Baba,
You have been with me in every walk of my life...and you are with me.
You are with each of us Baba...My parents and sisters belive in U,Maa and we throw ourselves upon Your mercy. We have faced many difficulties and obstacles in life..but, we always had Your loving and caring Hand which helped us get throught them.
I have developed spritually a lot in the past few years...I can hear Your voice...I feel You respond to my unspoken thoughts Baba.
I have committed a sin Baba...U know that and You were very angry with me. I knew that You were angry with me because When I was praying to you, Your photo dropped down. When I was giving aarthi too, you did not accept it Baba. We do not have anyone other than you Baba. If you are angry then, who will take care of me Baba.
Baba, since that day, I am not able to do anything...I am not able to be cheerful, I am not interested in anything. I cannot bear it Baba. Please forgive me and please please fix my mistake Baba. I do not know what to do, how to do. I believ in U, I trust in U, I throw myself upon Ur mercy Baba. I never felt so depressed Baba...In all my difficult times and happy times, You have been with me. I shared all my moments with You Baba - happy and sad ones. You are the Master Baba. Please accept my prayers, forgive me and fix my mistake Baba. Only You can do it Baba. Baba, You are my everything. Please shower Your blessings on us. We love you Baba. I cannot imagine another moment without You baba. When I see Your face, I am not seeing You smiling, instead I see You unhappy with me. I beg U Baba,
please fix my mistake. I dont think I even deserve to ask You to forgive me. I am a very selfish idiot who doesn't stand up for truth (though I know the truth) and instead I blabber nonsense. I do not have the courage to stand up for truth Baba...U know it all. U are with me in every moment of my life. Please be with me and let me not do any other mistake. Be in me and speak for me Baba.Do everything for me Baba. I cannot do anything on my own Baba...You have to do it for me Baba. I am extremely sorry Baba for letting you down. I wish hope and pray You forgive me, my sweet SAI. Please be in me and help me Baba.
Baba bless us all. love you so much Baba.thankyou so much for everything you have blessed us with. I love my husband. but he doesn't. I dont know when will he love me and when we will have a happy life together. Everybody is always trying to find fault with me...they are not looking at the good in me. Baba, I dont know wjen things will change and when we will see true happiness. I am feeling very bad that You are angry with me Baba.
But day-before-yesterday, when I was watching a movie online, I saw you Baba and someone was giving You aarti. I dont know if this just a coincidence or assurance that You are with me.
my sincere heart-felt apologies to You Baba. I beg You, please forgive me, fix my mistake, be in me and with me.
I am nothing without You Baba. Love you Baba.
JAI SHRI AKHANDAKOTI BRAMHANDANAYAKA RAJADHIRAJA YOGIRAJA PARABRAMHA
SRI SATCHITANANDA SADGURU SAINATH MAHARAJ KI JAI!!!
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