Bhavna, that was inspirational.
Thank you, thank you so much everyone for asking about me. Really sorry for not being in touch. I'm just going thru posts like crazy trying to understand whats been happenin in d past 4 days. No connectivity... and lil that I had, I had my boss starring at me in my face.
Well, for updates... Friday was Bad! Had a horrible flight... bothways... a terrible headache, just 2 hours of sleep. Actually got caught dozing in the middle of the meeting thrice...till I finally had to excuse myself and go wash my face. Things not so great on the job front. But ok... its fine. Happens.
Thurday was ok... got a wonderful surprise. Hadnt been in touch with anyone at all for the past 2 yrs, changed my mail ids, phone no thrice, etc. But just 6 months back had mailed a friend to appologize for disconnecting abruptly for no fault of his. We were supposed to see each other for marriage 3yrs back. But then I'd told him about my bf and we'd become friends since then. Thursday suddenly got a mail that he was in India. We spoke for 2-3mins. I met him this Sunday. It felt so awkward... for the first time in 2 yrs I was ever meeting someone, talkin to someone in person. Didnt know what to speak... felt like I was so cut off from the world and so much had changed. But then I'd decided... no matter what I feel I'm going to break this barrier. He was there when I needed him. The day I got a msg from my bf that he's married... which I guess was a lie then... I msgd this guy at his US number. I crashed completely. He knew how much I've loved him. I'd always talk all day about my guy. He actually called me up at 1am... despite my sudden disappearnce and rude behaviour. The least I could do is meet him. Didnt gel too well as the best of buddies... but he's a genuinely nice person. I know now for sure, I can trust and learn to trust more.
As for so many posts that I've read just one thing I wish to say... TRUST GOD!
I wish I could talk to you guys in person. Gimme a bit... let me sort all these mails. Will msg in some time. Pls read and re-read Ganeshji's post. And I've just posted something for Nancy some time back. Request you to read it and slowly...pls... for my sake.
N pls pls pls someone get her...drag her out of her guilt. Dont let her sink into it. Its a trap where d person just keeps sinking and sinking once its started. Please get her out of the self-blame-game. Shes just 20 and it'll just ruin the rest of her life.
Bhavna, Aquafish, Rajiv... Please please please love yourself and open the doors for love to flow in... for peace to enter your life and calm you down. Come on guys... ure not the most horrid or unwanted ppl on earth! You are young, gorgeous, educated, independant guys... with beauty, brains, intelligence, wisdom, love, compassion, loyalty, faith, patience, truth, dedication, hard-work and devotion! Dont insult yourself like this for heavens sake. I wouldnt let anyone insult my friends like that even if its you yourselves doing it to yourselves!
I can bet each of you is much better than 99% of the men and women on earth! You're part of the unique one percent God has created with this beautiful combination. Come on ya... give yourself some credit for that. Pat yourself on your back for being the rocking combination of substance, love and wisdom that you are and MOVE AHEAD IN LIFE.
Am not saying move on... But buddy... Move ahead in life. Dont let yourself stagnate in life. Its the most foolish and rotten thing to do to oneself. Get on and move ahead... learn more. Dont let immature ppl around you and situations stop your growth and love for life.
When they mature to the level you are at and understand, they will come around too... or maybe someone much, much better! And well, if they dont... and choose to be immature, confused, spineless and indifferent... too bad for them buddy... just too bad for them. Then all I can say is somewhere you're too good for them.
Just pick yourselves up and do something fun ya... Service is great! Love of God and prayers... awesome... but part of service and love is also service and love you yourself and respect for the beautiful life God has given you. Gods made such a beautiful, unique you... which is much better than 99% of the world. Dont direspect it by stagnating and sulking nights out. Count it as direspect to God and His decision of choosing to make you such a wonderful, wise person.
You'll get many, many, many better people around... and even if you dont get someone whos in that sense better as per your definition... at least you'd definitely get someone who respects you in life. And respect is the base of a relationship.
Even if you get the most eligible bachelor or woman in your life and the person doesnt respect you or is not sure of wanting to be with you buddy... just a simple person with less than half the qualities, who respects you and happily, lovingly wishes with all his or her heart to spend his / her entire life with you... I feel, in my opinion... the one who respects you is a much, much superior person in every aspect. How can one claim to love if one cannot respect? Let them sort their confusions themselves. And once its sorted, then they can gather the guts to actually say they Love...
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