I HAVE LOST

[saicharandhool]

om sai ram..Baba aaj tere darbaar mein bas itna kehna aaya hoon I have lost..I made many wrong decisions in life but always honest and tried my best to fix things but nothing worked out..You gave me things but you gave it to me so late and in such a way that there were not of the same value..I wanted to see my mom happy but I couldnt marry..My brother is struggling in his career..You passed my loan after 6 months struggle during which I lost my love,spent lot of money and wasted time and finally when I got the loan the amount was not useful enough to take care of my needs so I am still in debt trap and what else that my brother lost his job and now additional burden has fallen on my shoulder and my income again is falling short of my requirements..after 4 years of struggle,devotion I am at same place..everybody who betrayed me,us moved ahead and I dont have complaint about it but whenever I asked anything from you I always got opposite..I thought you had given me my love back but again she talks to me but she is not the same and its more painful..I cant see any ray of hope..I am selfish in a way but then I cant marry someone else and then spoil her life if I am not convinced at heart..You know how much I love my family and for me she is part of my family..Inspite of all my efforts baba I have lost..I may deserve this punishment but now atleast give me strength to face it..I have lost all interest but I will fight till my mom is there and after that I dont see any reason for me in life as I have failed to do anything for my family or humanity..I am just a big failure..All my dreams are biting dust...I am sorry for letting everyone down including you...I am really sorry..I maybe bad but I am still your son..give me strength to get through last few years...God bless all..

[saicharandhool]

Today nobody is listening to me..baba aap sun lo...I am feeling very very tired and lonely

[saisan]

om sai ram
charanji, baba sabhi problem se bade hai,plz don't think that u have lost, think in positive way and baba's answers.
ur lucky that ur able to trace her and talk to her, tell me there are so many people who hav not seen n talked months and years...there are so many whose gal/guy is not ready to talk to her... baba has helped you ...say thanks to him.

regarding ur loan aapko mila tho chahe 6 months ke baad ....again how many are there who don't have job,
regd ur brothers job ..aapko tho hai so u can support him until he gets.... her

ur mom also will be happy soon..as she wants to see u happiliy married not just married as any parent wud want.
she is talking to u slowly she will realize and come back ..baba is going to bring her back ..only when u allow him to do.
i know this uncertainity kills and when things don't happen the way we want we feel frustuated..have patience.
she is not well ....so needs rest ..pray for her well being ... then u can sit and dicuss with her. meanwhile u can show her u have changed and give her confidence that u will keep her happy.

thank baba for everything and keep praying. when ever u feel bad or fristuated just chant his name until u get tired.
when ever u will remember her keep chanting ......sai will give u peace for sure .
Have Shradha and Saburi ... hope baba bless u soon with love,happiness and peace ..om sai ram

[saicharandhool]

Saisanji..Thankyou so much for your words..i needed someone to talk this silence was killing me...OM sai ram..Whatever u said is correct but whenever somebody who was part of you till yesterday now talks to u drawing limits it hurts..I am trying my best to do right things in life.

[saisan]

charanji i can undertsand ,don't bother abt others, ignore them,always keep good freinds with u. don't talk to people who acts that they are friends...people change when ur situation changes.i know.
don't take thier words to heart.... just concentrate on what ur doing ...and when u will succeceed these people only will praise you. just ignore it or u will get hurt.
baba tho hai hi aapke sath..... our karmas are making us face the bad people , bad things in our life ..no other way apart from refugee to baba.
om sai ram

[saicharandhool]

Satya vachan..Howz u r life..I am blessed to have few well wishers in this forum.

[saisan]

ya sometimes we need some one who can listen to us...... baba is the media though
life is good little hectic so don't have time to think abt the problems... just going on as baba has decided for me.

[saicharandhool]

I SPOKE TO HER AT LENGTH AND SHE HAS JUST SAID SHE WONT EVER CHANGE HER DECISION BECAUSE OF PAST THINGS AND WHAT SHE SAID TO HER PARENTS..I AM BROKEN RIGHT NOW BUT SHE WAS EXTERMELY FIRM ON HER DECISION AND FOR HER LOVE IS SECONDARY NOW EVEN THOUGH SHE LOVES ME SHE DOESNT WANT TO GET INTO COMMITMENT..I WILL NEVER ASK FROM BABA FOR MY LOVE I GAVE UP

[saisan]

give her some time she will change charan ji
now its the time to ask for more to baba .....don't leave his feet ..he will bless u
don't force her now, let her get well then u argue with her ..show that u love her and past will not repeat for sure
give her promise... baba bless you .be strong now .. om sai ram

[saicharandhool]

I will never leave baba's feet ever but the thing is if there is love there can be misunderstandings life mein ups and downs aati hai I cant give assurance that tmrw I wont make any mistake..i am a human being not a product..Look at my love..good things and if you want to stick to past..also see good things..she has broken my heart

[saisan]

give her time ..tell her u will wait for her and then don't argue ...she said she loves u then surely she will come back to u ...sai will bring her don't worry plz

[saicharandhool]

I have lost hope..it has become very very painful..I cant take the bluntness, the ease with which she says she doesnt want to be with me and also the fact that she doesnt understand me...main bahut naaraz hoon hurt hoon aur ab main aur bheek nahi mangna chahta..pyar mein log kya nahi sehte

[saisan]

ya leave it ..u have done ur best to get her back......if she is not getting convinced..leave her and leave everything to baba ...everything will be alright .. baba bless you .. om sai ram

[v2birit]

Saicharandhool ji, aapko Sai baba se pyaar karna chahiye.  Aur kahi pyaar karne me point nahi hai, kyoki sab assthayi hai. Kaam karte samay, apni aakhon ke saamne Sai baba ki Taswir rakhni chahiye. Sai baba bless you

Om Sai Ram.

[saicharandhool]

V2biritji..OM SAI RAM..mere samne baba ki tasveer hameshaa mere samne hoti hai aur woh pehle lagi hui hai..baba se pyar aur unki chahat to apar hai par insaan hoon ek jeevansaathi ki bhi zaroorat padti hai par aap shayad sach keh rahe hai baba ne har baar mujhe akela kar yehi bataya hai ko wohi mere saathi hai