Baba, I do not have any answers to the questions "why did you do it, What was in your mind, what is the meaning of so many things that i have said". Baba you only know the answer for all. nothing was in my hands then and nothing is in my hands now. You know what was in my mind then and how much i cried and prayed to you, but since no one could prevent ispite of my sincere prayers , everything has happened. Bbab you know how much i have trembled . I have no answer . Pl help me sairam, let this question be never raised to me baba. Baba i have told you so many times that only a mircle could save me. Baba you have mentioned that only after seeing the worthiness of the people the blessings would be showered. Baba I request you to pl first consider me as worthy of receiving your blessings baba. I had cried to you several times and requested you to consider me as worthy of rceiving your blessings. I once again request you the same and pl do some miracle baba. This is such a complicated situation. I only request that no one else should ever be in my situation baba. Pl take care of all your devotees.Let no one be ever born like me or let no one who is born face such a situation baba. Thank you baba . i did not know where to write , hence i hav written here. Baba pl read all my msgs and save me baba, if i have to live , pl help me to live peacefully.