dear deepali,
kisi ko mukkamal jahan nahi milta, kisko ko jamin to kisi ko asman nahi milta.
i can imagine your suffering but, is that the end of the world. There are many other aspects of life. Adopt a child, or even if you cant adopt, go toa orphanage and play with children. teach them, sing for them, pray for them . Sai baba is your child. Love him like a mother.
Dont let circumstances suck you. you need to over come this by focussing to other things in life. If it has to happene it will happen, if not accept it and move on with life.
sai speaks