Jai sairam,
baba now its been a very very long time...today is the same day I resigned from my last job one year back...and since then there have been good time and bad times both in personal life...
but baba thats okay...I admit it has all been due to my karmas and past deeds.
But you very well know, that now its has been unbearable..
please do something now baba..as its going to finish...evrything is goin to finish..I cant survive widout a job...U know very well..my husband says my expectation are more than they shud be...thats why I am suffering mentally..but whatever, U know why do I need a job very well...
I know U r testing me since long, but baba why me always?
Why do u always put me for testing?
have I not done even that gud a deed in my past That I dont deserve a decent job...
why my career has always been so unsatisfying...
why I have never got some good opportunity to work upon..
why I am suffering today bcz of my previous job ...
I worked dre for 4 yrs...but all waste...
none acknowledges that..even i myself dont...
last year while resigning, I thot something better is dre for me in future...
i consoled myself...but wen wud u reveal that better to me...baba plz tell na..
I am so much shattered now that I dont even feel like to study..i get distracted so easily..wate my precious time and then keep on sulking..getting so edgy over small things/issues in my home..
my personal life getting affected bcz of all that...
I know i am lacking in my efforts to achieve what i want , but how do i put those efforts??
I am admitting my mistake before you...plz guide baba...
plz give me strength, wisdom so that once again I begin with my preparations.
dis time plz look at me, plz be near to me, plz show me the right path, plz show me some channel to follow...to reach my ultimate goal..A successful SAP career. this is it.
baba u always give what one needs not what one wants...
so if I ask for a job, then should not I want that??
Is that too much to ask for??
dis time u r not understanding me....or may be I am not conveying and connecting to u properly ...
why I am getting away from u, frm myself...why I am getting lost..where I am heading towards...a total failure i am..
seriously...baba time is running very fast...I have all the time doubts/fears/inhibitions/negativities in my mind..and feel difficult to concentrate...
I need ur support, ur blessings.
Plz make me worthy of ur divine grace..plz forgive me baba ..I ask for forgiveness countless times to u...
plz forgive me...ab aap kuch kariye plz jaldi...dis is high time now....i feel v helpless..
plz give me strength, self-confidence, positive mindset, and strong will power to chase my dreams and fulfill them...
i dont want to be a quitter....may be I dont succeed....but i do not want to fail without even trying...
give me courage to try hard and harder....
i want to be better tomorrow than what I am today...have to compete myself everday...
plz come , come come saibaba,,,,
step into my life as u always have been...
bless me with shraddha and saburi....
and also with the zeal, the dedication , the strong drive to follow my dream and to get job..
plz give me ur blessings thru some indication soon...
love u baba...
at ur feet always....
I am very sorry again...
bless all...
Jai sairam
Topic: 4 years of professional career and then jobless past one year...plz give job (Read 1470 times)