baba sabse pehle to muje maaf karna ki aaj itne dino ke baad aapke is darbaar me, is mandir me aayi hu. aur jis jisne bhi mere liye pray ki hai meri baat ka reply is mandir me diya hai unko bhi mein koi reply nahi de paayi uske liye bhi muje maaf karna baba. but you know all baba. is baar shirdi aayi to pata nahi kyu par dil se aapke darshan bhi nahi kar paayi. kuch kami lag rahi hai jivan me. baba aaj kal mere aur mere husband ke bich bhi kuch problems ho rahe hai. jaanti hu kahi na kahi mein jimmedaar hu in sabke liye. hum dono ka pyar hi kuch aisa hai ki shayad vo pyar hi kabhi kabi hamaare bich problems laakar rakh deta hai. mein us insaan ko kaise hurt kar jaati hu? kaise kabhi kabhi unko nahi samaj paati aur kyu nahi samaj paati ? jab sabkuch jaanti hu ki vo jo bhi kar rahe hai mere liye hi , hamaare liye hi kar rahe hai. unki dil ki dhadkan hu mein baba phir bhi kabhi kabhi aisi naadaani kar bethti hu jisse unke dil ko dukh pahocha deti hu. baba aap bhi jaante ho ki mein jo kar rahi hu vo dil se nahi kar rahi. dil se unko hurt nahi karti par pata nahi kya ho jaata hai muje kabhi kabhi... bas in sabke liye aapse maafi maangna chahti hu ki meri aisi naadani ke liye muje maaf kar dena baba. baba ek bacche ki kami lagi rehti hai na jivan me, kisi ko dekhti hu to andar hi andar dukh hota hai ki mein kab apne bacche ko lekar aapke darbaar me aau?
jaanti hu baba ki unko bhi ye baat bahot lagti hai but pls try to understand my mental condition and bless us baba. aapki hamaare upar bahot meharbaani hai baba. aaj tak hame aapne bahot taklifo se bachaya hai aise hi hamaare saath rahiye baba. meine jo padha hai - jo aapne kaha hai ki agar mein aapko nahi sunta to i have a better plan for you. bas baba ek is sentence par ummid aur shraddha lagaaye bethi hu ki shayad baba ne mere liye isse accha kuch socha ho. bas ab jaldi se ummid puri kar dena. jaante ho baba, vo jab kuch baat hoti hai to bacche ko lekar excite ho jaate hai na ki mein ye karunga vo karunga...... are baba vo to itne pagal hai bacche ke liye ki ghar me rasoiwali baai rakh li hai bol rahe hai ki ab 3-4 mahine ke baad jarurat padegi na jab hamaara report positive aayega. to muje itni taklif hoti hai ki pucho mat. muje thodi si gas ho gayi to pet me se thodi aawaz aa rahi thi to baba pata hai vo mere pet par sar rakh kar apne bacche se baat karne lage ki dekho beta mummy ko aise pareshan karna, vaise karna aur padhne ka man naa ho to bhi koi jarurat nahi jab ji me ho tab padhna aur agar mummy kuch laakar nahi deti to muje bata dena mein bahot daantunga aur tumhe sab laakar dunga..... ab baba aap muje ye kaho ki unko dekhar muje kya hota hoga? kitni taklif hoti hogi muje? sach kahu baba to unki vajah se mein apni kuch feelings unse share nahi kar paati ki kahi vo dil me na lekar beth jaaye. aise hi unko baahar office ki aur dusri bhi pareshani rehti hai na to apni choti moti baat se unko kya pareshan karna aur shayad isi vajah se mein unko jyada chot pahochati hu koi koi feelings share jo nahi karti na unse. par aap muje ye kaho baba ki mein galat to nahi kar rahi hu na? apne pati ko kisi baat se dukh na ho ye dekhna galat to nahi hota na baba? aur mein pagli phir bhi hurt kar deti hu unko. pata nahi kaisa pyar hai hum dono ka. jaisa bhi hai bas apni kripa hamaare upar aur sabke upar banaaye rakhna jis jis ko bhi aapke upar shraddha hai....... aur jaane anjaane me hum sab jo bhi bhul kar bethte hai un sabke liye hame maaf karna sai.
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