Sai, please clear this misunderstanding

[prias]

Hi Suhani

Yes, I am holding on with patience and faith. I donot know how tough this test is going to be, till now whatever I have gone through has been pretty hard. I am keeping my full faith in Him.

I do wish He listens to me and just puts an end to this never ending test.

[Pearl India]

om sai ram

he knows ur limit,
and wont giv you more than u can bear.
infact if u give it to him,he wil carry u thru ths phase.
aur jab energy khatam ho jaye, ask him to give u his energy,
bas is phase ko baba k sath enjoy karo......
think tht u r lucky to hv his company n grace........

take care....
n hum sab travellers bhi saath hain h:)

[prias]

Thank you Suhani for being with me. I am really lucky to have been introduced to this forum. It gives me hope when all of you encourage me to keep going.

Yes, I wish he knows my limit, because right now, there is not much more of patience left in me. I may have patience, but people around me donot have it. I cannot ask them to have patience.

I donot know what is going to happen and time is less, I am praying hard.

[alkaru]

hi prias,
sorry cudn't scrap u frm few dayz actually busy,n cnt cum .Glad to read dat garland incident.Thanx 4 evrythng yar ve no wrds to say thanx to u n 4 ur prayers.
N sorry yar unable to trust on baba,i love him soooooooooooooo much bt why he do so to me.He ve to give my love back to return my faith,I want to faith him really want to faith him he is my life bt why he do so to me wen i trusted him alot why he didn't came. dere r many ques. bt ve no answer.

Leave it yaar m already upset dese days vry much.U jst take care n so swt of urself n ur prayers.U r really vry nice.

[Pearl India]

om sai ram

yes prias ji,
continue ur endevrs....
bas keep praying,
distract ur mind n u wil feel k u hv immense joy within u.....
jo k baba se hi hai.
aise hi time kat jayege,
n leav th result to baba,he wl tk cr.

jai sai ram

[prias]

Hi Alkaru

Yes, you must be busy, just now I read in your post that your Grandma was unwell. I pray that she gets well soon.

Alkaru, if you have lost faith in Baba, I am sure Baba Himself will get your faith back on Him. He will make you happy. He does not disappoint his devotees.

Regarding questions, yes, we all do have them but trust me, He will answer each and every question. Please keep your faith on. I know you must be feeling real low, I myself am feeling so, but yes, we cannot let go of our faith also. I am sure, Alkaru, Baba will make you happy, I donot know why, but my gut feeling tells me so. Believe me.

Please get yourself up, I know it is tough but please try. I am also trying. I just finished my puja. I was scared that maybe my fast will be broken today as there was a party in the office and I didnot feel like telling everyone that I am on fast. But, thankfully, due to Baba's blessings, at the last minute, the party was postponed at the last minute.

I just said my Thanks. Alkaru, please please lift yourself up, donot get so low, I am sure, everything will be fine. Please believe me.

Take care

[prias]

Thank you Suhani.

It is true what you have said. Though passing of time is difficult, by remembering Baba's name, I am able to pass time. I am doing my worth, rest He has to decide, whether He wants me to live happily on this planet or not.

I am trying very hard to keep my emotions and feelings alive. I wish He ends this testing period for all of us.

[alkaru]

hi prias,

hw r u? thanx 4 ur prayer 4 grandmaa. N i hope ur gut feelings cum true n i'll definetly tell u wen it happens,bt yet its all confusing n vry mch painful.
Dnt knw wat to do ,where to go,whom to ask,n how to trust? Once my trust broken sooooo badly dat till den it is returned dnt ve courage to trust.

lets see wat happen! u tell me wat abt u? n its nice dat ur fast resists n party postponed.

u n ur beloved,u both work on same place? hwz ur job going on? i knw wen we r tensed den it gets vry difficult to manage our job bt  try to concentrate on it, as m trying.

[prias]

Hi Alkaru

How is your Grandma feeling now? I was not able to post reply as I was not feeling well. Guess the tension is having its effect on my health.

Gathered some energy today. No alkaru, he doesnot work at the same place, but his work place is near to mine. Very near and yet we do not meet. His house is just 5 minutes away from mine but we dont meet. Donot know what Baba has in store for me. What He has planned? Only He knows.

Yesterday i felt like going away to some far-off place where no one knows me. Felt like going away. I am feeling very low.

Alkaru, the day you give me the news that your prayers have been answered by Baba, I will be very very happy. I will wait for that day. I pray it comes very soon. I know how you must be feeling, but dont worry He is there. He is seeing everything.

Take care Alkaru and please donot let this affect your work. Please get back your concentration on your work. Please try. I know we cannot concentrate but do try.

I felt like running away but I did not..maybe in some corner my faith is still there. Baba must have stopped me. That means He knows what is going on. So, Alkaru, just hold on..we will all be happy soon.

[prias]

Hi Suhani

How are you? How did your weekend go?

[Pearl India]

hi prias....

th weeknd wast as gud...
it ws off...
i jus need smthin to take up al my energies.....
n th workin days provide fr it.


and very nice as well....

i finished my 21 days sugar pooja.today ws th 21st day n baba came to receive it .he ws thr in th cart tht come to our locality.
had baba in my dream last nyt.its just baba,he keeps me goin.
i m prayin to him to gv me a task of my intrest so tht i cn invest al my energies n pass th time.
n i m hopin to get tht next week.

n hw r u?
i knw....soundin low.
phases hain....they wl pass by...
keep urself occupied with somethin or th other to distract ur attention.
take proper care of ur health.
talk to us when feelin low,talk to baba.....

sai wil bless u.

jai sai ram

[prias]

Hi Suhani

Good to know that your 21 days sugar candy pooja is a success. That is a wonderful news that Baba came in your dream. That is indeed a blessing. Beautiful feeling.

I have started the sugar candy pooja too. Today is the 5th day.

I am not feeling great. Nowadays, I am just looking for answers from Baba. Feeling very low. Oh His answer, my whole life depends and I am not getting an answer from Baba. Let Him not answer, but I hope He is atleast listening to me. I am praying for peace. I hope He gives me peace. I badly need it. Cannot survive anymore without it.

Holding on Suhani..

[prias]

Hi Alkaru

How are you doing? Hope everything is fine at your end.

[prias]

Alkaru

Yesterday he called up and he didnot speak normally. I mean he was trying to sound normal but again he was holding back.

After hanging up, I wept and wept. I am feeling very depressed Alka. Its like I am unable to stop weeping from yesterday. Feeling helpless and dejected. I donot  know what to do. It is horrible.

[prias]

Alkaru

How is your Grandma now? Is she feeling better?

Yes, he called up but he spoke in a very detached way. He was holding back. I am still weeping, unable to stop my tears.

true, this world is not safe and as you said I cannot get peace anywhere. But, I am feeling very low. I want to be alone. I want to run away from everyone. I do not know Alka, how I am feeling, but it is very painful. Even in office, I am unable to control my tears. I am rushing to the rest room just to weep.

I can understand Alka, how painful it is for you too and here I am troubling you with my stuff. Alka, I am tired, very tired, do not feel like going on anymore. I want to weep and weep.