Thanks a ton Tanu... :-) God Bless You...
Thank you aunty... margdarshak nahi aunty... only sharing what I feel. Jo mere saath hua, kabhi nahi chahoongi kabhi kisi aur ke saath ho... bas, itna hi. Mom-dad mujhse naaraaz nahi hain aunty. Udaas hain. Rishtey kamzor pad chuke hain. Mom's into severe depression. And we are not equipped to deal with it. She gets hyper every two minutes for every little thing. Actually, ghar ka mahaul hi kuch aisa ban gaya hain... jaise kisiko smile nahi karna hai... :-) My parents believe I hate them. Moms seen a lot in life. I can understand why she is in this state. Par... I'm not a psychiatrist na aunty. None of us know how to deal with it. She refuses to want to heal. She refuses to see the doc, to take her sleeping pills on time. Doesn't remember things, doesnt understand things... and this helplessness and inability to do and understand things normally the way she used to.... it gets her more and more into depression. She screams... Pata nahi kya karu... I have a bad temper too. I say a lot of things I dont really mean. I'm working on that.
I'm already working on myself to come to a level where I can say I'm strong. I am, but at times... we all feel that way. I channel Reiki to my parents everyday. They do not even know I know Karuna Reiki. But mom is so not receptive to it. Theres so much of internal blockages, she doesnt recieve Reiki. :-) I'm still trying. I promised my Reiki master I'm not going to give up. So till the time mom subconsciously becomes receptive to healing and feels like wanting to heal I'll continue channeling Reiki. And after that, I'm going to hold her hand and take her along with me to the Reiki center and get a complete 21 day healing done for her from my Reiki master.
I'm hoping n praying that happens soon... :-) n guess what... for the first time she agreed to join a one month yoga class with me. This is my first and only ray of hope. And I'm not going to let this go. I'm going to use this one month to build all positivity around her...
Wish me luck... Thanks again...