Sweta, I can relate to and completely understand what you feel. The fact that your partner has moved on and is happy goes to show the fact that he's healed. & the fact that he's healed goes to show deep within in the sub-concious mind he's already forgiven you long back. Its that forgiveness that has given him the power to move on. Sweta... you kno what... YOU NEED TO FORGIVE HIM TOO. Once you forgive him for the pain you feel (u may justify it otherwise right now, but if you think a bit deeper... you'd know what I mean)... the day you forgive him completely Sweta, forgiving yourself will become much easier. The day you heal him you will be healed yourself.
He may have been married, but on a sub-conscious level is still connected to you... on a soul level. You know why? Cause you still haven't let go. The day you let go and forgive him Sweta, the day you in reality set him free... thats when he'll heal completely. N thats when you'll find peace too. Cause the moment he heals, your healing cycle begins.
I have just a simple suggestion... only if you want to do it & do it regularly with faith & determination. It may sound really stupid to do it... but just do it... if you trust me even the least bit. Everyday when you wake up, when you brush, when you eat, sleep, travel, work, during your breaks... just tell yourself... (and if possible say it loud 10 times)
"Even though I am unwilling to let go and forgive him and me... I choose to deeply and completely love and accept myself"
"Even though I have deep within a huge amount of hidden anger, frustration, guilt, insecurity & emptiness for now... I choose to deeply and completely love and accept myself"
Ok??? Just these two statements... DAILY... Daily, daily, daily is a must! I really, really want yo
u to do this. Try it. Its never going to harm you. Just don't let yourself feel lazy & justify all possible reasons why you shouldn't do it. Take Gods name & just do it. & do let me know how it feels. The more you do it, the more the resistance you'll face. Its ok to face resistance. But remember - you're not giving up ok?
I really want to help you Sweta. Its never going to harm to take the effort to say a few words to yourself loudly (if you can do it in front of the mirror, nothing like it. Just try it, ok?)
Don't worry Sweta, you're gonna be fine soon. We're all there with you. & we're all going to as a family help you get out of this... rise above this... heal him & yourself both! Just have faith in yourself... our prayers, your prayers & God... Try it...
N don't worry at all. I'll be with you thru this... if only you co-operate even the least bit... I promise I won't let go until ure fine & happy.
Smile now... its a new day, a new beginning... a new beginning for the rest of your life... a really beautiful, fulfilling life...
Om Sai Ram