dear manoj ji,,,,,,,,,,we can understand ur situation ,,,,,but I want to tell u something that wen we ask some strength or miracle from our baba for the solutions of our problem.......do u know from where baba bring this power to do a miracle for us,,,,,,,,the answer is that baba get all the power from our bhakti which becomes shakti for baba to do any impossible things which we called 100% solution or miracle for us............
those bhakta got some experience of this power of our baba surely have some power of bhakti with themselves,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
so please firstly pass over to baba ur power of bhakti then only u can expect any miracle from our baba......
he totally depends on his bhakta....
on whatever point u have doubt in ur mind about baba's love,,,,,,,,,u himself break the chain of this power transfer from devotee's devotion to baba's blessings.
i am begging u dont blaim baba,,,,,,he is a ocean of mercy........he is my father ,mother ,every thing. i myself becomes restless sometimes but still i cant hear such harsh words for my baba........
sory if u feel anything but please have some patience,,,,,we all will pray for u,,,,,,,and surely transfer this power of devotion to our baba in order to get some miracle from him.