other reasons u will cry"...... i was doing seva to baba( i was pressing his legs)...... and said "baba when my beloved(i took his name) will go far from me"........ as soon as he heard these words.......he suddenly folded his legs and kept his hand on his heart...... meanwhile i was asking "what hapened baba"....... he looked as if he was seeing my future and there's lot of pain in that....... he was so tensed and feeling lot pain....... he didn't say a word and i felt like he was going far and suddenly he became a potrait...... i was shouting baba baba baba and suddenly woke up and alaram was ringing... the time was 3.55AM.......
i didn't sleep after that and i cudn't control my emotions for an hour...... but i don't have no one with me to share this wonderful experince...... i can't share with my family memebers...... being a muslim they don't trust all these things..... i am so unlucky and misfourtune that i can't share my baba's leelas with my family.....
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mein bahot durbhagyashali hoon jo apne baba ke baare mein apne hi family se share anhi kar sakhti.... baba ke liye kuch bhi karoo chup chup ke karna padta hai..... ek asha thi ki meri shaadi mere beloved se hojayegi toh mein baba ke pass hi rahoongi karke..... lekin shayad ab ye asha bhi nahi hai..... agar mere shaadi mere ghar walon ke marzi se hui toh mein baba se aur bhi door hojayoongi.... aur yesa jeevan jo baba ke seva kiye bina toh vyardh hai..... mein apne guru se door nahi reh sakhti..... unke arti sune bina, unki seva kiye bina, unka gungan kiye bina, mera jeevan toh vyardha hai.......
baba plz baba kuch karo na...... madat karo na baba..... mujhe apne se door mat karo na baba.......
mere karmo ka saja kuch aur dijiye lekin apse door hona nahi.....plz baba plzzzzzzz
plz pray for me that i shd not get away from baba......
om sai ram om sai ram om sai ram