om sairam venku....dont worry if u are earnest and with shradha u pray to baba everything will be alright...Sainath is always there with all of his devotees..It seems to be u n ur famly is in trouble due to ur mistakes...but if u really love baba...make a wish to sairam and give up something which u love the most until u take babas darshan...I have personally experienced this...If god wills everything will be alright and may god bless u and ur family alwys and may the saibaba guard you and protect your family always.. om sainathaya namah....