Dear Natasha,
May God's choicest blessings be with you always.
Well Natasha, sometimes we ask for miracle to happen in our life and it does not happen. We desperately want things to change overnight, however that doesnot happen always. The biggest miracle in your life is that You exist. Added miracle is that you can communicate to Sai internally always. Even in my life, many times I wanted miracles to happen. However they never happened. In time I realised that God always knows what is best for us and help us accordingly. The cloud does not know why it is moving in certain direction, however the sky always knows the reason.
So Natasha, keep moving from one moment to another of life and leave rest of the things in the hand of the GOD. You will find it difficult at times, but it is not something impossible. Believe in Sai's words.
regards,
Ashok